Breaking chains (3/?)

Feb 04, 2014 20:29

Title: Breaking chains
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairings: Sakumoto, Junba, Ohmiya
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: If I owned Sakumoto they would already be tied up on my bed xD
Summary: I was 18 years old the first time I met him. I was a student, he was my teacher. Our relationship was forbidden but it didn't stop us to fall in love. But what I hadn't planned was the dark part of his life that would make me feel alive and free but at the same time, would tie me up to a dangerous relationship.

A/N: Jun and Aiba are 18 years old, Sho is 30 in this story.



Chapter 3:

"Why?" My mother looked at me with shocked eyes.
"I... My biology's teacher hates me and he will give me bad note marks, it could prevent my graduation." I lied.
"Really? I could talk to Terashima-san and ask him to make you change of class, dear."
"No, he won't agree now. Please mom!"
"Let me think about it, we will talk about it with your father."
"Okay."

I stayed at home for two days, I just refused to see him for the moment. My mind was a mess and I needed time to find the courage to confront him again.
When I entered my classroom two days later, Aiba welcomed me with happiness.

"I missed you!"
"Me too."
"Why did you stay two days at home? Were you sick?"
"A bit... Masaki, I'm going to leave Sakura." I whispered.
"WHAT?! You want to leave our school?!" Aiba yelled.
"Be quiet!" I smacked his head but saw Sakurai standing next to us with shocked eyes.
"Is it true?"
"It's none of your business." I replied, ignoring his hurt look.
"Stay after class."

I didn't have the choice, he was still my teacher and I had to obey. I never looked at him during the whole lesson and strangely, Sakurai left me alone. When everybody left the class, I approached him carefully.

"First, I want to apologize for kissing you even if I don't regret it. And... I guess you want to leave this school because of me."
"Yes." No need to lie to comfort him.
"I see. I want you to think about it again."
"I want to leave."
"Jun, please, think about it again. I... I promise I won't touch you again but please, don't leave this school!" Sakurai implored.
"Why do you care about me that much?"
"Because I..." Sakurai stood up and put his hand on my cheek. "Because I love you." I blinked. Hey?! Was he serious?!
"It's not funny." I snapped.
"Jun, I'm serious. I... I know you are young but I... I love everything about you. You're smart, kind, beautiful... You're different, seeing you every day in this classroom makes me happy. I want to see you happy, to treasure you. I have never told something like that to someone else before... You make me so weak, you don't understand what you make me feel..."
"I just understand that you are crazy and disgusting!" I snapped. Tears started to shine in his eyes. I wanted to leave, to run away not to burst into tears in front of him.
"I know. I know I'm disgusting but my feelings for you are sincere. I... Even if you don't want me, don't leave please. I need to see you, to see your smile and your face every day." I couldn't think properly. He was breaking my defenses, he was driving me crazy. I hated to see him so miserable and sad, it hurt me so damn much!
"Sensei... I..."
"Please, don't go away." Sakurai took my hand. "Hit me, insult me, yell at me but don’t leave. Don't leave me." Sakurai whispered, kissing my hand.
"You're crazy, I don't want to see you again!"  I started to cry and pulling away, ran away.
"Jun!"

Why was he doing that to me?! Why was he hurting me like that?! Why?! Why do his tears were killing me like that?!

"Why?!" I hit the wall of my bedroom angrily. Why was he feeling that for me?! It wasn't right, it was disgusting! It... It was wrong!! What his problem was?! Couldn't he leave me alone?! Couldn't he forget me and treat me like the other students?!

I thought about his diary, about what he wrote about me. It touched me but thinking it was from him scared me. It was wrong, it was disgusting. He was my teacher, the person who had to guide me, to teach me the life not to kiss or touch me! My phone made me jump as I was deep in my thoughts.

"Moshi mosh?"
"JunJun, I have a new game, come home now!" Aiba didn't let me the time to answer and hang up. This baka... I left my home and walked to his, as we weren't far away from each other, it was quick to join him. But when I left my house, I saw Sakurai in the street.
"Jun..."
"Leave! You're just a crazy stalker!" I yelled.
"Please, listen to me!"
"No!" I ran but he didn't follow me. How could he know where I was living? He was scaring me, maybe he would attack me the next time... I really had to leave this school.

For two weeks, Sakurai tried to talk to me but I always ran away, avoiding him and his desperate voice. He didn't seem ready to give up but I was more stubborn and wouldn't surrender. My dad was thinking about the possibility of changing me of school but hadn't agreed yet. I was a serious student and he was very strict with me, wanting his only son to have a great job not to bring shame on the family's name. How could I tell him I was gay? If I did, he would disown me and would throw me away of our house. Why couldn't I be normal? Why couldn't I make him proud of me? Why couldn't I be myself with my family? My mother knew I was gay, one day, she saw me kissing Aiba but she never rejected me nor told the truth to my father. I was so happy she accepted me and still loved her son, even if I was a fag.

I heard the doorbell and stopped to read my book to open the door.

"What are you doing here?!" I yelled.
"Jun, please..."
"Leave!!" I tried to close the door but Sakurai pushed it, almost making me fall on the ground.
"Please, listen to me."
"No! I've already listened to you!"
"Jun, tell me you don't feel anything for me and I'll leave."
"You're disgusting, leave!" I looked away, not able to stare at his sad eyes.
"Look at me for the fucking sake!" Sakurai yelled, making me jump.
"Why?! Why do you go that far for me?! I'm 12 years old younger than you! It's wrong!"
"Because you are important to me! I love you for the fucking sake! I don't care about your age, I love what you are! You make me so weak but at the same time so strong, as if I had a heart!"
"Stupid."
"No, realistic. I love you, it's the first time I'm telling that to someone! You break all my defenses, you... You make me feel alive!"
"Leave, please." I whispered.
"Jun, please, tell me, look at me and tell me you don't feel this special link between us. Tell me you don't think about me after school and when you sleep. Tell me you don't feel anything for me and I'll give up. Tell me, Jun and I'll try to move on." Sakurai stroked my cheek.
"Why?! Why are you doing that to me?!" I sobbed. "Why do you make me feel so sad?! Why do I feel so empty when you aren't here?! Why does it hurt me when you are sad?! I hate you!! I hate you because this is wrong but I can't stop this pain in my heart!!! Why can't I be normal??!!!" I broke down, crying. I felt two strong arms wrapping my body and my face buried in a warm neck.
"I know. I'm sorry but... Jun, I know it's wrong and impossible but... Please, don't leave. Don't destroy us! And you are normal, loving men isn't a shame." Sakurai whispered in my ear.
"Sensei..." I said weakly. "It's wrong..."
"I don't care. If you stay, if you are by my side, I don't care. I just need you." Sakurai's hand traveled in my hair softly. I looked at him, thinking he was just beautiful with these doubts and sadness shining on his face.
"I'm scared." I whispered, burying my face in his chest.
"I know but everything will be all right. I'm here, nothing will happen to you." Sakurai grabbed my chin, staring right in my eyes before catching my lips hungrily. I moaned but kissed him back this time, as desperate for his touch as he was for mine. "I love you. I love you so much!" Sakurai kept repeating between our lips.
"Me too." I panted. I felt him smiling, his hand stroking my body softly.
"If you knew how much I want you, Jun." I shivered in excitation and didn't push him away like the last time.
"Sho..."
"Say my name, say my name again."
"Sho, I..." I moaned, his lips attacking my neck hungrily.
"We should stop." Sho sighed, pulling away.
"Why..."
"You're not ready, Jun. I want to do this right before doing anything more."
"Okay."I sighed.
"When your parents come back?"
"At 6 p.m."
"We have two hours, we could watch a movie." Sho smiled.
"Hun." I blushed deeply.
"I've missed this." Sho stroked my red cheek.
"Baka." I mumbled and took his hand to lead him to my bedroom. We sat on my bed and I switched my TV on but Sho pushed me on my back to kiss me hungrily again. I moaned and wrapped his waist with my legs, enjoying his lips on my chest. When did he take my shirt off?! I gripped his hair as he was kissing my whole chest, licking my skin and taking care of my nipples. I groaned when the wonderful mouth left me and pecked my lips before pulling away.
"Be good." Sho smiled, laying down and wrapping me in his arms. I laid my head on his chest and stared at the screen. After a while, I closed my eyes, enjoying Sho's fingers in my hair. I just realized I had fallen asleep when a mouth kissed my eyes.
"Sho?" I yawned, seeing his face above me.
"Hey, sleeping beauty, you fell asleep."
"Sorry. My parents?"
"It's 5.45 p.m, I have to leave."
"Okay." Sho stroked my forehead and kissed my cheek tenderly.
"See you tomorrow at school?"
"I don't think I have the choice, do I?" I chuckled.
"No because I'll kidnap you if you leave."
"Interesting." I blushed.
"Come at my place the next week end."
"I'll ask my parents." I nodded.
"See you tomorrow, then." Sho kissed me deeply before leaving.

I stared at him with a stupid smile. I still thought all this was a bad idea but I couldn't ignore my feelings anymore. Because I had to be honest with myself. I loved him. It wasn't like with Masaki. I knew I had feelings for Masaki but it was different. It was a deep affection while with Sho, I felt as if I would die if he wasn't here anymore, as if I needed him more than anything in my life. I didn't know why. I didn't understand why but I was sure of one thing: I didn't want to feel the way I felt these two past weeks again. It was as if someone had ripped a part of my heart and as if the sky was dark every day. There was a dark part in Sho that was making me curious. He was hiding something and I wanted to discover what.

"Ohayou!" I exclaimed the next day, smiling to Aiba.
"You look happy, something good happened?"
"Yes. I've finally decided to stay here." I grinned.
"Really?! Yatta!!!!" Aiba jumped in my arms with happiness, making me laugh.
"Don't be so loud baka." I chuckled and my heart fluttered when I saw Sho next to the classroom's door smiling softly.
"Stay after class." He whispered. I nodded with a big grin. Staying concentrate on a lesson when your gorgeous boyfriend (Yes, boyfriend!!!) was walking next to you, brushing your hands, your arms, smiling sexily to you was just a hell. I couldn't keep my eyes on my book and was staring at Sho's butt and built body. Dirty thoughts invaded my mind and I started to blush so deeply that I was looking like a tomato.
"Matsumoto-kun, are you okay?" I jumped, looking at my teacher.
"Yes..."
"You look sick, your face is very red." Sho just gave me a heart-attack when he put his hand on my forehead to check my temperature.
"I'm fi-ne..." I stammered stupidly. Sho smirked, understanding what was happening.
"I hope there is a nurse at your home to take care of you." I almost gagged myself with my own saliva. Was he serious? Making so obvious allusions in front of the whole class.
"Oh yes, sensei, I have a great person who will take care of me if I feel bad." I replied. Sho blinked in surprise, not expecting this kind of answer. The bell didn't let him the time to answer and as soon as the last student left the class, Sho pushed me against the wall, his lips devouring mines.
"So, you have a nurse at home to take care of you?"
"Ye-s. But I'll ha-ve to wait for the week end to see her." I managed to say between his horny kisses.
"I'm sure she will take care of you." Sho smirked.
"Sho... I..."
"I want you so bad, baby." Sho pressed his hard length against my leg to show me how he wanted me.
"I... Make love to me, then." I blushed.
"No. I want to give you an amazing first time and it won't be in a school. I want to make you scream my name and beg me for more." Sho smirked, eating my neck.
"So arrogant. It won't be my first time though." I chuckled.
"As a bottom, it will." Sho moaned. I shivered at the idea. Yes. My first time as a bottom. It was obvious this crazy horny man wouldn't let me top.
"Sho!" I arched my head against the wall when his length brushed mine.
"Shit!" My teacher groaned and unzipped our pants quickly.
"Sho?"
"Take mine and I take yours." My lover grabbed my length, stealing me a little scream and started to pump me. I did the same, our lips meeting each other's to gag our moans. This fucking teacher was driving me crazy!
"Sensei..." I gasped.
"You're so exciting when you call me like that.
"Sensei... Ahhhh." I came hard in his hand, tightening my grip around his member and making him come. My head fell against his shoulder as I was panting heavily. Sho's kisses on my neck came back before ending on my lips.
"I feel better now." We both laughed before Sho sat on the desk, making me climb on his lap to hug me tightly.
"I love you." I whispered.
"Me too. Jun, after this week end, I want to talk about something very important to you."
"The dark side?" I chuckled.
"Dark side?" Sho raised an eyebrow.
"You're going to tell me you are a crazy married man or a pervert who steals his boyfriend's underwear’s."
"I'm crazy, yes. Crazy about you." Sho pinched my nose, making me blush. "And I'm not married. No, I just... You don't know anything about me and I want to share it with you... Maybe you'll freak out and won't want to see me again but I really hope you will accept it and stay with me." Sho took my hand to kiss my knuckles.
"What do you mean?" I frowned.
"You'll see. For the moment, I want to spend time with you. Just the two of us."
"Me too but I have to go, my father is very severe with studies."
"I have an idea then." Sho smirked. Oh oh, it wasn't something good when he had this pervert smile. "I bring you back home, sweetheart." I didn't even have the strength to protest and followed him.

"Tadaima!" I exclaimed, opening the door.
"Okaeri, Jun." My father smiled. "Who is he?" He added. I blinked and gasped, seeing Sho behind me.
"Matsumoto-san, nice to meet you. I'm Jun-kun's biology teacher. I'm here to see you."
"Has he done something wrong?" My father asked worriedly.
"No. He is doing great and I would like to help him to do better, that's why I came to ask you if I can give him some extra lessons, to bring him to the top."
"Eh?!" My father and I exclaimed at the same time.

To be continued...

A/N: So, things moved a lot, ne xD now, they have to deal with something new and Jun isn't aware of Sho's complete personality, but I shut my mouth before saying too much xD You'll be a bit surprise after the chapter 4 xD I'm impatient to know what you will think about the plot after xDDD see you soon <3 And ohmiya will come soon ;)

genre: au, rating: pg-13, drama, angst, pairing: ohmiya, romance

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