All these things we don't tell each other (chapter 13)
Title: All these things we don't tell each other
Author: MatsuAurore
Banner: Lilisan31 <3
Pairings: Yama, Ohmiya, Matsumiya (friendship)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: If I owned them, I would keep the sex parts for me xD
Summary: What can you do when the person you love more than your own life is only looking at your best friend? What can you do when you know this person would never see you like you see her? And if your biggest wish came true but at the same time, getting close to her also meant pushing her farther from you...
Chapter 13:
"Together forever
I won't get lost anymore
Together forever
Not until I get there
Shine on us..."
Satoshi
"Sho?" I let go off my phone. Sho? Was it a dream or was it real?
"I'm awake, my love." I heard my boyfriend through the line and without thinking anymore, ran out of the apartment to join the hospital.
When I opened the door violently, I saw Sho, smiling to his crying mother.
"Sho..." I whispered and when my boyfriend looked at me, I fell on my knees, crying silently, my hand on my mouth.
"Hey, babe, I'm here, don't cry." Sho held out his hand and I rushed toward him to take it and kiss his palm.
"I'm hungry, I have to go." Sho's mother smiled and left the bedroom. When she closed the door behind her, I almost jumped on Sho and kissed him roughly.
"Hey, you're going to eat my lips, baby." Sho chuckled, pushing me away a little.
"I missed you so much, Sho!" I cried, burying my face in his neck.
"I'm so sorry for making you wait my love." Sho whispered, stroking my face kindly.
"Don't ever leave me again!" I replied.
"Never." Sho smiled happily. My boyfriend hugged me tightly and we ended our night in each other's arms.
The next day, a knock on the door made us jump but I stayed in Sho's arms and blinked, seeing Jun, Masaki and Kazu.
"Sho!!!" Aiba screamed and threw his arms around my lover, crying like he never did.
"You're still such a crybaby, Ma-chan." Sho chuckled but I knew how touched he was to see his best friend crying.
"Welcome back on earth, Sho." Jun grinned, kissing his cheek. Nino only bowed, his eyes traveling on our linked hands and my face in Sho's neck.
"You slept a while, L.L." Jun smirked.
"L.L?" I raised my eyebrows, wondering what he meant.
"Lazy Lawyer. I was used to call him like that because he always needed three clocks to wake up." Jun smirked making us laugh.
"So, what will you do now you're finally awake?" Aiba asked.
"Well, I'll start my job again and I'll come back in our apartment, ne, Toshi?" Sho squeezed my hand and I forced a smile, trying to avoid Kazu's gaze.
"Hun." I nodded happily and Sho kissed me deeply.
"Arg. So, we leave you two alone." Aiba coughed.
"Satoshi, can I have a word with you?" Jun asked and I nodded, following him outside.
"What are you going to do?" Jun asked me.
"What do you mean?" I frowned.
"Ano, Satoshi, do you realize your boyfriend is awake but you were dating Kazu?"
"I wasn't dating Kazu."
"Oh really and what were you doing during these three years?! Playing monopoly?!"
"Listen, Jun. Kazunari needed me because of his crises and I needed him because I couldn't lose him but now, I...." I stopped when Jun slapped my face roughly.
"Who can you say that?! I don't recognize you, how can you do that to your own best friend?!" Jun shouted.
"You don't understand, Jun. I love Sho. Kazu told me during these past three years I was only an object for him, he doesn't even love me so, don't judge me!" I snapped angrily.
"I knew I couldn't let you Kazu." Jun said coldly, leaving.
"Jun!"
"Don't you dare to approach him again or..." Jun looked me with frightening eyes, hatred shining in his look. "Or I'll kill you." My friend added before leaving.
"Jun..." I whispered, tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Leave him some time, he is only worried for Nino." Aiba patted my shoulder kindly.
"I've never seen these eyes..." I whispered, shivering.
"Scaring, ne?" Aiba chuckled. "You know, Jun went through lots of violence and there are deep scars in his heart. That's why if you hurt Nino, this hatred comes back and he can scared you easily." Aiba added softly.
"Does he ever do that to you?"
"Yes. One time. I was so afraid that I cried and he never did it again. But Ohchan, you have to know one thing that Kazu and Jun have in common." Aiba looked at me with serious eyes.
"What?"
"They are professional when they want to hide their feelings. Nino is very sensitive and fragile and sometimes, he says things he doesn't mean to hide these feelings."
"What do you mean?"
"When he told you he was using you, it was a lie. You're very important for Nino and don't believe his cold attitude was because he is heartless." Aiba smiled sadly.
"But..."
"Think about it. Your head must be a big mess. Think and take a decision but don't forget it will be definitive." Aiba said before leaving.
Eh? What did he mean?
When I came back home, I sat on my sofa and grabbed my head with both hands. What should I do now Jun hated me? Does my fate was to never see Kazu again, after all what happened? I couldn't stay away from him, he was too precious for me.
"Moshi mosh?"
"Kazu, it's me." I said through the line.
"Ah. Ohno. What do you want?" Nino asked in a neutral tone.
"I wanted to talk about Sho's wake up."
"Hun. Don't worry, Ohno, I know you would choose him, you love him after all and I'm very happy for you two."
"But Kazu..."
"I really don't want to talk about it, Ohno. Good luck, be happy with Sho, you deserve it." Nino replied and cut the line.
I looked at my phone with sad eyes.
From: Toshi
To: Kazu
Kazu, I wanted to talk more, to tell you so many things but you cut the line before I could. Will you stay my friend?
Your Toshi.
From: Kazu
To: Toshi
I also wanted to tell you many things but it's too late now. I just want you to be happy because despite my horrible attitudes with you, you're an important friend in my eyes. Just... Be happy with Sho. I don't know if I'll be able to stay your friend but I promise you I'll try, let me some time, please.
Nino.
From: Toshi
To: Kazu
Please, Kazu, stop that! Stop this cold attitude toward me, I can't bear it. I need you, Kazu. I know I'm horrible and selfish but I need you so much in my life to be truly happy. There were so many things, so many words I wanted to tell you but I never found the courage to do it. Will you be okay if you're alone to sleep?
Your Toshi
From: Kazu
To: Toshi
Stop that, Satoshi! Stop destroying yourself like that and stop to waste your time with someone like me. You don't need me, it's an illusion, you need Sho and only Sho. I was the one who needed you during these ten years. But I'm okay, I have my psychologist and I don't make crises anymore. You have to accept that we have to take different ways, now. Don't cry, please.
Nino
From: Toshi
To: Kazu
WHY?! Why are you trying to reject me? Am I not your friend? Don't you love me at least as your friend instead of loving me as your boyfriend?! And are you sure you don't make night terrors anymore? I hope you aren't lying! Kazu, I can't lose you!
Your Toshi
Kazunari stared at the message for a while. If Ohno knew how much he was wrong and how much he loves with him!
From: Kazu
To: Toshi
I'm sorry....
I burst into tears when I read his last message. How could I change his mind? How could I make him and I truly happy? Does our fates were to suffer the rest of our lives?!
From: Kazu
To: Toshi
Be happy, onegai. Live your life, live your dreams and forget me. I just was a stone on your way but we have to stop this pain and this sadness. I also wanted to tell you so many things but maybe the fate didn't want you to know what I felt. I went through so many things; sometimes hard, sometimes happy but when Matsuyama broke my life this day, the only thing able to warm my heart again was your smile. Your beautiful and wonderful smile that I love so much. You're an amazing friend, Satoshi. You were always there for me without asking anything in return. I wish life would be easier and I could tell you all these things I didn't tell you but we aren't 18 years anymore, we have grown up and have to act like the adults we are. Build your life with Sho, build you happy memories you'll remember in 10, 20, 30 years and when you'll look at these pictures of your life, don't have any regrets but just happiness. Do it for me, Satoshi because your smile is and will stay the most important thing of my life.
Live, Satoshi and smile.
Your Kazu
I started to cry loudly, my phone falling on the ground. I knew Kazu was right. For us, I had to be happy with Sho. I loved Sho and he deserved I give him everything I had.
From: Toshi
To: Kazu
It will be my last message. I wanted to thank you for what you gave me during these 9 years. If tomorrow, I was looking at our pictures of these 9 years, I wouldn't feel any regret but just happiness.
No.
I'm lying.
There would be just one regret. The regret for not telling you all these things I wanted to tell you. All these things I was feeling. But as you said earlier, it's too late and maybe you're right. Maybe it was our fate. I promise you to keep my smile and to give everything I have to Sho but I want you to promise me one thing. Just one thing. Don't let your past eat you anymore. Move on. Found this beautiful smile of yours and please, promise me one day, we'll see each other again. One day we will smile at each other. A real and big smile. One day we will tell all these things we don't tell each other.
Be happy my Kazu. You'll always be in my heart even if I can't see you anymore.
Your Toshi
This was the last day Kazu was talking to me. When I tried to see him again, I discovered his apartment was empty. Jun told me Kazu was living elsewhere but refused to tell me where. He apologized for his behavior and I forgave him because our friendship was too deep to be erased like that.
Despite Sho's return, I felt empty. Very empty. I didn't know why but there was this big hole in my heart and I couldn't erase it. Jun told me I needed time because after all, Kazu was the person who saved my life and my mind nine years ago. He was precious to me and losing him also meant losing a piece of myself. Luckily, Sho was there and our love helped me to move on.
"Babe?" Sho asked while I was cooking.
"Hun?" I hummed in return without stopping my cooking.
"I think it's Nino."
I turned around and saw he was showing me the TV. I rushed toward him and blinked, seeing Kazu talking with a MC. He was so pale, so thin and had big shadows under his eyes despite his smile.
"Ano, Ninomiya-san, you didn't release any single in these ten past months, why?"
"I... I went through tough things with my family and wanted to be alone for a moment." Nino smiled.
"I hope it's okay, now." The caster asked.
"Yes. I'm trying to be strong." Nino nodded.
"Today, you're here to sing your last song, Aishiteru. Why did you choose this title?"
"I wrote this song in a phase of my life where I was lost. I was in love with someone but destroyed this person because of my fears."
"So... And what does this song is talking about?"
"Lots of things. It talks about regrets, wishes and questions about our life. What the good way to take is? Does our choices will change our life? It's a song talking about maturity."
"Then, maybe you should sing instead of talking." The caster grinned.
Your hair flowing in the wind, the gentle rays of the sun, the same scenery of that day, just without you who smiled and said,
“You control your own destiny.”
The great heartache that I will go through, someday not being able to see the one I love; and that’s life. Anything satisfying is nowhere to be found within my memories.
I love you
I’m in so much pain
I want to cry all day and night.
Even now, I can’t forget you; you won’t disappear from my heart.
My overflowing emotions are being engulfed by the heavens.
No longer reachable, they are now like wandering rays of light without a star.
To come to one’s senses after a dream has ended, people move on my forgetting the past. Alone, I am hoping for a rendezvous that will not accept this belief.
I’m unable to erase the promises we shared, old wounds, and recollections of us embracing, even if my heart isn’t ready for pictures from long ago to lose their luster.
Everybody becomes mature after experiencing pain.
If that time is now, I will take another step forward and express my feelings.
I will take a look back at my footsteps that have spread out over the sands of time, open that door, and say that the moments we spent together were great until that moment.
After losing something that is really important, people will feel like they can no longer live. But after all, people can’t go on living without that important thing in their lives.
By loving another person we are assuring ourselves, and the beating of our hearts scream out; they scream out that we are alive.
I loved, I loved, I loved those times we spent together too much.
The sound that burns my heart, I have been listening to from within our embrace.
My overflowing emotions are being engulfed by the heavens.
No longer reachable, they are now like wandering rays of light without a star.
I didn't see immediately I was crying. Tears were rolling down my cheeks like a waterfall but I smiled. I was proud of Kazu. He did it. Even if he never loved me, in his way he had some feelings for me. Feelings of affection. Through this song, he was telling I was still his friend and happiness exploded in my heart.
"Are you all right, babe?" Sho asked in a worried voice. I sat on his lap, hugged him tightly and whispered with a soft voice.
"Make love to me, Sho."
Without waiting anymore, Sho stripped me and made love to me with passion.
"I love you Sho." I stroked his cheek.
"I love you too." Sho grinned before falling asleep.
"You did it, Kazu." I whispered, looking at the moon through the window, a tear rolling down my cheek.
To be continued...
A/N: So, we are soon reaching the end of this story xD I think this chapter is my favorite even if it's one of the saddest of this fic xD I like the despair of Kazu and Satoshi because life isn't all made of teddy bears and skittles. Pain and sadness are something everybody go through. And even injustice. We can't always have what we want like Ohchan would like xD But sometimes, we are the own authors of our fate and this injustice because we don't act like we should be. Maybe because Humans are cowards or like to suffer xD So, in the next chapter, you'll know what happened between Kazu and Toshi nine years ago and why their relationship became like that xD
PS: The song I used is from the drama, Bloody Monday, I thought this song was just so beautiful and fits Kazu’s feelings perfectly, you should listen to this song, to really feel, Kazu’s feelings xD this is the link ^^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOY8_IoEN7Q
Author: MatsuAurore
Banner: Lilisan31 <3
Pairings: Yama, Ohmiya, Matsumiya (friendship)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: If I owned them, I would keep the sex parts for me xD
Summary: What can you do when the person you love more than your own life is only looking at your best friend? What can you do when you know this person would never see you like you see her? And if your biggest wish came true but at the same time, getting close to her also meant pushing her farther from you...
Chapter 13:
"Together forever
I won't get lost anymore
Together forever
Not until I get there
Shine on us..."
Satoshi
"Sho?" I let go off my phone. Sho? Was it a dream or was it real?
"I'm awake, my love." I heard my boyfriend through the line and without thinking anymore, ran out of the apartment to join the hospital.
When I opened the door violently, I saw Sho, smiling to his crying mother.
"Sho..." I whispered and when my boyfriend looked at me, I fell on my knees, crying silently, my hand on my mouth.
"Hey, babe, I'm here, don't cry." Sho held out his hand and I rushed toward him to take it and kiss his palm.
"I'm hungry, I have to go." Sho's mother smiled and left the bedroom. When she closed the door behind her, I almost jumped on Sho and kissed him roughly.
"Hey, you're going to eat my lips, baby." Sho chuckled, pushing me away a little.
"I missed you so much, Sho!" I cried, burying my face in his neck.
"I'm so sorry for making you wait my love." Sho whispered, stroking my face kindly.
"Don't ever leave me again!" I replied.
"Never." Sho smiled happily. My boyfriend hugged me tightly and we ended our night in each other's arms.
The next day, a knock on the door made us jump but I stayed in Sho's arms and blinked, seeing Jun, Masaki and Kazu.
"Sho!!!" Aiba screamed and threw his arms around my lover, crying like he never did.
"You're still such a crybaby, Ma-chan." Sho chuckled but I knew how touched he was to see his best friend crying.
"Welcome back on earth, Sho." Jun grinned, kissing his cheek. Nino only bowed, his eyes traveling on our linked hands and my face in Sho's neck.
"You slept a while, L.L." Jun smirked.
"L.L?" I raised my eyebrows, wondering what he meant.
"Lazy Lawyer. I was used to call him like that because he always needed three clocks to wake up." Jun smirked making us laugh.
"So, what will you do now you're finally awake?" Aiba asked.
"Well, I'll start my job again and I'll come back in our apartment, ne, Toshi?" Sho squeezed my hand and I forced a smile, trying to avoid Kazu's gaze.
"Hun." I nodded happily and Sho kissed me deeply.
"Arg. So, we leave you two alone." Aiba coughed.
"Satoshi, can I have a word with you?" Jun asked and I nodded, following him outside.
"What are you going to do?" Jun asked me.
"What do you mean?" I frowned.
"Ano, Satoshi, do you realize your boyfriend is awake but you were dating Kazu?"
"I wasn't dating Kazu."
"Oh really and what were you doing during these three years?! Playing monopoly?!"
"Listen, Jun. Kazunari needed me because of his crises and I needed him because I couldn't lose him but now, I...." I stopped when Jun slapped my face roughly.
"Who can you say that?! I don't recognize you, how can you do that to your own best friend?!" Jun shouted.
"You don't understand, Jun. I love Sho. Kazu told me during these past three years I was only an object for him, he doesn't even love me so, don't judge me!" I snapped angrily.
"I knew I couldn't let you Kazu." Jun said coldly, leaving.
"Jun!"
"Don't you dare to approach him again or..." Jun looked me with frightening eyes, hatred shining in his look. "Or I'll kill you." My friend added before leaving.
"Jun..." I whispered, tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Leave him some time, he is only worried for Nino." Aiba patted my shoulder kindly.
"I've never seen these eyes..." I whispered, shivering.
"Scaring, ne?" Aiba chuckled. "You know, Jun went through lots of violence and there are deep scars in his heart. That's why if you hurt Nino, this hatred comes back and he can scared you easily." Aiba added softly.
"Does he ever do that to you?"
"Yes. One time. I was so afraid that I cried and he never did it again. But Ohchan, you have to know one thing that Kazu and Jun have in common." Aiba looked at me with serious eyes.
"What?"
"They are professional when they want to hide their feelings. Nino is very sensitive and fragile and sometimes, he says things he doesn't mean to hide these feelings."
"What do you mean?"
"When he told you he was using you, it was a lie. You're very important for Nino and don't believe his cold attitude was because he is heartless." Aiba smiled sadly.
"But..."
"Think about it. Your head must be a big mess. Think and take a decision but don't forget it will be definitive." Aiba said before leaving.
Eh? What did he mean?
When I came back home, I sat on my sofa and grabbed my head with both hands. What should I do now Jun hated me? Does my fate was to never see Kazu again, after all what happened? I couldn't stay away from him, he was too precious for me.
"Moshi mosh?"
"Kazu, it's me." I said through the line.
"Ah. Ohno. What do you want?" Nino asked in a neutral tone.
"I wanted to talk about Sho's wake up."
"Hun. Don't worry, Ohno, I know you would choose him, you love him after all and I'm very happy for you two."
"But Kazu..."
"I really don't want to talk about it, Ohno. Good luck, be happy with Sho, you deserve it." Nino replied and cut the line.
I looked at my phone with sad eyes.
From: Toshi
To: Kazu
Kazu, I wanted to talk more, to tell you so many things but you cut the line before I could. Will you stay my friend?
Your Toshi.
From: Kazu
To: Toshi
I also wanted to tell you many things but it's too late now. I just want you to be happy because despite my horrible attitudes with you, you're an important friend in my eyes. Just... Be happy with Sho. I don't know if I'll be able to stay your friend but I promise you I'll try, let me some time, please.
Nino.
From: Toshi
To: Kazu
Please, Kazu, stop that! Stop this cold attitude toward me, I can't bear it. I need you, Kazu. I know I'm horrible and selfish but I need you so much in my life to be truly happy. There were so many things, so many words I wanted to tell you but I never found the courage to do it. Will you be okay if you're alone to sleep?
Your Toshi
From: Kazu
To: Toshi
Stop that, Satoshi! Stop destroying yourself like that and stop to waste your time with someone like me. You don't need me, it's an illusion, you need Sho and only Sho. I was the one who needed you during these ten years. But I'm okay, I have my psychologist and I don't make crises anymore. You have to accept that we have to take different ways, now. Don't cry, please.
Nino
From: Toshi
To: Kazu
WHY?! Why are you trying to reject me? Am I not your friend? Don't you love me at least as your friend instead of loving me as your boyfriend?! And are you sure you don't make night terrors anymore? I hope you aren't lying! Kazu, I can't lose you!
Your Toshi
Kazunari stared at the message for a while. If Ohno knew how much he was wrong and how much he loves with him!
From: Kazu
To: Toshi
I'm sorry....
I burst into tears when I read his last message. How could I change his mind? How could I make him and I truly happy? Does our fates were to suffer the rest of our lives?!
From: Kazu
To: Toshi
Be happy, onegai. Live your life, live your dreams and forget me. I just was a stone on your way but we have to stop this pain and this sadness. I also wanted to tell you so many things but maybe the fate didn't want you to know what I felt. I went through so many things; sometimes hard, sometimes happy but when Matsuyama broke my life this day, the only thing able to warm my heart again was your smile. Your beautiful and wonderful smile that I love so much. You're an amazing friend, Satoshi. You were always there for me without asking anything in return. I wish life would be easier and I could tell you all these things I didn't tell you but we aren't 18 years anymore, we have grown up and have to act like the adults we are. Build your life with Sho, build you happy memories you'll remember in 10, 20, 30 years and when you'll look at these pictures of your life, don't have any regrets but just happiness. Do it for me, Satoshi because your smile is and will stay the most important thing of my life.
Live, Satoshi and smile.
Your Kazu
I started to cry loudly, my phone falling on the ground. I knew Kazu was right. For us, I had to be happy with Sho. I loved Sho and he deserved I give him everything I had.
From: Toshi
To: Kazu
It will be my last message. I wanted to thank you for what you gave me during these 9 years. If tomorrow, I was looking at our pictures of these 9 years, I wouldn't feel any regret but just happiness.
No.
I'm lying.
There would be just one regret. The regret for not telling you all these things I wanted to tell you. All these things I was feeling. But as you said earlier, it's too late and maybe you're right. Maybe it was our fate. I promise you to keep my smile and to give everything I have to Sho but I want you to promise me one thing. Just one thing. Don't let your past eat you anymore. Move on. Found this beautiful smile of yours and please, promise me one day, we'll see each other again. One day we will smile at each other. A real and big smile. One day we will tell all these things we don't tell each other.
Be happy my Kazu. You'll always be in my heart even if I can't see you anymore.
Your Toshi
This was the last day Kazu was talking to me. When I tried to see him again, I discovered his apartment was empty. Jun told me Kazu was living elsewhere but refused to tell me where. He apologized for his behavior and I forgave him because our friendship was too deep to be erased like that.
Despite Sho's return, I felt empty. Very empty. I didn't know why but there was this big hole in my heart and I couldn't erase it. Jun told me I needed time because after all, Kazu was the person who saved my life and my mind nine years ago. He was precious to me and losing him also meant losing a piece of myself. Luckily, Sho was there and our love helped me to move on.
"Babe?" Sho asked while I was cooking.
"Hun?" I hummed in return without stopping my cooking.
"I think it's Nino."
I turned around and saw he was showing me the TV. I rushed toward him and blinked, seeing Kazu talking with a MC. He was so pale, so thin and had big shadows under his eyes despite his smile.
"Ano, Ninomiya-san, you didn't release any single in these ten past months, why?"
"I... I went through tough things with my family and wanted to be alone for a moment." Nino smiled.
"I hope it's okay, now." The caster asked.
"Yes. I'm trying to be strong." Nino nodded.
"Today, you're here to sing your last song, Aishiteru. Why did you choose this title?"
"I wrote this song in a phase of my life where I was lost. I was in love with someone but destroyed this person because of my fears."
"So... And what does this song is talking about?"
"Lots of things. It talks about regrets, wishes and questions about our life. What the good way to take is? Does our choices will change our life? It's a song talking about maturity."
"Then, maybe you should sing instead of talking." The caster grinned.
Your hair flowing in the wind, the gentle rays of the sun, the same scenery of that day, just without you who smiled and said,
“You control your own destiny.”
The great heartache that I will go through, someday not being able to see the one I love; and that’s life. Anything satisfying is nowhere to be found within my memories.
I love you
I’m in so much pain
I want to cry all day and night.
Even now, I can’t forget you; you won’t disappear from my heart.
My overflowing emotions are being engulfed by the heavens.
No longer reachable, they are now like wandering rays of light without a star.
To come to one’s senses after a dream has ended, people move on my forgetting the past. Alone, I am hoping for a rendezvous that will not accept this belief.
I’m unable to erase the promises we shared, old wounds, and recollections of us embracing, even if my heart isn’t ready for pictures from long ago to lose their luster.
Everybody becomes mature after experiencing pain.
If that time is now, I will take another step forward and express my feelings.
I will take a look back at my footsteps that have spread out over the sands of time, open that door, and say that the moments we spent together were great until that moment.
After losing something that is really important, people will feel like they can no longer live. But after all, people can’t go on living without that important thing in their lives.
By loving another person we are assuring ourselves, and the beating of our hearts scream out; they scream out that we are alive.
I loved, I loved, I loved those times we spent together too much.
The sound that burns my heart, I have been listening to from within our embrace.
My overflowing emotions are being engulfed by the heavens.
No longer reachable, they are now like wandering rays of light without a star.
I didn't see immediately I was crying. Tears were rolling down my cheeks like a waterfall but I smiled. I was proud of Kazu. He did it. Even if he never loved me, in his way he had some feelings for me. Feelings of affection. Through this song, he was telling I was still his friend and happiness exploded in my heart.
"Are you all right, babe?" Sho asked in a worried voice. I sat on his lap, hugged him tightly and whispered with a soft voice.
"Make love to me, Sho."
Without waiting anymore, Sho stripped me and made love to me with passion.
"I love you Sho." I stroked his cheek.
"I love you too." Sho grinned before falling asleep.
"You did it, Kazu." I whispered, looking at the moon through the window, a tear rolling down my cheek.
To be continued...
A/N: So, we are soon reaching the end of this story xD I think this chapter is my favorite even if it's one of the saddest of this fic xD I like the despair of Kazu and Satoshi because life isn't all made of teddy bears and skittles. Pain and sadness are something everybody go through. And even injustice. We can't always have what we want like Ohchan would like xD But sometimes, we are the own authors of our fate and this injustice because we don't act like we should be. Maybe because Humans are cowards or like to suffer xD So, in the next chapter, you'll know what happened between Kazu and Toshi nine years ago and why their relationship became like that xD
PS: The song I used is from the drama, Bloody Monday, I thought this song was just so beautiful and fits Kazu’s feelings perfectly, you should listen to this song, to really feel, Kazu’s feelings xD this is the link ^^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOY8_IoEN7Q