someone told me that i was the most beautiful creature they'd seen in years... but i didn't care.

[matador_mantra]

trying to explain depression to a person who can't even grasp being sad for more than two hours is difficult. it's frustrating when they think it's completely your fault because you can't live in the moment and be happy to just be alive. sometimes being alive doesn't FELL good enough when it's painful. im trying to keep my head up when i feel like

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[buffalos]

i can understand how you feel. and i think you're a very brave person for sharing this (and beyond just sharing this). i hope things get better.

[matador_mantra]

thank you for understanding; thank you for thinking i'm brave, and thank you for hoping the better for me. i really do appreciate it.

[crimson_noise]

i sincerely hope that things turn out good for you kate.

-chelsea

[matador_mantra]

thank you.

[runsinstockings]

I don't think I ever tell you how much you mean to me, and I don't think that if I tried I could even do it. I love you so much Katers, I know we hardly ever hang out and shit, but I'm here for you if you need anything ever. Seriously.
I think its hard, especially right now, because everyone is graduating and leaving and making plans.. I know that *I* don't know what I want or anything, but.. the point is, everything will be okay. I promise. Just make it through this rocky stage, I'll help you if you help me, and then things will get good again :)

[matador_mantra]

=) thanks awice. i love you more than life (well obveously, because im not exactly loving life, but you know what i mean. a lot.)