All these things we don't tell each other (chapter 6)
Title: All these things we don't tell each other
Author: MatsuAurore
Banner: Lilisan31 <3
Pairings: Yama, Ohmiya, Junba
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: Bad for me, only own the plot T.T
Summary: What can you do when the person you love more than your own life is only looking at your best friend? What can you do when you know this person would never see you like you see her? And if your biggest wish came true but at the same time, getting close to her also meant pushing her farther from you...
Chapter 6:
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy...
Satoshi
I knew I would suffer if Kazu rejected me but not as much as now. I felt guilty for letting him kiss me but I was too surprised to react. And when he closed his door, saying goodbye and calling me 'Ohno-san', I thought my world was crashing down. For one month I tried to see him but he never answered me and Jun too. I knew Junny was doing that because Kazu asked him to but I felt so lonely. I couldn't respond to Kazu's feelings but I needed him. I needed my friend by my side. That's why I tried to respect Kazu's wish and stayed away from him even if it killed me, knowing I wouldn't be here the night to support him. I had promised him to always be there for him and I betrayed his trust.
Sho was happy by this changement because I spent more time with him and to be honest, I really missed our US.
"Satoshi?" Sho asked me, making me jump.
"Hun?"
"Could you teach me how to dance I know it's your passion."
"Really?!"
"Yes, you could teach me." Sho smiled and I climbed on his lap to kiss him deeply.
"Thank you." I whispered between our lips.
"Anything for you baby." Sho stroked my cheek and I closed my eyes, enjoying his soft touch on my skin. He hugged me and we stayed like that, in each other's arms.
We spent the day in the room where I was doing my training for the butai, dancing, laughing and kissing each other. It was so sweet, so perfect that I believed my heart was going to explode in happiness. Sho made love to me roughly but yet so tenderly, taking me deeply, making me moan and scream in pleasure. Sex with Sho was always amazing, as if a fire was burning inside of my chest. He knew my body so well, he knew how to make me beg him, he knew how to drive me crazy about him. To be honest, he was so good that I looked like a bitch, screaming dirty and pervert things while his shaft was fucking me roughly.
"What are you thinking about?" Sho asked, hugging me from behind and kissing my temple.
"At how much I love you." I whispered, putting my hands on his arms around my waist.
"And?"
"I love you as much as the stage." I said, making him chuckle.
"And do you love to dance more than you love me?" Sho asked.
"I don't know... Maybe..." I teased him.
Sho pouted and pushed me on the ground to climb on me. His lips traveled on my neck and I felt his tongue licking my skin, sending shivers in my whole body.
"You know, I've never ever loved someone as much as I do love you, Satoshi..." Sho whispered in my ear.
"Sho..." I put my hand on his cheek and he kissed my palm lovingly.
"You're my life, Satoshi." Tears filled my eyes. Never someone had ever told me such beautiful words. I kissed him deeply, whispering how much my heart was beating for him. But deep inside me, my heart was aching, thinking about Kazu...
The next morning, I woke up late because Sho had almost made love to me the whole night. My body was sore but it felt so good at the same time. I walked in the kitchen and saw a note on the table.
My love,
I had something to do but wait for me at our café for a sweet date at 3 p.m.
I'll have a surprise for you. I love you more than anything.
Sho
Despite the happiness, my heart tightened. I really didn't deserve an amazing man like Sho. Shaking my head, I took a shower and after taking some clothes, left our apartment. I was walking happily toward our café and chose our usual seats. The waiter took my order and I checked my message, hoping for some news from Sho.
Sho grabbed his suit and his keys before leaving his office. He was happy because his parents wanted to meet the most important person of his life and soon, his relationship with Satoshi will become official. Sho left the building and when the light became green, the young lawyer crossed the road but at the same time, a woman screamed. Sho raised his eyes and saw a car charging at a woman with her baby. Without thinking more, Sho ran toward her and pushed her away but the car crashed into him. Loud screams resounded in the street. On the ground, a young man was laid, lots of blood covering his whole body while his phone was keeping buzzing.
I frowned when Sho didn't answer to my calls. It wasn't like him to be late and he always answered his phone. I tried again and this time, a voice answered.
"My love, where are you?" I asked happily.
"Argn. Here is Sakurai-san's friend?"
"Y... Yes... Who are you?" I stammered.
"I'm sorry but Sakurai-san was implied in an accident."
"Eh?! How is he?!!"
"You should come, Keio hospital." The man said before cutting the line.
I stayed paralyzed, looking at my phone in my hand. After some seconds, I grabbed my jacket and left the café, running like I never did before. When I arrived at the hospital, my heart almost stopped, seeing Jun crying loudly in his boyfriend's arms. Nino was there too and even if he wasn't crying, I saw the sadness when our eyes met.
"Satoshi..." Nino said, making our friends turn toward me. Tears fell on my cheeks before everything became black.
Four years later...
Kazunari
"Gosh..." I moaned, my hands griping his hips while I was trusting inside of him roughly.
"Kazu! Arg... Kazu, make me come!" Ohno implored, turning his head to look at me with those pleading eyes. I pushed violently once more time and my 'lover' came in a loud moan. I kept trusting in his wonderful hole, biting his back, my hand holding his nape in a submissive way.
"Fuck, you're so amazing!" I shouted when I released inside of him.
I collapsed next to him, breathing heavily. Sex was always amazing with him even after two years. Ohno stroked my chest and started to lay lots of kisses on my neck but I stopped him.
"Stop that." I ordered.
Ohno looked at me with hurt eyes but nodded and stood up to take a shower. I lighted a cigarette and took a deep breath, looking at the sky in front of me. I heard Satoshi taking his clothes before he lowered his head to kiss me but I moved away.
"See you tonight, Nino." I was always shivering when he was saying my nickname and not my first name.
"Ohno?"
"Hun?" Ohno looked at me with curious eyes.
"It was fun." I mumbled, making him nod before leaving.
Tears filled my eyes when he left but I pushed my pain away. It was better like that. Our friendship had really changed for these past four years. Now, there only was sadness and pain in our hearts since Sho's accident. Taking my clothes, I left my apartment and walked to my favorite bar.
"Kazu." A voice made me jump and I raised my eyes to see Jun in front of me.
"Yo, J." I smiled.
"You're not with Satoshi?"
"I just fucked him one hour ago. He'll come tonight." I smirked.
"Kazu, you know you two are destroying yourselves?" Jun sat down next to me and I laid my head on his shoulder.
"No. He needs to be fucked, I want to fuck him, I fuck him and everybody is happy." I said in an ironic tone.
"Kazu... You love him." Jun sighed, kissing my temple.
"No. Not anymore. Ohno only needs someone to forget and I need someone to occupy myself." I shrugged.
"Why are you trying to destroy your life like that? Don't you think it was enough with Sho?"
"Ohno still loves Sho and it will never change. He is my sex toy not more." I chuckled.
"Are you listening to yourself? You would have never said things like that before Sho's accident. You loved Satoshi so much."
"I loved, yes, that's the word." I replied.
"You two are so stubborn." Jun sighed and left.
"I know..." I whispered sadly.
Ohno came at 8 p.m and, laying my back against the bed, I looked at him with cold eyes.
"Strip yourself." I ordered. Ohno nodded and slowly, started to take his shirt off, making me lick my lips hungrily. Even after all these years and despite his loss of weight, Ohno was still as sexy and beautiful as before.
When he finished naked, I told him to climb on the bed.
"Suck me." I ordered. Ohno started to kiss my chest but I pushed him away. "No kisses, you know it." I said coldly. Ohno nodded and swallowed my hard cock. I moaned loudly and pushed on his head, thrusting my hips forward in loud screams. Gosh, his mouth always felt amazing around me. After some minutes, I had my hands on his head, moving my hips backward and forward, ordering him to tighten his mouth around me.
"Fuck, yes!!!" I screamed, releasing in his mouth. I collapsed on my back, panting, Ohno licking his lips as if he was happy by how I had humiliated him. "Ride me, babe." I ordered.
Again, Ohno nodded and climbing on my hips, pushed his hips down, my cock entering his asshole roughly. I never allowed him to prepare himself nor take some lube but he liked that, I knew it. His hips started to undulate on top of me, moans leaving our throats while he was riding me roughly.
"Nino!" Ohno arched his head back and I grabbed his hips to thrust harder inside of him.
"Fucking gosh, Ohno!!!" I gasped and pushed him away.
I walked on the balcony and he followed me before kneeling down. He knew what I wanted and in a fluid movement, I took him again roughly. It always drove me crazy when I was fucking him like that outside, his moans resounding and mixing with the wind. I pushed harder, taking him in a crazy rhythm, scratching his back. I came first and collapsed on the ground.
"Gosh..." I looked at him and his still painfully hard cock. "Make you come yourself."
Ohno grabbed his shaft and started to jerk him off in loud moans.
"Say my name when you masturbate your big dick!" I snapped.
"Ni-no. Arg... Oh yes, Nino..." Ohno whined, his head arching back.
"Fuck, I want you again." I hissed, looking down on my hard cock. "Suck me while you keep stroking yourself!"
My 'lover' swallowed my cock again, still pumping his own member but I quickly pushed him away on his back and took him violently.
"Talk!" Ohno understood immediately what I meant and, moving his hips up and down, obeyed.
"Nino..."
"What do you want?"
"Please, fuck me harder!" Ohno whined.
"More."
"Make me come!"
"More!"
"I want your cum inside of my ass!" Ohno screamed, making us come at the same time.
"Gosh, always so amazing." I panted and walked to my bed.
After a while, Ohno came and laid down next to me, wrapping his arm around my waist. I froze but let him do.
When he fell asleep, I pushed him delicately on his back, looking at his cute chubby sleepy face. Satoshi wasn't the same than four years ago. His face was pale and he had lost a lot of weight. I stroked his cheek and kissed his lips softly.
"I'm so sorry, Satoshi." I whispered, kissing him again before turning my back toward him to sleep. I didn't see his sad smile and the tear rolling down his cheek when I closed my eyes.
Sometimes, I wished Sho never had this accident, we would be happier...
To be continued...
A/N: Ano, Don’t hate me please ;w; I didn't plan how Toshi and Kazu's relationship turned in this chapter but I had to follow this way for the story. In the next chapter, you'll know what happened to Sho this day and why Toshi and Kazu's relationship became like that.
For the readers who love our lovely Yama, don't worry, it's not finish yet xD
Don't think the Yama is over because it's not, you'll see in the next chapter that Sho and Ohchan's relationship will become even stronger after Sho's accident xD
Author: MatsuAurore
Banner: Lilisan31 <3
Pairings: Yama, Ohmiya, Junba
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: Bad for me, only own the plot T.T
Summary: What can you do when the person you love more than your own life is only looking at your best friend? What can you do when you know this person would never see you like you see her? And if your biggest wish came true but at the same time, getting close to her also meant pushing her farther from you...
Chapter 6:
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy...
Satoshi
I knew I would suffer if Kazu rejected me but not as much as now. I felt guilty for letting him kiss me but I was too surprised to react. And when he closed his door, saying goodbye and calling me 'Ohno-san', I thought my world was crashing down. For one month I tried to see him but he never answered me and Jun too. I knew Junny was doing that because Kazu asked him to but I felt so lonely. I couldn't respond to Kazu's feelings but I needed him. I needed my friend by my side. That's why I tried to respect Kazu's wish and stayed away from him even if it killed me, knowing I wouldn't be here the night to support him. I had promised him to always be there for him and I betrayed his trust.
Sho was happy by this changement because I spent more time with him and to be honest, I really missed our US.
"Satoshi?" Sho asked me, making me jump.
"Hun?"
"Could you teach me how to dance I know it's your passion."
"Really?!"
"Yes, you could teach me." Sho smiled and I climbed on his lap to kiss him deeply.
"Thank you." I whispered between our lips.
"Anything for you baby." Sho stroked my cheek and I closed my eyes, enjoying his soft touch on my skin. He hugged me and we stayed like that, in each other's arms.
We spent the day in the room where I was doing my training for the butai, dancing, laughing and kissing each other. It was so sweet, so perfect that I believed my heart was going to explode in happiness. Sho made love to me roughly but yet so tenderly, taking me deeply, making me moan and scream in pleasure. Sex with Sho was always amazing, as if a fire was burning inside of my chest. He knew my body so well, he knew how to make me beg him, he knew how to drive me crazy about him. To be honest, he was so good that I looked like a bitch, screaming dirty and pervert things while his shaft was fucking me roughly.
"What are you thinking about?" Sho asked, hugging me from behind and kissing my temple.
"At how much I love you." I whispered, putting my hands on his arms around my waist.
"And?"
"I love you as much as the stage." I said, making him chuckle.
"And do you love to dance more than you love me?" Sho asked.
"I don't know... Maybe..." I teased him.
Sho pouted and pushed me on the ground to climb on me. His lips traveled on my neck and I felt his tongue licking my skin, sending shivers in my whole body.
"You know, I've never ever loved someone as much as I do love you, Satoshi..." Sho whispered in my ear.
"Sho..." I put my hand on his cheek and he kissed my palm lovingly.
"You're my life, Satoshi." Tears filled my eyes. Never someone had ever told me such beautiful words. I kissed him deeply, whispering how much my heart was beating for him. But deep inside me, my heart was aching, thinking about Kazu...
The next morning, I woke up late because Sho had almost made love to me the whole night. My body was sore but it felt so good at the same time. I walked in the kitchen and saw a note on the table.
My love,
I had something to do but wait for me at our café for a sweet date at 3 p.m.
I'll have a surprise for you. I love you more than anything.
Sho
Despite the happiness, my heart tightened. I really didn't deserve an amazing man like Sho. Shaking my head, I took a shower and after taking some clothes, left our apartment. I was walking happily toward our café and chose our usual seats. The waiter took my order and I checked my message, hoping for some news from Sho.
Sho grabbed his suit and his keys before leaving his office. He was happy because his parents wanted to meet the most important person of his life and soon, his relationship with Satoshi will become official. Sho left the building and when the light became green, the young lawyer crossed the road but at the same time, a woman screamed. Sho raised his eyes and saw a car charging at a woman with her baby. Without thinking more, Sho ran toward her and pushed her away but the car crashed into him. Loud screams resounded in the street. On the ground, a young man was laid, lots of blood covering his whole body while his phone was keeping buzzing.
I frowned when Sho didn't answer to my calls. It wasn't like him to be late and he always answered his phone. I tried again and this time, a voice answered.
"My love, where are you?" I asked happily.
"Argn. Here is Sakurai-san's friend?"
"Y... Yes... Who are you?" I stammered.
"I'm sorry but Sakurai-san was implied in an accident."
"Eh?! How is he?!!"
"You should come, Keio hospital." The man said before cutting the line.
I stayed paralyzed, looking at my phone in my hand. After some seconds, I grabbed my jacket and left the café, running like I never did before. When I arrived at the hospital, my heart almost stopped, seeing Jun crying loudly in his boyfriend's arms. Nino was there too and even if he wasn't crying, I saw the sadness when our eyes met.
"Satoshi..." Nino said, making our friends turn toward me. Tears fell on my cheeks before everything became black.
Four years later...
Kazunari
"Gosh..." I moaned, my hands griping his hips while I was trusting inside of him roughly.
"Kazu! Arg... Kazu, make me come!" Ohno implored, turning his head to look at me with those pleading eyes. I pushed violently once more time and my 'lover' came in a loud moan. I kept trusting in his wonderful hole, biting his back, my hand holding his nape in a submissive way.
"Fuck, you're so amazing!" I shouted when I released inside of him.
I collapsed next to him, breathing heavily. Sex was always amazing with him even after two years. Ohno stroked my chest and started to lay lots of kisses on my neck but I stopped him.
"Stop that." I ordered.
Ohno looked at me with hurt eyes but nodded and stood up to take a shower. I lighted a cigarette and took a deep breath, looking at the sky in front of me. I heard Satoshi taking his clothes before he lowered his head to kiss me but I moved away.
"See you tonight, Nino." I was always shivering when he was saying my nickname and not my first name.
"Ohno?"
"Hun?" Ohno looked at me with curious eyes.
"It was fun." I mumbled, making him nod before leaving.
Tears filled my eyes when he left but I pushed my pain away. It was better like that. Our friendship had really changed for these past four years. Now, there only was sadness and pain in our hearts since Sho's accident. Taking my clothes, I left my apartment and walked to my favorite bar.
"Kazu." A voice made me jump and I raised my eyes to see Jun in front of me.
"Yo, J." I smiled.
"You're not with Satoshi?"
"I just fucked him one hour ago. He'll come tonight." I smirked.
"Kazu, you know you two are destroying yourselves?" Jun sat down next to me and I laid my head on his shoulder.
"No. He needs to be fucked, I want to fuck him, I fuck him and everybody is happy." I said in an ironic tone.
"Kazu... You love him." Jun sighed, kissing my temple.
"No. Not anymore. Ohno only needs someone to forget and I need someone to occupy myself." I shrugged.
"Why are you trying to destroy your life like that? Don't you think it was enough with Sho?"
"Ohno still loves Sho and it will never change. He is my sex toy not more." I chuckled.
"Are you listening to yourself? You would have never said things like that before Sho's accident. You loved Satoshi so much."
"I loved, yes, that's the word." I replied.
"You two are so stubborn." Jun sighed and left.
"I know..." I whispered sadly.
Ohno came at 8 p.m and, laying my back against the bed, I looked at him with cold eyes.
"Strip yourself." I ordered. Ohno nodded and slowly, started to take his shirt off, making me lick my lips hungrily. Even after all these years and despite his loss of weight, Ohno was still as sexy and beautiful as before.
When he finished naked, I told him to climb on the bed.
"Suck me." I ordered. Ohno started to kiss my chest but I pushed him away. "No kisses, you know it." I said coldly. Ohno nodded and swallowed my hard cock. I moaned loudly and pushed on his head, thrusting my hips forward in loud screams. Gosh, his mouth always felt amazing around me. After some minutes, I had my hands on his head, moving my hips backward and forward, ordering him to tighten his mouth around me.
"Fuck, yes!!!" I screamed, releasing in his mouth. I collapsed on my back, panting, Ohno licking his lips as if he was happy by how I had humiliated him. "Ride me, babe." I ordered.
Again, Ohno nodded and climbing on my hips, pushed his hips down, my cock entering his asshole roughly. I never allowed him to prepare himself nor take some lube but he liked that, I knew it. His hips started to undulate on top of me, moans leaving our throats while he was riding me roughly.
"Nino!" Ohno arched his head back and I grabbed his hips to thrust harder inside of him.
"Fucking gosh, Ohno!!!" I gasped and pushed him away.
I walked on the balcony and he followed me before kneeling down. He knew what I wanted and in a fluid movement, I took him again roughly. It always drove me crazy when I was fucking him like that outside, his moans resounding and mixing with the wind. I pushed harder, taking him in a crazy rhythm, scratching his back. I came first and collapsed on the ground.
"Gosh..." I looked at him and his still painfully hard cock. "Make you come yourself."
Ohno grabbed his shaft and started to jerk him off in loud moans.
"Say my name when you masturbate your big dick!" I snapped.
"Ni-no. Arg... Oh yes, Nino..." Ohno whined, his head arching back.
"Fuck, I want you again." I hissed, looking down on my hard cock. "Suck me while you keep stroking yourself!"
My 'lover' swallowed my cock again, still pumping his own member but I quickly pushed him away on his back and took him violently.
"Talk!" Ohno understood immediately what I meant and, moving his hips up and down, obeyed.
"Nino..."
"What do you want?"
"Please, fuck me harder!" Ohno whined.
"More."
"Make me come!"
"More!"
"I want your cum inside of my ass!" Ohno screamed, making us come at the same time.
"Gosh, always so amazing." I panted and walked to my bed.
After a while, Ohno came and laid down next to me, wrapping his arm around my waist. I froze but let him do.
When he fell asleep, I pushed him delicately on his back, looking at his cute chubby sleepy face. Satoshi wasn't the same than four years ago. His face was pale and he had lost a lot of weight. I stroked his cheek and kissed his lips softly.
"I'm so sorry, Satoshi." I whispered, kissing him again before turning my back toward him to sleep. I didn't see his sad smile and the tear rolling down his cheek when I closed my eyes.
Sometimes, I wished Sho never had this accident, we would be happier...
To be continued...
A/N: Ano, Don’t hate me please ;w; I didn't plan how Toshi and Kazu's relationship turned in this chapter but I had to follow this way for the story. In the next chapter, you'll know what happened to Sho this day and why Toshi and Kazu's relationship became like that.
For the readers who love our lovely Yama, don't worry, it's not finish yet xD
Don't think the Yama is over because it's not, you'll see in the next chapter that Sho and Ohchan's relationship will become even stronger after Sho's accident xD