Alive (2/?)
Title: Alive
Author: Matsuaurore
Pairings: Sakumoto, Ohmiya
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They belong to me but just in my dreams T.T
Summary: He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. But what can you do when the love you feel is also the forbidden?
What can you do when you have to push away what keeps you alive?
Chapter 2:
When I opened my eyes, a smile spread my lips, seeing Jun against me, his face against my chest and his arm around my waist. It was as if we were a real and normal couple. It felt so good and right to have him in my arms. I wanted to stay with him like that forever.
I stroked his nose with mine, trying to wake him up slowly as Jun wasn't a morning person.
"Hmm." Jun moaned in his sleep, sticking his body against mine even more.
"Junny baby?" I whispered, kissing his nose.
"Nii-chan?" Jun opened his eyes with difficulty.
"It's time to get up, sweetie." I smiled tenderly.
"Don't want." Jun whined, burying his face in my chest.
"Jun, we are going to be late." I sighed.
"I want to stay in bed with you." I chuckled and kissed his lips.
"Me too but we have to go. If you hurry up, I promise we'll spend the week-end together."
"Really?" Jun smiled widely.
"Of course. Just the two of us."
"Okay!" Jun exclaimed before coughing a bit.
"Jun..."
"I'm fine." Jun took his inhalator.
"Be careful, babe, I don't want to lose you." I stroked his cheek softly and kissed him. "Hurry up." I slapped his butt playfully.
I walked with him toward his school as I started my lessons later. It was hard for me not to hold his hand, not to show that he was mine and nobody was allowed to touch or approach him. I walked next to him as close as possible, sometimes stroking his hair and teasing him.
"Stop being a brat." I laughed, wrapping his shoulders to kiss his temple.
"I'm not." Jun pouted like a baby, making me chuckle.
"Don't play your child or I'll punish you."
"Are you angry?" Jun asked with worried eyes while taking a puff of his inhalator.
"Not possible. Be careful at school, don't make too many efforts." I looked around to check if we were alone and pulled him in a kiss. "Have a good day and see you tonight."
"Hun." Jun nodded happily, blushing. "You too."
I looked at him joining his school, having a weird feeling. It was as if something was wrong, as if he was hiding me something.
The day at Keio was long, very long. I missed Jun even more since we were together.
Together.
Just this word was making me grin like a school girl. But reality hit me when I heard a familiar voice.
"Sho-chan~" I groaned, hearing my girlfriend's voice. Nobody was allowed to call me 'Sho-chan' except Jun and maybe Masaki, my best friend.
"Hello, Hana." I forced a smile when she sat next to me.
"You didn't call me yesterday." She pouted. Well, maybe because I didn't want to hear your annoying voice and conversations for hours.
"Sorry, I was busy." I apologized.
"We could spend the week-end together."
"I can't this week-end." No way I would cancel my plans with Jun.
"Why?"
"I have to study."
"We could do it together."
"I prefer to be alone and Jun needs me for some lessons."
"Can't he study by himself?" She snapped. Wait! Did I dream or did she talk badly about my brother.
"It's normal to need help sometimes." I said coldly.
"Yes but I want to spend time with you and he is a big boy, he can do his home works alone."
"I'm the older, I have to help him. I'm sorry but my brother is my priority." I snapped and opened my book, showing her it was the end of the conversation. She didn't add anything and it was better like that because I would want to slap her face. At the end of the day, I didn't wait for her and ran to my house, impatient to kiss my Jun.
"Nii-chan!!" Jun grinned widely when I entered the house and jumped in my arms to wrap his legs around my waist. I laughed and kissed him, happy that he was making the first step toward me as I wasn't a very demonstrative person. I hugged him tightly and kissed his neck with love, my hand stroking his silky black hair.
"I missed you." I finally dared to whisper and the smile Jun made was just the most beautiful gift he could give me for this sentence.
"Me too. The day was too long."
"Did you have any crisis today?" I asked worriedly.
"No. I stayed in the classroom." Jun shook his head with a slight smile.
"I'm sorry you have to go through that." I sighed sadly.
"As long as Sho-chan is here, I'll be fine. I can handle everything!"
"Maybe not everything but I'm happy it helps you."
"Everything." Jun said in a serious tone.
There were moments like this one where I didn't understand him. He looked so mature, so adult, as if he wanted to bear the world on his shoulders. Jun had always been a boy who did his best not to annoy anybody and to do everything by himself. I knew he had deep scars because of his illness but he never lost his smile. I was impressed of his courage and his will to fight and overcome the worst things but sometimes, I was scared he was handling too many things for his age.
"As long as nothing hurts you..." I whispered.
"Nii-chan?" Jun looked at me with questioning eyes.
"I would kill any person who would hurt you or make you cry." I said in a scaring tone, tightening my grip around him.
"Sho-chan... You're hurting me." Jun whined and I pulled away with a worried face.
"Sorry, baby." I stroked his arms but he was okay.
"Could you help me with my mathematics?"
"Of course." I kissed him softly and lifted him in my arms.
"Hey!" Jun protested but I didn't let him go.
"Let me carry you." I kissed his pouty lips and led him toward his bedroom, trying to ignore the desire I had for him. I shouldn't touch him too much because anytime I did, I wanted more. I wanted to make love to him, to be inside him and make him scream in pleasure. But he was so young, I didn't want to impose that to him and just could hide my growing desire deep inside me. But it was so hard when I was seeing him pouting, passing his hand in his hair, laughing happily and mostly when I saw him naked.
This night, Jun slept in my arms again. We kept kissing for so long that we both ended up with red and swollen lips. It was hard not to kiss his pouty lips as he was making big progress to kiss me. Shit, I didn't know how long I would be able to hold myself back and not to jump on him!
And the worst happened. My parents told us they were going to her grandparent's house for the week-end and would come back three days later. Shit! Fucking shit! How would I be able not to jump on Jun if they weren't here?! I needed an idea not to desire him too much and scare him! My parents were leaving Friday afternoon and came back the Monday. Mmm, it meant I had half of Friday to find something.
Hana!
I had to see her, fuck her a lot and like that, I wouldn't be able to desire my little brother!
****
"Hana?"
"Hun?" She hummed, not leaving her book.
"Do you want to come at home today?"
"Eh?" She looked at me with surprised eyes.
"You could sleep at home, my parents aren't here."
"But your brother..."
"I can help him Saturday and we will just have to be quiet." I smirked.
"Okay." She stroked my leg with a happy smile and touched my flesh. I forced a fake moan, making her grin even more. Poor girl, how could I tell her that her hands on me had none effects and only Jun was able to get me hard? Hana was very pretty but she was a girl. And even if she was a boy, she still wouldn't be Jun. "I'm impatient to make love with you." She whispered in my ear.
"Me too." Liar. I knew I would have to think about Jun to get hard and to please her.
****
"Sho-chan!!!" Jun welcomed me, ready to jump in my arms but stopped when he saw Hana.
"Hello, Jun-kun." She waved her hand. Jun's smile vanished for some seconds and I saw a deep sadness passing in his eyes but he forced a smile.
"Hana-san, what are you doing here?"
"I'm staying for the night." Hana smiled. Jun lost his smile again and with a quick bow, ran to his bedroom. "Have I said something bad?" Hana asked me.
"No. I had told him we would watch Harry Potter together tonight, he is angry at me, I guess."
"Isn't he too old to watch that? It's for the babies." Hana said in a mocking tone. Seriously, I wanted to hit her sometimes!
"It's not and I like Harry Potter too." I snapped.
"If you say so. I'll prepare the dinner and then, we could have some fun." She smirked, kissing my neck.
"Hun." I nodded and left to join Jun's bedroom but my brother had locked the door up.
"Junny, open, please." I sighed.
"No." Stubborn boy!!!
"Don't be angry, we will be together tomorrow."
"Go back to her, I don't want to be with you." I paled at his words. Was he leaving me? Was he breaking-up?!
"But Jun..."
"Are you deaf?! Leave me alone!!" Jun yelled through his door. I froze, my heart stopping for some seconds. Did he hate me?
"Sho-chan! Jun-kun, dinner is ready!" Hana called.
"Jun, dinner is ready."
"I'm not hungry."
"Jun, stop playing the child and leave this room immediately!!!"
"Get out!" Jun snapped.
I sighed and decided to leave him for the moment. Maybe he just needed to sleep and would agree to talk tomorrow.
We ate in silence or I didn't talk and pretended to listen to what Hana was saying even if not in reality. I was thinking about Jun. Shit, his words were hurting me, I hated seeing him angry at me. After the dinner, Hana pushed me in my bedroom and we made love several times. I was trying to forget and even if she was moaning in pleasure, I never came. I just made her come and believe I had an orgasm. The truth was that she was disgusting me. I couldn't make love in the bed where Jun and I were sleeping and kissing. It should be him under me, moaning my name as I was thrusting inside of him. It shouldn't be her. I didn't sleep this night. I even got up to knock on Jun's door but he never answered. If I lost him, I wouldn't survive. Not without him.
"It was great. See you Monday." Hana kissed me the next morning and left. I ran toward Jun's bedroom but the door was opened and he wasn't inside.
"Jun?! Jun?!" I yelled, checking the whole house before taking my phone to call him. Where was he?! And with his asthma, he couldn't stay alone! What if he made a crisis?!
"Moshi moshi?" A voice answered.
"Who is it?"
"Nino. Sho-san?"
"Where is my brother?!"
"In the shower. He was sweating a lot the last night because..." I hung up and left the house without even locking the door and starting my car quickly. Luckily, I knew where Ninomiya lived as Jun had left me his address the previous week. If he had touched my Jun... If he had touched my little treasure, I would kill him for sure!!!
"Sho-san, Jun is here, he..." I didn't let him finish and punched him.
"Nii-chan!!!" Jun ran toward Nino who had fallen on the ground.
"Listen, little shit! If you dare to ever touch Jun again, I swear I'll rip your dick." I said coldly to Nino who burst out laugh after some seconds.
"See, J, I told you he cares about you."
"Eh?" I blinked, not expecting that.
"Before hitting someone, wait for his explanations." Nino said seriously. "Jun came the last night, crying like a waterfall and coughing violently. I made him take him medicine and sent him to the shower not to get you worry if he came back in this state." Nino explained.
"Jun..."
"Leave." Jun snapped, not looking at me.
"Jun, please." I took his wrist and pulled him in my arms where he struggled.
"J, seriously, listen to his explanations or I would have been hit for nothing." Nino sighed. "And you, take care of him better if you don't want I tell your girlfriend that you date your brother behind her back." Nino looked at me coldly. How did he know for us?! And wasn't he disgusted?!
"It would hurt Jun too." I replied.
"Not if I say that you date me. I wonder how she would react if she knew that you are gay." Nino smirked.
"Kazu!" Jun protested.
"I swore I wouldn't say anything for you two but only if your brother takes care of you. If you hurt J, I swear I'll make your life a hell and believe me, I'm a pro for that." Nino told me.
I liked this boy. Well, he was a brat and dared to defy me but he did that just because he cared about Jun and knowing my brother had a friend like him pleased me.
"Don't worry, it won't happen again. Sorry for the punch." I smirked.
"Next time, I swear I'll kill you if you hit my pretty face, Ohchan would be horrified if I came back to him with bruises. Now, leave before alerting all the neighbors." Nino chuckled.
"Come on, we are leaving." I took Jun's wrist and made him climb in the car.
We both stayed silent, my hands holding the wheel tightly as I was trying to calm down and not to yell at him.
"I'm sorry." I finally said after some minutes. Jun looked at me with surprise, certainly not expecting to hear my apologies. "I'm sorry for Hana."
"It's okay." Jun mumbled.
"No. No, it's not okay, Jun. I didn't invite her because I love her and you know it. You know I only date her not to let the parents guess for us. And yesterday... It was to protect you that I asked her to come."
"Why? You're not dangerous." Jun asked innocently. Baby, if you knew...
"Let's talk inside." I said while parking the car.
We entered our empty house and I led Jun toward my bedroom to make us sat on the bed before taking his hands in mines.
"I was trying to protect you from me because I want you." Jun blushed deeply at my words.
"Eh?"
"I wanted to spend the week-end with you but the parents let us alone. I love you, Jun and this love is strong but also wants to be showed physically. I feel desire for you. Lots of desire. I want to be closer to you, to form one and show you how much I love you but it's too early. I was afraid not to be able to control myself if we were alone. That's why I asked Hana to come. It was to prevent myself to hurt you." I said softly.
"Why would you hurt me?"
"Because I want you and you're not ready to..."
"Who said I wasn't ready?" Jun cut me off with defying eyes. "Stop treating me like a baby, Sho. I'm old enough to know what I want and I want to make love with you. I feel desire for you too." My brother blushed.
"Really?"
"Hun. I want to be closer to you."
"So, you've done nothing with Nino?"
"Of course not! How can you think I would betray you like that?! And plus, Kazu is dating someone."
"Because you could realize that what we do is wrong and you could be disgusted of me."
"I would never hate Sho-chan. I love Sho-chan more than anything." Jun smiled shyly.
"Me too." I grinned and wrapped his nape to kiss him. Jun moaned softly and spread his arms around my neck to let me deepen the kiss. After lots of seconds, I laid Jun on the bed to climb on him but my brother stopped me.
"What's wrong?"
"Not here. Not in the sheets where you have made love to her." My heart broke when I saw the sadness in his eyes and I nodded, standing up and leading him to his bedroom.
I was going to prove him that he was the only one and I just could have pleasure with him. And mostly, that I was the only one able and allowed to give him pleasure.
To be continued...
A/N: So, don't ask me why Sho is still with this bitch because I hate it to >< He is also doing that to protect Jun even if this time, it hurt him more than it protected him xD
So, next time, our dear Sakumoto will have their first time together and Sho will claim Jun as his and only his xD
See you soon~
Author: Matsuaurore
Pairings: Sakumoto, Ohmiya
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They belong to me but just in my dreams T.T
Summary: He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. But what can you do when the love you feel is also the forbidden?
What can you do when you have to push away what keeps you alive?
Chapter 2:
When I opened my eyes, a smile spread my lips, seeing Jun against me, his face against my chest and his arm around my waist. It was as if we were a real and normal couple. It felt so good and right to have him in my arms. I wanted to stay with him like that forever.
I stroked his nose with mine, trying to wake him up slowly as Jun wasn't a morning person.
"Hmm." Jun moaned in his sleep, sticking his body against mine even more.
"Junny baby?" I whispered, kissing his nose.
"Nii-chan?" Jun opened his eyes with difficulty.
"It's time to get up, sweetie." I smiled tenderly.
"Don't want." Jun whined, burying his face in my chest.
"Jun, we are going to be late." I sighed.
"I want to stay in bed with you." I chuckled and kissed his lips.
"Me too but we have to go. If you hurry up, I promise we'll spend the week-end together."
"Really?" Jun smiled widely.
"Of course. Just the two of us."
"Okay!" Jun exclaimed before coughing a bit.
"Jun..."
"I'm fine." Jun took his inhalator.
"Be careful, babe, I don't want to lose you." I stroked his cheek softly and kissed him. "Hurry up." I slapped his butt playfully.
I walked with him toward his school as I started my lessons later. It was hard for me not to hold his hand, not to show that he was mine and nobody was allowed to touch or approach him. I walked next to him as close as possible, sometimes stroking his hair and teasing him.
"Stop being a brat." I laughed, wrapping his shoulders to kiss his temple.
"I'm not." Jun pouted like a baby, making me chuckle.
"Don't play your child or I'll punish you."
"Are you angry?" Jun asked with worried eyes while taking a puff of his inhalator.
"Not possible. Be careful at school, don't make too many efforts." I looked around to check if we were alone and pulled him in a kiss. "Have a good day and see you tonight."
"Hun." Jun nodded happily, blushing. "You too."
I looked at him joining his school, having a weird feeling. It was as if something was wrong, as if he was hiding me something.
The day at Keio was long, very long. I missed Jun even more since we were together.
Together.
Just this word was making me grin like a school girl. But reality hit me when I heard a familiar voice.
"Sho-chan~" I groaned, hearing my girlfriend's voice. Nobody was allowed to call me 'Sho-chan' except Jun and maybe Masaki, my best friend.
"Hello, Hana." I forced a smile when she sat next to me.
"You didn't call me yesterday." She pouted. Well, maybe because I didn't want to hear your annoying voice and conversations for hours.
"Sorry, I was busy." I apologized.
"We could spend the week-end together."
"I can't this week-end." No way I would cancel my plans with Jun.
"Why?"
"I have to study."
"We could do it together."
"I prefer to be alone and Jun needs me for some lessons."
"Can't he study by himself?" She snapped. Wait! Did I dream or did she talk badly about my brother.
"It's normal to need help sometimes." I said coldly.
"Yes but I want to spend time with you and he is a big boy, he can do his home works alone."
"I'm the older, I have to help him. I'm sorry but my brother is my priority." I snapped and opened my book, showing her it was the end of the conversation. She didn't add anything and it was better like that because I would want to slap her face. At the end of the day, I didn't wait for her and ran to my house, impatient to kiss my Jun.
"Nii-chan!!" Jun grinned widely when I entered the house and jumped in my arms to wrap his legs around my waist. I laughed and kissed him, happy that he was making the first step toward me as I wasn't a very demonstrative person. I hugged him tightly and kissed his neck with love, my hand stroking his silky black hair.
"I missed you." I finally dared to whisper and the smile Jun made was just the most beautiful gift he could give me for this sentence.
"Me too. The day was too long."
"Did you have any crisis today?" I asked worriedly.
"No. I stayed in the classroom." Jun shook his head with a slight smile.
"I'm sorry you have to go through that." I sighed sadly.
"As long as Sho-chan is here, I'll be fine. I can handle everything!"
"Maybe not everything but I'm happy it helps you."
"Everything." Jun said in a serious tone.
There were moments like this one where I didn't understand him. He looked so mature, so adult, as if he wanted to bear the world on his shoulders. Jun had always been a boy who did his best not to annoy anybody and to do everything by himself. I knew he had deep scars because of his illness but he never lost his smile. I was impressed of his courage and his will to fight and overcome the worst things but sometimes, I was scared he was handling too many things for his age.
"As long as nothing hurts you..." I whispered.
"Nii-chan?" Jun looked at me with questioning eyes.
"I would kill any person who would hurt you or make you cry." I said in a scaring tone, tightening my grip around him.
"Sho-chan... You're hurting me." Jun whined and I pulled away with a worried face.
"Sorry, baby." I stroked his arms but he was okay.
"Could you help me with my mathematics?"
"Of course." I kissed him softly and lifted him in my arms.
"Hey!" Jun protested but I didn't let him go.
"Let me carry you." I kissed his pouty lips and led him toward his bedroom, trying to ignore the desire I had for him. I shouldn't touch him too much because anytime I did, I wanted more. I wanted to make love to him, to be inside him and make him scream in pleasure. But he was so young, I didn't want to impose that to him and just could hide my growing desire deep inside me. But it was so hard when I was seeing him pouting, passing his hand in his hair, laughing happily and mostly when I saw him naked.
This night, Jun slept in my arms again. We kept kissing for so long that we both ended up with red and swollen lips. It was hard not to kiss his pouty lips as he was making big progress to kiss me. Shit, I didn't know how long I would be able to hold myself back and not to jump on him!
And the worst happened. My parents told us they were going to her grandparent's house for the week-end and would come back three days later. Shit! Fucking shit! How would I be able not to jump on Jun if they weren't here?! I needed an idea not to desire him too much and scare him! My parents were leaving Friday afternoon and came back the Monday. Mmm, it meant I had half of Friday to find something.
Hana!
I had to see her, fuck her a lot and like that, I wouldn't be able to desire my little brother!
****
"Hana?"
"Hun?" She hummed, not leaving her book.
"Do you want to come at home today?"
"Eh?" She looked at me with surprised eyes.
"You could sleep at home, my parents aren't here."
"But your brother..."
"I can help him Saturday and we will just have to be quiet." I smirked.
"Okay." She stroked my leg with a happy smile and touched my flesh. I forced a fake moan, making her grin even more. Poor girl, how could I tell her that her hands on me had none effects and only Jun was able to get me hard? Hana was very pretty but she was a girl. And even if she was a boy, she still wouldn't be Jun. "I'm impatient to make love with you." She whispered in my ear.
"Me too." Liar. I knew I would have to think about Jun to get hard and to please her.
****
"Sho-chan!!!" Jun welcomed me, ready to jump in my arms but stopped when he saw Hana.
"Hello, Jun-kun." She waved her hand. Jun's smile vanished for some seconds and I saw a deep sadness passing in his eyes but he forced a smile.
"Hana-san, what are you doing here?"
"I'm staying for the night." Hana smiled. Jun lost his smile again and with a quick bow, ran to his bedroom. "Have I said something bad?" Hana asked me.
"No. I had told him we would watch Harry Potter together tonight, he is angry at me, I guess."
"Isn't he too old to watch that? It's for the babies." Hana said in a mocking tone. Seriously, I wanted to hit her sometimes!
"It's not and I like Harry Potter too." I snapped.
"If you say so. I'll prepare the dinner and then, we could have some fun." She smirked, kissing my neck.
"Hun." I nodded and left to join Jun's bedroom but my brother had locked the door up.
"Junny, open, please." I sighed.
"No." Stubborn boy!!!
"Don't be angry, we will be together tomorrow."
"Go back to her, I don't want to be with you." I paled at his words. Was he leaving me? Was he breaking-up?!
"But Jun..."
"Are you deaf?! Leave me alone!!" Jun yelled through his door. I froze, my heart stopping for some seconds. Did he hate me?
"Sho-chan! Jun-kun, dinner is ready!" Hana called.
"Jun, dinner is ready."
"I'm not hungry."
"Jun, stop playing the child and leave this room immediately!!!"
"Get out!" Jun snapped.
I sighed and decided to leave him for the moment. Maybe he just needed to sleep and would agree to talk tomorrow.
We ate in silence or I didn't talk and pretended to listen to what Hana was saying even if not in reality. I was thinking about Jun. Shit, his words were hurting me, I hated seeing him angry at me. After the dinner, Hana pushed me in my bedroom and we made love several times. I was trying to forget and even if she was moaning in pleasure, I never came. I just made her come and believe I had an orgasm. The truth was that she was disgusting me. I couldn't make love in the bed where Jun and I were sleeping and kissing. It should be him under me, moaning my name as I was thrusting inside of him. It shouldn't be her. I didn't sleep this night. I even got up to knock on Jun's door but he never answered. If I lost him, I wouldn't survive. Not without him.
"It was great. See you Monday." Hana kissed me the next morning and left. I ran toward Jun's bedroom but the door was opened and he wasn't inside.
"Jun?! Jun?!" I yelled, checking the whole house before taking my phone to call him. Where was he?! And with his asthma, he couldn't stay alone! What if he made a crisis?!
"Moshi moshi?" A voice answered.
"Who is it?"
"Nino. Sho-san?"
"Where is my brother?!"
"In the shower. He was sweating a lot the last night because..." I hung up and left the house without even locking the door and starting my car quickly. Luckily, I knew where Ninomiya lived as Jun had left me his address the previous week. If he had touched my Jun... If he had touched my little treasure, I would kill him for sure!!!
"Sho-san, Jun is here, he..." I didn't let him finish and punched him.
"Nii-chan!!!" Jun ran toward Nino who had fallen on the ground.
"Listen, little shit! If you dare to ever touch Jun again, I swear I'll rip your dick." I said coldly to Nino who burst out laugh after some seconds.
"See, J, I told you he cares about you."
"Eh?" I blinked, not expecting that.
"Before hitting someone, wait for his explanations." Nino said seriously. "Jun came the last night, crying like a waterfall and coughing violently. I made him take him medicine and sent him to the shower not to get you worry if he came back in this state." Nino explained.
"Jun..."
"Leave." Jun snapped, not looking at me.
"Jun, please." I took his wrist and pulled him in my arms where he struggled.
"J, seriously, listen to his explanations or I would have been hit for nothing." Nino sighed. "And you, take care of him better if you don't want I tell your girlfriend that you date your brother behind her back." Nino looked at me coldly. How did he know for us?! And wasn't he disgusted?!
"It would hurt Jun too." I replied.
"Not if I say that you date me. I wonder how she would react if she knew that you are gay." Nino smirked.
"Kazu!" Jun protested.
"I swore I wouldn't say anything for you two but only if your brother takes care of you. If you hurt J, I swear I'll make your life a hell and believe me, I'm a pro for that." Nino told me.
I liked this boy. Well, he was a brat and dared to defy me but he did that just because he cared about Jun and knowing my brother had a friend like him pleased me.
"Don't worry, it won't happen again. Sorry for the punch." I smirked.
"Next time, I swear I'll kill you if you hit my pretty face, Ohchan would be horrified if I came back to him with bruises. Now, leave before alerting all the neighbors." Nino chuckled.
"Come on, we are leaving." I took Jun's wrist and made him climb in the car.
We both stayed silent, my hands holding the wheel tightly as I was trying to calm down and not to yell at him.
"I'm sorry." I finally said after some minutes. Jun looked at me with surprise, certainly not expecting to hear my apologies. "I'm sorry for Hana."
"It's okay." Jun mumbled.
"No. No, it's not okay, Jun. I didn't invite her because I love her and you know it. You know I only date her not to let the parents guess for us. And yesterday... It was to protect you that I asked her to come."
"Why? You're not dangerous." Jun asked innocently. Baby, if you knew...
"Let's talk inside." I said while parking the car.
We entered our empty house and I led Jun toward my bedroom to make us sat on the bed before taking his hands in mines.
"I was trying to protect you from me because I want you." Jun blushed deeply at my words.
"Eh?"
"I wanted to spend the week-end with you but the parents let us alone. I love you, Jun and this love is strong but also wants to be showed physically. I feel desire for you. Lots of desire. I want to be closer to you, to form one and show you how much I love you but it's too early. I was afraid not to be able to control myself if we were alone. That's why I asked Hana to come. It was to prevent myself to hurt you." I said softly.
"Why would you hurt me?"
"Because I want you and you're not ready to..."
"Who said I wasn't ready?" Jun cut me off with defying eyes. "Stop treating me like a baby, Sho. I'm old enough to know what I want and I want to make love with you. I feel desire for you too." My brother blushed.
"Really?"
"Hun. I want to be closer to you."
"So, you've done nothing with Nino?"
"Of course not! How can you think I would betray you like that?! And plus, Kazu is dating someone."
"Because you could realize that what we do is wrong and you could be disgusted of me."
"I would never hate Sho-chan. I love Sho-chan more than anything." Jun smiled shyly.
"Me too." I grinned and wrapped his nape to kiss him. Jun moaned softly and spread his arms around my neck to let me deepen the kiss. After lots of seconds, I laid Jun on the bed to climb on him but my brother stopped me.
"What's wrong?"
"Not here. Not in the sheets where you have made love to her." My heart broke when I saw the sadness in his eyes and I nodded, standing up and leading him to his bedroom.
I was going to prove him that he was the only one and I just could have pleasure with him. And mostly, that I was the only one able and allowed to give him pleasure.
To be continued...
A/N: So, don't ask me why Sho is still with this bitch because I hate it to >< He is also doing that to protect Jun even if this time, it hurt him more than it protected him xD
So, next time, our dear Sakumoto will have their first time together and Sho will claim Jun as his and only his xD
See you soon~