Umi no shizukesa (chapter 8)
Title: Umi no shizukesa (the ocean's silence)
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: Mokohno <3
Pairings: Juntoshi, Sakuraiba, Matsumiya (friendship)
Rating: R/NC-17
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst
Disclaimer: I don't own them, bad for me, luckily for them xD
Summary: Ohno looses his voice after a traumatic experience. He is desperate and alone, rejected by the others because of his silence. One day, he meets Jun, a young diver addicted to the sea. With Jun's help, Ohno discovers another world where the silence is the most precious thing. Together, they learn another language: the language of the sea.
Chapter 8:
Jun's heart almost stopped when he saw Ohno's smile.
"I love you so much, Satoshi." Jun buried his face in his hair, smelling the soft scent.
Ohno pushed him away slightly and the younger frowned.
Satoshi smiled and pointed at himself with his hands, crossed them on his chest and pointed at Jun with his finger, whispering a silent "I love you" at the same time. A grin appeared on the younger's face and he repeated the same gestures for Ohno before hugging him again.
"Aaah, love is beautiful!" Aiba sighed happily, looking at the new couple on the beach.
"Yes, they are so cute together." His lover hugged him from behind, stroking his stomach.
"It took so long for them to show their feelings," Aiba sighed with despair.
"They had some circumstance with Ohchan's past."
"Yes, but it's not over, I hope Jun will accept all the horrible things that happened to Ohchan."
"Is it that horrible?" Sho asked.
"You can't imagine how much. Everyday I ask myself how Ohchan can handle it." Masaki sighed again with sadness.
"Trust Jun, if there is someone who can make Ohchan forget, it's him," Sho whispered and his lover nodded.
"You know I love you, Sho, ne?" Aiba suddenly asked.
"Yes, and I love you too."
"You promise you'll always be here for me and you'll never leave me?" Masaki looked right in his lover's eyes who smiled softly.
"I promise." Sho caught his lips and kissed him deeply.
"I want you to make love to me," Aiba moaned between their lips.
"We have a car." Sho whispered, showing it and Aiba grabbed his arm to take him toward the car with impatience.
****
Jun stroked Ohno's cheek lovingly but a bit hesitantly. He didn't want to scare his silent man. Ohno seemed to read his thoughts because he smiled softly and closed his eyes approaching his face. Jun understood the message and, wrapping his arms around Ohno's neck, he caught the full pink lips with despair. When Satoshi parted his lips, the younger slipped his tongue inside his warm mouth, deepening the kiss. Their bodies were pressed against each other, sharing their feelings. After a while, Jun released Ohno, breathless, and the silent man opened his mouth to say something but no sound came out and sadness filled his eyes.
"Don't worry, Satoshi, you can't tell me these words loudly but I'll speak for the both of us." Jun kissed the tip of his nose. "I love you, Satoshi. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you now and forever." Jun repeated again and again and Ohno's beautiful smile came back.
"It's late, we'll come back another day, come on, I’ll bring you home." Jun grabbed his hand and both joined the car, happiness shining in their eyes.
Jun almost screamed when they arrived next to the car, Aiba was on Sho's top, moving up and down on his lover's cock, moaning loudly and Jun quickly put his hand on Ohno's eyes.
"SHO! MASAKI! GET YOUR TWO PERVERTED ASSES OUT OF MY CAR, NOW!!!" Jun shouted and the two lovers inside jumped.
Their eyes widened and the lovers quickly put their clothes back on.
"I'm sorry, Satoshi, for your sake, please, wait." Jun whispered, his hand still on Ohno's eyes.
"Sorry, Jun." Aiba apologized.
"Shut up, I'll kill you two when we'll be home." Jun released Ohno and sat in his car, furious.
When they arrived at home, Jun asked Ohno to wait for him in his bedroom while he spoke to his idiot friends. When the younger stared at them, Sho and Masaki lowered their eyes, ashamed and Jun clawed his nose with his fingers, trying to calm down.
"I really want to kill you. I know you love each other and are always horny but how did you dare do that in my car???!!!!" Jun yelled.
"We are sorry Jun, we didn't mean to do it there." Aiba said shyly.
"You didn't mean?! Luckily for you, you didn't!!! I can't believe you were fucking him on my seat, Sho!" Jun threw a death glare to his friend who blushed.
"I'm sorry." He whispered.
"What will I do with two perverts like you?! Can you imagine if Satoshi saw you?! A bastard raped him three weeks ago and you, you are fucking each other in my car, in front of him, are you stupid or definitely stupid?!!!" Jun shouted angrily.
"Calm down, Jun, Ohchan wouldn't have been afraid if he saw us because he knows we are in love." Aiba said softly.
"He knows, he knows! Are you really stupid? He is traumatized, baka!!!"
"Jun, you are overreacting, you're too protective toward him, he isn't a baby or a fragile puppy." Sho said coldly.
"WHAT?! You..." Jun jumped when he felt two arms hugging him from behind and turned to see Ohno frowning worriedly.
Don't yell at them, they already apologized. Ohno explained with his hands.
"But..."
Sho is right, I'm not a baby, I know they need sex because they are in love. Ohno cut off his lover with a smile.
"Alright, sorry for yelling at you." Jun mumbled.
"Don't be. We are sorry too." Aiba smiled and hugged his friend.
"But don't think I'll forgive you so easily, you'll clean all your mess in my car!" Jun smirked and his friends nodded.
Jun sighed deeply, since Satoshi had been raped, many things happened and now, he was exhausted.
You need some sleep. Ohno gestured with his hands.
Jun nodded and collapsed on his bed with a groan.
"What's wrong, Toshi?" The younger looked at his lover who was staying in the middle of the room, without moving.
Can I stay with you, tonight?
"Of course, come in." Jun opened the blanket and Ohno slipped inside, putting his head on the younger's chest. Jun kissed his head and hugged him, closing his eyes.
****
Jun blinked when a breath tickled his nape. He lowered his eyes and smiled, seeing Ohno's face in his neck. The younger stroked his cheek and Satoshi frowned cutely, opening his eyes with a silent yawn.
"Ohayou, Sato." Jun smiled.
Ohayou, Junny. Ohno wrote on his skin. The older stood up with a strange look.
I have a question.
"Yes?"
Why? Why me? You're so kind and beautiful, why do you want someone like me? You deserve better, you deserve someone who is able to speak to you, to answer, why? Ohno wrote on a paper.
"Because you're perfect, Toshi. You can't speak but you understand me more than no one else, you make me happy, you're so kind, you calm my heart, I love you, that's all, don't say things like that." Jun whispered.
Tears began to roll down Ohno's cheeks. He climbed on Jun's lap, wrapped his arms around his neck and put his lips on his. The younger smiled in the kiss and slipped his tongue in his mouth making Ohno breathe heavily. "I love you, Satoshi, I love you so much." Jun whispered before kissing him again. Ohno looked at him, his eyes full of tears, he opened his mouth and pronounced "I love you too" just with his lips. Jun grinned, understanding and licked the skin of his neck, leaving beautiful red marks to make his claim. He slipped his hands under Ohno's shirt, lust invading his body. The older froze, a little afraid and Jun stopped.
"I'm sorry Sato, I didn't mean..." But Ohno smiled and hugged him.
Two months later...
Jun raised his eyes and smiled when he saw his sleepy lover coming in the kitchen. Ohno hugged him and kissed his lips softly before Jun held him out a plate for his breakfast.
"I would like to take you somewhere." Jun said suddenly and Ohno looked at him with excited eyes. He jumped on his feet and ran to the bathroom to get ready, making Jun laugh.
The younger packed up what they needed for the day and led his lover toward his car. When they arrived on the beach, they took Jun's boat, Ohno still curious. The diver stopped the boat one hour later in front of a small beach with white sand.
"I found this place last year and I love coming here when I need to be alone, nobody knows this beach." Jun helped Ohno to get out of the boat.
The diver laid a blanket on the sand and put the plates for their lunch. Ohno was looking at the wonderful landscape with childish eyes. They started to eat and Jun talked about diving to his lover who was staring at him with impressed eyes.
It was hot and the silent man kneeled on the edge of the beach, water wetting his skin a little.
Suddenly, he jumped, feeling something wet and cold on his neck. He raised his eyes and saw Jun who was looking at him with teasing eyes. The younger threw water at him again and Ohno stood up and attacked him. When Jun received a big wave in his face, he froze.
"How did you dare? If I catch you..." Jun started and Ohno quickly ran away on the beach, his lover trying to catch him. Waves were scratching his legs, some drops wetting his chubby face wearing a big shining smile.
A laugh escaped from Ohno's mouth when he fell on the sand. Jun climbed on top of him, laughing.
"I'm happy your voice comes back today." Jun kissed his lover who chuckled softly with a little voice.
Since two months, Ohno's throat was acting strangely. Sometimes, the sleepy man could speak and sometimes not. He could speak a little or just say one word before his voice died again. They were used to it, now, and Jun knew it was just the beginning because one day, Ohno’s voice would be completely back.
Ohno looked at his lover, smiling brightly before kissing him. Jun stroked his side, trying to keep his desire for himself but it was hard. For two months he had to take care of himself in his bathroom when Ohno was sleeping and he really felt deprived.
Jun moaned in the kiss and he accidently pressed his hardness against Satoshi's leg who froze.
"I'm sorry, Toshi, I'm so sorry." Jun apologized.
Ohno looked at him, straight into his eyes, his beautiful brown eyes. There were so much love, kindness and respect shining inside. He understood that Jun would never hurt him, he wasn't Yamada. Ohno smiled and shook his head before starting to unbuttoned Jun's shirt with shaking hands but his lover stopped him.
"I don't want to force you, I'll wait for you to be ready."
I'm ready to give myself to the person I love. Ohno wrote on his skin. I'm all yours.
The younger grinned and laid many kisses on Ohno's chest and neck. Satoshi shivered and his lover lifted him in his arm like a princess before laying him on the blanket and climbing on him to lick his neck to his chest, taking his nipples in his mouth, biting the skin and kissing his navel. Ohno froze when Jun kissed the big scar on his chest, stroking his skin as if it was something beautiful.
"Don't be ashamed, my Satoshi." Jun whispered but Ohno put his hand on his scar, trying to hide it. "All the parts of you are beautiful." Jun kissed Ohno's hand and pecked all his fingers one per one. Ohno moaned silently and lowered his hand to let his lover lick the deep mark.
When Jun reached the boxer, he stroked the hard member through the fabric making Ohno breathe heavily. He smiled and delicately took off the underwear, freeing the painfully hard shaft. With a last look toward Ohno, Jun kissed the tip and swallowed the cock making his lover arch his body in pleasure. The younger winded his tongue around the member and bit the tip before licking and sucking the dick. He felt the pre-cum, reinforced the blowjob and Ohno came in a small scream, his hand lost in Jun's hair. The younger went back up to Satoshi's mouth and shared his taste. He didn't think Ohno would accept that but he always had some lube in his bag and opened the bottle to spread it out on his fingers. Ohno lifted his legs and Jun put delicately one finger inside of him. The older gasped in silence and his lover stopped moving.
"I'm sorry, it will soon feel good, I'll make you forget all your pain, I'll give you a new memory." Jun apologized, kissing Ohno's lips lovingly. When the sleepy man smiled and calmed down, he put a second, and then a third finger, stretching his tight warm hole. Suddenly, Satoshi arched his body to meet his fingers and Jun knew he had found his magical spot. With a smile, he scissor his fingers, pushing on this sweet spot.
"Are you ready for me?" Jun asked and the older nodded, panting.
He lifted Ohno's legs around his waist and slowly eased his hard shaft inside his hole with a loud moan. Satoshi was so tight! With difficulty, he pushed delicately in the warmth, not wanting to hurt his lover. Jun stopped, waiting for Ohno to get used to his size and after a while, began to move.
"I love you." Jun whispered before accelerating his thrusts. Ohno buried his face in his neck and began to move. Jun understood his request and pumped faster and deeper, hitting the sweet spot. Satoshi’s nails scratched his back, overwhelmed by the pleasure and moaning softly.
"Satoshi~" Jun moaned loudly.
Their skins were slapping, sweat drops were running on their bodies, warmth irradiated between them. Feeling they were on the edge of their orgasm, Jun's thrusts became fast and hard, biting the skin of Ohno's neck while the older was arching his head back on the blanket. His face was red, his mouth opened in a silent moan and the younger took his length in his hand and pumped it slowly.
"I love you, I love you so so much." He repeated again and again in Ohno's ear. "Come with me." Jun added and with a scream, he released in Satoshi's warm hole who came between their stomach. Jun collapsed on him, breathing heavily. He stoop up and cleaned them before lying back down and hugging Ohno tightly against him. "I love you." He said before both fell asleep.
Ohno blinked, hearing the sound of the waves. He yawned and raised his eyes, a smile appearing on his lips when he saw his lover under him, sleeping deeply. Ohno stroked his cheek happily on the warm chest, wishing they could stay like that forever. A hand passed in his hair and he saw the younger was awake, smiling at him.
"We fell asleep?" Jun asked and Ohno nodded. "I'm sorry for earlier, I didn't plan to sleep with you, I..." A finger on his mouth stopped the diver from saying more.
Ohno kissed Jun's lips before hiding his face in his neck, blushing.
"I love you, Toshi." Jun whispered and the older nodded in his neck with happiness. The sun was still shining in the sky and Ohno stood up to kneel in the sea, wetting his naked hot body with the fresh water. Jun sat behind him and hugged him, putting his cheek on his shoulder, his hands stroking his flat and soft stomach. Jun started to kiss his lover's neck who moaned slightly and shivered. They were still naked and Ohno blushed and pushed the younger away to enter in the water. Satoshi hated his body, even if he let Jun touch him, he still felt ashamed by the scars on his skin.
Jun understood and joined him in the sea.
"Don't be ashamed, Satoshi, your body isn't disgusting, I love all the parts of your skin." Jun whispered, hugging him from behind.
I'm sorry to give you this horrible body. Ohno wrote on his arm.
"Satoshi..." Jun turned Ohno's face and blinked when he saw the tears rolling on his chubby cheeks. "If I thought your body wasn't beautiful, I wouldn't be like that." Jun took one of Ohno's hands and put it on his hard member.
Ohno blushed deeply and Jun chuckled before catching his pouty lips. Satoshi could feel his own cock twitching and pushed the diver away who frowned.
Ohno smiled and stuck out his tongue before swimming away. Jun laughed and followed him, trying to not cough with the waves slapping his face. Ohno threw a last glance behind him and dived in the water. The silent man saw a sort of cave and swam inside. When he reached the surface, Ohno blinked, seeing a big blue cave around him. There were just stones and the water under him was shinning with the sun giving beautiful colors.
"Satoshi?! Satoshi?!" Ohno heard his boyfriend calling him with a worried voice and left the blue cave.
Ohno swam behind Jun and wrapped his back with his legs and his neck with his arms, kissing his cheek.
"Where were you, I was worried, you disappeared in two seconds!" Jun said a bit angry but smiling from the touch. Ohno smiled and took his hand.
Come with me. Ohno said and took Jun with him in the blue cave.
"Ohhh it's very beautiful!" Jun exclaimed looking around him.
The diver turned toward Ohno and smiled softly.
"It's as beautiful as you are." Jun whispered and caught Ohno's lips who lifted his legs around the thin waist. "I want you so bad, you’re driving me crazy!" Jun moaned between their lips, his finger was playing with the warm hole.
"I wa-nt-Jun-ny-to make lo-ve to-m-e." Ohno whispered with difficulty.
"Are you sure? We haven't lube, I don't want to hurt you, baby." Jun kissed his neck, happy to hear his voice and Ohno nodded quickly, a silent moan escaping his mouth.
Jun kissed him deeply while he was pushing one finger inside the older who gasped silently. "Sorry, sweetheart." Jun apologized and worked his finger in and out slowly, stretching the tight hole. After a while, he pushed a second and a third finger. Ohno whined, biting Jun's neck when his lover brushed his prostate. "Are you ready for me?" Jun asked.
"Y-es." Ohno whispered and Jun smiled. He pecked his lips and pushed his hard cock inside him slowly, not to harm his lover. The wall of stones was helping Jun to push in and out of Ohno. The younger started to thrust faster, moaning loudly while Ohno was hugging him tightly and kissing him with despair, one of his hands stroking Jun's hair, the other holding his neck. The diver bit Satoshi's neck, leaving red marks and licking the soft skin. His hips moved faster, meeting Ohno's in a perfect sync. The older was breathing heavily and scratched his back in pleasure, his head arching back. Jun knew they were on the edge and grabbed Satoshi's neglected member to stroke it with their movements.
"Come for me." Jun moaned in Ohno's ear.
"Jun~" Ohno gasped and came in the water with his lover, their cum mixing with the sea.
Jun hugged his boyfriend tightly, breathing deeply in his neck.
"I'm glad, you called my name when you came." Jun whispered, putting his forehead against Ohno's who smiled and took a deep breath.
"You-made m-e fee-l so-go-od."
"I'm glad to hear that, I love you." Jun pecked his favorite lips.
"Ju-n, I..." But Ohno's voice died and tears filled his eyes. Jun hugged him tightly, stroking his head kindly.
"I know, Satoshi, don't be sad. I know you love me and I know one day you'll feel good enough in your heart to find your voice and tell me these words. Don't push yourself, I'll wait because I love you more than anything on this earth." Jun whispered and Ohno cried silently against his neck.
"Maybe we should leave." Jun said after a while. He wiped Satoshi's tears with his thumbs and both dived outside the cave.
The sky was dark and after they put their clothes on, they laid on the sand to look at the stars. The waves were scratching softly on the sand, giving them a pleasant melody when they closed their eyes.
"You're this star." Jun showed a small star to Ohno.
Why?
"Because you are like it. This star is small but shines more than the other bigger ones. You are the same. You enlighten the world around you even if you think you don't deserve it. As this star, you try to find your place on this earth and when you'll succeed, you'll shine twice more than anybody else, like this star with its sisters. You're my star, Toshi, my only and wonderful star." Jun whispered, blushing.
Thank you, Junny. Ohno kissed his neck lightly. I think Junny is this one, then. Ohno showed another star next to the first.
"Why?"
Because this star is as big as your heart. This star shines a lot for the other, taking care of its sister and showing it the good way to feel better. This star shines as much as the kindness in your heart and I think the other star loves it more than the other stars in the sky. Ohno explained.
"Thank you." Jun hugged him and kissed his lover deeply.
Both stood up and packed their stuff before leaving the small beach. Ohno was so happy, he spent a wonderful day at the beach and Jun made love to him, making him forget Yamada for a long moment. But Jun knew it was just the beginning and the worst would come. Ohno hadn't told him his past and he could feel the silent man was sometimes still a bit afraid of his touch. They needed time to heal Ohno's trauma but Jun was ready, he could give all his strength to make Ohno really happy again.
When they arrived home, they saw Aiba and Sho on the sofa, watching a documentary. When they saw Jun who was holding Ohno's hand tightly, a big smile appeared on their faces. Satoshi walked toward the aquarium to take care of Yume and the other fishes while Jun went to the kitchen.
"So, you two did it." Sho said, closing the door behind him.
"How do you know that?" Jun blinked.
"You have a big smile on your face and Ohchan seems different." Sho simply said.
"In a bad or good way?" The younger asked.
"Good way. Happiness shines in his eyes and he seems calmer."
"I didn't plan it but when we arrived at the beach and started to play with the water, I couldn't resist anymore, I wanted him so bad." Jun mumbled.
"Don't be ashamed, you love him, it's a normal reaction, Jun. How was it?"
"You think I would talk about my sexual life with my boyfriend with you?!" Jun snapped, blushing.
"No, but it was a hard move on for both of you and I want to know if you had a good moment." Sho said with a soft voice.
"It was amazing if you want to know, we made love twice. I never felt like that since..." Jun stopped and Sho patted his shoulder.
"Since Yusuke-kun." Sho continued and Jun nodded sadly. "You really loved him, ne?"
"Yes, but not anymore, Satoshi is the only one in my heart since I met him on that day." Jun smiled, turning to the fridge to hide his emotion.
"I'm happy to hear that, but Jun, Ohchan has to tell you about his past if you want to continue this relationship." Sho said softly.
"I know, but I'm waiting for him to be ready." Jun sighed.
"Don't wait too long, I'm afraid for Ohchan's life."
"Eh? Why?" Jun asked, surprised.
"Because..." A big noise cut Sho off and both rushed in the sitting room, panicked. Aiba came from the restroom, running too.
Ohno was laid on the ground, blood escaping from his head.
"Satoshi?!!" Jun cried, running toward his boyfriend.
There was Satoshi's phone, opened on the floor next to his hand and Aiba took it quickly.
"Hello?!" Aiba asked but the line cut and the diver shook his lover. "Satoshi? Satoshi?!" Jun shouted but the silent man's eyes stayed close, his face becoming white. "MASAKI, CALL AN AMBULANCE!! Satoshi hold on, baby!" Jun hugged him in his arms, blood wetting his shirt.
To be continued...
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: Mokohno <3
Pairings: Juntoshi, Sakuraiba, Matsumiya (friendship)
Rating: R/NC-17
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst
Disclaimer: I don't own them, bad for me, luckily for them xD
Summary: Ohno looses his voice after a traumatic experience. He is desperate and alone, rejected by the others because of his silence. One day, he meets Jun, a young diver addicted to the sea. With Jun's help, Ohno discovers another world where the silence is the most precious thing. Together, they learn another language: the language of the sea.
Chapter 8:
Jun's heart almost stopped when he saw Ohno's smile.
"I love you so much, Satoshi." Jun buried his face in his hair, smelling the soft scent.
Ohno pushed him away slightly and the younger frowned.
Satoshi smiled and pointed at himself with his hands, crossed them on his chest and pointed at Jun with his finger, whispering a silent "I love you" at the same time. A grin appeared on the younger's face and he repeated the same gestures for Ohno before hugging him again.
"Aaah, love is beautiful!" Aiba sighed happily, looking at the new couple on the beach.
"Yes, they are so cute together." His lover hugged him from behind, stroking his stomach.
"It took so long for them to show their feelings," Aiba sighed with despair.
"They had some circumstance with Ohchan's past."
"Yes, but it's not over, I hope Jun will accept all the horrible things that happened to Ohchan."
"Is it that horrible?" Sho asked.
"You can't imagine how much. Everyday I ask myself how Ohchan can handle it." Masaki sighed again with sadness.
"Trust Jun, if there is someone who can make Ohchan forget, it's him," Sho whispered and his lover nodded.
"You know I love you, Sho, ne?" Aiba suddenly asked.
"Yes, and I love you too."
"You promise you'll always be here for me and you'll never leave me?" Masaki looked right in his lover's eyes who smiled softly.
"I promise." Sho caught his lips and kissed him deeply.
"I want you to make love to me," Aiba moaned between their lips.
"We have a car." Sho whispered, showing it and Aiba grabbed his arm to take him toward the car with impatience.
****
Jun stroked Ohno's cheek lovingly but a bit hesitantly. He didn't want to scare his silent man. Ohno seemed to read his thoughts because he smiled softly and closed his eyes approaching his face. Jun understood the message and, wrapping his arms around Ohno's neck, he caught the full pink lips with despair. When Satoshi parted his lips, the younger slipped his tongue inside his warm mouth, deepening the kiss. Their bodies were pressed against each other, sharing their feelings. After a while, Jun released Ohno, breathless, and the silent man opened his mouth to say something but no sound came out and sadness filled his eyes.
"Don't worry, Satoshi, you can't tell me these words loudly but I'll speak for the both of us." Jun kissed the tip of his nose. "I love you, Satoshi. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you now and forever." Jun repeated again and again and Ohno's beautiful smile came back.
"It's late, we'll come back another day, come on, I’ll bring you home." Jun grabbed his hand and both joined the car, happiness shining in their eyes.
Jun almost screamed when they arrived next to the car, Aiba was on Sho's top, moving up and down on his lover's cock, moaning loudly and Jun quickly put his hand on Ohno's eyes.
"SHO! MASAKI! GET YOUR TWO PERVERTED ASSES OUT OF MY CAR, NOW!!!" Jun shouted and the two lovers inside jumped.
Their eyes widened and the lovers quickly put their clothes back on.
"I'm sorry, Satoshi, for your sake, please, wait." Jun whispered, his hand still on Ohno's eyes.
"Sorry, Jun." Aiba apologized.
"Shut up, I'll kill you two when we'll be home." Jun released Ohno and sat in his car, furious.
When they arrived at home, Jun asked Ohno to wait for him in his bedroom while he spoke to his idiot friends. When the younger stared at them, Sho and Masaki lowered their eyes, ashamed and Jun clawed his nose with his fingers, trying to calm down.
"I really want to kill you. I know you love each other and are always horny but how did you dare do that in my car???!!!!" Jun yelled.
"We are sorry Jun, we didn't mean to do it there." Aiba said shyly.
"You didn't mean?! Luckily for you, you didn't!!! I can't believe you were fucking him on my seat, Sho!" Jun threw a death glare to his friend who blushed.
"I'm sorry." He whispered.
"What will I do with two perverts like you?! Can you imagine if Satoshi saw you?! A bastard raped him three weeks ago and you, you are fucking each other in my car, in front of him, are you stupid or definitely stupid?!!!" Jun shouted angrily.
"Calm down, Jun, Ohchan wouldn't have been afraid if he saw us because he knows we are in love." Aiba said softly.
"He knows, he knows! Are you really stupid? He is traumatized, baka!!!"
"Jun, you are overreacting, you're too protective toward him, he isn't a baby or a fragile puppy." Sho said coldly.
"WHAT?! You..." Jun jumped when he felt two arms hugging him from behind and turned to see Ohno frowning worriedly.
Don't yell at them, they already apologized. Ohno explained with his hands.
"But..."
Sho is right, I'm not a baby, I know they need sex because they are in love. Ohno cut off his lover with a smile.
"Alright, sorry for yelling at you." Jun mumbled.
"Don't be. We are sorry too." Aiba smiled and hugged his friend.
"But don't think I'll forgive you so easily, you'll clean all your mess in my car!" Jun smirked and his friends nodded.
Jun sighed deeply, since Satoshi had been raped, many things happened and now, he was exhausted.
You need some sleep. Ohno gestured with his hands.
Jun nodded and collapsed on his bed with a groan.
"What's wrong, Toshi?" The younger looked at his lover who was staying in the middle of the room, without moving.
Can I stay with you, tonight?
"Of course, come in." Jun opened the blanket and Ohno slipped inside, putting his head on the younger's chest. Jun kissed his head and hugged him, closing his eyes.
****
Jun blinked when a breath tickled his nape. He lowered his eyes and smiled, seeing Ohno's face in his neck. The younger stroked his cheek and Satoshi frowned cutely, opening his eyes with a silent yawn.
"Ohayou, Sato." Jun smiled.
Ohayou, Junny. Ohno wrote on his skin. The older stood up with a strange look.
I have a question.
"Yes?"
Why? Why me? You're so kind and beautiful, why do you want someone like me? You deserve better, you deserve someone who is able to speak to you, to answer, why? Ohno wrote on a paper.
"Because you're perfect, Toshi. You can't speak but you understand me more than no one else, you make me happy, you're so kind, you calm my heart, I love you, that's all, don't say things like that." Jun whispered.
Tears began to roll down Ohno's cheeks. He climbed on Jun's lap, wrapped his arms around his neck and put his lips on his. The younger smiled in the kiss and slipped his tongue in his mouth making Ohno breathe heavily. "I love you, Satoshi, I love you so much." Jun whispered before kissing him again. Ohno looked at him, his eyes full of tears, he opened his mouth and pronounced "I love you too" just with his lips. Jun grinned, understanding and licked the skin of his neck, leaving beautiful red marks to make his claim. He slipped his hands under Ohno's shirt, lust invading his body. The older froze, a little afraid and Jun stopped.
"I'm sorry Sato, I didn't mean..." But Ohno smiled and hugged him.
Two months later...
Jun raised his eyes and smiled when he saw his sleepy lover coming in the kitchen. Ohno hugged him and kissed his lips softly before Jun held him out a plate for his breakfast.
"I would like to take you somewhere." Jun said suddenly and Ohno looked at him with excited eyes. He jumped on his feet and ran to the bathroom to get ready, making Jun laugh.
The younger packed up what they needed for the day and led his lover toward his car. When they arrived on the beach, they took Jun's boat, Ohno still curious. The diver stopped the boat one hour later in front of a small beach with white sand.
"I found this place last year and I love coming here when I need to be alone, nobody knows this beach." Jun helped Ohno to get out of the boat.
The diver laid a blanket on the sand and put the plates for their lunch. Ohno was looking at the wonderful landscape with childish eyes. They started to eat and Jun talked about diving to his lover who was staring at him with impressed eyes.
It was hot and the silent man kneeled on the edge of the beach, water wetting his skin a little.
Suddenly, he jumped, feeling something wet and cold on his neck. He raised his eyes and saw Jun who was looking at him with teasing eyes. The younger threw water at him again and Ohno stood up and attacked him. When Jun received a big wave in his face, he froze.
"How did you dare? If I catch you..." Jun started and Ohno quickly ran away on the beach, his lover trying to catch him. Waves were scratching his legs, some drops wetting his chubby face wearing a big shining smile.
A laugh escaped from Ohno's mouth when he fell on the sand. Jun climbed on top of him, laughing.
"I'm happy your voice comes back today." Jun kissed his lover who chuckled softly with a little voice.
Since two months, Ohno's throat was acting strangely. Sometimes, the sleepy man could speak and sometimes not. He could speak a little or just say one word before his voice died again. They were used to it, now, and Jun knew it was just the beginning because one day, Ohno’s voice would be completely back.
Ohno looked at his lover, smiling brightly before kissing him. Jun stroked his side, trying to keep his desire for himself but it was hard. For two months he had to take care of himself in his bathroom when Ohno was sleeping and he really felt deprived.
Jun moaned in the kiss and he accidently pressed his hardness against Satoshi's leg who froze.
"I'm sorry, Toshi, I'm so sorry." Jun apologized.
Ohno looked at him, straight into his eyes, his beautiful brown eyes. There were so much love, kindness and respect shining inside. He understood that Jun would never hurt him, he wasn't Yamada. Ohno smiled and shook his head before starting to unbuttoned Jun's shirt with shaking hands but his lover stopped him.
"I don't want to force you, I'll wait for you to be ready."
I'm ready to give myself to the person I love. Ohno wrote on his skin. I'm all yours.
The younger grinned and laid many kisses on Ohno's chest and neck. Satoshi shivered and his lover lifted him in his arm like a princess before laying him on the blanket and climbing on him to lick his neck to his chest, taking his nipples in his mouth, biting the skin and kissing his navel. Ohno froze when Jun kissed the big scar on his chest, stroking his skin as if it was something beautiful.
"Don't be ashamed, my Satoshi." Jun whispered but Ohno put his hand on his scar, trying to hide it. "All the parts of you are beautiful." Jun kissed Ohno's hand and pecked all his fingers one per one. Ohno moaned silently and lowered his hand to let his lover lick the deep mark.
When Jun reached the boxer, he stroked the hard member through the fabric making Ohno breathe heavily. He smiled and delicately took off the underwear, freeing the painfully hard shaft. With a last look toward Ohno, Jun kissed the tip and swallowed the cock making his lover arch his body in pleasure. The younger winded his tongue around the member and bit the tip before licking and sucking the dick. He felt the pre-cum, reinforced the blowjob and Ohno came in a small scream, his hand lost in Jun's hair. The younger went back up to Satoshi's mouth and shared his taste. He didn't think Ohno would accept that but he always had some lube in his bag and opened the bottle to spread it out on his fingers. Ohno lifted his legs and Jun put delicately one finger inside of him. The older gasped in silence and his lover stopped moving.
"I'm sorry, it will soon feel good, I'll make you forget all your pain, I'll give you a new memory." Jun apologized, kissing Ohno's lips lovingly. When the sleepy man smiled and calmed down, he put a second, and then a third finger, stretching his tight warm hole. Suddenly, Satoshi arched his body to meet his fingers and Jun knew he had found his magical spot. With a smile, he scissor his fingers, pushing on this sweet spot.
"Are you ready for me?" Jun asked and the older nodded, panting.
He lifted Ohno's legs around his waist and slowly eased his hard shaft inside his hole with a loud moan. Satoshi was so tight! With difficulty, he pushed delicately in the warmth, not wanting to hurt his lover. Jun stopped, waiting for Ohno to get used to his size and after a while, began to move.
"I love you." Jun whispered before accelerating his thrusts. Ohno buried his face in his neck and began to move. Jun understood his request and pumped faster and deeper, hitting the sweet spot. Satoshi’s nails scratched his back, overwhelmed by the pleasure and moaning softly.
"Satoshi~" Jun moaned loudly.
Their skins were slapping, sweat drops were running on their bodies, warmth irradiated between them. Feeling they were on the edge of their orgasm, Jun's thrusts became fast and hard, biting the skin of Ohno's neck while the older was arching his head back on the blanket. His face was red, his mouth opened in a silent moan and the younger took his length in his hand and pumped it slowly.
"I love you, I love you so so much." He repeated again and again in Ohno's ear. "Come with me." Jun added and with a scream, he released in Satoshi's warm hole who came between their stomach. Jun collapsed on him, breathing heavily. He stoop up and cleaned them before lying back down and hugging Ohno tightly against him. "I love you." He said before both fell asleep.
Ohno blinked, hearing the sound of the waves. He yawned and raised his eyes, a smile appearing on his lips when he saw his lover under him, sleeping deeply. Ohno stroked his cheek happily on the warm chest, wishing they could stay like that forever. A hand passed in his hair and he saw the younger was awake, smiling at him.
"We fell asleep?" Jun asked and Ohno nodded. "I'm sorry for earlier, I didn't plan to sleep with you, I..." A finger on his mouth stopped the diver from saying more.
Ohno kissed Jun's lips before hiding his face in his neck, blushing.
"I love you, Toshi." Jun whispered and the older nodded in his neck with happiness. The sun was still shining in the sky and Ohno stood up to kneel in the sea, wetting his naked hot body with the fresh water. Jun sat behind him and hugged him, putting his cheek on his shoulder, his hands stroking his flat and soft stomach. Jun started to kiss his lover's neck who moaned slightly and shivered. They were still naked and Ohno blushed and pushed the younger away to enter in the water. Satoshi hated his body, even if he let Jun touch him, he still felt ashamed by the scars on his skin.
Jun understood and joined him in the sea.
"Don't be ashamed, Satoshi, your body isn't disgusting, I love all the parts of your skin." Jun whispered, hugging him from behind.
I'm sorry to give you this horrible body. Ohno wrote on his arm.
"Satoshi..." Jun turned Ohno's face and blinked when he saw the tears rolling on his chubby cheeks. "If I thought your body wasn't beautiful, I wouldn't be like that." Jun took one of Ohno's hands and put it on his hard member.
Ohno blushed deeply and Jun chuckled before catching his pouty lips. Satoshi could feel his own cock twitching and pushed the diver away who frowned.
Ohno smiled and stuck out his tongue before swimming away. Jun laughed and followed him, trying to not cough with the waves slapping his face. Ohno threw a last glance behind him and dived in the water. The silent man saw a sort of cave and swam inside. When he reached the surface, Ohno blinked, seeing a big blue cave around him. There were just stones and the water under him was shinning with the sun giving beautiful colors.
"Satoshi?! Satoshi?!" Ohno heard his boyfriend calling him with a worried voice and left the blue cave.
Ohno swam behind Jun and wrapped his back with his legs and his neck with his arms, kissing his cheek.
"Where were you, I was worried, you disappeared in two seconds!" Jun said a bit angry but smiling from the touch. Ohno smiled and took his hand.
Come with me. Ohno said and took Jun with him in the blue cave.
"Ohhh it's very beautiful!" Jun exclaimed looking around him.
The diver turned toward Ohno and smiled softly.
"It's as beautiful as you are." Jun whispered and caught Ohno's lips who lifted his legs around the thin waist. "I want you so bad, you’re driving me crazy!" Jun moaned between their lips, his finger was playing with the warm hole.
"I wa-nt-Jun-ny-to make lo-ve to-m-e." Ohno whispered with difficulty.
"Are you sure? We haven't lube, I don't want to hurt you, baby." Jun kissed his neck, happy to hear his voice and Ohno nodded quickly, a silent moan escaping his mouth.
Jun kissed him deeply while he was pushing one finger inside the older who gasped silently. "Sorry, sweetheart." Jun apologized and worked his finger in and out slowly, stretching the tight hole. After a while, he pushed a second and a third finger. Ohno whined, biting Jun's neck when his lover brushed his prostate. "Are you ready for me?" Jun asked.
"Y-es." Ohno whispered and Jun smiled. He pecked his lips and pushed his hard cock inside him slowly, not to harm his lover. The wall of stones was helping Jun to push in and out of Ohno. The younger started to thrust faster, moaning loudly while Ohno was hugging him tightly and kissing him with despair, one of his hands stroking Jun's hair, the other holding his neck. The diver bit Satoshi's neck, leaving red marks and licking the soft skin. His hips moved faster, meeting Ohno's in a perfect sync. The older was breathing heavily and scratched his back in pleasure, his head arching back. Jun knew they were on the edge and grabbed Satoshi's neglected member to stroke it with their movements.
"Come for me." Jun moaned in Ohno's ear.
"Jun~" Ohno gasped and came in the water with his lover, their cum mixing with the sea.
Jun hugged his boyfriend tightly, breathing deeply in his neck.
"I'm glad, you called my name when you came." Jun whispered, putting his forehead against Ohno's who smiled and took a deep breath.
"You-made m-e fee-l so-go-od."
"I'm glad to hear that, I love you." Jun pecked his favorite lips.
"Ju-n, I..." But Ohno's voice died and tears filled his eyes. Jun hugged him tightly, stroking his head kindly.
"I know, Satoshi, don't be sad. I know you love me and I know one day you'll feel good enough in your heart to find your voice and tell me these words. Don't push yourself, I'll wait because I love you more than anything on this earth." Jun whispered and Ohno cried silently against his neck.
"Maybe we should leave." Jun said after a while. He wiped Satoshi's tears with his thumbs and both dived outside the cave.
The sky was dark and after they put their clothes on, they laid on the sand to look at the stars. The waves were scratching softly on the sand, giving them a pleasant melody when they closed their eyes.
"You're this star." Jun showed a small star to Ohno.
Why?
"Because you are like it. This star is small but shines more than the other bigger ones. You are the same. You enlighten the world around you even if you think you don't deserve it. As this star, you try to find your place on this earth and when you'll succeed, you'll shine twice more than anybody else, like this star with its sisters. You're my star, Toshi, my only and wonderful star." Jun whispered, blushing.
Thank you, Junny. Ohno kissed his neck lightly. I think Junny is this one, then. Ohno showed another star next to the first.
"Why?"
Because this star is as big as your heart. This star shines a lot for the other, taking care of its sister and showing it the good way to feel better. This star shines as much as the kindness in your heart and I think the other star loves it more than the other stars in the sky. Ohno explained.
"Thank you." Jun hugged him and kissed his lover deeply.
Both stood up and packed their stuff before leaving the small beach. Ohno was so happy, he spent a wonderful day at the beach and Jun made love to him, making him forget Yamada for a long moment. But Jun knew it was just the beginning and the worst would come. Ohno hadn't told him his past and he could feel the silent man was sometimes still a bit afraid of his touch. They needed time to heal Ohno's trauma but Jun was ready, he could give all his strength to make Ohno really happy again.
When they arrived home, they saw Aiba and Sho on the sofa, watching a documentary. When they saw Jun who was holding Ohno's hand tightly, a big smile appeared on their faces. Satoshi walked toward the aquarium to take care of Yume and the other fishes while Jun went to the kitchen.
"So, you two did it." Sho said, closing the door behind him.
"How do you know that?" Jun blinked.
"You have a big smile on your face and Ohchan seems different." Sho simply said.
"In a bad or good way?" The younger asked.
"Good way. Happiness shines in his eyes and he seems calmer."
"I didn't plan it but when we arrived at the beach and started to play with the water, I couldn't resist anymore, I wanted him so bad." Jun mumbled.
"Don't be ashamed, you love him, it's a normal reaction, Jun. How was it?"
"You think I would talk about my sexual life with my boyfriend with you?!" Jun snapped, blushing.
"No, but it was a hard move on for both of you and I want to know if you had a good moment." Sho said with a soft voice.
"It was amazing if you want to know, we made love twice. I never felt like that since..." Jun stopped and Sho patted his shoulder.
"Since Yusuke-kun." Sho continued and Jun nodded sadly. "You really loved him, ne?"
"Yes, but not anymore, Satoshi is the only one in my heart since I met him on that day." Jun smiled, turning to the fridge to hide his emotion.
"I'm happy to hear that, but Jun, Ohchan has to tell you about his past if you want to continue this relationship." Sho said softly.
"I know, but I'm waiting for him to be ready." Jun sighed.
"Don't wait too long, I'm afraid for Ohchan's life."
"Eh? Why?" Jun asked, surprised.
"Because..." A big noise cut Sho off and both rushed in the sitting room, panicked. Aiba came from the restroom, running too.
Ohno was laid on the ground, blood escaping from his head.
"Satoshi?!!" Jun cried, running toward his boyfriend.
There was Satoshi's phone, opened on the floor next to his hand and Aiba took it quickly.
"Hello?!" Aiba asked but the line cut and the diver shook his lover. "Satoshi? Satoshi?!" Jun shouted but the silent man's eyes stayed close, his face becoming white. "MASAKI, CALL AN AMBULANCE!! Satoshi hold on, baby!" Jun hugged him in his arms, blood wetting his shirt.
To be continued...