Umi no shizukesa (chapter 10)
Title: Umi no shizukesa (the ocean's silence)
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: Mokohno, always, Mokohno <3
Pairings: Juntoshi, Sakuraiba
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst
Disclaimer: Just own the plot.
Summary: Ohno looses his voice after a traumatic experience. He is desperate and alone, rejected by the others because of his silence. One day, he meets Jun, a young diver addicted to the sea. With Jun's help, Ohno discovers another world where the silence is the most precious thing. Together, they learn another language: the language of the sea.
Warning: Presence of rape scene, if your not old enough or don't like it, please, don't read it.
A/N: Sorry for the long update but... but... okay, I have none excuse XD just, sorry ^^ and a big kiss and a big hug for my Sasou and her pictures, they are so beautiful and I have a little part of your love for our Juntoshi like that, dear, I love it <3
Chapter 10:
19/02/xxxx
Dear diary,
I start this journal because my psychologist said it would help me to feel better. The accident was a month ago but I feel as if it was yesterday. This night. This horrible night. This bastard, he had a frightening face with a scar on his cheek, today I think I would never be able to forget his horrible face and his laugh. Maybe if I write what happened this night I would be able to move on...
"Kaa-chan?" Ohno called in the stairs. "Oto-san, is it you?" Ohno added, hearing a noise.
He walked to the living room and screamed. On the ground, there were his parents, tied up. Ohno ran toward them but a man appeared and hit him.
"Ooohhh, I didn't know you had such a beautiful son!" The man exclaimed, releasing Ohchan's mother’s mouth.
"Please, don't touch him!" The mother implored.
"Tssss. Shut up, your lovely husband can't pay his debts so, I think it would be fair if I could have a gift." The man smirked, moving toward Ohno.
"Satoshi! Get out! Run!" His mother screamed but the man caught Ohno's arm and pushed him on the table.
"Please, Matsuda-san, I'm begging you, don't touch him!" His mother shouted, tears rolling on her cheeks. Ohno's father tried to say something but he was gagged.
"I can't, he is so cute! You should learn to pay your debts, Ohno! Now, look at this, look at my cock inside of your son, hear his screams and suffer!" Matsuda smirked.
He tied Ohno's hands up, who tried to push him away, and pulled out his shirt.
"No, please!" Ohno implored but the man ignored him and began to suck at his neck and chest.
"Matsuda-san, please, stop that, I'll give you all, but please, release my son!" His mother cried.
“Shut up, bitch, your son is too handsome; it would be a crime if I didn't take a good time with him!" The yakuza snapped before he unzipped Ohno's jeans. Satoshi closed his eyes, waiting for the pain. He couldn't fight, this man was too strong. When Matsuda pushed his cock inside him, he screamed loudly. The pain was unbearable, it overwhelmed his whole body.
"Hum, so good, so tight." Matsuda panted.
Ohno was in another world, he tried to ignore the pain and his mother's cries but he couldn't stop painful screams from escaping his mouth. Ohno took a deep breath and pushed the man away with all his strength but Matsuda punched his face making him see stars.
"Please, sir, stop, please, it hurts!" Ohno cried.
Why? Why all these things happened? Why Kami-sama was so horrible with him?
"Aahhh!" The yakuza moaned, releasing his cum inside of Ohno.
He stood up and moved toward the parents.
"All right, now, you can pay the rest of your debt."
Ohno's mother cried loudly, seeing her naked son on the table, his father’s face was blanked. Matsuda took a knife in his pocket and looked at Ohno.
"Now boy, you can watch the last part of our little game." The yakuza laughed. Ohno stared at him with wide eyes.
"No, please, don't kill them; I'll do whatever you want!!!" Ohno screamed.
"Whatever I want...that's very interesting. Ohno-san, I have a deal, if you give me your son, I forget your debts." Matsuda said, releasing Ohno's father’s mouth.
"Go to hell!" The father answered.
"No, please, sir, do whatever you want to me, you can take me away but please, don't kill them!!!" Ohno begged.
"Shut up, Satoshi, I would never let my son to this bastard!" His father yelled.
"Ah ah, you're not agreeing with your son, what should I do?" Matsuda asked with a big smile. The yakuza moved toward Ohno and stroked his naked thigh. Satoshi froze, a disgusting look on his face.
"Maybe we could spend more time together and if you are good enough, I'll let your parents alive and take you with me." Matsuda smirked, kissing the soft skin.
"Don't kill them, please." Ohno gasped.
"I can kill them and take you away too."
"No please, kill us but don't take my Satoshi, please!" His mother implored.
"Humm, alright." Matsuda stood up but a hand grabbed his wrist.
"Please." Ohno whispered with a weak voice.
A smile appeared on Matsuda's face and he caught Ohno's arm.
"Alright, kid, you chose your parents, you're very courageous or crazy, I don’t know. Come on." Matsuda took him in the bedroom next to the living room and pushed him on the bed.
"If you are good enough, maybe I'll let your parents alive." Ohno nodded, tears rolling down his cheeks. "Suck me." Ohno gulped but unzipped Matsuda's trousers with shaking hands. He swallowed the hard member and the yakuza pushed on his head.
"Hum, so good~ you really are a little bitch, kid." Matsuda moaned.
When the man released in his mouth, Ohno swallowed with difficulty.
"Hum, you're too obedient, I prefer when you are begging me." Matsuda tied Ohno's hands and took their clothes off. He stroked his own shaft and lifted Ohno's hips to push inside of him violently. Satoshi's parents shouted when they heard his loud scream in the whole house. After that, they could hear cries, screams, and their son begging Matsuda to stop this horrible torture. Two hours later, everything became quiet and they saw the yakuza coming back to the living room. The man threw something on the floor and Satoko cried when she saw her naked son curled in a ball with blood on his body. He had a deep cut on his chest and life seemed to have left his body.
"Satoshi!!!!" Satoko screamed.
"Mama~" Ohno whimpered weakly.
"Hum, you're lucky, your son was really good, his ass was so tight and he knows how to suck a dick, he's such a little bitch!" Matsuda smiled.
"Bastard, I'm going to kill you!" Ohno's father shouted.
"Is that a threat?!" Matsuda asked with a death voice.
"I swear I'll kill you. Hold on Satoshi!" Ohno raised his head weakly to look at his father. His chest was hurting so much but less than his mind.
"Alright, I’ll kill you first, then."
"Noooo!!!" Satoshi shouted but before he could make a move, the yakuza cut the throat of his parents, blood rolling like a waterfall.
"Noooo!!!" Ohno screamed before fainting.
When he woke up, he was in a bed.
"Ah, Serizawa-san, he's awake!" A man exclaimed.
"Ohno-san? I'm Serizawa, the police chief; I would ask you some questions." The man said.
Ohno looked at him with empty eyes. So, it was real? He had been raped and his parents were dead? Why this man wanted to ask these questions? They are died; isn’t it enough for him, why did he want to make him remember?! Ohno wanted to speak, to say this bastard could go to the hell but no sound came. Shocked, he put his hand on his throat and tried again.
"Serizawa-san, are you crazy or heartless, my patient is traumatized, he needs rest, his parents are dead, why don't you leave him alone?!" A doctor yelled, entering in the bedroom.
"Leave this room, now!" He added.
"Sorry, sensei. It seems Ohno-san can't speak anymore." The policeman bowed before leaving.
The doctor turned toward Ohno with a worried look. This night was the last time where Ohno could speak....
Satoshi the dumb
5/04/xxxx
Dear diary,
The accident was two months ago and I still can't speak. I don't know why. My voice just doesn't want to come despite my efforts. At the beginning, my friends were kind and patient but now, my silence is pissing them off and they ignore me. It's painful, I feel as if I lost another piece of myself, I feel lonely terribly lonely but it's not the worst, the worst is Yamada. We are in the same class and he's tall and strong, with his big muscles and his cold look. His friends follow him like idiot dogs and obey when he orders something. The first bullying was today. I found a sentence on my desk. It was painful because so real. But I won't cry, I don't want to cry, I must be strong, plus, Yamada would be so happy if I cried in front of him and the class. I hope tomorrow will be better…
Satoshi the dumb
15/05/xxxx
Dear diary,
I think my life is worst as time goes by. I never felt so lonely and Yamada is very horrible. Yesterday, he caught me in the toilets and he said if I didn't speak he'll make me speak. As usual, no sound came from my throat and Yamada hit my face. Now, I have a big bruise on my eye and my mouth is bleeding. It's painful but less than the humiliation. But I am strong, I won't cry, I don't want to cry.
Satoshi the dumb
05/10/xxxx
Dear diary,
I haven't written since a long time. Nothing has changed. Oh, just one thing. I would say I have found a beautiful boyfriend who loves me for what I am and that I love for what he is but it's false. Two weeks ago, when I was on the roof, eating my bento, I've heard a noise. When I raised my head, I saw Yamada with a strange smile and I knew. I knew what he would do to me before he just makes a one step. His eyes were full of lust and madness. He caught my arm and shove me to the ground. When he pulled my shirt and my jeans out, I wanted to scream but my throat didn't want to. I remembered the night when Matsuda raped me and tears started to roll down my cheeks. When I felt Yamada inside of me, I screamed in silence and this bastard smirked. It was so painful, Yamada loved when I was in pain. After he left, I felt dirty like this night. My body was hurting like hell, I couldn't keep my tears, my heart was too broken...
Satoshi the shit
07/11/xxxx
Dear diary,
I think I can't bear my life anymore. Yamada did it again. It's the tenth time he is raping me, I know because I counted and I can’t forget every times he humiliated me. My body is so painful. Why do I have to bear all these things? Am I a horrible person? Am I just an object? Do I deserve this fate? So many questions in my head but no answers. I would understand why I can't live free and happy, why Kami-sama hates me so much. I think my life will be over soon. I'm sorry, mum, I'm sorry dad but you left me alone and now, I can't be strong anymore, I'm not perfect nor a superhero. I'm a shame, I know but I become insane in this whole pain. I'll try a last time to bear, just a last time...
Satoshi the shame
Tears were rolling down Jun's cheeks. He stopped. He couldn't read anymore. When he raised his head, Ohno looked away, ashamed. Jun grabbed his arm and hugged him tightly.
"I'm sorry, Satoshi. I'm so sorry, you went through all that alone and I wasn't with you to protect you from this pain and this bastard! I'm so so sorry, baby. I would like to kill all these persons! I promise you won't be alone anymore. I can't promise you'll never suffer again but if it was the case, we'll suffer together, I'll always be with you, I'll never leave you, you have my word! I love you!" Jun cried.
Ohno buried his face in his neck and cried harder. He felt lighter now that Jun knew about his past. They stayed crying like that for hours. Aiba looked at them from his bedroom and smiled sadly. Satoshi had found his half, his one; he would never be alone in the future even if his past was haunting him.
"I walk faster when I am alone but I walk farther when my hand holds yours." Aiba whispered.
To be continued...
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: Mokohno, always, Mokohno <3
Pairings: Juntoshi, Sakuraiba
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst
Disclaimer: Just own the plot.
Summary: Ohno looses his voice after a traumatic experience. He is desperate and alone, rejected by the others because of his silence. One day, he meets Jun, a young diver addicted to the sea. With Jun's help, Ohno discovers another world where the silence is the most precious thing. Together, they learn another language: the language of the sea.
Warning: Presence of rape scene, if your not old enough or don't like it, please, don't read it.
A/N: Sorry for the long update but... but... okay, I have none excuse XD just, sorry ^^ and a big kiss and a big hug for my Sasou and her pictures, they are so beautiful and I have a little part of your love for our Juntoshi like that, dear, I love it <3
Chapter 10:
19/02/xxxx
Dear diary,
I start this journal because my psychologist said it would help me to feel better. The accident was a month ago but I feel as if it was yesterday. This night. This horrible night. This bastard, he had a frightening face with a scar on his cheek, today I think I would never be able to forget his horrible face and his laugh. Maybe if I write what happened this night I would be able to move on...
"Kaa-chan?" Ohno called in the stairs. "Oto-san, is it you?" Ohno added, hearing a noise.
He walked to the living room and screamed. On the ground, there were his parents, tied up. Ohno ran toward them but a man appeared and hit him.
"Ooohhh, I didn't know you had such a beautiful son!" The man exclaimed, releasing Ohchan's mother’s mouth.
"Please, don't touch him!" The mother implored.
"Tssss. Shut up, your lovely husband can't pay his debts so, I think it would be fair if I could have a gift." The man smirked, moving toward Ohno.
"Satoshi! Get out! Run!" His mother screamed but the man caught Ohno's arm and pushed him on the table.
"Please, Matsuda-san, I'm begging you, don't touch him!" His mother shouted, tears rolling on her cheeks. Ohno's father tried to say something but he was gagged.
"I can't, he is so cute! You should learn to pay your debts, Ohno! Now, look at this, look at my cock inside of your son, hear his screams and suffer!" Matsuda smirked.
He tied Ohno's hands up, who tried to push him away, and pulled out his shirt.
"No, please!" Ohno implored but the man ignored him and began to suck at his neck and chest.
"Matsuda-san, please, stop that, I'll give you all, but please, release my son!" His mother cried.
“Shut up, bitch, your son is too handsome; it would be a crime if I didn't take a good time with him!" The yakuza snapped before he unzipped Ohno's jeans. Satoshi closed his eyes, waiting for the pain. He couldn't fight, this man was too strong. When Matsuda pushed his cock inside him, he screamed loudly. The pain was unbearable, it overwhelmed his whole body.
"Hum, so good, so tight." Matsuda panted.
Ohno was in another world, he tried to ignore the pain and his mother's cries but he couldn't stop painful screams from escaping his mouth. Ohno took a deep breath and pushed the man away with all his strength but Matsuda punched his face making him see stars.
"Please, sir, stop, please, it hurts!" Ohno cried.
Why? Why all these things happened? Why Kami-sama was so horrible with him?
"Aahhh!" The yakuza moaned, releasing his cum inside of Ohno.
He stood up and moved toward the parents.
"All right, now, you can pay the rest of your debt."
Ohno's mother cried loudly, seeing her naked son on the table, his father’s face was blanked. Matsuda took a knife in his pocket and looked at Ohno.
"Now boy, you can watch the last part of our little game." The yakuza laughed. Ohno stared at him with wide eyes.
"No, please, don't kill them; I'll do whatever you want!!!" Ohno screamed.
"Whatever I want...that's very interesting. Ohno-san, I have a deal, if you give me your son, I forget your debts." Matsuda said, releasing Ohno's father’s mouth.
"Go to hell!" The father answered.
"No, please, sir, do whatever you want to me, you can take me away but please, don't kill them!!!" Ohno begged.
"Shut up, Satoshi, I would never let my son to this bastard!" His father yelled.
"Ah ah, you're not agreeing with your son, what should I do?" Matsuda asked with a big smile. The yakuza moved toward Ohno and stroked his naked thigh. Satoshi froze, a disgusting look on his face.
"Maybe we could spend more time together and if you are good enough, I'll let your parents alive and take you with me." Matsuda smirked, kissing the soft skin.
"Don't kill them, please." Ohno gasped.
"I can kill them and take you away too."
"No please, kill us but don't take my Satoshi, please!" His mother implored.
"Humm, alright." Matsuda stood up but a hand grabbed his wrist.
"Please." Ohno whispered with a weak voice.
A smile appeared on Matsuda's face and he caught Ohno's arm.
"Alright, kid, you chose your parents, you're very courageous or crazy, I don’t know. Come on." Matsuda took him in the bedroom next to the living room and pushed him on the bed.
"If you are good enough, maybe I'll let your parents alive." Ohno nodded, tears rolling down his cheeks. "Suck me." Ohno gulped but unzipped Matsuda's trousers with shaking hands. He swallowed the hard member and the yakuza pushed on his head.
"Hum, so good~ you really are a little bitch, kid." Matsuda moaned.
When the man released in his mouth, Ohno swallowed with difficulty.
"Hum, you're too obedient, I prefer when you are begging me." Matsuda tied Ohno's hands and took their clothes off. He stroked his own shaft and lifted Ohno's hips to push inside of him violently. Satoshi's parents shouted when they heard his loud scream in the whole house. After that, they could hear cries, screams, and their son begging Matsuda to stop this horrible torture. Two hours later, everything became quiet and they saw the yakuza coming back to the living room. The man threw something on the floor and Satoko cried when she saw her naked son curled in a ball with blood on his body. He had a deep cut on his chest and life seemed to have left his body.
"Satoshi!!!!" Satoko screamed.
"Mama~" Ohno whimpered weakly.
"Hum, you're lucky, your son was really good, his ass was so tight and he knows how to suck a dick, he's such a little bitch!" Matsuda smiled.
"Bastard, I'm going to kill you!" Ohno's father shouted.
"Is that a threat?!" Matsuda asked with a death voice.
"I swear I'll kill you. Hold on Satoshi!" Ohno raised his head weakly to look at his father. His chest was hurting so much but less than his mind.
"Alright, I’ll kill you first, then."
"Noooo!!!" Satoshi shouted but before he could make a move, the yakuza cut the throat of his parents, blood rolling like a waterfall.
"Noooo!!!" Ohno screamed before fainting.
When he woke up, he was in a bed.
"Ah, Serizawa-san, he's awake!" A man exclaimed.
"Ohno-san? I'm Serizawa, the police chief; I would ask you some questions." The man said.
Ohno looked at him with empty eyes. So, it was real? He had been raped and his parents were dead? Why this man wanted to ask these questions? They are died; isn’t it enough for him, why did he want to make him remember?! Ohno wanted to speak, to say this bastard could go to the hell but no sound came. Shocked, he put his hand on his throat and tried again.
"Serizawa-san, are you crazy or heartless, my patient is traumatized, he needs rest, his parents are dead, why don't you leave him alone?!" A doctor yelled, entering in the bedroom.
"Leave this room, now!" He added.
"Sorry, sensei. It seems Ohno-san can't speak anymore." The policeman bowed before leaving.
The doctor turned toward Ohno with a worried look. This night was the last time where Ohno could speak....
Satoshi the dumb
5/04/xxxx
Dear diary,
The accident was two months ago and I still can't speak. I don't know why. My voice just doesn't want to come despite my efforts. At the beginning, my friends were kind and patient but now, my silence is pissing them off and they ignore me. It's painful, I feel as if I lost another piece of myself, I feel lonely terribly lonely but it's not the worst, the worst is Yamada. We are in the same class and he's tall and strong, with his big muscles and his cold look. His friends follow him like idiot dogs and obey when he orders something. The first bullying was today. I found a sentence on my desk. It was painful because so real. But I won't cry, I don't want to cry, I must be strong, plus, Yamada would be so happy if I cried in front of him and the class. I hope tomorrow will be better…
Satoshi the dumb
15/05/xxxx
Dear diary,
I think my life is worst as time goes by. I never felt so lonely and Yamada is very horrible. Yesterday, he caught me in the toilets and he said if I didn't speak he'll make me speak. As usual, no sound came from my throat and Yamada hit my face. Now, I have a big bruise on my eye and my mouth is bleeding. It's painful but less than the humiliation. But I am strong, I won't cry, I don't want to cry.
Satoshi the dumb
05/10/xxxx
Dear diary,
I haven't written since a long time. Nothing has changed. Oh, just one thing. I would say I have found a beautiful boyfriend who loves me for what I am and that I love for what he is but it's false. Two weeks ago, when I was on the roof, eating my bento, I've heard a noise. When I raised my head, I saw Yamada with a strange smile and I knew. I knew what he would do to me before he just makes a one step. His eyes were full of lust and madness. He caught my arm and shove me to the ground. When he pulled my shirt and my jeans out, I wanted to scream but my throat didn't want to. I remembered the night when Matsuda raped me and tears started to roll down my cheeks. When I felt Yamada inside of me, I screamed in silence and this bastard smirked. It was so painful, Yamada loved when I was in pain. After he left, I felt dirty like this night. My body was hurting like hell, I couldn't keep my tears, my heart was too broken...
Satoshi the shit
07/11/xxxx
Dear diary,
I think I can't bear my life anymore. Yamada did it again. It's the tenth time he is raping me, I know because I counted and I can’t forget every times he humiliated me. My body is so painful. Why do I have to bear all these things? Am I a horrible person? Am I just an object? Do I deserve this fate? So many questions in my head but no answers. I would understand why I can't live free and happy, why Kami-sama hates me so much. I think my life will be over soon. I'm sorry, mum, I'm sorry dad but you left me alone and now, I can't be strong anymore, I'm not perfect nor a superhero. I'm a shame, I know but I become insane in this whole pain. I'll try a last time to bear, just a last time...
Satoshi the shame
Tears were rolling down Jun's cheeks. He stopped. He couldn't read anymore. When he raised his head, Ohno looked away, ashamed. Jun grabbed his arm and hugged him tightly.
"I'm sorry, Satoshi. I'm so sorry, you went through all that alone and I wasn't with you to protect you from this pain and this bastard! I'm so so sorry, baby. I would like to kill all these persons! I promise you won't be alone anymore. I can't promise you'll never suffer again but if it was the case, we'll suffer together, I'll always be with you, I'll never leave you, you have my word! I love you!" Jun cried.
Ohno buried his face in his neck and cried harder. He felt lighter now that Jun knew about his past. They stayed crying like that for hours. Aiba looked at them from his bedroom and smiled sadly. Satoshi had found his half, his one; he would never be alone in the future even if his past was haunting him.
"I walk faster when I am alone but I walk farther when my hand holds yours." Aiba whispered.
To be continued...