A broken promise (Yama) chapter 6
Title: A broken promise
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: Sakudada <3
Pairing: Yama
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, drama, angst, romance
Disclaimer: Sho owns Ohchan xD
Summary: You were alone, you were so sad. Everybody thought nothing could touch you but they were wrong. You were the only one who was able to read people's heart and understand them when they just said you were weird. But why don't you let me try to read your mind? Why don't you let me touch you? Can I be the only one that you'll allow to touch your heart?
A/N: Warning! This story is a fiction, Asperger is not really like that, I used some of the troubles of this syndrome for Ohchan's character but it's not a real Asperger (it was easier to explain it in this way because Asperger is a very complicated syndrome and I didn't want to make an exposed). So, if you have any questions about this syndrome, make some researches or send me a message, I'll explain what is really Asperger.
Chapter 6:
Satoshi, do you remember the first time I made love to you? It was so wonderful that I can say it was one of my most beautiful memories. You were so amazing, so handsome. Your eyes, your lips, your breath... Your sweating body under me, your soft skin under my fingers. Your tongue playing with mine. It was just perfect. When I heard your moans of pleasure, happiness invaded my heart and I knew it was too late, I was addicted to you. You tasted so good, you felt so amazing. Your red chubby face, your full pink and swollen mouth begging for me, and your nails scratching my back in pleasure. You were so erotic at this moment that I could say I was the happiest man of the world...
"I w-as afr-aid you wo-uld cho-ose him inst-ead of me." Ohno blushed cutely.
"Never. I can't leave my favorite chubby boyfriend." I chuckled and kissed him deeply.
Ohno moaned and wrapped his arms around my neck.
Desire overwhelmed me and I slipped my hand under his shirt, still kissing him with passion. Ohno froze and I stopped to look at him.
"I'm sorry, babe, we can stop, I don't want to force you."
"It's ok-ay, Sho-chan, I kn-ow you wo-uld ne-ver hu-rt me." Ohno stared at me with soft eyes and I almost bit his lips, my hips moving against his, making us moan in pleasure.
I started to unbutton his shirt, kissing all the parts of his skin I was seeing. Ohno was shivering under me, his nipples reacting when my tongue came to play with it. Satoshi's hands traveled in my hair when I licked his navel, pushing my tongue inside while my hands were unzipping his jeans. I kissed his hard member through the fabric and stroked my cheek against it, making him moan. I took his boxer off and licked his length with delight, a gasp escaping my boyfriend's throat when my lips came to play with the tip of his cock, biting it softly. My lover was moaning loudly, his head arching back on the pillow, his cheeks blushing deeply when I swallowed him fully. I wanted to please him, I wanted to make him remember this perfect moment between us for the rest of his life. I wanted to make him understand how precious he was to me. I was taking my time, looking for all of his sensitive spots and after ten minutes, Satoshi came into my mouth in a gasp.
"You taste so good, my love." I smiled, licking his length. Ohno blushed and hid his face with the back of his hand but I stopped him, kissing his lips lovingly.
I took my jeans and shirt off too and stroked our naked bodies together. It was so wonderful, it felt so good to feel Satoshi against me in this intimate moment. I grabbed my lube in the drawer and spread it out on my fingers. Ohno gasped when I started to stretch him but I sucked his lips, trying to make him relax. I was gentle and slow, it was his first time and I didn't want to hurt him. When I felt he was ready, I pulled out my fingers and pushed my painful hard member inside of him, very slowly.
"I'm sorry, Satoshi, it will soon feel good." I moaned when he screamed in pain.
I stayed inside him without making a movement and when I saw he was ready, started to thrust. Ohno made a wonderful erotic moan and I knew I had found his sweet spot. My movements became faster, sweat rolling down my temples. My boyfriend felt so incredible around me, I almost stopped to breath at how all these sensations were overwhelming me.
"You feel so good, so perfect. You're mine now." I whined in Ohno's ear.
"I'm yours." My lover smiled and wrapped his legs around my waist, moving up to meet my thrusts.
Satoshi was so beautiful at this moment. His chubby cheeks were red, his eyes almost closed, sweat was rolling down his face and many erotic cries of pleasure were escaping his mouth. I pumped harder and faster, hitting his secret spot again and again. I could feel he was about to come because he tightened around me.
"Sh-o!" Ohno moaned, his nails scratching my back, his mouth looking for mine while I was pounding inside of him roughly. I smacked my lips against his, struggling our moans. I could feel Satoshi's hand traveling on my skin, scratching my back, my buttocks, my neck. He was mumbling incoherent words and I took his neglected cock to pump it and make him come with me.
"Come with me, Satoshi." I gasped and we released at the same time in loud cries of pleasure as we were seeing lots of stars.
I collapsed next to him, breathing heavily. When I turned my head toward him, I froze. Satoshi was crying.
"I'm so sorry, Satoshi, I didn't want to..." But Ohno cut me off with a kiss.
"I never ever felt so loved by someone before, thank you, Sho." Ohno whispered and smiling, I hugged him against me before we fell in a deep and peaceful sleep.
****
When I opened my eyes, I saw Satoshi sleeping deeply, his lips slightly parted making him so cute with his messy hair falling on his chubby face. Our hands were still linked and I kissed his fingers softly, making him open his eyes.
"Ohayou." I whispered.
"Hayou." Ohno mumbled, nuzzling his face in my neck.
We stayed like that, my hand stroking his soft hair while he was kissing my skin. We were feeling so good at this moment, his touches, his breath, his scent, our kisses felt so amazing. I wished we could stay like that forever but soon, my phone buzzed and I released my boyfriend with a groan.
"I have to go to work, baby. Do you want to stay or return to your house?" I asked, taking my shirt. Satoshi was looking at me with intense eyes. "What?" I asked, raising my eyebrows.
"You're bea-uti-ful." Ohno whispered with a smile, looking at my naked body.
"Not as beautiful as you." I blushed, climbing on top of his body to steal him a kiss. Ohno wrapped his arms around my neck and opened his mouth, letting me slip my tongue inside. "I really have to go." I sighed, breaking the kiss and making him pout.
"I stay here." My lover said.
"Okay, I'll come back at 6 p.m." I kissed him again and left.
Since my meeting with Satoshi, I had neglected my work a lot and now, I had to complete my cases. I didn't see the time and blinked when I saw it was already 11 p.m. Grabbing my stuff, I rushed to my car to come back home quickly.
"Satoshi?" I called when I entered into my apartment. The lights were off, it was weird. I walked in my bedroom and screamed when I saw Satoshi on the ground, blood escaping from his arms.
"Baby, what did you do?" I asked, lifting his body in my arms. He had lots of bites on his skin with some scratches. "Satoshi?!" I repeated with a panicked voice.
"Sho, you ca-me ba-ck." Ohno opened his eyes, tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Of course, my love, I told you I'll come back."
"You w-ere late, I th-ought... I tho-ught you le-ft me ag-ain. I was afraid." Ohno sobbed.
"Oh, my baby, I'm so sorry." I hugged him tightly against me, crying in his neck. Satoshi did that to himself because he was scared?! He thought I had left him again and panicked. Still crying, I lifted him in my arms and laid him down the ground of the shower. I cleaned his cuts and washed his body before I put some bandages on his injuries. He let me do, his swollen and red eyes closed because of his tiredness.
When I laid him down my bed, he wrapped his arm around my waist tightly.
"I'm so sorry." I whispered, kissing his wet forehead. I couldn't let him alone once again, it was too dangerous for himself. If I was late again, what would he do this time? Cut his vein with a knife? Satoshi was still too fragile to bear something like my absence. Even if he had made progresses and he let me touch him, he was still very sensitive. Tomorrow, I'll bring him to his mother, I wanted him to be safe.
The next day, Satoko looked at me with strange eyes when I came back with her son. I explained to her what happened and she smiled sadly.
"You slept with Satoshi, ne?" She asked, making me blush.
"How?"
"I understood it at the moment I saw you and Satoshi's face. He is different, he is looking at you with different eyes." She smiled softly.
"Really?"
"Yes. He seems really happy and his eyes are full of love when he looks at you. I'm his mother, I know my son better than no one else. Thank you, Sho-kun, thank you for what you did for him. I'm so happy he met you this day." Satoko hugged me.
"I love him more than anything even if it took me some time to realize and accept my feelings." I whispered.
"The past doesn't count, you're here now and it's the most important."
"I let you with him, I'm too worried he makes a mistake if I come back late." I smiled and left the house.
I never felt so happy in my life, even when I was with Yu. I loved my boyfriend and was able to protect him against his worst fears. Satoshi started to trust me again and soon, I knew he would feel better if I showed him the world wasn't as frightening as he thought.
"Sho?" Ohno asked against my naked chest. We made love three times this night and I really felt tired.
"Yes, babe?"
"Ca-n I go out wi-th yo-u tomo-rrow?" He asked and I knew what he meant. I had something to do in the town.
"Baby, I'll take the train, tomorrow." I whispered softly, knowing it was one of his worst fear.
"I wa-nt to tr-y wi-th yo-u. I wa-nt to be nor-mal."
"You're normal, Satoshi! Stop saying that, you're not a freak nor abnormal, can you imagine how I feel when you say that?!" I almost yelled and stood up to leave the bedroom.
I sat on the chair of my balcony and lightened a cigarette. Taking a deep breath, I looked at the dark sky in front of me. I felt guilty about screaming at Satoshi but he hurt me. He hurt me so much when he was saying he was a freak or didn't deserve to live. I knew I should comfort him but my heart almost broke when he made me remember how sad he was. For me, it was as if I wasn't enough strong to make him forget his pain and it hurt so damn much!
I was whipping my tears when I felt two arms around my waist.
"I'm so-rry, Sho." Ohno whispered in my ear.
"Don't say that again. Stop thinking you're not normal or deserve to die because it hurt me too much."
"Sor-ry."
"You're perfect, Satoshi. You're kind, beautiful, you can read in me better than no one else. Your soul is wonderful, you can feel people's mood, their sadness, their joy and you're the only one able to do that, that's why I fell in love with you."
"But..."
"Stop speaking as if you wouldn't be there tomorrow, Satoshi. I need you, I need you and no one else." I cut my lover off and Ohno smiled softly.
"Ok-ay, I'm so-rry, Sho." Satoshi kissed my cheek and I lifted him up in my arms like a princess, making him giggle.
"Shall we go to bed?" I asked, pecking his lips.
Ohno nodded and we cuddled in my bed, sighing happily.
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When I woke up, Satoshi wasn't in my bed and I almost called the police, panicked. But I stopped when I saw my teddy cooking our breakfast in the kitchen. He was wearing an apron and had a concentrate look on his face making me smile. He was always so cute.
"You make the breakfast, now?" I hugged him from behind, putting my chin on his shoulder.
"Yes. Your cooking is too awful and I don't want to die because you poisoned me with your weird food." Ohno chuckled softly.
"You're not kind." I pouted and Ohno immediately turned around to kiss my lips.
"Are you disappointed?" Ohno asked worriedly.
"No. I know I'm a very bad cooker."
"Sho-chan has so many qualities that it doesn't count."
"Really?"
"Yes. You're kind, smart, beautiful and funny."
"Funny?" I raised my eyebrow.
"Yes, when you draw or cook." Ohno teased me.
"It was a Totoro not a snowman!" I exclaimed, pouting.
"And it's one of my most precious gift." Ohno smiled tenderly and I caught his lips with despair, my hand traveling in his soft black hair.
"I love you, you know that?" I asked, looking right into his eyes. Ohno nodded happily.
"You still want to come with me?"
"Yes. I wa-nt to over-come my fe-ars." Ohno stammered again.
"Alright. Prepare yourself." I smiled.
One hour later, we were ready, Ohno biting his blue scarf in fear.
"You can stay here if you're too afraid."
"No. I wa-nt to ma-ke nor-mal things w-ith you." Ohno said stubbornly.
I knew he was very afraid because he was stammering. It was a big step for my lover to face his fear and I felt happy at how our relationship seemed important to him. I took his hand and we walked toward the station but Ohno stopped.
"Baby?"
"I... I can't." Ohno whispered, tears filling his eyes.
"It's okay, babe, it was too early." I smiled, stroking his cheek.
"Sh-o." Ohno stammered, moving back. I followed his look and saw a man at five meters from us.
"Satoshi?" I asked, lost.
"I..." Tears were rolling down my boyfriend's cheeks.
"Who is he?"
Ohno moved back again, his body was shivering violently because of his fear.
"Hey, but it's my little Satoshi!!! How are you the freak?" The man exclaimed with a mocking smile.
Ohno froze. He looked at me, crying and ran away.
"Satoshi?!!!" I screamed.
To be continued...