Disgusted self

[matchbox20gyrl]

I guess I'm getting something like senioritis, except I've still got a semester left. In any case, I have lost motivation and desire for a lot of my academic work. Like I had a paper due Tuesday and I still haven't finished it. I'm aiming to turn it in next Tuesday instead. It's really the first time I've turned in anything late. And the

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[cinnamona666]

*hugs*
=( how long have you been feeling this way? it definitely sounds like a depressive episode..=(. but i guess you can take comfort in that how you feel right now is not life..life is better and more hopeful than you feel it is right now <3 and going outside will help. i know everything feels like you are dragging yourself.. but i promise that it passes.. if it gets too bad, there are options.
im always here to talk
<3

[matchbox20gyrl]

I've been feeling down since spring break. Playing around outside did help a lot. It was nice to be doing something different. Not locked up in a room working, living off of incandescent or flourescent recycled air. I'm just feeling weighed down with responsibilities and duties and routines. My desires and urges and cravings are all suppressed and have to be locked away every day, so that I can be "productive." If I let them go, I fall behind on work and that produces as much stress as being a closed-up little work-machine. I guess we'll see if I feel better in summer ... there are some things to look forward to about that (and other things not to enjoy, too, but at least they're different problems, and maybe that'll be refreshing). Thanks for your concern and support. =)