A broken promise (Yama)

Mar 29, 2013 16:39

Title: A broken promise
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: Sakudada <3
Pairing: Yama
Rating: PG-13 for now
Genre: Au, drama, angst, romance
Disclaimer: Sho owns Ohchan xD
Summary: You were alone, you were so sad. Everybody thought nothing could touch you but they were wrong. You were the only one who was able to read people's heart and understand them when they just said you were weird. But why don't you let me try to read your mind? Why don't you let me touch you? Can I be the only one that you'll allow to touch your heart?

A/N: Warning! This story is a fiction, Asperger is not really like that, I used some of the troubles of this syndrome for Ohchan's character but it's not a real Asperger (it was easier to explain it in this way because Asperger is a very complicated syndrome and I didn't want to make an exposed). So, if you have any questions about this syndrome, make some researches or send me a message, I'll explain what is really Asperger.


Chapter 5:

Satoshi, do you remember? You seemed so fragile this day. You were crying in the corner of your bedroom, thinking I abandoned you. How could you think that? I was already deep in love with you but I was too stupid to accept this fact. You know, I was in love since seven years with Yusuke and in one look, I fell in love with you, a perfect stranger. But since this day, my feelings for you never changed and today, I'm proud when I say you are the person of my life, the one in a million. I love you, Satoshi and it will never change, and it’s an eternal feeling, my love.

"Satoshi, it's me, Sho." I said softly, putting my hand on his arm.
Ohno shouted and pushed me away with violence. He tightened his knees against his chest, crying silently.
"Satoshi, please, let me touch you." I implored, trying to take his hand.

Ohno screamed again and hid himself under his bed. I sighed with despair and laid myself on the floor to look at him. He was lying against the wall, curled in a ball, crying.

"Satoshi." I whispered softly but just sobs came as answer. Tears filled my eyes in front of what I did to him. He was hurt. He didn't trust me anymore. Sighing, I started to sing softly.

Someday's separation and someday's meeting.
With countless tears and piling heart beats, I'm still waiting here.

-So I could, so I would, you know?-
Ohno looked at me for the first time. I knew he loved this song since I sang this to him when we met. It seemed the song was a part of his heart, he understood every word.

Exceeding the words inside the heart.
Something unknown is born, a sound play to wrap it.
So I dream on, definitely.

"Forever, from the fracture of stardust", we will meet in my dreams.
"As this heart trembles, it hurts", an eternal wish.
"Our pain is resounding like a glass", would it reach?

-So I could, so I would, you know?-
Ohno stopped crying, listening to me. I moved a little closer, still singing softly. Satoshi laid his head on the ground and closed his eyes with a deep breath, trying to overcome his panic and his fear.

"Forever, our promise will be shown", the continuation of a dream.
"Embracing the mischievous time", going far away.
Collecting the light, I closed one of my eyes.
So I dream on gently.
Tears were rolling down Satoshi's cheeks. I moved a little closer again. I was at thirty centimeters from him but he didn't move back.

And like the day we walked without any aim.
My time, right now, I'm just looking at the shaky windowsill over again.
-Yes, love is gently dancing upward, wow yeah-

In the stillness, there is someday's melody.
The songless words and the warmth flows, until now, it continues to echo.

I hold out my hand and Ohno took it, singing with me. His voice was soft and so beautiful. He had never sung with me before today. I could hear all his pain and sadness in his voice and it hurt me so much. Ohchan was living the song; it seemed his heart was singing with me. I closed my eyes and let him invaded my body. I could hear slight sobs while he was trying to sing. His voice was shaking a bit but it didn't change the fact that all the feelings of the world were resounding with us.

Surpassing the memories with the beat of my heart.
The overlapping tone heals the scar on my heart, like undoing my sadness.
So I dream on, definitely.

Satoshi stopped singing, crying silently. It was too hard for him to continue. His emotions were overwhelming him.

Satoshi... My baby... You're so beautiful when you cry, your tears are showing all your kindness and it makes me cry too. Your pain is mine, your sadness is me. You make me better, you read me so much better than no one else. I love you, Satoshi. I love you with all my heart, all my soul. You saved me; you made me realized how selfish and stupid I was. I won't leave you again, my love because I can't live without you. I can't survive if your beautiful smile isn't next to me. You're my drug, my oxygen and the reason why my heart is beating.

"Because the radiance is connected everywhere" lifting my hands up high.
"Down pouring forever onto this heart" even the faraway future.
"Like ripples of water, repeating beautifully" can you see it?
-So I could, so I would, you know?-

"Anywhere, our promise will be shown" in the opening of our dreams.
"I embrace this secret feeling" painting the rainbow.
The overflowing light, I closed one of my eyes.
so I dream on gently.
I won't betray your trust again. I won't betray this so special bond between us. I'll always be there for you even if you don't love me back. I owe you so many things. If today, I am what I am, it's because of you, you changed me. Because of you, I'm a better man and I can look at my face in the mirror every morning. Today, I'm singing this song for you and me, because it's us and our 'us' is the most beautiful thing of the world.

And looking alone at the sky that day.
Just searching the song for me, I want to see it, I only want this feelings now.
-Yes, love is gently dancing upward, wow yeah-

While only the ambiguous things are wandering around at dawn.
Even if I wake up, I won't forget the dreams.

"Forever, from the fracture of stardust", we will meet in my dreams.
"As this heart trembles, it hurts", an eternal wish.
"Our pain is resounding like a glass", would it reach?
-So I could, so I would, you know?-

"Forever, our promise will be shown", the continuation of a dream.
"Embracing the mischievous time", going far away.
Collecting the light, I closed one of my eyes.
So I dream on gently.

And like the day we walked without any aim.
My time, right now, I'm just looking at the shaky windowsill over again.
-yes, love is gently dancing upward, wow yeah
"Sho-chan~" Ohno sobbed and hugged me tightly, hiding his face against my neck.
"I'll never abandon you again." I whispered, stroking his hair.
"Never?"
"Never. Shall we move?" I smiled; after all, we were in a weird and uncomfortable position under Ohno's bed.

We moved outside and when I stood up, Ohno wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his face against my neck. I hugged him back, kissing his hair with tenderness.

"I was waiting for you everyday on the beach." Ohno whispered.
"I know. I'm sorry. I made a mistake and I'll do all I can to win your trust again."
"Make me trust you again, Sho-chan." Ohno looked at me with teary and innocent eyes and I bursted into tears, tightening my grip around him and kissing his skin, his cheeks and his forehead with all the love I was feeling for him. Ohno closed his eyes, enjoying this perfect moment between us. So much kindness, so much tenderness, so much love was shining in my eyes. All was for him, my heart, my soul; my feelings were for him and only for him.

"Satoshi." I whispered but he didn't answer and I almost bursted out laughing when I saw he had fell asleep in my arms.

I giggled and, lifting him in my arms, I laid him down his bed. When I tried to leave, he wrapped his arms and legs around me like an octopus with his rock. I smiled happily and slipping under the cover, I hugged him against me possessively. He nuzzled his face in my neck, his breath tickling my skin.

"Sho-chan." Ohno mumbled in his sleep.
"I'm here, I love you." I whispered in his ear and Ohno sighed.

****

I opened my eyes when I felt the sun on my face. Satoshi was still in my arms and it felt so good to have him against me. He was mine and only mine. I kissed his neck softly and stood up without a noise.
Satoko was in the kitchen and when she saw me, she hugged me.

"Thank you." She whispered.

I understood what she meant. We sat and started our breakfast, speaking and laughing about silly things when we heard a loud cry.
Panicked, I ran into Ohno's bedroom and my heart broke when I saw him crying with eyes closed.

"Toshi, baby, what happened?" I took him in my arms.
"Sho?" Ohno raised his eyes and I smiled.
"I'm here."
"I thought you were gone." Ohno sobbed.
"Idiot. I won't leave you again, I love you." I brushed his hair on his forehead, his eyes widening when he heard me.
"You..."
"I love you so much, Satoshi." I whispered and slowly, I approached my face and put my lips on his.

At the beginning, Ohno didn't react and I released him, a bit panicked.

"Kiss me again." Ohno looked at me with teary eyes and I caught his lips again.

I wrapped his nape with my hand and slipped my tongue inside his warm mouth. Ohno tried to do the same, ignoring what to do and I felt so happy I was the first who kissed him, who could be so close to him. I moaned between our mouths. It was so perfect, it felt so good. Satoshi's mouth was sweet, warm and soft. His lips tasted like a strawberry and I released him before I could make something not appropriated. I smiled to him and pecked his lips a last time, stroking his cheek with the back of my hand. Satoshi looked at me with shining eyes and touched my lips with his fingertip. I kissed his finger softly and he closed his eyes, trying not to be overwhelmed by all the feelings which were invading us. My mouth traveled on his neck to his jaw, kissing gently his skin and finishing by his pouty lips. I kissed him softly and then roughly, pressing our bodies together.

"I love you." I whispered in his ear, making him shiver. Suddenly, a cough made us jumped and we turned our head to see Ohno's mother smiling softly.
"Sorry." I blushed while Ohno was burying his face in my neck.
"Don't worry, it's okay." She chuckled.

After this day, a new relationship started between Ohno and me. I knew he was still afraid I would leave him because he always wanted me to sleep in his bed. I tried to refuse but he made me his best puppy eyes and I gave up. Satoko was so happy for us that she let me stayed in their house. I was living with them, still working but the afternoon; I took Satoshi to the beach, at our place. We didn't changed anything except the fact we were kissing each other lovingly.
Ohno started to change with time. He spoke more, accepted my touches more easily and we even played on the beach. I loved chasing him in the water because in these moments, he was laughing freely. His laugh was so beautiful, resounding in the air like a melody.

"Satoshi?" I asked between our mouths.
"Hun?"
"I have to return to my apartment." I felt him froze and he pushed me away.
"Why?"
"I have to take some belongings and plus, I can't stay in your home forever, now, you know I won't ever leave you again."
"No, please, don't leave me, I want you to stay at mum's house." Satoshi asked with pleading eyes.
"I know, baby but I can't." Ohno hugged me.
"Please, I need you, Sho." Ohno whispered in my ear.
"Alright, you can come with me." I sighed and Ohno's smile came back.

When we arrived at my apartment, Satoshi was holding my arm and I pushed him in a deep kiss.

"I see you feel good, Sho." A voice made us jumped and I froze, seeing Yusuke.
"What are you doing here, Yu?" I asked, frowning.
"I wanted to see you, we must talk."
"We already have spoken." I frowned, tightening my grip around Ohno.
"I want to talk again, alone." Yu said, looking at my boyfriend.
"Satoshi, could you wait in my bedroom?" Ohno nodded and I pecked his lips before following Yu in the living room.

"So, it was hard to see you. You disappeared almost one month."
"I was at Satoshi's house." I replied coldly.
"I see. Is it serious between you and him?"
"Yes. Very serious."
"He is cute, I understand why. He must be amazing to fuck." I slapped Yu's cheek roughly.
"Don't ever say that again." I snapped.
"I want to try again with you, Sho, I still love you."
"I'm sorry but I don't feel the same way, I'm in love with Satoshi." I said in a cold tone.
"Sho, baby, we were happy together." Yu grabbed my arm to stroke my cheek and looked at me with pleading eyes.
"Yes, before. Before you cheated on me with this bastard."
"I know, I made a mistake but we are strong. We were together since seven years; we shared some many things together." Yu whispered, approaching his head. I gulped. To be honest I still had some feelings for Yu but not as strong as for Ohno. When Yu wanted to kiss me, something pushed him away and I saw Ohno, looking at my ex with furious eyes.

"Do-n't tou-ch my boy-friend." Ohno stammered, moving in front of me.
"You..." Yusuke said in a dangerous tone and I pushed Satoshi behind me.
"Don't you dare touch him, Yu." I warned him in a cold voice.
"What does he have that I haven't?! Does his ass is tighter than mine?! Does he let you fuck him the whole day?"

I punched Yu's face, making Ohno screamed in fear. Yusuke slapped my face but I moved back. I could feel some blood on my lips and wiped it quickly.

"GET OUT!" I yelled and my ex left the apartment without a word.

I turned around and saw Satoshi shivering in fear, his arms wrapped around his knees.

"Satoshi, my love, don't be afraid." I kneeled and held out my arm. Ohno looked at me and almost jumped in my arms, crying loudly.
"Tss, calm down baby, I'm here."
"I wa-s so afr-aid for y-ou, Sh-o." Ohno sobbed in my neck and I lifted him up in my arms.
"I'm strong enough to protect you, to protect us." I smiled and laid him on my bed.
"I lov-e yo-u, Sh-o." A bright smile appeared on my face. It was the first time Satoshi was saying those words.
"Me too, babe." I grinned.
"I was afr-aid you wo-uld cho-ose him inst-ead of me." Ohno blushed cutely.
"Never. I can't leave my favorite chubby boyfriend." I chuckled and kissed him deeply.

Ohno moaned and wrapped his arms around my neck.
Desire overwhelmed me and I slipped my hand under his shirt, still kissing him with passion. Ohno froze and I stopped to look at him.

"I'm sorry, babe, we can stop, I don't want to force you."
"It's ok-ay, Sho-chan, I know you would never hurt me." Ohno stared at me with soft eyes and I almost bit his lips, my hips moving against his, making us moan in pleasure.

To be continued…

A/N: SOUMIMASENNNN don't hate me for the cut, please xD maybe I'm too addicted to JunJun and I'm becoming a S like him xD or not...

rating: pg-13, drama, romance

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