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[match002001]

So I got into work early today which is cool, but somehow i feel empty inside. Maybe it's the lack of sleep and food consumption. It's hard to eat in a situation like this. Last night Ashley, her mom, and me had a conversation. all i have to say is that I was fucking retarded to do those things i did to Ashley. It hurts so bad inside, everyday

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[xxcold_starxx]

I just sat here and read your LJ all the way through and pictured what you have "confessed" to me. I pictured you doing those things as you typed, I pictured you doing those things as I read the entries at home after you updated, and I pictured how FUCKING stupid, selfish, immature, and uncaring you actually were, are, who knows now.

I've read your letter to the point of memorizing it line by line, word my word, missspelling by misspelling.

You disappoint me, Michael. Really.

I want everything to be okay, but why, WHY, does it seem like there's always going to be this cloud over us from now until one of our lifes takes a dive and ends?

Let's hope your "good news" really does ammount to something, because I'm hanging by one moment that I don't even know now if you were true about it.. I'm ready to drop. Let go. Dive. Crash and burn.

I'm begging you to help this.

[xxcold_starxx]

Sorry for MY misspellings, my hands are shaking, and this keyboard it making me angry.