All these things we don't tell each other (16/18)
Title: All these things we don't tell each other
Author: MatsuAurore
Banner: Lilisan31 <3
Pairings: Yama, Ohmiya
Rating: R
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: If I owned them, I would keep the sex parts for me xD
Summary: What can you do when the person you love more than your own life is only looking at your best friend? What can you do when you know this person would never see you like you see her? And if your biggest wish came true but at the same time, getting close to her also meant pushing her farther from you...
Chapter 16:
Though I could love someone else, they would only be "someone else"
Even if I make it through countless seasons
The truth is that being apart makes me scared you'll disappear...
Satoshi
I opened my eyes with difficulty and heard my friend's voices in the next room.
"Have you thought what would have happened to him if I hadn't answered to your call?!" Nino shouted, super angry.
"I didn't know, it's not my fault." Sho protested.
"Why did you insist while he had already refused. Satoshi is scared of water since he lost his sister because of a sea's accident when he was 16!" Nino yelled.
"I... He never told me." Sho whispered, lowering his eyes.
Satoshi ran on the sand with a happy face. The sun was high in the sky and the young boy put his feet in the water, sighing with happiness.
"Satoshi!"
"Come on, Nee-chan!"Sato waved happily to his sister.
"Don't walk too far or mama and papa will be angry." Mina panted.
"I'm not a baby."Satoshi pouted.
"Do I have to remember you who lost his way and made mum cry for two yours?" She raised her eyebrows, crossing her arms against her chest.
"I was ten years old, Nee-chan."Sato protested.
"Maybe but you're still my little brother and I don't want something happens to you." She smiled softly.
"I want to swim!"Satoshi grinned.
"Are you sure? The sea is rough, today, there is lots of wind." Mina frowned worriedly.
"C'mon, Mina, I'm a good swimmer!"Satoshi said and taking his clothes off, dived in the fresh water.
"Satoshi, be careful!" Mina screamed when her stubborn brother swam far away. Sato waved his hand, the waves covering his head and making him laugh happily.
Mina looked at the sky and frowned. There were big dark clouds and the wind was more and more violent.
"Satoshi, come back!" Mina screamed to her brother who didn't hear her. Suddendly, a big wave hit Satoshi and Mina panicked when her brother disappeared of her view. Without thinking, she dived in the water and swam quickly, waves hiting her face making her cough.
"Toshi?! Toshi where are you?!!" Mina cried.
"Mi-na!"Sato screamed, coughing violently.
"Take my hand!" Mina shouted, trying to catch her brother.
"Mina."
"Don't worry, I'm here." She hugged her brother and took his hand to swim toward the beach but a big wave hit them violently and Satoshi lost his sister's hand.
"Mina!!!"Sato yelled when his sister disappeared. "Mina, where are you?!" The young boy cried. The sea was more and more rough and another hit Satoshi's head before everything became dark.
Ohno opened his eyes in a moan.
"Satoshi!!" Hanako cried and grabbed his hand.
"Mom?"
"Shttt, don't speak, babe." She smiled, stroking his head.
"Where is Mina?"Satoshi suddenly asked.
"She..."
"Mom, where is Mina?"Sato panicked.
"I'm sorry babe, but Mina...she is gone..." Hanako burst into tears.
"No! You're lying! No, she can't be dead!" yelled, tears rolling down his cheeks.
"I'm sorry my dear but the sea was rough and she...."
"No!!! She can't be dead! It's my fault, if I hadn't swum!"Satoshi cried.
"I'm so sorry my dear." Hanako hugged her son tightly.
Ohno looked at the sky through the window. Even after six months, his heart was still so painful. It was as if Mina died the previous day. Whenever he walked in his house, everything reminded him his sister. Her bedroom, her piano, the pictures on the walls. It killed Satoshi every day. But the worst was his father. Every time he was meeting his eyes, Ohno could see the sadness and the hatred in his eyes. His father hated him for what happened this day but even if it was his fault, Ohno couldn't stand these cold eyes.
"Tomorrow, you'll meet Haru-chan." His father said at the dinner.
"Why?"
"She'll make a great wife for you and her family is rich as us."
"But dad, I don't know her, I don't want to marry her."Sato protested weakly.
"You do what I say! You'll marry her. You killed your sister, so, you can at least, follow my wish!"
"Shouta!!" Hanako yelled.
"I don't like girls, dad, I'm gay and you know it!"Satoshi shouted. His father slapped his face, making Satoshi collapse on the ground.
"You're not my son, you're just a killer and a freak! You're the family's shame!" Shouta screamed.
"Shouta! Stop that!" Hanako cried.
"I already have a boyfriend?!"
"You don't have the choice. It's him or us!" Shouta snapped.
Satoshi looked at the hatred in his father's eyes and left the kitchen.
"Satoshi!" Shouta yelled.
Sato ran in his bedroom and took a suitcase to put his clothes inside. Tears rolling down his chubby cheeks like a waterfall.
"Toshi, what are you doing?"His mother asked.
"I'm leaving."Satoshi answered.
"No, please, dear, let me talk to your father, he is sad, I'm sure he didn't mean his words." Hanako implored.
"I can't mom. I can't live here while he is hating me for what happened this day."Sato cried, hugging his mother.
"Satoshi..."
"I'm sorry mom. I'm such a bad son. You always loved me, took care of me and what did I do? I killed Mina and made you sad and destroyed this family."
"You didn't kill Mina, it was an accident!"
"No, mom but thank you for still loving me. I love you."Satoshi kissed her cheek and left while his mother was calling his name with despair.
"Satoshi never came back. He was only 16 when he left his parents and started the dance to forget but you can't erase your past. I met him five years later. As he had nothing, he became a call boy. We became friends but ten months after our last meeting, when I was in Korea for a concert, he made a suicide attempt. When I saw him in his bed's hospital with this pale face and this sadness in his eyes, I swore to him I would never leave him again. But I was wrong. It's not good to live through the other's pain and we are destroying ourselves, that's why I want to move on and Toshi has to do the same." Nino finished.
"I... I didn't know." Sho whispered, tears rolling down his cheeks.
"By bringing him on the beach, you made him confront his past and his pain." Nino said soflty.
"Kazu..." I moaned painfully. I heard quick foot steps and Nino rushed in my bedroom.
"Satoshi, how are you, babe?" Nino took my hand.
"My head hurts." I whined.
"I'll give you some painkillers. You scared me, baby." Nino stroked my face, looking at me right in the eyes.
"I'm sorry." I put my hand on his cheek, allowing him to kissmy palm lovingly.
"Stop blaming yourself for what happened this day, you didn't kill Mina." Nino whispered.
"But I..."
"She loved you and she would be sad if she saw you destroying yourself like that. She wanted to save you because you were her precious little brother."
"Are you sure she wouldn't hate me?"
"Never. She would be happy to see you alive."
"Maybe..." I whispered.
"Satoshi, you should talk to your parents."
"No.. I can't... I'm not ready..."
"It was 13 years ago, I'm sure they miss you. Don't make the same mistakes than me, don't push away your family." I looked at Nino for a while and nodded.
"If you come with me."
"Okay, babe." Nino hugged me tightly and I buried my face in his neck, trying to avoid Sho's hurt eyes.
Nino brought me to my parents the next day with Sho. I asked him to come too because I didn't want to hurt him more. The house was the same. Still so big and beautiful. I rang and when my mother came out and saw me, she froze.
"Satoshi?" She put her hand on her mouth, crying.
"Mom..." I whispered and almost jumped in her arms, hugging her tightly.
"You've grown up, you're so beautiful my love."
"I'm so sorry mom, I missed you so much." I cried in her neck.
"I missed you too, my baby. I love you so much." She smiled through her tears. "Who are they?" She asked, showing my friends.
"This is Ninomiya Kazunari, my best friend and Sho Sakurai, my boyfriend."
"Welcome, young men, come in." She grinned and made us enter inside. Nothing had changed. There still were the pictures of Mina and I on the walls and I froze when I saw my father on the sofa.
"Satoshi?" My father blinked.
"Hello, dad." I lowered my eyes, ready to hear his hatred and maybe to receive a slap but I jumped when I felt two strong arms around me.
"I missed you so much, Satoshi." My father whispered and I hugged him back tightly.
"I'm so sorry." I sobbed.
"No. It's me who should apologize. I was so sad when we lost Mina and blamed you while it wasn't your fault. I told you horrible things I didn't mean and when you left, I understood how much I loved you. You're my precious son, Satoshi and what happened this day wasn't your fault."
"Papa..." I cried loudly against his chest.
"I love you, son." Sousuke smiled.
"I love you too papa."
"Who are they?"
"My best friend, Ninomiya Kazunari and my...my boyfriend, Sho Sakurai."
"Nice too meet you young men. I see my son has good taste." Sousuke smiled, holding out his hand to Sho and then, to Nino.
"Nice to meet you too, Ohno-san."
"We should sit on the sofa to talk." Sousuke grinned.
We talked together the whole afternoon, laughing and teasing each other. I never felt so light since Mina's death, a weight had left my heart. Now, I knew it was an accident and I hadn't kill my precious sister.
"So, Satoshi, you're a singer?" My father asked.
"He is a dancer and plays in butai." My mother smiled.
"How do you know?" I blinked.
"I have never stopped to try to find you, my dear. One day, I saw the poster of your last play and I bought a ticket to see you. You were so amazing, so beautiful." My mum smiled tenderly.
"But you left after?"
"I wanted to see you but when I tried, I saw you kissing your boyfriend and your smile were so big that I left."
"His boyfriend?" Sho frowned.
"I..." My mother blushed when she understood it wasn't Sho I was kissing this night but Kazu.
"When is your next play?" My father tried to change the subject.
"In one month."
"Great! I'll bought two tickets and we'll come to see you, son." My father looked at me with a proud smile, making my mother grin happily.
"I'll wait for you." I smiled back.
"Satoshi, we would like to talk with you." My father said softly.
"There are so many things we wanted to tell you." My mother stroked my cheek while Nino and Sho were leaving us.
We talked almost the whole night, laughing and sometimes crying. I never felt so close to my family and understood Nino's words, now. Even if confronting your devils was hard and painful, it was the only way to move on and build a new life.
I collapsed on my bed, exhausted and fell asleep quickly.
A wave of kisses woke me up the next morning and I saw a naked Sho on top of me, licking and sucking my skin.
"Good morning sleeping beauty." Sho smiled between two kisses.
"Morning, Sho." I yawned and wrapped my arms around his neck to press our bodies together. I felt his hard cock pocking my thigh and lifted my legs around his waist.
"I want you, Sho." I moaned when he stroked my shaft.
"But I have to prepare you before."
"I don't care, take me already." I implored, moving my hips to brush our dicks together.
"Babe..." Sho whined and carefuly, slipped his flesh inside me, slowly. I screamed in pain but grabbed his ass to make him dive further when he tried to pull out.
"Sho..." I moaned when my lover hit my secret spot dead on.
"Toshi...you're so amazing, babe." Sho gasped and started to thrust faster and harder, making me scratch his back in pleasure.
We quickly came in loud moans, our naked bodies glued. I buried my face in Sho's neck, panting happily. He was still inside of me but I felt so good.
"We should take a shower, my love." Sho kissed my lips and pulled out before taking some clothes.
When I joined the bathroom, I bumped into Nino.
"Sorry." I stammered. Nino shook his head but sadness crossed his eyes when he saw the fresh hickeys on my skin. "You took your shower?" I asked stupidly, blushing.
"Yes. Your mother said breakfast was ready."
We stared at each other like two idiots before Nino blinked and left me with a sad smile. Why did he look so sad?
When I entered the kitchen, my mother was laughing with Kazu.
"Good morning, my dear. Nino-san was telling me some stories about you and him." She kissed my forehead.
"You can call me Kazunari or Kazu, Ohno-san" Nino grinned.
"Call me Hanako or mother, then." My mother said happily.
"Don't tell her uncomfortable things." I pouted, sitting on his lap to wrap my arms around his neck and kiss his cheek loudly.
"Don't worry, Toshi." Nino kissed my cheek and hugged me kindly.
"Good morning." A cough made him jump and I left Nino's lap quickly to kiss my boyfriend.
"Good morning, Sakurai-san." My mum smiled.
We spent the whole day laughing and talking about our lives in the living room with my parents. They showed pictures of me when I was a baby, making me pout while my friends were laughing so hard that they cried. We were like a little family and to be honest, I loved it even if I couldn't stay in Kazu's arms because of Sho.
"Could you sing us something, Kazu-kun?" My mother asked with pleading eyes.
"Of course." Nino smiled and sat in front of the piano.
When he started to sing, I cried silently. It was so wonderful when I was listening to Nino's voice.
With an indifferent face you tell a lie
Laughing until you feel sick
Let's have nothing but fun you said
Feeling blue over desiring the impossible
Everyone is seeking tranquility
You’re struggling, but you’ve had enough
Now you’re chasing after a shadow of love
Since the day you appeared
My dull everyday have begun to shine
Now I’m able to think, Feeling loneliness, being in pain - that’s not so bad
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
Through painful times and healthy times,
Stormy days and sunny days, lets walk on together
I’m gonna tell you the truth
I chose an unforeseeably painful path
and you came to support me
You’re the only one I can call a friend
Fake displays of strength and avarice have become meaningless
I’ve been in love with you since that day
When I’m free, with time to spare, there’s no life in being alone
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
Oh... Just a little more
Don’t you give up
Oh don’t ever abandon me
If the cruelty of reality tries to tear us apart
Well be drawn more closely to one another
Somehow, somehow, I have a feeling well be able to stand firm
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
Every day banalities quickly begin to shine brilliantly
You stole my heart that day
Loneliness and pain I thought I could deal with
I'm just a prisoner of love
Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
Don’t leave me alone again
"Satoshi, are you crying?" My father teased me.
"No. I have something in my eye." I sobbed.
"My boyfriend is such a crybaby." Sho chuckled.
Nino kneeled in front of me and we stared at each other for a moment without a word but something was shining in our eyes before he pinched my nose with a smile.
"Baby!" He sing-sang.
"Mouuu." I pouted, making my family laugh.
****
"Babe, I have to leave because of my work but you can stay with your parents." Sho told me the evening after a torrid love making.
"I want to spend some time with them."
"I know, baby. Take your time." Sho kissed my forehead.
Sho left the next morning after a deep kiss, he climbed in his car. Waving his hand to my family and me.
"You're cute together. He is a nice boy, perfect to protect you." My father teased me and I stuck out my tongue childishly.
"I made some pancakes for you two, you must eat more Satoshi, you're too thin." My mother frowned.
We went in the kitchen and started to cook the pancakes, talking and laughing when Kazu was throwing the pancake in the air but failed to catch it at the right moment with the stove.
"Here!" Nino put some whipped cream on the tip of my nose.
"Hey!" I pouted and took some chocolate to spread it on his cheek.
"Oi! How did you dare?!" Nino laughed and chased me around the table. I ran in the living room but fell on the carpet and Nino climbed on my lap with an evil smile. He put lots of chocolate on my face while I was laughing and struggling.
"Kazu, stop please, stop!" I burst out laughing.
"You deserve it." Nino smirked and with a tenderly smile, licked the chocolate on my left cheek. We stared at each other for some seconds before I put my hand on his cheek. Kazu closed his eyes and lowered his face slowly. Soon, our lips metand I moaned in pleasure when Nino slipped his tongue in my mouth to kiss me tenderly and roughly at the same time.
"Kazu..." I moaned and as if he understood what was happening, Nino pulled away.
"I'm sorry." Nino said and stood up to join the kitchen.
I lifted my body and saw my mother looking at me with a sad smile.
"It's not what you think." I mumbled.
"If you were kissing your best friend behind your boyfriend's back, then, it's what I was thinking about..." She said soflty.
"What do you mean?"
"Before being honest with your boyfriend, try to be honest with your own feelings, Satoshi." She said and left.
Eh?! What did she mean?! What did she say?! I followed her and closed the office's door behind us.
"What do you mean?"
"Don't make suffer the most important persons of your life, Satoshi. Sakurai-kun is a kind man, he doesn't deserve that."
"I know, I..."
"Do you love him?"
"Of course!" I exclaimed immediately.
"But babe, even if it's none of my business, I want you to be happy. What I saw earlier prouved I was right."
"Eh?"
"You are lying to them but the worst is you are lying to yourself."
"I don't understand."
"You should look at how Kazu-kun is staring at you and you would understand what I mean. Be honest with your own feelings to be honest with your boyfriend and your best friend." She stroked my cheek and left.
What?! I was lost, what did she mean?! I walked to the kitchen and ate my pancakes with Nino in a happy mood as if nothing had happened.
"Hey!" I exclaimed when Nino stole my last pancake.
"Your cheeks are enough chubby, you can't hide more food inside." Nino smirked, sticking his tongue out childishly. I smirked and stole the last piece of the pancake in his hand to swallow it with a happy face.
"Oi! How did you dare?!" Nino protested and grabbed my hand. "Give me my pancake back, stupid chubby man!"
"Or what?" I smirked and pushed Nino on the ground, climbing on his body to tickle him. I knew where his sensitive spots were and he burst out laughing, struggling.
"Stop that, Satoshi!" Nino laughed.
"You stole my pancake." I chuckled.
"Please, stop!"
"Say I'm the winner, then." I smirked.
"N-No." Nino laughed, almost gaging, tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Say it!"
"Okay... You're the winner."
"Say I'm stronger and cleverer than you!" I smirked.
"Never! You're just a fucking stupid chubby man!" Nino laughed and I kissed his skin softly.
"Say it, Kazu!" I chuckled.
"N-No." I kissed his jaw and took his lower lip between my teeth before slipping my tongue in his mouth.
"Say it."
"Fuck you!" Nino moaned loudly.
"If it's you, okay." I whispered. Nino froze and stared at me for a while before switching our positions. He smacked our lips hungrily while I was unbuttoning his shirt feverishly, pressing our bodies together and slipping my hand in his boxer to stroke his butt. I had never seen Nino so sweet before. He was stroking my skin tenderly, was kissing me soflty and lovingly. I moaned and stroked my hips against his, pressing our hard members together and devoring his lips but Nino froze and pulled away.
"I can't."
"Kazu..."
"I can't do that to Sho. Despite what happened with him these last years, he is my friend." Nino said, buttoning his shirt back.
"But..."
"I was right, we have to stop that."
"So it was that?! You never said that during these three years together." I snapped, standing up too.
"Sho was in coma and his father didn't want to see you again."
"I was right, then. You were using me like your toy or even your whore!" I shouted.
Nino slapped my face. I looked at him with shocked eyes, putting my hand on my cheek.
"How do you dare talking about my feelings! You know nothing!"
"Then, tell me, Kazu! Tell me these things you wanted to tell me!" I cried.
To be continued…
A/N: Again, sorry for this cut, please, don't kill me XD So, lots of things happened here with Ohchan's past and the closeness of our lovely Ohmiya BUT (I prefer to warn you all before you get happy too quickly and kill me after xD) don't be used to it xD *ran away in Alaska to join the penguins and eskimos)
See you soon xD
Author: MatsuAurore
Banner: Lilisan31 <3
Pairings: Yama, Ohmiya
Rating: R
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: If I owned them, I would keep the sex parts for me xD
Summary: What can you do when the person you love more than your own life is only looking at your best friend? What can you do when you know this person would never see you like you see her? And if your biggest wish came true but at the same time, getting close to her also meant pushing her farther from you...
Chapter 16:
Though I could love someone else, they would only be "someone else"
Even if I make it through countless seasons
The truth is that being apart makes me scared you'll disappear...
Satoshi
I opened my eyes with difficulty and heard my friend's voices in the next room.
"Have you thought what would have happened to him if I hadn't answered to your call?!" Nino shouted, super angry.
"I didn't know, it's not my fault." Sho protested.
"Why did you insist while he had already refused. Satoshi is scared of water since he lost his sister because of a sea's accident when he was 16!" Nino yelled.
"I... He never told me." Sho whispered, lowering his eyes.
Satoshi ran on the sand with a happy face. The sun was high in the sky and the young boy put his feet in the water, sighing with happiness.
"Satoshi!"
"Come on, Nee-chan!"Sato waved happily to his sister.
"Don't walk too far or mama and papa will be angry." Mina panted.
"I'm not a baby."Satoshi pouted.
"Do I have to remember you who lost his way and made mum cry for two yours?" She raised her eyebrows, crossing her arms against her chest.
"I was ten years old, Nee-chan."Sato protested.
"Maybe but you're still my little brother and I don't want something happens to you." She smiled softly.
"I want to swim!"Satoshi grinned.
"Are you sure? The sea is rough, today, there is lots of wind." Mina frowned worriedly.
"C'mon, Mina, I'm a good swimmer!"Satoshi said and taking his clothes off, dived in the fresh water.
"Satoshi, be careful!" Mina screamed when her stubborn brother swam far away. Sato waved his hand, the waves covering his head and making him laugh happily.
Mina looked at the sky and frowned. There were big dark clouds and the wind was more and more violent.
"Satoshi, come back!" Mina screamed to her brother who didn't hear her. Suddendly, a big wave hit Satoshi and Mina panicked when her brother disappeared of her view. Without thinking, she dived in the water and swam quickly, waves hiting her face making her cough.
"Toshi?! Toshi where are you?!!" Mina cried.
"Mi-na!"Sato screamed, coughing violently.
"Take my hand!" Mina shouted, trying to catch her brother.
"Mina."
"Don't worry, I'm here." She hugged her brother and took his hand to swim toward the beach but a big wave hit them violently and Satoshi lost his sister's hand.
"Mina!!!"Sato yelled when his sister disappeared. "Mina, where are you?!" The young boy cried. The sea was more and more rough and another hit Satoshi's head before everything became dark.
Ohno opened his eyes in a moan.
"Satoshi!!" Hanako cried and grabbed his hand.
"Mom?"
"Shttt, don't speak, babe." She smiled, stroking his head.
"Where is Mina?"Satoshi suddenly asked.
"She..."
"Mom, where is Mina?"Sato panicked.
"I'm sorry babe, but Mina...she is gone..." Hanako burst into tears.
"No! You're lying! No, she can't be dead!" yelled, tears rolling down his cheeks.
"I'm sorry my dear but the sea was rough and she...."
"No!!! She can't be dead! It's my fault, if I hadn't swum!"Satoshi cried.
"I'm so sorry my dear." Hanako hugged her son tightly.
Ohno looked at the sky through the window. Even after six months, his heart was still so painful. It was as if Mina died the previous day. Whenever he walked in his house, everything reminded him his sister. Her bedroom, her piano, the pictures on the walls. It killed Satoshi every day. But the worst was his father. Every time he was meeting his eyes, Ohno could see the sadness and the hatred in his eyes. His father hated him for what happened this day but even if it was his fault, Ohno couldn't stand these cold eyes.
"Tomorrow, you'll meet Haru-chan." His father said at the dinner.
"Why?"
"She'll make a great wife for you and her family is rich as us."
"But dad, I don't know her, I don't want to marry her."Sato protested weakly.
"You do what I say! You'll marry her. You killed your sister, so, you can at least, follow my wish!"
"Shouta!!" Hanako yelled.
"I don't like girls, dad, I'm gay and you know it!"Satoshi shouted. His father slapped his face, making Satoshi collapse on the ground.
"You're not my son, you're just a killer and a freak! You're the family's shame!" Shouta screamed.
"Shouta! Stop that!" Hanako cried.
"I already have a boyfriend?!"
"You don't have the choice. It's him or us!" Shouta snapped.
Satoshi looked at the hatred in his father's eyes and left the kitchen.
"Satoshi!" Shouta yelled.
Sato ran in his bedroom and took a suitcase to put his clothes inside. Tears rolling down his chubby cheeks like a waterfall.
"Toshi, what are you doing?"His mother asked.
"I'm leaving."Satoshi answered.
"No, please, dear, let me talk to your father, he is sad, I'm sure he didn't mean his words." Hanako implored.
"I can't mom. I can't live here while he is hating me for what happened this day."Sato cried, hugging his mother.
"Satoshi..."
"I'm sorry mom. I'm such a bad son. You always loved me, took care of me and what did I do? I killed Mina and made you sad and destroyed this family."
"You didn't kill Mina, it was an accident!"
"No, mom but thank you for still loving me. I love you."Satoshi kissed her cheek and left while his mother was calling his name with despair.
"Satoshi never came back. He was only 16 when he left his parents and started the dance to forget but you can't erase your past. I met him five years later. As he had nothing, he became a call boy. We became friends but ten months after our last meeting, when I was in Korea for a concert, he made a suicide attempt. When I saw him in his bed's hospital with this pale face and this sadness in his eyes, I swore to him I would never leave him again. But I was wrong. It's not good to live through the other's pain and we are destroying ourselves, that's why I want to move on and Toshi has to do the same." Nino finished.
"I... I didn't know." Sho whispered, tears rolling down his cheeks.
"By bringing him on the beach, you made him confront his past and his pain." Nino said soflty.
"Kazu..." I moaned painfully. I heard quick foot steps and Nino rushed in my bedroom.
"Satoshi, how are you, babe?" Nino took my hand.
"My head hurts." I whined.
"I'll give you some painkillers. You scared me, baby." Nino stroked my face, looking at me right in the eyes.
"I'm sorry." I put my hand on his cheek, allowing him to kissmy palm lovingly.
"Stop blaming yourself for what happened this day, you didn't kill Mina." Nino whispered.
"But I..."
"She loved you and she would be sad if she saw you destroying yourself like that. She wanted to save you because you were her precious little brother."
"Are you sure she wouldn't hate me?"
"Never. She would be happy to see you alive."
"Maybe..." I whispered.
"Satoshi, you should talk to your parents."
"No.. I can't... I'm not ready..."
"It was 13 years ago, I'm sure they miss you. Don't make the same mistakes than me, don't push away your family." I looked at Nino for a while and nodded.
"If you come with me."
"Okay, babe." Nino hugged me tightly and I buried my face in his neck, trying to avoid Sho's hurt eyes.
Nino brought me to my parents the next day with Sho. I asked him to come too because I didn't want to hurt him more. The house was the same. Still so big and beautiful. I rang and when my mother came out and saw me, she froze.
"Satoshi?" She put her hand on her mouth, crying.
"Mom..." I whispered and almost jumped in her arms, hugging her tightly.
"You've grown up, you're so beautiful my love."
"I'm so sorry mom, I missed you so much." I cried in her neck.
"I missed you too, my baby. I love you so much." She smiled through her tears. "Who are they?" She asked, showing my friends.
"This is Ninomiya Kazunari, my best friend and Sho Sakurai, my boyfriend."
"Welcome, young men, come in." She grinned and made us enter inside. Nothing had changed. There still were the pictures of Mina and I on the walls and I froze when I saw my father on the sofa.
"Satoshi?" My father blinked.
"Hello, dad." I lowered my eyes, ready to hear his hatred and maybe to receive a slap but I jumped when I felt two strong arms around me.
"I missed you so much, Satoshi." My father whispered and I hugged him back tightly.
"I'm so sorry." I sobbed.
"No. It's me who should apologize. I was so sad when we lost Mina and blamed you while it wasn't your fault. I told you horrible things I didn't mean and when you left, I understood how much I loved you. You're my precious son, Satoshi and what happened this day wasn't your fault."
"Papa..." I cried loudly against his chest.
"I love you, son." Sousuke smiled.
"I love you too papa."
"Who are they?"
"My best friend, Ninomiya Kazunari and my...my boyfriend, Sho Sakurai."
"Nice too meet you young men. I see my son has good taste." Sousuke smiled, holding out his hand to Sho and then, to Nino.
"Nice to meet you too, Ohno-san."
"We should sit on the sofa to talk." Sousuke grinned.
We talked together the whole afternoon, laughing and teasing each other. I never felt so light since Mina's death, a weight had left my heart. Now, I knew it was an accident and I hadn't kill my precious sister.
"So, Satoshi, you're a singer?" My father asked.
"He is a dancer and plays in butai." My mother smiled.
"How do you know?" I blinked.
"I have never stopped to try to find you, my dear. One day, I saw the poster of your last play and I bought a ticket to see you. You were so amazing, so beautiful." My mum smiled tenderly.
"But you left after?"
"I wanted to see you but when I tried, I saw you kissing your boyfriend and your smile were so big that I left."
"His boyfriend?" Sho frowned.
"I..." My mother blushed when she understood it wasn't Sho I was kissing this night but Kazu.
"When is your next play?" My father tried to change the subject.
"In one month."
"Great! I'll bought two tickets and we'll come to see you, son." My father looked at me with a proud smile, making my mother grin happily.
"I'll wait for you." I smiled back.
"Satoshi, we would like to talk with you." My father said softly.
"There are so many things we wanted to tell you." My mother stroked my cheek while Nino and Sho were leaving us.
We talked almost the whole night, laughing and sometimes crying. I never felt so close to my family and understood Nino's words, now. Even if confronting your devils was hard and painful, it was the only way to move on and build a new life.
I collapsed on my bed, exhausted and fell asleep quickly.
A wave of kisses woke me up the next morning and I saw a naked Sho on top of me, licking and sucking my skin.
"Good morning sleeping beauty." Sho smiled between two kisses.
"Morning, Sho." I yawned and wrapped my arms around his neck to press our bodies together. I felt his hard cock pocking my thigh and lifted my legs around his waist.
"I want you, Sho." I moaned when he stroked my shaft.
"But I have to prepare you before."
"I don't care, take me already." I implored, moving my hips to brush our dicks together.
"Babe..." Sho whined and carefuly, slipped his flesh inside me, slowly. I screamed in pain but grabbed his ass to make him dive further when he tried to pull out.
"Sho..." I moaned when my lover hit my secret spot dead on.
"Toshi...you're so amazing, babe." Sho gasped and started to thrust faster and harder, making me scratch his back in pleasure.
We quickly came in loud moans, our naked bodies glued. I buried my face in Sho's neck, panting happily. He was still inside of me but I felt so good.
"We should take a shower, my love." Sho kissed my lips and pulled out before taking some clothes.
When I joined the bathroom, I bumped into Nino.
"Sorry." I stammered. Nino shook his head but sadness crossed his eyes when he saw the fresh hickeys on my skin. "You took your shower?" I asked stupidly, blushing.
"Yes. Your mother said breakfast was ready."
We stared at each other like two idiots before Nino blinked and left me with a sad smile. Why did he look so sad?
When I entered the kitchen, my mother was laughing with Kazu.
"Good morning, my dear. Nino-san was telling me some stories about you and him." She kissed my forehead.
"You can call me Kazunari or Kazu, Ohno-san" Nino grinned.
"Call me Hanako or mother, then." My mother said happily.
"Don't tell her uncomfortable things." I pouted, sitting on his lap to wrap my arms around his neck and kiss his cheek loudly.
"Don't worry, Toshi." Nino kissed my cheek and hugged me kindly.
"Good morning." A cough made him jump and I left Nino's lap quickly to kiss my boyfriend.
"Good morning, Sakurai-san." My mum smiled.
We spent the whole day laughing and talking about our lives in the living room with my parents. They showed pictures of me when I was a baby, making me pout while my friends were laughing so hard that they cried. We were like a little family and to be honest, I loved it even if I couldn't stay in Kazu's arms because of Sho.
"Could you sing us something, Kazu-kun?" My mother asked with pleading eyes.
"Of course." Nino smiled and sat in front of the piano.
When he started to sing, I cried silently. It was so wonderful when I was listening to Nino's voice.
With an indifferent face you tell a lie
Laughing until you feel sick
Let's have nothing but fun you said
Feeling blue over desiring the impossible
Everyone is seeking tranquility
You’re struggling, but you’ve had enough
Now you’re chasing after a shadow of love
Since the day you appeared
My dull everyday have begun to shine
Now I’m able to think, Feeling loneliness, being in pain - that’s not so bad
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
Through painful times and healthy times,
Stormy days and sunny days, lets walk on together
I’m gonna tell you the truth
I chose an unforeseeably painful path
and you came to support me
You’re the only one I can call a friend
Fake displays of strength and avarice have become meaningless
I’ve been in love with you since that day
When I’m free, with time to spare, there’s no life in being alone
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
Oh... Just a little more
Don’t you give up
Oh don’t ever abandon me
If the cruelty of reality tries to tear us apart
Well be drawn more closely to one another
Somehow, somehow, I have a feeling well be able to stand firm
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
Every day banalities quickly begin to shine brilliantly
You stole my heart that day
Loneliness and pain I thought I could deal with
I'm just a prisoner of love
Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
Don’t leave me alone again
"Satoshi, are you crying?" My father teased me.
"No. I have something in my eye." I sobbed.
"My boyfriend is such a crybaby." Sho chuckled.
Nino kneeled in front of me and we stared at each other for a moment without a word but something was shining in our eyes before he pinched my nose with a smile.
"Baby!" He sing-sang.
"Mouuu." I pouted, making my family laugh.
****
"Babe, I have to leave because of my work but you can stay with your parents." Sho told me the evening after a torrid love making.
"I want to spend some time with them."
"I know, baby. Take your time." Sho kissed my forehead.
Sho left the next morning after a deep kiss, he climbed in his car. Waving his hand to my family and me.
"You're cute together. He is a nice boy, perfect to protect you." My father teased me and I stuck out my tongue childishly.
"I made some pancakes for you two, you must eat more Satoshi, you're too thin." My mother frowned.
We went in the kitchen and started to cook the pancakes, talking and laughing when Kazu was throwing the pancake in the air but failed to catch it at the right moment with the stove.
"Here!" Nino put some whipped cream on the tip of my nose.
"Hey!" I pouted and took some chocolate to spread it on his cheek.
"Oi! How did you dare?!" Nino laughed and chased me around the table. I ran in the living room but fell on the carpet and Nino climbed on my lap with an evil smile. He put lots of chocolate on my face while I was laughing and struggling.
"Kazu, stop please, stop!" I burst out laughing.
"You deserve it." Nino smirked and with a tenderly smile, licked the chocolate on my left cheek. We stared at each other for some seconds before I put my hand on his cheek. Kazu closed his eyes and lowered his face slowly. Soon, our lips metand I moaned in pleasure when Nino slipped his tongue in my mouth to kiss me tenderly and roughly at the same time.
"Kazu..." I moaned and as if he understood what was happening, Nino pulled away.
"I'm sorry." Nino said and stood up to join the kitchen.
I lifted my body and saw my mother looking at me with a sad smile.
"It's not what you think." I mumbled.
"If you were kissing your best friend behind your boyfriend's back, then, it's what I was thinking about..." She said soflty.
"What do you mean?"
"Before being honest with your boyfriend, try to be honest with your own feelings, Satoshi." She said and left.
Eh?! What did she mean?! What did she say?! I followed her and closed the office's door behind us.
"What do you mean?"
"Don't make suffer the most important persons of your life, Satoshi. Sakurai-kun is a kind man, he doesn't deserve that."
"I know, I..."
"Do you love him?"
"Of course!" I exclaimed immediately.
"But babe, even if it's none of my business, I want you to be happy. What I saw earlier prouved I was right."
"Eh?"
"You are lying to them but the worst is you are lying to yourself."
"I don't understand."
"You should look at how Kazu-kun is staring at you and you would understand what I mean. Be honest with your own feelings to be honest with your boyfriend and your best friend." She stroked my cheek and left.
What?! I was lost, what did she mean?! I walked to the kitchen and ate my pancakes with Nino in a happy mood as if nothing had happened.
"Hey!" I exclaimed when Nino stole my last pancake.
"Your cheeks are enough chubby, you can't hide more food inside." Nino smirked, sticking his tongue out childishly. I smirked and stole the last piece of the pancake in his hand to swallow it with a happy face.
"Oi! How did you dare?!" Nino protested and grabbed my hand. "Give me my pancake back, stupid chubby man!"
"Or what?" I smirked and pushed Nino on the ground, climbing on his body to tickle him. I knew where his sensitive spots were and he burst out laughing, struggling.
"Stop that, Satoshi!" Nino laughed.
"You stole my pancake." I chuckled.
"Please, stop!"
"Say I'm the winner, then." I smirked.
"N-No." Nino laughed, almost gaging, tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Say it!"
"Okay... You're the winner."
"Say I'm stronger and cleverer than you!" I smirked.
"Never! You're just a fucking stupid chubby man!" Nino laughed and I kissed his skin softly.
"Say it, Kazu!" I chuckled.
"N-No." I kissed his jaw and took his lower lip between my teeth before slipping my tongue in his mouth.
"Say it."
"Fuck you!" Nino moaned loudly.
"If it's you, okay." I whispered. Nino froze and stared at me for a while before switching our positions. He smacked our lips hungrily while I was unbuttoning his shirt feverishly, pressing our bodies together and slipping my hand in his boxer to stroke his butt. I had never seen Nino so sweet before. He was stroking my skin tenderly, was kissing me soflty and lovingly. I moaned and stroked my hips against his, pressing our hard members together and devoring his lips but Nino froze and pulled away.
"I can't."
"Kazu..."
"I can't do that to Sho. Despite what happened with him these last years, he is my friend." Nino said, buttoning his shirt back.
"But..."
"I was right, we have to stop that."
"So it was that?! You never said that during these three years together." I snapped, standing up too.
"Sho was in coma and his father didn't want to see you again."
"I was right, then. You were using me like your toy or even your whore!" I shouted.
Nino slapped my face. I looked at him with shocked eyes, putting my hand on my cheek.
"How do you dare talking about my feelings! You know nothing!"
"Then, tell me, Kazu! Tell me these things you wanted to tell me!" I cried.
To be continued…
A/N: Again, sorry for this cut, please, don't kill me XD So, lots of things happened here with Ohchan's past and the closeness of our lovely Ohmiya BUT (I prefer to warn you all before you get happy too quickly and kill me after xD) don't be used to it xD *ran away in Alaska to join the penguins and eskimos)
See you soon xD