Umi no shizukesa (chapter 11)
Title: Umi no shizukesa (the ocean's silence)
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: Thank you for your work, Mokohno <3
Pairings: Juntoshi, Sakuraiba (side pairing)
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Luckily for Jun and Ohchan, just own the plot xD
Summary: Ohno looses his voice after a traumatic experience. He is desperate and alone, rejected by the others because of his silence. One day, he meets Jun, a young diver addicted to the sea. With Jun's help, Ohno discovers another world where the silence is the most precious thing. Together, they learn another language: the language of the sea.
A/N: I update the chapter 11 now because I won't be able to de it in the next days, so I hope you'll enjoy ^^
Chapter 11:
Jun and Ohno spent the night on the sofa, the older crying against his chest while his lover was soothing him in his arms. Ohno wasn’t crying because of his past, he was crying because Jun accepted him, he didn't reject or feel disgust toward the silent man. Jun promised him to stay with him forever, to love him despite his past and Ohno never felt so happy in his life. When the sun appeared in the room, Ohno fell asleep, exhausted. Jun carried his sleeping lover to their bedroom and laid him down on the bed. Satoshi's face was red because of the tears and the younger stroked his cheek before he kissed his lips.
"Love you, my Toshi."
Jun left the bedroom and collapsed on the sofa, sighing deeply.
Aiba sat down next to him and without a word, hugged him tightly in his arms.
"Why? Why all these horrible things happened to him?" Jun whispered.
"I don't know. Life is unfair sometimes. You should read all of his diary, you would feel better."
Jun nodded and took Ohno's diary.
Dear diary,
Four months ago, I tried to kill myself because of Yamada. You know, he raped me again, he said he was pissed off with my silence and maybe he's right. But I was sure of one thing; I couldn't bear it anymore. I didn't want to feel Yamada inside of me, these disgusting fingers on my body, this tongue licking my skin, I didn't want to feel so dirty anymore. That's why I tried to kill myself. I preferred dying than suffering but someone saved me. His name is Matsumoto Jun, he's kind and gorgeous. He has a very sensitive look and his smile heals your heart. It's the way I feel when he smiles at me, I don't know why my heart beats so fast and my hands are shaking. It's the first time since the accident that someone calls me his "friend" and I'm so happy but at the same time I'm afraid. What if Jun was fed up with me? If my silence pissed him off? I don't want him to reject me, I don't want to loose him...I think... I love him. It's the first time I can touch someone since the accident and for some days, I can let Jun touch me without feeling my body dirty. But I'm still afraid. Maybe he would rape me like Yamada did if he didn't bear my silence anymore... My mind is a big mess, I'm lost. On one side, I'm afraid that Jun might leave me and on the other side, I'm afraid of him wanting to do the same things Yamada did to me. And he doesn't know anything about my life, he doesn't know I'm not really mute. What if he knew about the accident? Would he reject me? Would he want to rape me too? I couldn't bear him rejecting me, I don't want to loose him. When I saw him with Nino-chan, my heart broke in one thousand pieces. It wasn't Nino's fault but I felt angry toward him. He stole my Jun, he stole the only man who makes me feel better, who makes me feel complete. With Jun, I feel as if I was a good person, as if I wasn't this coward and this killer that I am since two years. When I'm next to him, I can think I deserve to live, I can imagine I deserve happiness. Is it really love? It's wonderful how one can feel when there is someone next to you who count for you, someone who is precious, someone you want to protect no matter what happens. But I'm not stupid, I know very well that Jun will never share my feelings. How could he love someone who can't speak? How could he love someone who can't even say 'I love you'? It would be very boring if he was in love with a person who can't speak about his day or about any interesting subject. The silence is destroying my life like a storm, erasing everything on its passage. But I'm not sad. I understand now that if Jun is just next to me, I can be the happiest man in the world. I just need him by my side.
Satoshi the shame
Dear diary,
It was my first day with Jun and I met his friends. Aiba-san and Sakurai-san are really kind, I like them. They are so cute together, they make a great couple. I met Ninomiya-san too but I don't like him. He seems kind but I hate how he touches Jun and how Jun smiles at him, he doesn't smile like that to me. When Nino is in the same room, Jun seems happier, they are so close together and I wonder if they are in love. Nino loves Jun, it's obvious but I don't know if Junny feels the same. I hate how Nino kisses Jun's cheek or lips, how Junny hugged him, it hurts so much. Jun even called his shark Yume which is one of Nino's song. Why can't I give this wonderful smile to Jun? Why Jun doesn't see me? Why he doesn't see how much he makes me feel better? I'm stupid to hope for something to happen between us, he can't love someone who can't speak.
Satoshi the dumb
Dear diary,
Now, I’ve known Jun for more than four months but I feel as if it's been years. I don't know...when I'm with him, my world is different, more luminous and happier. He heals my broken heart even when he doesn't talk to me. We don't need words, just the presence of each other. I think this day, he did more than save me of the crash, he saved my heart, my soul and my mind. Maybe it's a little early but now, I think I can go forward. Sometimes, I dream about Yamada, I can feel his hands on my body, I can feel him inside me and it disgusts and hurts me. I can't forget this nightmare, this horrible day. Luckily, Jun is here and I feel safe. Thanks to the sky when I met him, it was the time of my life. I love him more than anything, more than my own life but he didn't seem to have the same feelings. I'm fine if he is next to me, I can bear the worst things if he's by my side. I love him so much.
Satoshi the shame
A tear rolled down Jun's cheek but a smile enlightened his face.
"Jun, you know, when you were at work, a man came here." Aiba started.
"Eh?"
"It was Ohchan's lawyer. He came to tell him Matsuda will be freed soon." Aiba whispered.
"What?!" Jun exclaimed.
"I'm sorry, Jun but Ohchan will need you now. More than ever."
"And I'll be there for him but I have a lot of work today, can you stay with him?"
"Of course."
"He is sleeping for the moment but don't let him alone when he'll wake up." Jun grabbed his bag and left the apartment.
Ohno opened his eyes with difficulty, hearing his phone. He opened it and froze, seeing the message. Shaking his head, he closed his phone and walked in the living room.
"Ah, Ohchan, Jun is at work. What do you want to do?" Aiba asked softly.
Can I draw?
"Of course."
Ohno closed the door behind him. For two hours, his phone had been buzzing and the silent man started to panic. Suddenly his phone rang and Ohno opened it.
"Sa~to~shi." A voice sing-sang and Ohno froze. "You remember me, Toshi? It's been a while! I missed you so so much, we should see each other again, bye bye my Toshi~" The voice smirked and the line got cut.
Ohno's body was shaking in fear, it was as if a snake was gagging his heart. He couldn't breathe normally and gasped in silence, falling to the ground, his arms wrapped around his chest.
"Ohchan?" Aiba knocked on the door, worried by the silence. "Ohchan?" Masaki opened the door and screamed. "Ohchan!!" Aiba kneeled in front of him and took the silent man in his arms. Ohno coughed silently, gripping at Aiba's shirt while the younger was patting his back. "Ohchan, are you all right?"
Ohno nodded weakly and Aiba carried him to his bedroom.
"What happened?" Aiba asked softly.
Nothing, don't worry, I'm just tired. Ohno explained.
Aiba sighed, he knew the older was lying but couldn't force him to speak.
Don't tell Jun. Ohno asked with pleading eyes.
"Alright." Aiba sighed again. "But you have to sleep, now." Ohno closed his eyes.
****
Satoshi, you're here! I missed you so much, baby! I want you so bad! A voice whispered in his ear.
Ohno shouted, standing up. He looked around him but he was in his bedroom, Jun sleeping deeply next to him. Satoshi stood up and walked to the bathroom.
It was a dream, it was a dream, just a nightmare.
Ohno stared at the mirror in front of him, sweat rolling down his temples. It seemed so real, Ohno could feel his breath against his skin, his hands stroking his body. The silent man threw up in the toilets and wiped his mouth.
I'm safe. Jun is with me, nothing can happen to me, Jun will always protect me.
Ohno sighed, slipped under the blanket and hugged his lover who yawned.
"Toshi?" Jun whispered and Ohno kissed his lips lovingly. The younger smiled and slipped his tongue when Ohno's lips parted. His hand stroked his thigh and their hips brushed making them moan. Ohno nuzzled his nose against Jun's neck and both fell asleep.
****
Toshi, I'm so impatient to see you again, I miss you so much my baby! See you soon, dear. <3
Ohno's face became white when he read his message. Jun had a lesson this morning and he was alone in the apartment since Masaki left the place to buy some food. Ohno approached the aquarium and stroked Yume's head.
What can I do, Yume? Ohno asked silently to the little shark.
Dear diary,
For three days, I received some messages from him. He wants to see me, he told me he was missing me and I'm afraid. What can I do? I don't want to tell Jun about him because I'm ashamed. Since our first meeting, Jun takes care of me like nobody did since my parent's death. I'm so grateful toward him but I feel useless. I think I'm just good at making him worried or cry and I hate that. I want to bring better things in his life than just my pain and my trauma. It's unfair because he gives me all he has and in return, what do I give him? Just sadness. Yet, I love him so damn much. If I tell him about His messages, I'll make him worried again and I don't want that, I want the person I love more than anything to live in peace and not with a bother like me. That's why, I'll keep that for me. I'll deal with him alone. Jun, I'm sorry, I trust you but I don't want to involve you in my dark past, I love you too much to do that to you.
Satoshi the shame
Ohno closed his notebook, sighing heavily. He needed some air but Aiba wasn't there and the silent man was about to send him a message when he heard a noise.
"Tadaima." Aiba exclaimed.
Okaeri, Aiba-chan. Ohno wrote on a paper.
"I'm sorry for letting you alone." Aiba patted Ohno's head who smiled shyly.
Could we go out today?
"Want to go to the beach?" Aiba grinned and the older nodded excitedly. "Alright, prepare your stuff and we can go after."
Aiba drove them to a shop before. The younger needed some stuff and Ohno followed him in a diving shop. The silent man stayed outside, looking at the different shops. Ohno was looking at an aquarium when a face with an evil smirk appeared in the glass. The silent man jumped and turned his head but there was nobody behind him. Ohno shook his head, he certainly had dreamt. The artist walked toward another shop with some paintings.
"It's been a while, Satoshi!" Ohno froze and turned around, his heart beating faster but sighed when he saw the man was speaking to another person.
I become paranoiac. Ohno shook his head with a smile and joined Aiba in the diving shop.
The two friends arrived at the beach and Ohno blinked when he saw his boyfriend on the sand.
"Hey, baby!" Jun waved his hand and Ohno jumped into his arms, wrapping his legs around his waist. "I'm happy to see you too." Jun kissed his neck tenderly.
What are you doing here?
"Masaki called me and I wanted to surprise you." Jun pecked the older's lips and both sat on the blanket on the sand.
You don't have your lessons? Ohno wrote on Jun's skin, his head on his chest.
"I skipped it, a lunch with my favorite chubby boyfriend was more interesting." Jun chuckled.
Thank you, Junny. Ohno hugged him tightly.
"Shall we eat?" Jun stood up and took their plates and food.
Both ate, looking at the horizon and talking about diving.
"On Tuesday, I'll take you to a new place for only the two of us to dive." Jun kissed Ohno's temple lovingly and the older nodded happily.
It's been a while since we dived together. Ohno said with a cute pout.
"I know, baby, I'm sorry, I was very busy with my work. I wanted you to pass your level one."
My level one?
"Yes. In diving, you have some exams. When you have your level one, you can dive at 20 meters. With level two, you can dive alone at 20 meters and with an instructor, at 40 meters. With level 3, at 60 meters and with level 4, at 80 meters, you can teach diving too and lead a group but it's hard to have your level 4, you need a lot of experience."
What level do you have?
"Level 4. I can take groups to dive, it's my work, I can dive alone and I can swim in the wrecks."
Wrecks??
"Yes, it's very interesting, you can swim in the boat's wrecks but not very long because it's at 80 meters and you can't dive very long at this depth."
I would like to dive at 80 meters.
"You have to pass your level one, two and three, first."
Will you make me pass my level one?
"What about tomorrow, if you want?"
Really? Can I?! Ohno smiled widely.
"Of course. You'll see, it's very easy. You just have to know your signs, how to assemble your material and how to stabilize yourself in the water. I already taught you all that, it will be easy for you to succeed." Jun grinned.
Thank you, Jun. Ohno wrapped his arms around him and the younger kissed his forehead tenderly.
It was late and the beach was empty. Jun laid his boyfriend on the blanket, kissing his neck and stroking his thigh.
"I want you." Jun whispered making Ohno smiled.
Me too, Junny.
Jun growled and almost ripped Satoshi's clothes, kissing and licking the tender skin under his mouth.
"You're so beautiful." Jun said, his hand stroking Ohno's hard shaft. The older arched his back, moaning silently. Ohno's hand traveled on Jun's body to take off the younger's clothes and kissed his chest. Both started to brush their naked hips together, stroking their hard cocks in a perfect sync.
"Satoshi..." Jun gasped when Ohno pushed him on his back to swallow his painful member. The older smiled and started to suck harder, slightly biting the tip of Jun's manhood and stroking his balls with one of his hands while the other one was stroking his thigh softly.
"Sato, stop, I'-m co-ming." Jun moaned but his boyfriend didn't release him and even sucked harder making Jun fill his mouth in a loud cry. Ohno licked his lips and his lover grabbed his neck to kiss him deeply, sharing his own taste.
Jun pushed Ohno on his back and his fingers came to play and prepare the already pulsating hole. Satoshi gasped silently when two fingers invaded him, stretching his intimacy while a wonderful mouth was working on his manhood.
"Are you ready for me?" Jun asked after a while. Ohno nodded and lifted his legs around the younger's waist who pushed his cock inside of him in a loud moan.
"Fuck, you're so tight." Jun whispered in his ear.
Ohno wrapped his arms around Jun's neck, burying his face in his neck while his own body was moving up and down to meet Jun's hard thrusts. Sweat was rolling on their skins, moans escaping the younger's mouth and Ohno thought he would become crazy while his lover was hitting his secret spot again and again. Suddenly, Ohno turned his head away, frowning. Since the beginning, he felt as if someone was looking at them but there was nobody on the beach.
"What's wrong, baby?" Jun stroked his lover's cheek who shook his head with a smile.
Faster.
Jun started to thrust harder and faster, smacking their hips loudly. The younger could feel he was on the edge but Ohno pushed his boyfriend on his back. Satoshi climbed on top of Jun, moving his hips down to push the cock inside him again.
"Go-sh, Sat-oshi." Jun moaned while his lover was moving up and down, his hands on Jun's chest to keep his balance.
Jun was becoming crazy, his tight boyfriend was driving him insane and, lifting his body, he wrapped Ohno's neck with his hand and smacked their mouths together, moving his own hips to meet Ohno's thrusts.
Jun took Ohno's hard cock in his hand to pump it at the same rhythm as his movements. After a while, Ohno arched his back and released in Jun's hand who filled his hole some thrusts later. Ohno collapsed on his boyfriend, out of breath but smiling happily.
"You're always so perfect. I love you." Jun kissed Ohno lovingly before they stood up and came back home.
****
Ohno turned his head but his lover wasn't in their bed. Instead of Jun, there was a letter and Ohno opened it.
Baby,
I had a lesson this morning and I couldn't skip it again, I'll try to come back quickly for your level one. I love you.
Jun
Ohno sighed. He knew Jun couldn't keep his promise because of his work and sadness filled his heart. They hadn't dived together for a long time and Ohno was missing the sea a lot. The silent man took a shower, grabbed his keys and his stuffs and left their apartment. He'd wait for Jun on the beach.
Ohno went down the stairs but when he wanted to open the door, someone caught him and pressed something on his mouth. Ohno's eyes widened when he saw the man behind him before everything became dark.
To be continued...
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: Thank you for your work, Mokohno <3
Pairings: Juntoshi, Sakuraiba (side pairing)
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Luckily for Jun and Ohchan, just own the plot xD
Summary: Ohno looses his voice after a traumatic experience. He is desperate and alone, rejected by the others because of his silence. One day, he meets Jun, a young diver addicted to the sea. With Jun's help, Ohno discovers another world where the silence is the most precious thing. Together, they learn another language: the language of the sea.
A/N: I update the chapter 11 now because I won't be able to de it in the next days, so I hope you'll enjoy ^^
Chapter 11:
Jun and Ohno spent the night on the sofa, the older crying against his chest while his lover was soothing him in his arms. Ohno wasn’t crying because of his past, he was crying because Jun accepted him, he didn't reject or feel disgust toward the silent man. Jun promised him to stay with him forever, to love him despite his past and Ohno never felt so happy in his life. When the sun appeared in the room, Ohno fell asleep, exhausted. Jun carried his sleeping lover to their bedroom and laid him down on the bed. Satoshi's face was red because of the tears and the younger stroked his cheek before he kissed his lips.
"Love you, my Toshi."
Jun left the bedroom and collapsed on the sofa, sighing deeply.
Aiba sat down next to him and without a word, hugged him tightly in his arms.
"Why? Why all these horrible things happened to him?" Jun whispered.
"I don't know. Life is unfair sometimes. You should read all of his diary, you would feel better."
Jun nodded and took Ohno's diary.
Dear diary,
Four months ago, I tried to kill myself because of Yamada. You know, he raped me again, he said he was pissed off with my silence and maybe he's right. But I was sure of one thing; I couldn't bear it anymore. I didn't want to feel Yamada inside of me, these disgusting fingers on my body, this tongue licking my skin, I didn't want to feel so dirty anymore. That's why I tried to kill myself. I preferred dying than suffering but someone saved me. His name is Matsumoto Jun, he's kind and gorgeous. He has a very sensitive look and his smile heals your heart. It's the way I feel when he smiles at me, I don't know why my heart beats so fast and my hands are shaking. It's the first time since the accident that someone calls me his "friend" and I'm so happy but at the same time I'm afraid. What if Jun was fed up with me? If my silence pissed him off? I don't want him to reject me, I don't want to loose him...I think... I love him. It's the first time I can touch someone since the accident and for some days, I can let Jun touch me without feeling my body dirty. But I'm still afraid. Maybe he would rape me like Yamada did if he didn't bear my silence anymore... My mind is a big mess, I'm lost. On one side, I'm afraid that Jun might leave me and on the other side, I'm afraid of him wanting to do the same things Yamada did to me. And he doesn't know anything about my life, he doesn't know I'm not really mute. What if he knew about the accident? Would he reject me? Would he want to rape me too? I couldn't bear him rejecting me, I don't want to loose him. When I saw him with Nino-chan, my heart broke in one thousand pieces. It wasn't Nino's fault but I felt angry toward him. He stole my Jun, he stole the only man who makes me feel better, who makes me feel complete. With Jun, I feel as if I was a good person, as if I wasn't this coward and this killer that I am since two years. When I'm next to him, I can think I deserve to live, I can imagine I deserve happiness. Is it really love? It's wonderful how one can feel when there is someone next to you who count for you, someone who is precious, someone you want to protect no matter what happens. But I'm not stupid, I know very well that Jun will never share my feelings. How could he love someone who can't speak? How could he love someone who can't even say 'I love you'? It would be very boring if he was in love with a person who can't speak about his day or about any interesting subject. The silence is destroying my life like a storm, erasing everything on its passage. But I'm not sad. I understand now that if Jun is just next to me, I can be the happiest man in the world. I just need him by my side.
Satoshi the shame
Dear diary,
It was my first day with Jun and I met his friends. Aiba-san and Sakurai-san are really kind, I like them. They are so cute together, they make a great couple. I met Ninomiya-san too but I don't like him. He seems kind but I hate how he touches Jun and how Jun smiles at him, he doesn't smile like that to me. When Nino is in the same room, Jun seems happier, they are so close together and I wonder if they are in love. Nino loves Jun, it's obvious but I don't know if Junny feels the same. I hate how Nino kisses Jun's cheek or lips, how Junny hugged him, it hurts so much. Jun even called his shark Yume which is one of Nino's song. Why can't I give this wonderful smile to Jun? Why Jun doesn't see me? Why he doesn't see how much he makes me feel better? I'm stupid to hope for something to happen between us, he can't love someone who can't speak.
Satoshi the dumb
Dear diary,
Now, I’ve known Jun for more than four months but I feel as if it's been years. I don't know...when I'm with him, my world is different, more luminous and happier. He heals my broken heart even when he doesn't talk to me. We don't need words, just the presence of each other. I think this day, he did more than save me of the crash, he saved my heart, my soul and my mind. Maybe it's a little early but now, I think I can go forward. Sometimes, I dream about Yamada, I can feel his hands on my body, I can feel him inside me and it disgusts and hurts me. I can't forget this nightmare, this horrible day. Luckily, Jun is here and I feel safe. Thanks to the sky when I met him, it was the time of my life. I love him more than anything, more than my own life but he didn't seem to have the same feelings. I'm fine if he is next to me, I can bear the worst things if he's by my side. I love him so much.
Satoshi the shame
A tear rolled down Jun's cheek but a smile enlightened his face.
"Jun, you know, when you were at work, a man came here." Aiba started.
"Eh?"
"It was Ohchan's lawyer. He came to tell him Matsuda will be freed soon." Aiba whispered.
"What?!" Jun exclaimed.
"I'm sorry, Jun but Ohchan will need you now. More than ever."
"And I'll be there for him but I have a lot of work today, can you stay with him?"
"Of course."
"He is sleeping for the moment but don't let him alone when he'll wake up." Jun grabbed his bag and left the apartment.
Ohno opened his eyes with difficulty, hearing his phone. He opened it and froze, seeing the message. Shaking his head, he closed his phone and walked in the living room.
"Ah, Ohchan, Jun is at work. What do you want to do?" Aiba asked softly.
Can I draw?
"Of course."
Ohno closed the door behind him. For two hours, his phone had been buzzing and the silent man started to panic. Suddenly his phone rang and Ohno opened it.
"Sa~to~shi." A voice sing-sang and Ohno froze. "You remember me, Toshi? It's been a while! I missed you so so much, we should see each other again, bye bye my Toshi~" The voice smirked and the line got cut.
Ohno's body was shaking in fear, it was as if a snake was gagging his heart. He couldn't breathe normally and gasped in silence, falling to the ground, his arms wrapped around his chest.
"Ohchan?" Aiba knocked on the door, worried by the silence. "Ohchan?" Masaki opened the door and screamed. "Ohchan!!" Aiba kneeled in front of him and took the silent man in his arms. Ohno coughed silently, gripping at Aiba's shirt while the younger was patting his back. "Ohchan, are you all right?"
Ohno nodded weakly and Aiba carried him to his bedroom.
"What happened?" Aiba asked softly.
Nothing, don't worry, I'm just tired. Ohno explained.
Aiba sighed, he knew the older was lying but couldn't force him to speak.
Don't tell Jun. Ohno asked with pleading eyes.
"Alright." Aiba sighed again. "But you have to sleep, now." Ohno closed his eyes.
****
Satoshi, you're here! I missed you so much, baby! I want you so bad! A voice whispered in his ear.
Ohno shouted, standing up. He looked around him but he was in his bedroom, Jun sleeping deeply next to him. Satoshi stood up and walked to the bathroom.
It was a dream, it was a dream, just a nightmare.
Ohno stared at the mirror in front of him, sweat rolling down his temples. It seemed so real, Ohno could feel his breath against his skin, his hands stroking his body. The silent man threw up in the toilets and wiped his mouth.
I'm safe. Jun is with me, nothing can happen to me, Jun will always protect me.
Ohno sighed, slipped under the blanket and hugged his lover who yawned.
"Toshi?" Jun whispered and Ohno kissed his lips lovingly. The younger smiled and slipped his tongue when Ohno's lips parted. His hand stroked his thigh and their hips brushed making them moan. Ohno nuzzled his nose against Jun's neck and both fell asleep.
****
Toshi, I'm so impatient to see you again, I miss you so much my baby! See you soon, dear. <3
Ohno's face became white when he read his message. Jun had a lesson this morning and he was alone in the apartment since Masaki left the place to buy some food. Ohno approached the aquarium and stroked Yume's head.
What can I do, Yume? Ohno asked silently to the little shark.
Dear diary,
For three days, I received some messages from him. He wants to see me, he told me he was missing me and I'm afraid. What can I do? I don't want to tell Jun about him because I'm ashamed. Since our first meeting, Jun takes care of me like nobody did since my parent's death. I'm so grateful toward him but I feel useless. I think I'm just good at making him worried or cry and I hate that. I want to bring better things in his life than just my pain and my trauma. It's unfair because he gives me all he has and in return, what do I give him? Just sadness. Yet, I love him so damn much. If I tell him about His messages, I'll make him worried again and I don't want that, I want the person I love more than anything to live in peace and not with a bother like me. That's why, I'll keep that for me. I'll deal with him alone. Jun, I'm sorry, I trust you but I don't want to involve you in my dark past, I love you too much to do that to you.
Satoshi the shame
Ohno closed his notebook, sighing heavily. He needed some air but Aiba wasn't there and the silent man was about to send him a message when he heard a noise.
"Tadaima." Aiba exclaimed.
Okaeri, Aiba-chan. Ohno wrote on a paper.
"I'm sorry for letting you alone." Aiba patted Ohno's head who smiled shyly.
Could we go out today?
"Want to go to the beach?" Aiba grinned and the older nodded excitedly. "Alright, prepare your stuff and we can go after."
Aiba drove them to a shop before. The younger needed some stuff and Ohno followed him in a diving shop. The silent man stayed outside, looking at the different shops. Ohno was looking at an aquarium when a face with an evil smirk appeared in the glass. The silent man jumped and turned his head but there was nobody behind him. Ohno shook his head, he certainly had dreamt. The artist walked toward another shop with some paintings.
"It's been a while, Satoshi!" Ohno froze and turned around, his heart beating faster but sighed when he saw the man was speaking to another person.
I become paranoiac. Ohno shook his head with a smile and joined Aiba in the diving shop.
The two friends arrived at the beach and Ohno blinked when he saw his boyfriend on the sand.
"Hey, baby!" Jun waved his hand and Ohno jumped into his arms, wrapping his legs around his waist. "I'm happy to see you too." Jun kissed his neck tenderly.
What are you doing here?
"Masaki called me and I wanted to surprise you." Jun pecked the older's lips and both sat on the blanket on the sand.
You don't have your lessons? Ohno wrote on Jun's skin, his head on his chest.
"I skipped it, a lunch with my favorite chubby boyfriend was more interesting." Jun chuckled.
Thank you, Junny. Ohno hugged him tightly.
"Shall we eat?" Jun stood up and took their plates and food.
Both ate, looking at the horizon and talking about diving.
"On Tuesday, I'll take you to a new place for only the two of us to dive." Jun kissed Ohno's temple lovingly and the older nodded happily.
It's been a while since we dived together. Ohno said with a cute pout.
"I know, baby, I'm sorry, I was very busy with my work. I wanted you to pass your level one."
My level one?
"Yes. In diving, you have some exams. When you have your level one, you can dive at 20 meters. With level two, you can dive alone at 20 meters and with an instructor, at 40 meters. With level 3, at 60 meters and with level 4, at 80 meters, you can teach diving too and lead a group but it's hard to have your level 4, you need a lot of experience."
What level do you have?
"Level 4. I can take groups to dive, it's my work, I can dive alone and I can swim in the wrecks."
Wrecks??
"Yes, it's very interesting, you can swim in the boat's wrecks but not very long because it's at 80 meters and you can't dive very long at this depth."
I would like to dive at 80 meters.
"You have to pass your level one, two and three, first."
Will you make me pass my level one?
"What about tomorrow, if you want?"
Really? Can I?! Ohno smiled widely.
"Of course. You'll see, it's very easy. You just have to know your signs, how to assemble your material and how to stabilize yourself in the water. I already taught you all that, it will be easy for you to succeed." Jun grinned.
Thank you, Jun. Ohno wrapped his arms around him and the younger kissed his forehead tenderly.
It was late and the beach was empty. Jun laid his boyfriend on the blanket, kissing his neck and stroking his thigh.
"I want you." Jun whispered making Ohno smiled.
Me too, Junny.
Jun growled and almost ripped Satoshi's clothes, kissing and licking the tender skin under his mouth.
"You're so beautiful." Jun said, his hand stroking Ohno's hard shaft. The older arched his back, moaning silently. Ohno's hand traveled on Jun's body to take off the younger's clothes and kissed his chest. Both started to brush their naked hips together, stroking their hard cocks in a perfect sync.
"Satoshi..." Jun gasped when Ohno pushed him on his back to swallow his painful member. The older smiled and started to suck harder, slightly biting the tip of Jun's manhood and stroking his balls with one of his hands while the other one was stroking his thigh softly.
"Sato, stop, I'-m co-ming." Jun moaned but his boyfriend didn't release him and even sucked harder making Jun fill his mouth in a loud cry. Ohno licked his lips and his lover grabbed his neck to kiss him deeply, sharing his own taste.
Jun pushed Ohno on his back and his fingers came to play and prepare the already pulsating hole. Satoshi gasped silently when two fingers invaded him, stretching his intimacy while a wonderful mouth was working on his manhood.
"Are you ready for me?" Jun asked after a while. Ohno nodded and lifted his legs around the younger's waist who pushed his cock inside of him in a loud moan.
"Fuck, you're so tight." Jun whispered in his ear.
Ohno wrapped his arms around Jun's neck, burying his face in his neck while his own body was moving up and down to meet Jun's hard thrusts. Sweat was rolling on their skins, moans escaping the younger's mouth and Ohno thought he would become crazy while his lover was hitting his secret spot again and again. Suddenly, Ohno turned his head away, frowning. Since the beginning, he felt as if someone was looking at them but there was nobody on the beach.
"What's wrong, baby?" Jun stroked his lover's cheek who shook his head with a smile.
Faster.
Jun started to thrust harder and faster, smacking their hips loudly. The younger could feel he was on the edge but Ohno pushed his boyfriend on his back. Satoshi climbed on top of Jun, moving his hips down to push the cock inside him again.
"Go-sh, Sat-oshi." Jun moaned while his lover was moving up and down, his hands on Jun's chest to keep his balance.
Jun was becoming crazy, his tight boyfriend was driving him insane and, lifting his body, he wrapped Ohno's neck with his hand and smacked their mouths together, moving his own hips to meet Ohno's thrusts.
Jun took Ohno's hard cock in his hand to pump it at the same rhythm as his movements. After a while, Ohno arched his back and released in Jun's hand who filled his hole some thrusts later. Ohno collapsed on his boyfriend, out of breath but smiling happily.
"You're always so perfect. I love you." Jun kissed Ohno lovingly before they stood up and came back home.
****
Ohno turned his head but his lover wasn't in their bed. Instead of Jun, there was a letter and Ohno opened it.
Baby,
I had a lesson this morning and I couldn't skip it again, I'll try to come back quickly for your level one. I love you.
Jun
Ohno sighed. He knew Jun couldn't keep his promise because of his work and sadness filled his heart. They hadn't dived together for a long time and Ohno was missing the sea a lot. The silent man took a shower, grabbed his keys and his stuffs and left their apartment. He'd wait for Jun on the beach.
Ohno went down the stairs but when he wanted to open the door, someone caught him and pressed something on his mouth. Ohno's eyes widened when he saw the man behind him before everything became dark.
To be continued...