Breaking chains (15/16)
Title: Breaking chains
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairings: Sakumoto, Ohmiya, Junba
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: If I owned Sakumoto they would already be tied up on my bed xD
Summary: I was 18 years old the first time I met him. I was a student, he was my teacher. Our relationship was forbidden but it didn't stop us to fall in love. But what I hadn't planned was the dark part of his life that would make me feel alive and free but at the same time, would tie me up to a dangerous relationship.
A/N: Jun and Aiba are 18 years old, Sho is 30 in this story.
Chapter 15:
"Sho..." I whispered in front of my ex. I made a step back, it was too painful to see him like this. He looked...dead from inside. As if there was no life in his eyes anymore.
"Jun..."Aiba tried to take my hand but I shook my head and ran away. I was acting like a big coward but... What happened to him?! Why was he in this state?! He looked so depressed, so fragile. Where does my strong Sho was? I bit my lip, tears about to leave my eyes. Why?! Was it because of me? Was I the responsible of all this sadness in his eyes? What happened to him after I left four years ago?
I entered my bedroom and slammed the door roughly, making Toma jump.
"Jun? What..." I didn't let him the time to finish and climbed on him to rip his clothes.
"I need you." I groaned and stripped quickly.
"Jun, stop you're..."
"I want you." I kissed him roughly and soon, heard his moans of pleasure. Why was I reacting like that? Why seeing Sho had put me in this state? As if I wanted to forget the pain and sadness in his eyes. As if I wanted to forget MY pain to see him after all these years.
I fucked my boyfriend roughly before coming inside him and collapsing next to him after he came in my hand. I put my arm on my eyes, tears finally rolling down my cheeks.
"Jun?" Toma said softly as I was sobbing silently. I didn't answer, feeling guilty for crying over another man next to my own boyfriend who thought I had forgotten this guy a long time ago. "Jun, what's wrong?"
"Nothing. Just tired." I managed to mutter.
"Jun, tell me what's wrong?" Toma insisted, touching my arm softly.
"I said I was tired!" I yelled, leaving the bed and taking my scattered clothes on the ground.
"Where are you going? We need to talk!" Toma protested.
"I need something to drink." I muttered and left the bedroom, crossing my mother in the living room. She looked at me with sad eyes and I understood she had heard everything. And not only the talk. I grabbed my keys and slammed the door behind me. Toma didn't deserve that but right now, I wasn't able to control myself. I was so lost that anyone who would try to approach me would end with my fist in the face.
I entered a bar where all the teenagers (the old enough of course) came to drink and dance. I joined the counter to order something strong and sat on one of the seats. Drinking when you felt bad was very pathetic but I needed it.
"I knew you would be here." Aiba whispered, sitting next to me.
"You know me very well." I chuckled.
"What's wrong, Jun?"
"Everything is wrong." I whispered.
"Why? You are back, we've found each other again and there is Sho..."
"What happened to him?" I cut my friend off.
"Your start has been a big shock for him. I remember he didn't come at school for one month. I had never seen him like that. He always looked so cold and strong but when you've left him... It's when I realized how much he loved you despite his age and what you two were doing." Aiba explained softly.
"Our relationship was strong. What happened then?" I whispered sadly.
"After one month he came back at school but he wasn't the same anymore. He looked sad and empty. He wasn't joking anymore during our lessons and in four years, I haven't seen him smiling even once."
"He doesn't have another slave? Tokyo is big, he could find someone else." I replied.
"How can you say that, Jun?!"Aiba snapped, making me blink in front of his anger. "He loved you! You can't forget and pick someone else like that when the person you love has left you! You're horrible to say that!"
"Sorry... I just wanted to say he could try to find someone better than me." I said softly.
"He wanted you, not someone else, Jun. He was in love with you and only you and I think..." Aiba stopped, biting his lip.
"What?"
"I'm sure he still loves you."
"Even if he does, it's too late now."
"Why? You are back, you can try to..."
"I didn't come back for him." I replied, swallowing my glass.
"And what for?"
"For you and my mother."
"You're a big hypocrite, Jun." Aiba said coldly.
"Why? It's true. I promised you to come back and I think it's normal to come back for my mother after four years without her." I replied.
"I'm not saying your reasons are lies but we aren't the only ones. Sho is one of them."
"Sho lives in the same town than you, I couldn't avoid him."
"You could have met us in a place where you were sure not to see him. Be honest with yourself, Jun. You wanted to see him because you still love him."
"I don't. And I have a boyfriend." I replied.
"I don’t mean you love him and don't love Sho."
"I love my boyfriend. He helped me when everything was bad."
"But you still love Sho. Jun, what happened four years ago? Why did you leave Japan?"
"It's the past, don't bring painful memories back, please." I implored, taking my head with my hands.
"You owe him the truth, Jun. Sho will never move on if he wonders why you left him all his life."
"I can't." I stood up, leaving my friend as pictures of this day came back. I walked with difficulty as I was too drunk to stand correctly on my legs and left the bar with happiness. "I can't. It's too late." I whispered in the night.
Finding your home when you were drunk was like running a marathon after a hangover. I was gripping every lap not to fall on the ground. I stopped in front of a conbini and took the exposed magazine. I didn't know French magazines could be sold here. It was a Marie Claire with my picture on the front. I opened it to see the shoot and realized who much I had changed. I was older and had short brown hair with a sexy look. It wasn't me. It wasn't the real Jun. This man in this magazine was someone else.
"This hair style really suits you." I jumped and turned my head to see Sho next to me. He was smiling softly but his smile didn't reach his eyes.
"Thank you." I whispered.
"You're an actor now, congratulation, I'm proud of you, Jun." My heart tightened when I heard him calling me by my name. I missed it. I missed his voice and his 'baby', 'my love', 'honey', 'sweetheart'. I missed being so special for him.
"I've worked hard." I said softly, turning the page of the magazine.
"What are you going to do now you're back?"
"My agency wants me to play in Japanese movies. I want to be known elsewhere than France."
"To have many fans." Sho chuckled.
"No. I don't want to be famous with people but just in the middle of the cinema. I want to play in American movies, not only in French movies. Like Nino did for Letters from Iwojima."
"I see. It's great." Sho whispered, touching my picture on the magazine.
"Sho, I..." I stopped, my vision blurring and I collapsed on the ground, gripping Sho's jeans.
"Hey, what's wrong?"
"I...." I felt Sho lifting me in his arms before closing my eyes as I was breathing his amazing scent again.
****
I opened my eyes with a moan of pain.
"Merde!" I hissed. Hangover, good morning!
"Are you okay?" I turned my head to see Sho looking at me worriedly.
"Yes. Just a hangover." I muttered.
"Drink that." Sho held me out a coffee and it's at this moment I realized I was naked in a bed.
"Putain de merde!" I swore. Well, French hadn't completely left me, mostly when I was angry and scared.
"Jun?" Sho looked at me with lost eyes.
"I... We... Have we..." I blushed deeply, making him truly smile for the first time.
"I've missed this color on your cheeks. The real Jun." Sho stroked my cheek softly. I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply. I couldn't. I had to resist.
"Have we... You know..."
"I don't fuck corpse and yesterday night, you looked almost dead. You've drunk too much and fainted. As I didn't know where you live now, I brought you here."
"Why not at my father's house?"
"Because Aiba told me you didn't talk to him anymore."
"Ah... Thank you." I smiled a bit and looked for my clothes, blushing as I was feeling Sho's eyes on me.
"You can take a shower before. And your tattoo is very sexy."Sho winked.
"Thank you." I almost ran in the bathroom and sighed in happiness when the hot water touched my skin. Too many emotions were wining me. What was I going to do? I looked at the kanji just above my right butt cheek. Yours with a small S next to it. I had made this tattoo three years ago during a party as I had lost a bet. And of course, I chose it thinking about Sho. Because I would always belong to him. And this kanji was another proof of this fact.
I jumped, feeling two arms wrapping my waist from behind.
"Sho?! What are you doing?!" I panicked.
"I've missed you so much, Jun." Sho whispered in my ear.
"Stop it." I pushed him away. "Why are you doing that?" I snapped.
"Because I still love you and you feel the same." Sho replied, catching my arm.
"No. I have a boyfriend." I snapped.
"Then, why are you still wearing that?!" Sho replied, touching my necklace. Shit, I had forgotten I had never taken it off.
"I..."
"You belong to me, Jun. I know you love me. You've never taken your collar off." Sho whispered, stroking my wet cheek as the water was still falling on us.
"I..."
"You are mine, Jun." Sho repeated and grabbing my nape, smacked our lips together. I moaned in pleasure and let him kiss me like he wanted. "I love you so much, baby." Shit. He was calling me like that again!
"Sho..." I gasped between his rough kisses. Sho turned me around and slipped two fingers inside me, getting a loud whine from me.
"Mine... You don't belong to this brat because you belong to only me." I screamed when Sho entered me and started to fuck me roughly against the wall. Fucking God, how I missed that!!! It was heaven to feel his length inside me!
"Sho! Harder!!!" I screamed, my nails scratching the wall.
"I love you so much, Jun. So so much... You're mine." Sho moaned in my ear, thrusting harder and faster.
"I'm yours!" I whined and finally came as he was hitting my prostate again, bringing him over the edge.
"Sho!!!" I screamed, opening my eyes.
"Jun?" I saw Sho looking at me with worried eyes. I looked around me and realized I was on the ground under the shower. What happened? "I heard you screaming, you've slipped on the ground and hit your head. God, you've scared me!!!"Sho hugged me against him despite the water falling on him.
"Sorry." I whispered.
"I thought... Be careful, okay!" Sho looked at me with worry, his hand on my cheek. Our eyes were locked as if we were talking to each other.
"I'm sorry." A tear rolled down my cheek and Sho smiled softly, wiping it with his thumb.
"Don't cry." But both of us knew about why I was really apologizing. I bit my lip, trying to break this moment before it would go too far but seeing Sho smiling like that to me and the fear still in his eyes were preventing me to move. "Don't cry, please. I hate seeing you crying."Sho repeated, his thumb brushing my lower lip.
"I... Okay." I managed to say.
"You should dry yourself, you're shaking." Well, I was mostly shaking because of his body against mine. "Here." Sho held me out a towel and I took it to wipe the water on my naked body.
"Thank you."
"I have prepared some clothes as yours are dirty." Sho put it on the counter and left the bathroom. When I dressed myself, Sho's scent invaded my nose. His clothes smelt like him. His amazing scent that I still loved so much.
"I have to go or Toma will be very worried." I said when I joined his living room.
"Hun. And don't forget that." I froze when Sho held me out my necklace and I touched my neck with panic, realizing I really had lost it. "I just took it off to wash your body, don't worry." Electricity crossed my body when our skins touched and I quickly took my necklace, putting it back around my neck without daring to look at my ex.
"Thank you for everything." I whispered.
"You're welcome. But Jun..." Sho took my hand delicately. I bit my lip again, trying not to moan at his contact.
"Hun?"
"Why are you still wearing it?"
"I... It's a beautiful necklace."
"Isn't there another reason?"
"I..." I couldn't tell him it was because I still belonged to him. "No."
"I see." Sho released my hand, looking away.
"There is another reason." I said without thinking.
"Eh?" Sho looked at me with surprise.
"But I can't tell you why. It's... It's too late, now." I lowered my eyes.
"Jun..."
"I have to go. Thank you again." I said hastily and left without letting him the time to react. Why did I tell him that?! "Je suis un idiot!" I muttered when I entered my apartment.
"Jun, where were you?!" Toma exclaimed.
"Sorry, I drank too much and slept at Masaki’s house." I lied.
"Jun..."
"Sorry." I hugged him tightly but my lover pulled away softly.
"We need to talk."
"Eh?" Toma took my hand and led me in our bedroom.
"I'll come back to France."
"What?!Why?!" I exclaimed.
"Because I've realized many things since we are here."
"I don't understand." I frowned.
"I've realized you love someone else. You still love this Sho."
"No."
"Yes you do and I prefer to leave now than to suffer more."
"Please, Toma. I love you, don't leave." I took his hand with pleading eyes.
"You love me not as a lover but as a friend."
"I admit I still have feelings for Sho but they aren't as strong as the ones I have for you."
"But..."
"Please. You're someone very precious for me. I need you."
"But you don't love me." Toma whispered painfully. No no no. I didn't want to hurt him. I refused to let him go!
"I do love you! I refuse you to leave me!" I snapped, pulling him in a tight hug. "Don't leave me. Not you." I implored.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. I'm sorry for yesterday but don't leave me. I wouldn't bear it."
"Okay."Toma nodded, cupping my face to kiss me softly.
"Don't leave." I repeated, burying my face in his neck.
"I won't leave you." Toma whispered.
"I want to introduce you to Masaki."
"Tomorrow, then?"
"Hun."
"I want you." Toma laid me on the bed to kiss me deeply.
"Me too." I smiled, ready to start a moment of love.
The next day, I asked Masaki to meet in our bar. I wanted to introduce him Toma because he was important to me and I wanted to know this Hiroshi. Masaki was my best friend and I wanted to be sure his boyfriend was taking care of him well.
"And if he doesn't like me?" Toma asked worriedly as we were reaching the bar.
"He will love you. Everybody loves you even if you are mine." I chuckled, slapping his butt playfully.
"Jun!" Toma scowled me with a smile.
"They are here." I exclaimed, pointing my friend and his lover who was breath-taking with his white shirt and his jeans. His hair was falling a bit on his forehead and he was smiling and looking at Masa with worshipper eyes.
"JunJun!" Aiba hugged me.
"You remember this nickname." I pouted, patting his head.
"Always." Masaki chuckled.
"Hiroshi-san."I bowed slightly.
"Jun-san, hello." Hiroshi smiled. God he was very gorgeous.
"Masa, this is my boyfriend, Ikuta Toma. Baby, this is Masaki Aiba, my best friend."
"Nice to meet you, Jun talked a lot about you." Toma grinned.
"Well, I can't say the same." Aiba replied, making me jump. It wasn't like him to act like that.
"I hope it will change." Toma smiled.
Hiro, what do you want to drink?"Aiba turned toward Hiroshi who threw me an apologetic smile.
"A beer, please."
"I'll come with you. Toma, a beer too?" I asked my lover who looked uncomfortable.
"Please, honey." I pushed Aiba toward the counter.
"What are you playing at?" I snapped.
To be continued…
A/N. I take advantage of coming home early for posting that xD I'm so tired with my sister's birth but so happy, she is wonderful and super cute ;w; Well, lots of things happened here, mostly between Sho and Jun with a lost Jun and a sufffering Sho TT One chapter left and it will be the end of this fic TT
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairings: Sakumoto, Ohmiya, Junba
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: If I owned Sakumoto they would already be tied up on my bed xD
Summary: I was 18 years old the first time I met him. I was a student, he was my teacher. Our relationship was forbidden but it didn't stop us to fall in love. But what I hadn't planned was the dark part of his life that would make me feel alive and free but at the same time, would tie me up to a dangerous relationship.
A/N: Jun and Aiba are 18 years old, Sho is 30 in this story.
Chapter 15:
"Sho..." I whispered in front of my ex. I made a step back, it was too painful to see him like this. He looked...dead from inside. As if there was no life in his eyes anymore.
"Jun..."Aiba tried to take my hand but I shook my head and ran away. I was acting like a big coward but... What happened to him?! Why was he in this state?! He looked so depressed, so fragile. Where does my strong Sho was? I bit my lip, tears about to leave my eyes. Why?! Was it because of me? Was I the responsible of all this sadness in his eyes? What happened to him after I left four years ago?
I entered my bedroom and slammed the door roughly, making Toma jump.
"Jun? What..." I didn't let him the time to finish and climbed on him to rip his clothes.
"I need you." I groaned and stripped quickly.
"Jun, stop you're..."
"I want you." I kissed him roughly and soon, heard his moans of pleasure. Why was I reacting like that? Why seeing Sho had put me in this state? As if I wanted to forget the pain and sadness in his eyes. As if I wanted to forget MY pain to see him after all these years.
I fucked my boyfriend roughly before coming inside him and collapsing next to him after he came in my hand. I put my arm on my eyes, tears finally rolling down my cheeks.
"Jun?" Toma said softly as I was sobbing silently. I didn't answer, feeling guilty for crying over another man next to my own boyfriend who thought I had forgotten this guy a long time ago. "Jun, what's wrong?"
"Nothing. Just tired." I managed to mutter.
"Jun, tell me what's wrong?" Toma insisted, touching my arm softly.
"I said I was tired!" I yelled, leaving the bed and taking my scattered clothes on the ground.
"Where are you going? We need to talk!" Toma protested.
"I need something to drink." I muttered and left the bedroom, crossing my mother in the living room. She looked at me with sad eyes and I understood she had heard everything. And not only the talk. I grabbed my keys and slammed the door behind me. Toma didn't deserve that but right now, I wasn't able to control myself. I was so lost that anyone who would try to approach me would end with my fist in the face.
I entered a bar where all the teenagers (the old enough of course) came to drink and dance. I joined the counter to order something strong and sat on one of the seats. Drinking when you felt bad was very pathetic but I needed it.
"I knew you would be here." Aiba whispered, sitting next to me.
"You know me very well." I chuckled.
"What's wrong, Jun?"
"Everything is wrong." I whispered.
"Why? You are back, we've found each other again and there is Sho..."
"What happened to him?" I cut my friend off.
"Your start has been a big shock for him. I remember he didn't come at school for one month. I had never seen him like that. He always looked so cold and strong but when you've left him... It's when I realized how much he loved you despite his age and what you two were doing." Aiba explained softly.
"Our relationship was strong. What happened then?" I whispered sadly.
"After one month he came back at school but he wasn't the same anymore. He looked sad and empty. He wasn't joking anymore during our lessons and in four years, I haven't seen him smiling even once."
"He doesn't have another slave? Tokyo is big, he could find someone else." I replied.
"How can you say that, Jun?!"Aiba snapped, making me blink in front of his anger. "He loved you! You can't forget and pick someone else like that when the person you love has left you! You're horrible to say that!"
"Sorry... I just wanted to say he could try to find someone better than me." I said softly.
"He wanted you, not someone else, Jun. He was in love with you and only you and I think..." Aiba stopped, biting his lip.
"What?"
"I'm sure he still loves you."
"Even if he does, it's too late now."
"Why? You are back, you can try to..."
"I didn't come back for him." I replied, swallowing my glass.
"And what for?"
"For you and my mother."
"You're a big hypocrite, Jun." Aiba said coldly.
"Why? It's true. I promised you to come back and I think it's normal to come back for my mother after four years without her." I replied.
"I'm not saying your reasons are lies but we aren't the only ones. Sho is one of them."
"Sho lives in the same town than you, I couldn't avoid him."
"You could have met us in a place where you were sure not to see him. Be honest with yourself, Jun. You wanted to see him because you still love him."
"I don't. And I have a boyfriend." I replied.
"I don’t mean you love him and don't love Sho."
"I love my boyfriend. He helped me when everything was bad."
"But you still love Sho. Jun, what happened four years ago? Why did you leave Japan?"
"It's the past, don't bring painful memories back, please." I implored, taking my head with my hands.
"You owe him the truth, Jun. Sho will never move on if he wonders why you left him all his life."
"I can't." I stood up, leaving my friend as pictures of this day came back. I walked with difficulty as I was too drunk to stand correctly on my legs and left the bar with happiness. "I can't. It's too late." I whispered in the night.
Finding your home when you were drunk was like running a marathon after a hangover. I was gripping every lap not to fall on the ground. I stopped in front of a conbini and took the exposed magazine. I didn't know French magazines could be sold here. It was a Marie Claire with my picture on the front. I opened it to see the shoot and realized who much I had changed. I was older and had short brown hair with a sexy look. It wasn't me. It wasn't the real Jun. This man in this magazine was someone else.
"This hair style really suits you." I jumped and turned my head to see Sho next to me. He was smiling softly but his smile didn't reach his eyes.
"Thank you." I whispered.
"You're an actor now, congratulation, I'm proud of you, Jun." My heart tightened when I heard him calling me by my name. I missed it. I missed his voice and his 'baby', 'my love', 'honey', 'sweetheart'. I missed being so special for him.
"I've worked hard." I said softly, turning the page of the magazine.
"What are you going to do now you're back?"
"My agency wants me to play in Japanese movies. I want to be known elsewhere than France."
"To have many fans." Sho chuckled.
"No. I don't want to be famous with people but just in the middle of the cinema. I want to play in American movies, not only in French movies. Like Nino did for Letters from Iwojima."
"I see. It's great." Sho whispered, touching my picture on the magazine.
"Sho, I..." I stopped, my vision blurring and I collapsed on the ground, gripping Sho's jeans.
"Hey, what's wrong?"
"I...." I felt Sho lifting me in his arms before closing my eyes as I was breathing his amazing scent again.
****
I opened my eyes with a moan of pain.
"Merde!" I hissed. Hangover, good morning!
"Are you okay?" I turned my head to see Sho looking at me worriedly.
"Yes. Just a hangover." I muttered.
"Drink that." Sho held me out a coffee and it's at this moment I realized I was naked in a bed.
"Putain de merde!" I swore. Well, French hadn't completely left me, mostly when I was angry and scared.
"Jun?" Sho looked at me with lost eyes.
"I... We... Have we..." I blushed deeply, making him truly smile for the first time.
"I've missed this color on your cheeks. The real Jun." Sho stroked my cheek softly. I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply. I couldn't. I had to resist.
"Have we... You know..."
"I don't fuck corpse and yesterday night, you looked almost dead. You've drunk too much and fainted. As I didn't know where you live now, I brought you here."
"Why not at my father's house?"
"Because Aiba told me you didn't talk to him anymore."
"Ah... Thank you." I smiled a bit and looked for my clothes, blushing as I was feeling Sho's eyes on me.
"You can take a shower before. And your tattoo is very sexy."Sho winked.
"Thank you." I almost ran in the bathroom and sighed in happiness when the hot water touched my skin. Too many emotions were wining me. What was I going to do? I looked at the kanji just above my right butt cheek. Yours with a small S next to it. I had made this tattoo three years ago during a party as I had lost a bet. And of course, I chose it thinking about Sho. Because I would always belong to him. And this kanji was another proof of this fact.
I jumped, feeling two arms wrapping my waist from behind.
"Sho?! What are you doing?!" I panicked.
"I've missed you so much, Jun." Sho whispered in my ear.
"Stop it." I pushed him away. "Why are you doing that?" I snapped.
"Because I still love you and you feel the same." Sho replied, catching my arm.
"No. I have a boyfriend." I snapped.
"Then, why are you still wearing that?!" Sho replied, touching my necklace. Shit, I had forgotten I had never taken it off.
"I..."
"You belong to me, Jun. I know you love me. You've never taken your collar off." Sho whispered, stroking my wet cheek as the water was still falling on us.
"I..."
"You are mine, Jun." Sho repeated and grabbing my nape, smacked our lips together. I moaned in pleasure and let him kiss me like he wanted. "I love you so much, baby." Shit. He was calling me like that again!
"Sho..." I gasped between his rough kisses. Sho turned me around and slipped two fingers inside me, getting a loud whine from me.
"Mine... You don't belong to this brat because you belong to only me." I screamed when Sho entered me and started to fuck me roughly against the wall. Fucking God, how I missed that!!! It was heaven to feel his length inside me!
"Sho! Harder!!!" I screamed, my nails scratching the wall.
"I love you so much, Jun. So so much... You're mine." Sho moaned in my ear, thrusting harder and faster.
"I'm yours!" I whined and finally came as he was hitting my prostate again, bringing him over the edge.
"Sho!!!" I screamed, opening my eyes.
"Jun?" I saw Sho looking at me with worried eyes. I looked around me and realized I was on the ground under the shower. What happened? "I heard you screaming, you've slipped on the ground and hit your head. God, you've scared me!!!"Sho hugged me against him despite the water falling on him.
"Sorry." I whispered.
"I thought... Be careful, okay!" Sho looked at me with worry, his hand on my cheek. Our eyes were locked as if we were talking to each other.
"I'm sorry." A tear rolled down my cheek and Sho smiled softly, wiping it with his thumb.
"Don't cry." But both of us knew about why I was really apologizing. I bit my lip, trying to break this moment before it would go too far but seeing Sho smiling like that to me and the fear still in his eyes were preventing me to move. "Don't cry, please. I hate seeing you crying."Sho repeated, his thumb brushing my lower lip.
"I... Okay." I managed to say.
"You should dry yourself, you're shaking." Well, I was mostly shaking because of his body against mine. "Here." Sho held me out a towel and I took it to wipe the water on my naked body.
"Thank you."
"I have prepared some clothes as yours are dirty." Sho put it on the counter and left the bathroom. When I dressed myself, Sho's scent invaded my nose. His clothes smelt like him. His amazing scent that I still loved so much.
"I have to go or Toma will be very worried." I said when I joined his living room.
"Hun. And don't forget that." I froze when Sho held me out my necklace and I touched my neck with panic, realizing I really had lost it. "I just took it off to wash your body, don't worry." Electricity crossed my body when our skins touched and I quickly took my necklace, putting it back around my neck without daring to look at my ex.
"Thank you for everything." I whispered.
"You're welcome. But Jun..." Sho took my hand delicately. I bit my lip again, trying not to moan at his contact.
"Hun?"
"Why are you still wearing it?"
"I... It's a beautiful necklace."
"Isn't there another reason?"
"I..." I couldn't tell him it was because I still belonged to him. "No."
"I see." Sho released my hand, looking away.
"There is another reason." I said without thinking.
"Eh?" Sho looked at me with surprise.
"But I can't tell you why. It's... It's too late, now." I lowered my eyes.
"Jun..."
"I have to go. Thank you again." I said hastily and left without letting him the time to react. Why did I tell him that?! "Je suis un idiot!" I muttered when I entered my apartment.
"Jun, where were you?!" Toma exclaimed.
"Sorry, I drank too much and slept at Masaki’s house." I lied.
"Jun..."
"Sorry." I hugged him tightly but my lover pulled away softly.
"We need to talk."
"Eh?" Toma took my hand and led me in our bedroom.
"I'll come back to France."
"What?!Why?!" I exclaimed.
"Because I've realized many things since we are here."
"I don't understand." I frowned.
"I've realized you love someone else. You still love this Sho."
"No."
"Yes you do and I prefer to leave now than to suffer more."
"Please, Toma. I love you, don't leave." I took his hand with pleading eyes.
"You love me not as a lover but as a friend."
"I admit I still have feelings for Sho but they aren't as strong as the ones I have for you."
"But..."
"Please. You're someone very precious for me. I need you."
"But you don't love me." Toma whispered painfully. No no no. I didn't want to hurt him. I refused to let him go!
"I do love you! I refuse you to leave me!" I snapped, pulling him in a tight hug. "Don't leave me. Not you." I implored.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. I'm sorry for yesterday but don't leave me. I wouldn't bear it."
"Okay."Toma nodded, cupping my face to kiss me softly.
"Don't leave." I repeated, burying my face in his neck.
"I won't leave you." Toma whispered.
"I want to introduce you to Masaki."
"Tomorrow, then?"
"Hun."
"I want you." Toma laid me on the bed to kiss me deeply.
"Me too." I smiled, ready to start a moment of love.
The next day, I asked Masaki to meet in our bar. I wanted to introduce him Toma because he was important to me and I wanted to know this Hiroshi. Masaki was my best friend and I wanted to be sure his boyfriend was taking care of him well.
"And if he doesn't like me?" Toma asked worriedly as we were reaching the bar.
"He will love you. Everybody loves you even if you are mine." I chuckled, slapping his butt playfully.
"Jun!" Toma scowled me with a smile.
"They are here." I exclaimed, pointing my friend and his lover who was breath-taking with his white shirt and his jeans. His hair was falling a bit on his forehead and he was smiling and looking at Masa with worshipper eyes.
"JunJun!" Aiba hugged me.
"You remember this nickname." I pouted, patting his head.
"Always." Masaki chuckled.
"Hiroshi-san."I bowed slightly.
"Jun-san, hello." Hiroshi smiled. God he was very gorgeous.
"Masa, this is my boyfriend, Ikuta Toma. Baby, this is Masaki Aiba, my best friend."
"Nice to meet you, Jun talked a lot about you." Toma grinned.
"Well, I can't say the same." Aiba replied, making me jump. It wasn't like him to act like that.
"I hope it will change." Toma smiled.
Hiro, what do you want to drink?"Aiba turned toward Hiroshi who threw me an apologetic smile.
"A beer, please."
"I'll come with you. Toma, a beer too?" I asked my lover who looked uncomfortable.
"Please, honey." I pushed Aiba toward the counter.
"What are you playing at?" I snapped.
To be continued…
A/N. I take advantage of coming home early for posting that xD I'm so tired with my sister's birth but so happy, she is wonderful and super cute ;w; Well, lots of things happened here, mostly between Sho and Jun with a lost Jun and a sufffering Sho TT One chapter left and it will be the end of this fic TT