A broken promise (epilogue)
Title: A broken promise (epilogue)
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairing: Yama
Rating: R
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst
Disclaimer: This is an epilogue or maybe a sequel of my Yama fic, A broken promise.
Summary: After a traumatic experience, Sho's mind is on the line. Emptiness, sadness and pain are eating and killing him slowly. But if a miracle could give him back his smile and his happiness?
PART 2/2
For one month, I stayed in my apartment, drinking the whole day and crying in front of the movies with Aiba and I. I hated myself for what I did to him during these two years. I loved him. It was a reality even if I called him Satoshi all this time, my heart knew it was Aiba in front of me.
"You're pathetic, Sho." Jun said when he entered my apartment and saw me on the ground.
"Shut up!" I snapped.
"Drinking won't bring Aiba back." Jun replied.
"I know." I muttered.
"Sho..."
"What do you want?!"
"I came to see you and to tell you something."
"Hun?"
"Today was my last mission."
"What do you mean?"
"I quitted. I'll look for another job." Jun said softly.
"What?! But Jun, this job was your life!"
"Because you believe it was a pleasure to kill these people?! Kazu was right I was leaving through my past and my hatred toward the rapists but I have to stop that. For Kazu and our baby."
"Your...baby?"
"I wanted to see you for that too. Kazu found his sister and she is pregnant. She wanted to abort but Kaz' asked her to adopt the baby when he will be born." Jun smiled and I could see the happiness shining in his eyes.
"Congratulation... I guess. But why do you tell me that?"
"We want you to be the godfather of our baby."
"I... Really?" I widened my eyes, shocked.
"Yes but there are conditions."
"What?" I frowned, knowing I won't like what will follow.
"Firstly, you have to stop this stupid revenge. You have to see a psychologist to overcome Satoshi's death..."
"I'm all right!"
"Shut up, Sakurai! You'll see a psychologist and you'll stop your stupid depression. Drinking won't stop your pain and I don't want an alcoholic godfather for my baby! And the last condition, the harder one. You'll do everything you can to bring Masaki back to you."
"What?! Are you crazy?!"
"No. I am serious and Kazu too. We want Aiba as godfather too but not if you two are separate. Do what you want, take down the moon, sing him a song, kidnap him but do everything you can to bring him back."
"He hates me, how do you want I do?!"
"Firstly, change your life, become a real man, Aiba needs to be protected after what he went through, he doesn't need a pathetic alcoholic crybaby but a man! Change, Sho! And for your information, Masaki loves you."
"And if I refuse?"
"You will never see your nephew or Kazu and I again. You have the choice, Sho, always. We are the result of our choices and if you want to be able to look at you in a mirror and to live with your family, you have to change. I love you, Sho, you are like a brother for me but I won't let you destroying yourself anymore." Jun kissed my head and left the apartment. "You have six months." Jun exclaimed.
I sighed. What could I do? Maybe Jun was right, maybe it was time to stop this pain and to move on. Taking my keys, I left my apartment to walk at This place.
I kneeled in front of the grave, tears filling my eyes.
"Hello Satoshi." I whispered, touching the stone. "I'm sorry for letting you alone during all this time, my love but... I met someone. I helped him and he helped me to forget this pain in my heart but I hurt him. I destroyed him while he was only trying to exist in my eyes. I... I will never love someone as I love you but...but I know in my heart that I love Masaki and I need him to survive. I have so many regrets, so many things I want to change but it's impossible, ne? Sometimes, I would like to die to see you again but you wouldn't be happy if I killed myself, ne? I... I love you so much, I miss you so much my love but I know I have to move on. Masaki makes me happy, when I'm with him, I can smile again and forget you for a while. Fate stole me my life when you died but Kami-sama gave me a new hope and I spoiled it by acting like a moron! I will never forget you and our love but I can't live like that anymore. I have to change and to move on. You know, Jun and Nino will have a baby soon and they want me to be his godfather! I always wanted a baby but not without you, that's why I'm happy, because I'll be able to protect Jun's son or daughter. I promise I'll do everything I can to change and to bring Masaki back! Is it okay, my love? Can I love someone else?" I whispered to Sato's picture.
"Will you really change?" A voice made me jump.
"Masaki?!"
"I... I wanted to see Ohno-kun but I didn't know you would be there." Aiba looked away.
"Masa..."
"Was it true? Do you really love me?"
"Yes. I do."
"How can I trust you?" Aiba asked sadly.
"I will do anything to make you trust me again. Everything." I whispered, looking at him right in his eyes.
"Even if I ask you to stop your job?"
"Yes."
"And if ask you to see a professional?"
"I'll do it." I nodded.
"I... I don't know, Sho. How can I be sure you really love me and you aren't trying to use me to forget Ohno?"
"I..." I lowered my eyes, not knowing what to say.
"Maybe it's better like that. Maybe we have to stop." Aiba whispered, breaking my heart, tears filling my eyes.
"No."
"Eh?"
"No, you're wrong, Masaki. I...love you. I would do anything to prove you how much I love you but even if you don't believe me, don't say these kind of things because we shared lots of beautiful moments and I don't want to live without you. I've already lost Satoshi, I won't survive if I lose you."
"I... Sho... I prefer to stop. I can't trust you so easily, I... We can stay friends but I think I can't start a relationship with you again. I'm sorry."
"Masaki, please!" I grabbed his arm but Aiba shook his head and kissing my forehead, left.
I won't give up, Masaki. I'll fight for you even if you don't love me or trust me anymore. I'll become a man worthy of you.
Six months later...
"Sho!!!" Jun hugged me tight.
"Then?" I asked with a smile.
"It's a boy, come on!" Jun pushed me in a bedroom and I saw a beautiful woman on the bed with Nino toward her who was holding a baby.
"I'm Risa, Kazu's sister, nice to meet you."
"Sho Sakurai, nice to meet you." I smiled.
"Kazu, Sho wants to see him." Jun rolled his eyes but smiled tenderly when his lover pouted, holding me out his newborn son.
"Sho, this is our son, Satoshi." Jun said. I blinked and looked at him with wide eyes.
"Sat... Satoshi?"
"Hun." Nino nodded with a smile.
"I..."
"If you don't mind of course." Jun patted my shoulder.
"No... I mean... Thank you so much!" I grinned and looked at the sleeping baby in my arms. "Satoshi, you're beautiful, babe, you look like your papa Nino." I whispered, stroking the mole on the baby's chin who yawned cutely.
"He likes you." Nino smiled.
"He is so cute!!! Can I keep him?"
"Oi, it's my son!" Nino groaned, making us laugh.
"You two are lucky, omedetou." I whispered, staring at the tiny Satoshi.
"Are you proud to be his godfather?"
"I... I can't Jun. I failed, Masaki didn't come back." I muttered.
"I know but you took your promise, Sho, you changed." Jun grinned, Nino approving with a smile.
"I'm a lawyer again but..."
"Listen, I wanted you to change your life and to move on, you did it. I'm proud of you, Sho." Jun said softly.
"I... I miss Masaki so much." I lowered my eyes to look at the baby in my arms. "I wish it would be our son."
"Why don't you adopt, then?"
"I... Without Masaki, I... I can't imagine a family if he isn't with me."
"I understand." Jun sighed.
"I have to go. I'll come tomorrow." I whispered and left quickly, tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Don't you think it's enough, Masaki?" Jun asked. Aiba left the bathroom, staring at the ground.
"You wanted a proof, you have a proof. Sho loves you, don't you think both of you have suffered enough?"
"I..."
"Don't be so stubborn and forgive him." Nino smiled, patting his shoulder. Aiba raised his eyes and after some seconds, nodded and left the bedroom.
"Ahhh, it looks like a drama." Nino sighed with despair.
"Like Hana yori dango?" Jun chuckled.
****
I was staring at the ocean with sad eyes. This place was still the same. The pain in my heart was also here but I wasn't crying anymore. I was moving on after three years. With Masaki's start, I almost tried to kill myself but stopped at the last minute. I couldn't make my friends suffer because of my mistakes.
"I knew you would be there." A voice made me jump and I turned my head to see Aiba sitting next to me.
"Masaki?" He was thinner than six months ago but still so beautiful.
"You changed a lot." Aiba only said, looking at the sea.
"I... I did it for you but for myself too." I mumbled.
"I'm happy." Aiba smiled softly.
"How are you?"
"I found a job, I'm a zookeeper but I still live at Jun and Nino's house."
"Ehhh? You live there?"
"Yes. Jun asked me because I hadn't a job after our break up."
"I see."
"Sho... I... Do you really love me?" Aiba asked, looking at me.
"Yes." I answered immediately.
"Satoshi is cute, ne?"
"Yes. He looks like Nino."
"Yes. They are lucky."
"Masaki.... I... We could start again..." I whispered, knowing he would refuse.
"Okay."
"Eh?!"
"I... Sho, during these six months it was hard to be without you. Even if I left you and hated you for breaking my heart, I couldn't forget. I missed you so much." Aiba whispered, a tear rolling down his cheek.
"Masaki..." I put my hand on his cheek, wiping his tear.
"Can you love me again? Can you make me trust you again?" Aiba sobbed.
"I've never stopped to love you, Ma-chan. You are my life." I smiled and kissed him. Aiba wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed me back roughly, making us fall in the sand.
"I love you, Sho."
"I love you too... Masaki." I stroked his cheek before kissing him again with despair.
Five years later...
"Papaaaaa!!!! Papaaa, Sora pushed me!" A five years old boy cried, running to his father who laughed slightly.
"Hey, babe, don't cry."
"Sora!"
"Mouuu, Satoshi stole my car." Another five years old boy cried, climbing on his father's lap.
"Toshi, babe, apology to So." Jun stroked his son's head who pouted.
"Sorry, So." Satoshi mumbled.
"Sora, apology to Satoshi." Sho frowned.
"Sorry, Toshi." Sora muttered.
"Now, be a good boy and play with Sato, my love." Sho pecked his son's lips who nodded happily. Satoshi grinned and taking Sora's hand, ran to his bedroom.
"They are cute together, ne?" Aiba smiled tenderly, sitting on his lover's lap.
"They look like twins." Nino chuckled, laying his head against Jun's chest.
"They are born the same day after all." Jun nodded.
"And their parents are the best friends of the world." Aiba grinned.
"We should go, Masaki, I have an important meeting tomorrow." Sho said suddenly.
"Okay. Sora! Come on dear!" Aiba called their son who pouted but followed them.
"You'll see Satoshi tomorrow my love." Sho smiled, lifting his baby boy in his arms.
"Pinky promise?" Sora asked, raising his finger.
"Pinky promise, my love." Sho laughed, taking his son's finger.
He had taken his promises. He was alive and had a family. Even if the fate stole him the most precious person of his life, Sho knew he had two important persons now. His boyfriend and their son. Sometimes, life stole you everything but could also give you wonderful things. Just, fight for your happiness and maybe, one day, joy will fill your heart again...
Owari <3
A/N: Ano, this epilogue was more a chapter than an epilogue xD after killing my baby Satoshi T.T and hating myself for that *Yes, I wanted to slap my face for that xD* I wrote another end because, I couldn't let Sho alone like that, it would be too horrible T.T xD Sorry, another fluffy end but I had to put Sakuraiba as Ohchan was dead xD now, it's really the end T.T Sorry I couldn't bring Ohchan back *even if I wanted to xD* it would be weird, ne? XD So, sorry for the readers who love the Yama but this time... Ok, I stop with my useless blabla xD Thank you for reading, comments are <3 and see you soon for another story <3
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairing: Yama
Rating: R
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst
Disclaimer: This is an epilogue or maybe a sequel of my Yama fic, A broken promise.
Summary: After a traumatic experience, Sho's mind is on the line. Emptiness, sadness and pain are eating and killing him slowly. But if a miracle could give him back his smile and his happiness?
PART 2/2
For one month, I stayed in my apartment, drinking the whole day and crying in front of the movies with Aiba and I. I hated myself for what I did to him during these two years. I loved him. It was a reality even if I called him Satoshi all this time, my heart knew it was Aiba in front of me.
"You're pathetic, Sho." Jun said when he entered my apartment and saw me on the ground.
"Shut up!" I snapped.
"Drinking won't bring Aiba back." Jun replied.
"I know." I muttered.
"Sho..."
"What do you want?!"
"I came to see you and to tell you something."
"Hun?"
"Today was my last mission."
"What do you mean?"
"I quitted. I'll look for another job." Jun said softly.
"What?! But Jun, this job was your life!"
"Because you believe it was a pleasure to kill these people?! Kazu was right I was leaving through my past and my hatred toward the rapists but I have to stop that. For Kazu and our baby."
"Your...baby?"
"I wanted to see you for that too. Kazu found his sister and she is pregnant. She wanted to abort but Kaz' asked her to adopt the baby when he will be born." Jun smiled and I could see the happiness shining in his eyes.
"Congratulation... I guess. But why do you tell me that?"
"We want you to be the godfather of our baby."
"I... Really?" I widened my eyes, shocked.
"Yes but there are conditions."
"What?" I frowned, knowing I won't like what will follow.
"Firstly, you have to stop this stupid revenge. You have to see a psychologist to overcome Satoshi's death..."
"I'm all right!"
"Shut up, Sakurai! You'll see a psychologist and you'll stop your stupid depression. Drinking won't stop your pain and I don't want an alcoholic godfather for my baby! And the last condition, the harder one. You'll do everything you can to bring Masaki back to you."
"What?! Are you crazy?!"
"No. I am serious and Kazu too. We want Aiba as godfather too but not if you two are separate. Do what you want, take down the moon, sing him a song, kidnap him but do everything you can to bring him back."
"He hates me, how do you want I do?!"
"Firstly, change your life, become a real man, Aiba needs to be protected after what he went through, he doesn't need a pathetic alcoholic crybaby but a man! Change, Sho! And for your information, Masaki loves you."
"And if I refuse?"
"You will never see your nephew or Kazu and I again. You have the choice, Sho, always. We are the result of our choices and if you want to be able to look at you in a mirror and to live with your family, you have to change. I love you, Sho, you are like a brother for me but I won't let you destroying yourself anymore." Jun kissed my head and left the apartment. "You have six months." Jun exclaimed.
I sighed. What could I do? Maybe Jun was right, maybe it was time to stop this pain and to move on. Taking my keys, I left my apartment to walk at This place.
I kneeled in front of the grave, tears filling my eyes.
"Hello Satoshi." I whispered, touching the stone. "I'm sorry for letting you alone during all this time, my love but... I met someone. I helped him and he helped me to forget this pain in my heart but I hurt him. I destroyed him while he was only trying to exist in my eyes. I... I will never love someone as I love you but...but I know in my heart that I love Masaki and I need him to survive. I have so many regrets, so many things I want to change but it's impossible, ne? Sometimes, I would like to die to see you again but you wouldn't be happy if I killed myself, ne? I... I love you so much, I miss you so much my love but I know I have to move on. Masaki makes me happy, when I'm with him, I can smile again and forget you for a while. Fate stole me my life when you died but Kami-sama gave me a new hope and I spoiled it by acting like a moron! I will never forget you and our love but I can't live like that anymore. I have to change and to move on. You know, Jun and Nino will have a baby soon and they want me to be his godfather! I always wanted a baby but not without you, that's why I'm happy, because I'll be able to protect Jun's son or daughter. I promise I'll do everything I can to change and to bring Masaki back! Is it okay, my love? Can I love someone else?" I whispered to Sato's picture.
"Will you really change?" A voice made me jump.
"Masaki?!"
"I... I wanted to see Ohno-kun but I didn't know you would be there." Aiba looked away.
"Masa..."
"Was it true? Do you really love me?"
"Yes. I do."
"How can I trust you?" Aiba asked sadly.
"I will do anything to make you trust me again. Everything." I whispered, looking at him right in his eyes.
"Even if I ask you to stop your job?"
"Yes."
"And if ask you to see a professional?"
"I'll do it." I nodded.
"I... I don't know, Sho. How can I be sure you really love me and you aren't trying to use me to forget Ohno?"
"I..." I lowered my eyes, not knowing what to say.
"Maybe it's better like that. Maybe we have to stop." Aiba whispered, breaking my heart, tears filling my eyes.
"No."
"Eh?"
"No, you're wrong, Masaki. I...love you. I would do anything to prove you how much I love you but even if you don't believe me, don't say these kind of things because we shared lots of beautiful moments and I don't want to live without you. I've already lost Satoshi, I won't survive if I lose you."
"I... Sho... I prefer to stop. I can't trust you so easily, I... We can stay friends but I think I can't start a relationship with you again. I'm sorry."
"Masaki, please!" I grabbed his arm but Aiba shook his head and kissing my forehead, left.
I won't give up, Masaki. I'll fight for you even if you don't love me or trust me anymore. I'll become a man worthy of you.
Six months later...
"Sho!!!" Jun hugged me tight.
"Then?" I asked with a smile.
"It's a boy, come on!" Jun pushed me in a bedroom and I saw a beautiful woman on the bed with Nino toward her who was holding a baby.
"I'm Risa, Kazu's sister, nice to meet you."
"Sho Sakurai, nice to meet you." I smiled.
"Kazu, Sho wants to see him." Jun rolled his eyes but smiled tenderly when his lover pouted, holding me out his newborn son.
"Sho, this is our son, Satoshi." Jun said. I blinked and looked at him with wide eyes.
"Sat... Satoshi?"
"Hun." Nino nodded with a smile.
"I..."
"If you don't mind of course." Jun patted my shoulder.
"No... I mean... Thank you so much!" I grinned and looked at the sleeping baby in my arms. "Satoshi, you're beautiful, babe, you look like your papa Nino." I whispered, stroking the mole on the baby's chin who yawned cutely.
"He likes you." Nino smiled.
"He is so cute!!! Can I keep him?"
"Oi, it's my son!" Nino groaned, making us laugh.
"You two are lucky, omedetou." I whispered, staring at the tiny Satoshi.
"Are you proud to be his godfather?"
"I... I can't Jun. I failed, Masaki didn't come back." I muttered.
"I know but you took your promise, Sho, you changed." Jun grinned, Nino approving with a smile.
"I'm a lawyer again but..."
"Listen, I wanted you to change your life and to move on, you did it. I'm proud of you, Sho." Jun said softly.
"I... I miss Masaki so much." I lowered my eyes to look at the baby in my arms. "I wish it would be our son."
"Why don't you adopt, then?"
"I... Without Masaki, I... I can't imagine a family if he isn't with me."
"I understand." Jun sighed.
"I have to go. I'll come tomorrow." I whispered and left quickly, tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Don't you think it's enough, Masaki?" Jun asked. Aiba left the bathroom, staring at the ground.
"You wanted a proof, you have a proof. Sho loves you, don't you think both of you have suffered enough?"
"I..."
"Don't be so stubborn and forgive him." Nino smiled, patting his shoulder. Aiba raised his eyes and after some seconds, nodded and left the bedroom.
"Ahhh, it looks like a drama." Nino sighed with despair.
"Like Hana yori dango?" Jun chuckled.
****
I was staring at the ocean with sad eyes. This place was still the same. The pain in my heart was also here but I wasn't crying anymore. I was moving on after three years. With Masaki's start, I almost tried to kill myself but stopped at the last minute. I couldn't make my friends suffer because of my mistakes.
"I knew you would be there." A voice made me jump and I turned my head to see Aiba sitting next to me.
"Masaki?" He was thinner than six months ago but still so beautiful.
"You changed a lot." Aiba only said, looking at the sea.
"I... I did it for you but for myself too." I mumbled.
"I'm happy." Aiba smiled softly.
"How are you?"
"I found a job, I'm a zookeeper but I still live at Jun and Nino's house."
"Ehhh? You live there?"
"Yes. Jun asked me because I hadn't a job after our break up."
"I see."
"Sho... I... Do you really love me?" Aiba asked, looking at me.
"Yes." I answered immediately.
"Satoshi is cute, ne?"
"Yes. He looks like Nino."
"Yes. They are lucky."
"Masaki.... I... We could start again..." I whispered, knowing he would refuse.
"Okay."
"Eh?!"
"I... Sho, during these six months it was hard to be without you. Even if I left you and hated you for breaking my heart, I couldn't forget. I missed you so much." Aiba whispered, a tear rolling down his cheek.
"Masaki..." I put my hand on his cheek, wiping his tear.
"Can you love me again? Can you make me trust you again?" Aiba sobbed.
"I've never stopped to love you, Ma-chan. You are my life." I smiled and kissed him. Aiba wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed me back roughly, making us fall in the sand.
"I love you, Sho."
"I love you too... Masaki." I stroked his cheek before kissing him again with despair.
Five years later...
"Papaaaaa!!!! Papaaa, Sora pushed me!" A five years old boy cried, running to his father who laughed slightly.
"Hey, babe, don't cry."
"Sora!"
"Mouuu, Satoshi stole my car." Another five years old boy cried, climbing on his father's lap.
"Toshi, babe, apology to So." Jun stroked his son's head who pouted.
"Sorry, So." Satoshi mumbled.
"Sora, apology to Satoshi." Sho frowned.
"Sorry, Toshi." Sora muttered.
"Now, be a good boy and play with Sato, my love." Sho pecked his son's lips who nodded happily. Satoshi grinned and taking Sora's hand, ran to his bedroom.
"They are cute together, ne?" Aiba smiled tenderly, sitting on his lover's lap.
"They look like twins." Nino chuckled, laying his head against Jun's chest.
"They are born the same day after all." Jun nodded.
"And their parents are the best friends of the world." Aiba grinned.
"We should go, Masaki, I have an important meeting tomorrow." Sho said suddenly.
"Okay. Sora! Come on dear!" Aiba called their son who pouted but followed them.
"You'll see Satoshi tomorrow my love." Sho smiled, lifting his baby boy in his arms.
"Pinky promise?" Sora asked, raising his finger.
"Pinky promise, my love." Sho laughed, taking his son's finger.
He had taken his promises. He was alive and had a family. Even if the fate stole him the most precious person of his life, Sho knew he had two important persons now. His boyfriend and their son. Sometimes, life stole you everything but could also give you wonderful things. Just, fight for your happiness and maybe, one day, joy will fill your heart again...
Owari <3
A/N: Ano, this epilogue was more a chapter than an epilogue xD after killing my baby Satoshi T.T and hating myself for that *Yes, I wanted to slap my face for that xD* I wrote another end because, I couldn't let Sho alone like that, it would be too horrible T.T xD Sorry, another fluffy end but I had to put Sakuraiba as Ohchan was dead xD now, it's really the end T.T Sorry I couldn't bring Ohchan back *even if I wanted to xD* it would be weird, ne? XD So, sorry for the readers who love the Yama but this time... Ok, I stop with my useless blabla xD Thank you for reading, comments are <3 and see you soon for another story <3