Regretting it...
Personally, I'm really torn about this. I know it must seem pretty insignificant, but for me, it's one more ominous thing about which to worry.
Why, why, why did we (*Pirrip and I) get an Artist Alley table at AWA, this year? Time, money, motivation...
***We don't have the time to make all of the art and such we need to make. I knew when I saw the 50% fanart only rule, we shouldn't go for it this year! I mean, we spend most of our time doing doujinshi and fanart. I know a lot of people think original is better. We have original characters and stories. But we don't want to post our character art about which NO ONE cares because they don't recognise it. Or what if we, by the grace of gods, make a really cool character design? And it gets ripped? And no one really connects us to that character, so we're screwed?
The bigger reason for us not doing it, though, is that we don't feel like we're good enough yet to do an original manga or something similar. We have these ideas, and we cherish them! We don't want to waste them by hurrying to get a sloppy, shitty piece of manga together just so that we can be original! And people act like that's some kind of virtue, like people who draw a lot of fanart are inferior or 'doing in for popularity'...
That's why we are doing so much doujinshi. We want to get GOOD at drawing and making manga. And to be GOOD at illustrating. I feel like we've already improved by doing this... more than we ever improved by sitting around trying to make our retarded OCs. In the meantime, our OCs have become far cooler just because of all of the experience we're gaining. By the by, this is why Dastardly Lemondrops is going to be... quite AU, you could say. I have no shame for that, and if you don't like it, then don't read it when it starts coming out. It's that simple.
Aside from that, there is the issue of school. *Pirrip and I had NO idea that summer school was going to be such a majour hardship. But that's just how life is. And because we didn't have a summer break, we didn't have time to make much of anything. On Monday, we're going right back into school. I'm going to expect the most difficult of semesters because this is my first semester at GSU. Not just the work... but the taking the train into Atlanta, giving me two hours of commuting every day. And the running all over the city to get to my classes, which I'm sure will exhaust us. Don't worry, we will try our best to draw as MUCH as possible, but... who knows, right?***
***There's also money. We're out of it. We don't have any more of it. We have only enough to pay for our Dragon Con and AWA hotel costs, and we can't seem to get our act together and make a new Manga Workshop. So it's not as if we have enough money to make things to sell at AWA. I don't know what we'll have other than prints, and who cares about prints, anyway? *Pirrip just had to shell out about $3000 for school because our scholarships didn't com through. My parents had to pay about the same for me. There's no telling when we'll be reimbursed by our scholarships. Who knows. In that area, we're really shit out of luck.***
***And on the issue of motivation... I'm not some kind of 'business' man. I don't like making things specifically to sell at conventions. I have no idea what people want, you know? I just want to draw manga and doujinshi... I don't know what to make for cons. Hey, if you have advice, I'd be glad to hear it. Whatever we manage to make that doesn't sell at AWA, we'll end up selling here. The other part of that, though, is that I'm really not nearly as good of an artist than most of the people at AWA. I feel pretty intimidated by it, and I don't know what I can do but try to improve. Still, that takes time, and it's not going to happen before September... I don't know. I feel so far behind when it comes to making art well><. Most people are younger than me and much, much better at art. Maybe I'm just not cut out for itXD.***
Sorry guys. I guess we're committed to it. We've paid for our table. I guess we'll just have to see how it goes... If it miraculous goes well, we might get a table again next year...
Why, why, why did we (*Pirrip and I) get an Artist Alley table at AWA, this year? Time, money, motivation...
***We don't have the time to make all of the art and such we need to make. I knew when I saw the 50% fanart only rule, we shouldn't go for it this year! I mean, we spend most of our time doing doujinshi and fanart. I know a lot of people think original is better. We have original characters and stories. But we don't want to post our character art about which NO ONE cares because they don't recognise it. Or what if we, by the grace of gods, make a really cool character design? And it gets ripped? And no one really connects us to that character, so we're screwed?
The bigger reason for us not doing it, though, is that we don't feel like we're good enough yet to do an original manga or something similar. We have these ideas, and we cherish them! We don't want to waste them by hurrying to get a sloppy, shitty piece of manga together just so that we can be original! And people act like that's some kind of virtue, like people who draw a lot of fanart are inferior or 'doing in for popularity'...
That's why we are doing so much doujinshi. We want to get GOOD at drawing and making manga. And to be GOOD at illustrating. I feel like we've already improved by doing this... more than we ever improved by sitting around trying to make our retarded OCs. In the meantime, our OCs have become far cooler just because of all of the experience we're gaining. By the by, this is why Dastardly Lemondrops is going to be... quite AU, you could say. I have no shame for that, and if you don't like it, then don't read it when it starts coming out. It's that simple.
Aside from that, there is the issue of school. *Pirrip and I had NO idea that summer school was going to be such a majour hardship. But that's just how life is. And because we didn't have a summer break, we didn't have time to make much of anything. On Monday, we're going right back into school. I'm going to expect the most difficult of semesters because this is my first semester at GSU. Not just the work... but the taking the train into Atlanta, giving me two hours of commuting every day. And the running all over the city to get to my classes, which I'm sure will exhaust us. Don't worry, we will try our best to draw as MUCH as possible, but... who knows, right?***
***There's also money. We're out of it. We don't have any more of it. We have only enough to pay for our Dragon Con and AWA hotel costs, and we can't seem to get our act together and make a new Manga Workshop. So it's not as if we have enough money to make things to sell at AWA. I don't know what we'll have other than prints, and who cares about prints, anyway? *Pirrip just had to shell out about $3000 for school because our scholarships didn't com through. My parents had to pay about the same for me. There's no telling when we'll be reimbursed by our scholarships. Who knows. In that area, we're really shit out of luck.***
***And on the issue of motivation... I'm not some kind of 'business' man. I don't like making things specifically to sell at conventions. I have no idea what people want, you know? I just want to draw manga and doujinshi... I don't know what to make for cons. Hey, if you have advice, I'd be glad to hear it. Whatever we manage to make that doesn't sell at AWA, we'll end up selling here. The other part of that, though, is that I'm really not nearly as good of an artist than most of the people at AWA. I feel pretty intimidated by it, and I don't know what I can do but try to improve. Still, that takes time, and it's not going to happen before September... I don't know. I feel so far behind when it comes to making art well><. Most people are younger than me and much, much better at art. Maybe I'm just not cut out for itXD.***
Sorry guys. I guess we're committed to it. We've paid for our table. I guess we'll just have to see how it goes... If it miraculous goes well, we might get a table again next year...