oaisjwltuidnlkvjs;lg
I guess things are getting better. I hate admitting to myself that it is situations like these that make me isolate myself and try to stay away from liking any guy too much. It happens every time and I always think this time will be different... like that things will really work out. Then they don't, and I kind of keep to myself way more and I don't ever talk about how I feel and secrets that I have because I don't trust anyone.. and then I'll meet this guy and think that he might just be the only person I could trust with anything and that I could tell him everything I've kept inside for so long, and then it happens all over again and things don't work out and I decide I can't trust anybody. It's a fucking annoying cycle that I don't seem to get away from. And just like I am right now, I always tell myself "Never trust a guy like that again," even though I probably will when the time comes. Does this happen to anybody else?
Anyways besides that.. this time is different for some reason. Somebody tell me I don't deserve him and I need to move on asap. Maybe it'll help?
EDIT: Someone just told me my journals are vague. The stuff I write almost always has something to do with my own life and if you don't know what I am talking about in my journal, then you probably don't need to. I don't mean for that to be mean but I am not one to share my life stories with the world.