Wherein I've Been Awake At Night

[masterde]

Since the beginning of the year, I've been awake during the late evening through early morning hours. This has left me with a lot of contemplative time. In fact, I did a kind of therapy technique. I altered it from it's original design and purpose to fit my needs. I've been using it for a while now and it's had an interesting effect.

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[uniquepov]

*hugs* Glad to see you posting again. You know I worry.

I know things are difficult for you with your family, but hopefully this is helping you work through that for yourself so that you're not tied to those patterns anymore.

[masterde]

It honestly has been very helpful. Being forced to have to talk to myself, because no one else is around, has allowed me to think about things in ways that I hadn't before. Also, since I can't necessarily address these things with the people who are the source of my negative/bad/disadvantageous behaviors and thoughts, it's made me face them without getting an apology from them (which, because of my past, lead to me to forgiving them and then burying it again). The thoughts just come up over and over again until I do something about it. This has forced/allowed me into having to find a way to deal with the ways it affects my life and relationships. To understand and change my thoughts, because I can't pretend they're not there anymore. The saying really is true. "The Quieter you become the more you can Hear." -Ram Dass