Alive (4/?)
Title: Alive
Author: Matsuaurore
Pairings: Sakumoto
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They belong to me but just in my dreams T.T
Summary: He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. But what can you do when the love you feel is also the forbidden?
What can you do when you have to push away what keeps you alive?
Chapter 4:
"So, you were the only one able to calm me down?" Jun asked as I was telling him our story.
"Almost all the time, yes. I just had to take you in my arms and to take your hand to stop your tears."
"But you were only 2 years old, how do you remember?"
"Because of that." I stood up and put a DVD.
Jun stared at the screen with wide eyes, seeing us when I was 7 years old and him, 5.
I was on the sofa with Jun sleeping deeply on me, his thumb in his mouth.
"Jun is sleeping on his brother again." Our mother chuckled. I smiled proudly to the camera, tightening my arms around Jun who moaned in his sleep and buried his face in my neck.
I threw a eye on Jun who was looking at the screen with teary eyes. I chuckled and linked our fingers.
"Sho-chan!!!" Little Jun ran toward me and hugged my leg, crying loudly.
"What's wrong, Jun?"
"Papa is nasty."
"Jun, come here immediately, you have to take your bath!" Our father arrived, out of breath.
"No!" Jun hugged my leg tighter, burying his face against it.
"Junny baby, do you want to take your bath with me?"
"YES!!!" Jun beamed.
"Come on, then." I took his hand and we walked toward the bathroom under my father's shocked eyes.
"You've lost against your own son." My mother chuckled.
I entered in the bathtub and put Jun on my lap to play with him, giving him his plastic duck. My brother bit it happily, laying his head against my chest.
The video stopped, Jun trying to hold back his tears.
"It's already over?"
"I can tell you the end of this story because I remember what happened as if it was yesterday."
"Yes yes yes!" Jun exclaimed.
"Nii-chan, shampoo!"
"Okay okay." I chuckled and taking the bottle of shampoo, I spread it in my hands and started to wash his hair, stroking his head at the same time.
"Nii-chan is the best to wash my hair!" Jun exclaimed happily.
"Because I like to touch Junny's hair, it's always as soft as silk." I kissed the tip of his nose, making him giggle.
"I love Nii-chan strong strong strong!" Jun grinned.
"Me too, baby." I hugged him against me, kissing his temple. He was so perfect, so adorable. "Get up, we have to put your pajamas."
"Hai!"
I helped him to put his Spiderman pajamas and we both joined the living room to eat our dinner.
"I don't like ginger." Jun pouted, pushing the little piece of ginger of his plate.
"Jun, you have to eat." Our mother said softly.
"No. It's disgusting." Jun replied.
"Jun, your language! Eat now or you'll go to bed without eating at all!" My father snapped.
"Dad..."
"No, Sho, he has to eat, don't take his defense again!"
"Don't yell at Nii-chan! I hate you like ginger!" Jun cried and left the table to run in his bedroom.
"See, you have to stop protecting him so much, he doesn't obey now!"
"Why was it so hard to let him not eat his ginger. He is only 5 years old, it's normal not to like ginger at his age." I snapped.
"Sho, be careful with your language too!"
"And you, don't be so nasty with him!" I replied and left the table.
I entered Jun's bedroom and saw him crying in a corner, his face in his knees.
"JunnyJun?"
"Nii-chan!" Jun ran in my arms. "Gomen ne. Papa scowled you because of me."
"It wasn't your fault." I whispered, kissing his forehead.
"I'm hungry." Jun pouted.
"I have an idea but you have to patient a bit."
"Hun." Jun nodded. I kissed his lips softly and made him climb in his bed to hug and comfort him.
"I think it's okay, now." I stated an hour later. We left his bedroom silently and joined the kitchen where I took a seat. Smiling evilly, I climbed on it, Jun staring up at me with lost eyes. Opening the cupboard, I grabbed the packet of biscuits my mother was hiding and gave it to Jun who clapped his hands happily.
We ran in my bedroom, trying not to laugh and sat on my bed.
"Nii-chan is the best!" Little Jun exclaimed.
"This is for you." I gave him a chocolate biscuit that Jun ate happily. In the end he had chocolate all over his face and I almost cried in front of this so cute view. "Here." I held him out another biscuit but Jun shook his head.
"It's the last one. Eat it."
"No."
"Eat. Nii-chan deserves it more than me and you love these biscuits. Because Nii-chan is my hero."
"Jun..."
"Eat or I'll cry and scream!" Jun pouted, crossing his little arms against his chest. I chuckled. Stubborn cute boy!
"Thank you, Jun." I ate it and kissed his forehead.
"When I'll be older, I'll have a big big house full of chocolate just for Nii-chan. And with rivers of chocolate. We will travel in a boat on the rivers."
"It sounds nice." I smiled.
"Yes.... I *yawns* and Nii-chan will be my husband."
"Of course." I grinned. Jun laid his head on my chest and fell asleep quickly.
"We've always been linked." I whispered.
"Yes. Always." Jun grinned.
"That's why I'll never leave you."
"Sho-chan..." Jun moaned and I pushed him on the sofa to attack his neck while slipping my hands under his shirt to stroke his hips.
I made love to him slowly, thrusting deeply to drive him crazy. We fell asleep on the sofa in each other's arms, a blanket covering our naked bodies.
Our parents came back earlier and we unfortunately became the two normal brothers we had to be in front of them though, anytime they weren't looking, I was driving Jun in the most passionate kisses I had ever given him.
Hana was still so annoying, trying to be with me almost all the time and it became hard for me to be always with Jun without becoming suspect in her eyes. I told Jun I would break-up with her but he forbade me. My brother was sure it would be surer for us to be together if everybody thought I had a girlfriend. I knew Jun did it for us because I could see the sadness and pain in his eyes anytime I was going to see Hana or when she came at home. It was killing me to hurt him like that because hurting him also meant hurting me as he was a part of me. I wasn't sure if I would be able to handle this situation a long time. We were together for 6 months but even though any seconds with him were wonderful, reality was hitting me back when Hana was here. Hana and my parents who started to think I would marry her. No way! I would only marry my Jun even if it was impossible. He was mine and I was his.
"Sho!!" I jumped when my mother slammed my bedroom's door open.
"We're working, you've scared me." I muttered.
"Sorry but it's Jun!" I paled at her words, panicking.
"What?! What's wrong with Jun?!!!" I yelled, standing up abruptly and making my chair fall violently next to Hana.
"He made a crisis at school, they called the firemen!"
"Shit, I'll go!" I grabbed my bag and left my bedroom.
"I'm coming with you."
"No, you have an important meeting, I'll take care of him, don't worry." I kissed my mother.
"Can I come?" Hana asked.
"I prefer you to go home." I kissed her forehead.
"But your mother could go, we were working." Hana protested. I clenched my jaw in anger.
"Listen, Hana. My little brother is at hospital so, I really don't care about work or even you!" I snapped and left the house without waiting for her answer.
I jumped in my car and drove quickly to the hospital, not caring about the risk of having an accident.
"Sakurai Jun, please!" I almost yelled when I entered the hospital.
"Calm down, young man. Are you a member of his family?" The nurse asked.
"I'm his brother!"
"Aoi-sensei!" The nurse called a man who was entering the corridor. "This is Sakurai-kun's brother."
"Sensei, how is my brother?" I jumped on the poor doctor who blinked.
"He is sleeping for the moment. He made a violent crisis, I'll see if we can change his treatment. Bedroom 3025."
"Thank you!"
When I entered the bedroom, I finally sighed in relief, seeing Jun sleeping peacefully. He had scared me so much. I always thought he was going to die when he made violent crisis like that, though, it was rare to have him in this state. It needed a big stress to give him a crisis as important as this one.
I sat next to his bed and took his hand to kiss it, starting to breath normally again.
"Nii-chan?" I saw Jun opening his eyes with difficulty.
"Jun, how are you baby?" I stroked his cheek softly.
"Better. I'm sorry, I worried you and prevented you to work."
"I don't care about my studies as long as you are fine. You've scared me a lot. Why have you made a so violent crisis?"
"I don't know." Jun looked away, avoiding my eyes.
"Jun. You would tell me if something was happening?"
"Of course!" Jun looked at me with surprised eyes.
"I'm always here for you, you know?"
"I know. Thank you." Jun smiled before yawning.
"Sleep, baby."
"But I want to be with you." Jun protested.
"I'll stay here, don't worry. They will release you in two hours." I climbed next to him, wrapped him in my arms and kissed him softly before Jun closed his eyes, exhausted.
When we came back home, I laid Jun on his bed and forbade him to leave it. As my parents weren't here, we kept kissing for hours, Jun in my arms. I didn't to let him go, I needed to feel he was okay and wouldn't leave me.
"Ne, Sho?" Jun asked as we were watching a movie, my fingers stroking his arm lazily.
"Hun?"
"Why do you love me?" I chuckled and lowered my eyes to see his questioning look.
"Why are you asking me that?"
"I just wonder why someone like you fell for someone like me." Jun shrugged.
"What do you mean by 'someone like you'?" I frowned.
"Well... I'm not very beautiful and I have asthma. I'm useless." Jun whispered.
"What?!" I grabbed his shoulders to look at him with serious eyes. "I forbid you to say these kinds of things! You're very beautiful and even less, useless. Okay, you lungs like to make caprices but you are brilliant, Jun. You are smart and will become a great doctor. Not being able to do sport or run like everybody doesn't mean you are useless."
"But..."
"You want to know why I love you? Because you are beautiful and have many qualities. I love your eyes, your moles and mostly your amazing smile. You are so innocent and adorable. You always think about the others before yourself. You always smile despite the difficulties and fight to have what you want. You're so stubborn and you're not a morning person but I like it. I like to see you the morning with your sleepy look and your messed-up hair. When you think you are right and sulk with your pouty lips to make me give up. I love everything about you, even your flaws. Don't ever think you are useless and that I'm better than you. In fact, I'm the one who is lucky to have you. I don't deserve you."
"You do. Sho-chan is so smart and beautiful. You're responsible, brilliant, good-looking, gentleman. You don't like to show your feelings with the others but with me, you try. I always feel loved by you and you take care of me as if I was the most important person of the world. You're perfect and it's the reason why papa and mama prefer you but I don't care because you deserve it."
"Papa and mama don't prefer me." I protested.
"Don't try to lie. I know it. And if I was them, I would also prefer you. I'm happy to have someone like you, so, even if they love me less, I don't mind as long as I know that you love me the most." Jun shrugged.
"Why do you think they love me more?"
"Because you're not sick. They are so proud to introduce you to their friends or coworkers while they try to hide me as much as possible. They always talk to you when we are together. I know they love me in their own way but Sho-chan is the favorite." Jun beamed even though, I saw sadness in his eyes.
"But..."
"Don't try to lie. I've realized that a long time ago and I'm still happy." Jun cut me off.
"Oh, Jun..." I hugged him tightly, stroking his hair softly.
"As long as you love me, I'll be happy." My brother whispered.
"And as long as you love me, I'll also be happy."
This night, I kept Jun in my arms, trying to show him that even if our parents really preferred me, in my eyes, he was my favorite and the most important. And to prove him this fact, I was going to break-up with Hana. No more lies. No more pain. I would be his and only his.
Jun breathed with difficulty during the night, getting me worried when I was hearing his coughs. If I could, I would keep him in a protective and secure bubble to protect him.
"How is Jun?" My best friend asked the next day at university.
"Better. I was dead worried and he breathed with difficulty the whole night."
"Shit. The doctor hasn't changed his treatment?"
"He did but Jun's asthma is pretty bad actually, I wonder if he hasn't too much stress because of me." I sighed.
"Bullshit, you make him happy!"
"Masaki, I know this relationship is forbidden and he is scared someone finds the truth."
"Maybe he does but it doesn't give him worst crisis. It would be if you left him."Aiba smiled softly.
"I won't, I'm too selfish to let him go and live a normal life."
"You're not selfish, you're just in love." Masaki giggled.
"Sappy baka." I laughed, smacking his arm playfully. It was great to have someone who supported us. Masaki and I were friends since forever and I just couldn't hide him the truth. The day I told him Jun and I were more than brothers, Masaki just smiled and told me to be careful and to take care of Jun that he adored a lot.
"Where is he?"
"At home, the doctor asked him to take some rest."
"Wait... He is alone?"
"No, my mother is there..." I frowned. My mother had told me she would stay with him.
"I think you should go to be sure. I'll take the lesson for you."
"Thank you, Ma-chan, you're the best!" I kissed his cheek.
"I know."Aiba chuckled.
****
"Jun?!" I called while taking my shoes off. I climbed the stairs quickly and ran to his bedroom where I heard some voices.
"Hana?!" I gasped when I saw my girlfriend sat on Jun's bed.
"Hi, Sho-chan! Your mother needed to leave and asked me to stay with Jun." Hana grinned. I cursed her in my head. I wanted to be alone with Jun.
"Are you okay?" I rushed to Jun and stroked his hair.
"Hun." Jun nodded but I could read something weird on his face. He was hiding me something.
"We could eat together, ne? And then, Jun could go to bed to take some rest." Hana said enthusiastically. I was about to refuse when Jun nodded weakly, a forced smile on his face. I had to talk to him and make him tell me what was wrong.
We ate together with Hana talking and laughing about silly things, Jun trying to follow this annoying conversation and to smile a bit. Shit, this girl didn't know how to shut her mouth, she should have her tongue removed.
After the dinner, I prayed for Hana to leave but she asked to watch a movie before letting Jun go to bed.
"He was exhausted." I stroked Jun's cheek when the movie ended.
"He is fragile." Hana whispered.
"That's why he needs me. Mom and dad aren't often here and I hate letting him alone, mostly with his asthma. I'll put him in bed, you can leave now if you want." I smiled, lifting my sleeping brother in my arms. He was so light, so thin... He looked like a fragile new baby born who needed to be protected from the horrible things of the life.
"Okay. See you tomorrow." Hana kissed me before leaving.
I laid Jun in his bed and stared at him for a while. He looked like an angel with this innocent face and this calm look.
"If you knew how much I love you, my little love." I whispered, my hand traveling in his soft hair. "Make sweet dreams, my Junny." I leaned and kissed his lips softly before standing up and leaving his bedroom. I wanted to stay with him but knew my parents would check on him. They couldn't know. Never. Or they would break my Jun and at the same time, me.
****
I opened my eyes, feeling a weight on me and grinned when I realized it was Jun who was sleeping on me, his cheek on my chest and his arm around me. Little devil, he invaded my bed during the night! An evil smile spread my lips and I started to kiss his neck, my hand slipping in his pajamas to take his length. I started to pump it slowly while sucking his skin, making him moan in his sleep, his eyebrows frowning cutely.
"Nii-chan..." Jun whined in his sleep. I chuckled against his neck, pumping him a bit harder.
"Enjoy, baby." I whispered in his ear, getting him fully hard.
"Hmm..." Jun opened his eyes with difficulty and blinked when he realized what I was doing to him. "Sho-chan?!"
"Tsss, keep moaning, I love it." I smiled, pumping him harder and faster, making him arch his head on the pillow with a loud moan.
"Sho... Sho..." I kissed him with despair as he was moaning my name endlessly before coming hard.
"Great way to wake you up, ne?" I beamed, proud of myself.
"You're just a pervert." Jun smirked.
"Pervert of you." I whispered, laying kisses on his face.
"What was that for?"
"A punishment for invading my bed."
"Mmm, I like your punishments." Jun chuckled. "But you..."
"I'm fine." I shook my head despite the bulge in my pants. I just gave him an orgasm and didn't want him to make a crisis if I made him pant too much. "I want to offer you something."
"Really?" Jun beamed, looking like an excited child.
"Hun. We could spend the week-end together at Okinawa."
"It would be wonderful!!" Jun exclaimed. I knew he loved the sea and Okinawa was a great place I was sure he would like.
"Okay. Then, we'll take the plane Friday morning and we will come back Sunday evening. Just the two of us."
"I love you!" Jun threw his arms around me to kiss me.
"Me too."
"Can't wait to be Friday!"
"Just two more days."
Jun was excited for the whole trip in the plane, looking through the small 'window', talking and grinning like he never did before. It was good to see this big smile on his face. And we didn't need to hide our relationship. Well, we didn't show it as gay men weren't fully accepted but we could kiss quickly without being worried that someone realized we were brothers.
When we arrived in Okinawa, Jun 'ran' everywhere with me trying to stop him before he could make a crisis. I had never seen him so full of energy.
"What do you want to do?" I asked after we left our bags in our bedroom.
"I want to swim!" I bit my lip at his request.
"Okay but don't make too many efforts and you'll have to stay next to me."
"Okay." Jun pouted but was too happy to go to the sea to complain more.
The water was hot and so crystalline that you could see your feet and the fishes swimming inside. Jun was so damn cute when he was all wet, his hair stuck against his temples. I caught him staring at me and blushing. A smirk spread my lips and I grabbed his waist to pull him against me.
"What are you staring at, brat?"
"Nothing." Jun blushed even more.
"Really? Because I'm seeing a very cute boy."
"What?!" Jun frowned, jealousy settling on his face. I chuckled. He was really so damn cute!
"I'm seeing a very pretty boy."
"Don't you dare to stare, you're mine!"
"So, I'm not allowed to stare at my cute and sweet little boyfriend just in front of me? Too bad." I smirked. Jun blushed again, looking down in embarrassment.
"I was looking at Sho-chan."
"Why?" I decided to tease him more.
"Because Sho-chan's body is amazing." I finally smiled and pulled him in my embrace.
"And this body is only yours and here to protect you." Jun laid his head against my chest and stroked my torso with the tip of his fingers, getting shivers in my whole body.
"Only mine." I raised his chin and kissed him deeply. It didn't take long for Jun to wrap his legs around my waist, letting me lead and play with his pouty pink lips. We had to stop before I could get hard and want to fuck him right here.
"And you are mine. Tonight, I'll show you how you belong to me." Jun blushed and nodded happily. "But for the moment..." I released him and threw some water in his direction. Jun laughed and attacked me back before I caught him in my arms and made him turn in the water.
"Sho-chan.... Yameroooooooo!!!!!" Jun laughed, gripping my neck not to fall in the water. I smirked but lost my balance and we both ended under the water, coughing and laughing.
"If I catch you!"
"Yadaaaaaaaa!!!!" Jun laughed and ran, leaving the sea to join our belongings which were far away from the people to have some privacy.
"Little devil!" I caught him, falling with him on our towels, sand sticking on our wet bodies.
"Sho-channnn!" Jun tried to struggle when I tickled him, climbing on him and devouring his neck with kisses. We suddenly stopped and stared at each other intensively.
"I love you." I whispered before kissing him softly. Jun's hands traveled in my hair as our tongues were meeting, my body a bit pressed against his. I finally stopped and laid on my back, allowing him to put his head on my chest.
We left the beach two hours later, looking for a restaurant. The lunch was sweet with Jun talking about school and which university he would choose for his studies. Our hands were linked on the table and I was staring at him with a tender smile, loving how happy and carefree he was right now.
"What?" Jun finally laughed.
"I just love when you are happy and smiling like that." I kissed his hand, making him blush.
"Sappy Sho-chan."
"But you like it, ne? I know you like when I am more demonstrative."
"I do but I'm not angry when you don't show your feelings a lot. I love you like you are." Jun smiled softly.
"You're too sweet, my angel." I stroked his cheek.
"Just for Sho-chan." I chuckled and we stood up, my arm wrapping his waist.
We walked a bit, discovering the town while Jun was looking at everything with a bright smile and his sun glasses.
"Hey, baby!" I took my camera and called him.
"What..."
"Let me film this moment. Hey, Junny!" Jun giggled and waved his hand shyly.
"Hi!"
"Mune yosute!" Jun burst out laugh and showed me his arms.
"Mune yosute!" We laughed like two baka before Jun walked away to look at the landscape. He was so damn beautiful with the wind playing with his hair and his eyes shining in happiness.
"My love~" I called again. Jun turned his head toward the camera with a smile.
"It's amazing!"
"Like you." I wrapped him from behind and filmed the landscape, the waves scratching softly on the edge of the beach and shinning with the sunset.
"Thank you for this wonderful week-end."
"I would give you the world, Jun." I kissed him deeply, lowering the camera a bit.
"Show me how much you love me." Jun blushed. I chuckled and grabbed his hand.
This night, I showed him how much I loved him with all the parts of myself. I made love to him like I never did before, making him scream my name in pleasure.
I think this night, we got closer than ever.
But we also tested the last moments of happiness before everything turned bad.
To be continued...
A/N: I just love to write fluffy Sakumoto and chibi Sakumoto, so, sorry for the sappiness xD Sho taking care of Jun like that is so adorable ;w; next chapter will be Jun’s point of view :)
and here you have the video of Chibi Sakumoto ;w; they are so damn cute ;w;
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Gk9W7P4kqE
They are so cute ;w;
Author: Matsuaurore
Pairings: Sakumoto
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They belong to me but just in my dreams T.T
Summary: He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. But what can you do when the love you feel is also the forbidden?
What can you do when you have to push away what keeps you alive?
Chapter 4:
"So, you were the only one able to calm me down?" Jun asked as I was telling him our story.
"Almost all the time, yes. I just had to take you in my arms and to take your hand to stop your tears."
"But you were only 2 years old, how do you remember?"
"Because of that." I stood up and put a DVD.
Jun stared at the screen with wide eyes, seeing us when I was 7 years old and him, 5.
I was on the sofa with Jun sleeping deeply on me, his thumb in his mouth.
"Jun is sleeping on his brother again." Our mother chuckled. I smiled proudly to the camera, tightening my arms around Jun who moaned in his sleep and buried his face in my neck.
I threw a eye on Jun who was looking at the screen with teary eyes. I chuckled and linked our fingers.
"Sho-chan!!!" Little Jun ran toward me and hugged my leg, crying loudly.
"What's wrong, Jun?"
"Papa is nasty."
"Jun, come here immediately, you have to take your bath!" Our father arrived, out of breath.
"No!" Jun hugged my leg tighter, burying his face against it.
"Junny baby, do you want to take your bath with me?"
"YES!!!" Jun beamed.
"Come on, then." I took his hand and we walked toward the bathroom under my father's shocked eyes.
"You've lost against your own son." My mother chuckled.
I entered in the bathtub and put Jun on my lap to play with him, giving him his plastic duck. My brother bit it happily, laying his head against my chest.
The video stopped, Jun trying to hold back his tears.
"It's already over?"
"I can tell you the end of this story because I remember what happened as if it was yesterday."
"Yes yes yes!" Jun exclaimed.
"Nii-chan, shampoo!"
"Okay okay." I chuckled and taking the bottle of shampoo, I spread it in my hands and started to wash his hair, stroking his head at the same time.
"Nii-chan is the best to wash my hair!" Jun exclaimed happily.
"Because I like to touch Junny's hair, it's always as soft as silk." I kissed the tip of his nose, making him giggle.
"I love Nii-chan strong strong strong!" Jun grinned.
"Me too, baby." I hugged him against me, kissing his temple. He was so perfect, so adorable. "Get up, we have to put your pajamas."
"Hai!"
I helped him to put his Spiderman pajamas and we both joined the living room to eat our dinner.
"I don't like ginger." Jun pouted, pushing the little piece of ginger of his plate.
"Jun, you have to eat." Our mother said softly.
"No. It's disgusting." Jun replied.
"Jun, your language! Eat now or you'll go to bed without eating at all!" My father snapped.
"Dad..."
"No, Sho, he has to eat, don't take his defense again!"
"Don't yell at Nii-chan! I hate you like ginger!" Jun cried and left the table to run in his bedroom.
"See, you have to stop protecting him so much, he doesn't obey now!"
"Why was it so hard to let him not eat his ginger. He is only 5 years old, it's normal not to like ginger at his age." I snapped.
"Sho, be careful with your language too!"
"And you, don't be so nasty with him!" I replied and left the table.
I entered Jun's bedroom and saw him crying in a corner, his face in his knees.
"JunnyJun?"
"Nii-chan!" Jun ran in my arms. "Gomen ne. Papa scowled you because of me."
"It wasn't your fault." I whispered, kissing his forehead.
"I'm hungry." Jun pouted.
"I have an idea but you have to patient a bit."
"Hun." Jun nodded. I kissed his lips softly and made him climb in his bed to hug and comfort him.
"I think it's okay, now." I stated an hour later. We left his bedroom silently and joined the kitchen where I took a seat. Smiling evilly, I climbed on it, Jun staring up at me with lost eyes. Opening the cupboard, I grabbed the packet of biscuits my mother was hiding and gave it to Jun who clapped his hands happily.
We ran in my bedroom, trying not to laugh and sat on my bed.
"Nii-chan is the best!" Little Jun exclaimed.
"This is for you." I gave him a chocolate biscuit that Jun ate happily. In the end he had chocolate all over his face and I almost cried in front of this so cute view. "Here." I held him out another biscuit but Jun shook his head.
"It's the last one. Eat it."
"No."
"Eat. Nii-chan deserves it more than me and you love these biscuits. Because Nii-chan is my hero."
"Jun..."
"Eat or I'll cry and scream!" Jun pouted, crossing his little arms against his chest. I chuckled. Stubborn cute boy!
"Thank you, Jun." I ate it and kissed his forehead.
"When I'll be older, I'll have a big big house full of chocolate just for Nii-chan. And with rivers of chocolate. We will travel in a boat on the rivers."
"It sounds nice." I smiled.
"Yes.... I *yawns* and Nii-chan will be my husband."
"Of course." I grinned. Jun laid his head on my chest and fell asleep quickly.
"We've always been linked." I whispered.
"Yes. Always." Jun grinned.
"That's why I'll never leave you."
"Sho-chan..." Jun moaned and I pushed him on the sofa to attack his neck while slipping my hands under his shirt to stroke his hips.
I made love to him slowly, thrusting deeply to drive him crazy. We fell asleep on the sofa in each other's arms, a blanket covering our naked bodies.
Our parents came back earlier and we unfortunately became the two normal brothers we had to be in front of them though, anytime they weren't looking, I was driving Jun in the most passionate kisses I had ever given him.
Hana was still so annoying, trying to be with me almost all the time and it became hard for me to be always with Jun without becoming suspect in her eyes. I told Jun I would break-up with her but he forbade me. My brother was sure it would be surer for us to be together if everybody thought I had a girlfriend. I knew Jun did it for us because I could see the sadness and pain in his eyes anytime I was going to see Hana or when she came at home. It was killing me to hurt him like that because hurting him also meant hurting me as he was a part of me. I wasn't sure if I would be able to handle this situation a long time. We were together for 6 months but even though any seconds with him were wonderful, reality was hitting me back when Hana was here. Hana and my parents who started to think I would marry her. No way! I would only marry my Jun even if it was impossible. He was mine and I was his.
"Sho!!" I jumped when my mother slammed my bedroom's door open.
"We're working, you've scared me." I muttered.
"Sorry but it's Jun!" I paled at her words, panicking.
"What?! What's wrong with Jun?!!!" I yelled, standing up abruptly and making my chair fall violently next to Hana.
"He made a crisis at school, they called the firemen!"
"Shit, I'll go!" I grabbed my bag and left my bedroom.
"I'm coming with you."
"No, you have an important meeting, I'll take care of him, don't worry." I kissed my mother.
"Can I come?" Hana asked.
"I prefer you to go home." I kissed her forehead.
"But your mother could go, we were working." Hana protested. I clenched my jaw in anger.
"Listen, Hana. My little brother is at hospital so, I really don't care about work or even you!" I snapped and left the house without waiting for her answer.
I jumped in my car and drove quickly to the hospital, not caring about the risk of having an accident.
"Sakurai Jun, please!" I almost yelled when I entered the hospital.
"Calm down, young man. Are you a member of his family?" The nurse asked.
"I'm his brother!"
"Aoi-sensei!" The nurse called a man who was entering the corridor. "This is Sakurai-kun's brother."
"Sensei, how is my brother?" I jumped on the poor doctor who blinked.
"He is sleeping for the moment. He made a violent crisis, I'll see if we can change his treatment. Bedroom 3025."
"Thank you!"
When I entered the bedroom, I finally sighed in relief, seeing Jun sleeping peacefully. He had scared me so much. I always thought he was going to die when he made violent crisis like that, though, it was rare to have him in this state. It needed a big stress to give him a crisis as important as this one.
I sat next to his bed and took his hand to kiss it, starting to breath normally again.
"Nii-chan?" I saw Jun opening his eyes with difficulty.
"Jun, how are you baby?" I stroked his cheek softly.
"Better. I'm sorry, I worried you and prevented you to work."
"I don't care about my studies as long as you are fine. You've scared me a lot. Why have you made a so violent crisis?"
"I don't know." Jun looked away, avoiding my eyes.
"Jun. You would tell me if something was happening?"
"Of course!" Jun looked at me with surprised eyes.
"I'm always here for you, you know?"
"I know. Thank you." Jun smiled before yawning.
"Sleep, baby."
"But I want to be with you." Jun protested.
"I'll stay here, don't worry. They will release you in two hours." I climbed next to him, wrapped him in my arms and kissed him softly before Jun closed his eyes, exhausted.
When we came back home, I laid Jun on his bed and forbade him to leave it. As my parents weren't here, we kept kissing for hours, Jun in my arms. I didn't to let him go, I needed to feel he was okay and wouldn't leave me.
"Ne, Sho?" Jun asked as we were watching a movie, my fingers stroking his arm lazily.
"Hun?"
"Why do you love me?" I chuckled and lowered my eyes to see his questioning look.
"Why are you asking me that?"
"I just wonder why someone like you fell for someone like me." Jun shrugged.
"What do you mean by 'someone like you'?" I frowned.
"Well... I'm not very beautiful and I have asthma. I'm useless." Jun whispered.
"What?!" I grabbed his shoulders to look at him with serious eyes. "I forbid you to say these kinds of things! You're very beautiful and even less, useless. Okay, you lungs like to make caprices but you are brilliant, Jun. You are smart and will become a great doctor. Not being able to do sport or run like everybody doesn't mean you are useless."
"But..."
"You want to know why I love you? Because you are beautiful and have many qualities. I love your eyes, your moles and mostly your amazing smile. You are so innocent and adorable. You always think about the others before yourself. You always smile despite the difficulties and fight to have what you want. You're so stubborn and you're not a morning person but I like it. I like to see you the morning with your sleepy look and your messed-up hair. When you think you are right and sulk with your pouty lips to make me give up. I love everything about you, even your flaws. Don't ever think you are useless and that I'm better than you. In fact, I'm the one who is lucky to have you. I don't deserve you."
"You do. Sho-chan is so smart and beautiful. You're responsible, brilliant, good-looking, gentleman. You don't like to show your feelings with the others but with me, you try. I always feel loved by you and you take care of me as if I was the most important person of the world. You're perfect and it's the reason why papa and mama prefer you but I don't care because you deserve it."
"Papa and mama don't prefer me." I protested.
"Don't try to lie. I know it. And if I was them, I would also prefer you. I'm happy to have someone like you, so, even if they love me less, I don't mind as long as I know that you love me the most." Jun shrugged.
"Why do you think they love me more?"
"Because you're not sick. They are so proud to introduce you to their friends or coworkers while they try to hide me as much as possible. They always talk to you when we are together. I know they love me in their own way but Sho-chan is the favorite." Jun beamed even though, I saw sadness in his eyes.
"But..."
"Don't try to lie. I've realized that a long time ago and I'm still happy." Jun cut me off.
"Oh, Jun..." I hugged him tightly, stroking his hair softly.
"As long as you love me, I'll be happy." My brother whispered.
"And as long as you love me, I'll also be happy."
This night, I kept Jun in my arms, trying to show him that even if our parents really preferred me, in my eyes, he was my favorite and the most important. And to prove him this fact, I was going to break-up with Hana. No more lies. No more pain. I would be his and only his.
Jun breathed with difficulty during the night, getting me worried when I was hearing his coughs. If I could, I would keep him in a protective and secure bubble to protect him.
"How is Jun?" My best friend asked the next day at university.
"Better. I was dead worried and he breathed with difficulty the whole night."
"Shit. The doctor hasn't changed his treatment?"
"He did but Jun's asthma is pretty bad actually, I wonder if he hasn't too much stress because of me." I sighed.
"Bullshit, you make him happy!"
"Masaki, I know this relationship is forbidden and he is scared someone finds the truth."
"Maybe he does but it doesn't give him worst crisis. It would be if you left him."Aiba smiled softly.
"I won't, I'm too selfish to let him go and live a normal life."
"You're not selfish, you're just in love." Masaki giggled.
"Sappy baka." I laughed, smacking his arm playfully. It was great to have someone who supported us. Masaki and I were friends since forever and I just couldn't hide him the truth. The day I told him Jun and I were more than brothers, Masaki just smiled and told me to be careful and to take care of Jun that he adored a lot.
"Where is he?"
"At home, the doctor asked him to take some rest."
"Wait... He is alone?"
"No, my mother is there..." I frowned. My mother had told me she would stay with him.
"I think you should go to be sure. I'll take the lesson for you."
"Thank you, Ma-chan, you're the best!" I kissed his cheek.
"I know."Aiba chuckled.
****
"Jun?!" I called while taking my shoes off. I climbed the stairs quickly and ran to his bedroom where I heard some voices.
"Hana?!" I gasped when I saw my girlfriend sat on Jun's bed.
"Hi, Sho-chan! Your mother needed to leave and asked me to stay with Jun." Hana grinned. I cursed her in my head. I wanted to be alone with Jun.
"Are you okay?" I rushed to Jun and stroked his hair.
"Hun." Jun nodded but I could read something weird on his face. He was hiding me something.
"We could eat together, ne? And then, Jun could go to bed to take some rest." Hana said enthusiastically. I was about to refuse when Jun nodded weakly, a forced smile on his face. I had to talk to him and make him tell me what was wrong.
We ate together with Hana talking and laughing about silly things, Jun trying to follow this annoying conversation and to smile a bit. Shit, this girl didn't know how to shut her mouth, she should have her tongue removed.
After the dinner, I prayed for Hana to leave but she asked to watch a movie before letting Jun go to bed.
"He was exhausted." I stroked Jun's cheek when the movie ended.
"He is fragile." Hana whispered.
"That's why he needs me. Mom and dad aren't often here and I hate letting him alone, mostly with his asthma. I'll put him in bed, you can leave now if you want." I smiled, lifting my sleeping brother in my arms. He was so light, so thin... He looked like a fragile new baby born who needed to be protected from the horrible things of the life.
"Okay. See you tomorrow." Hana kissed me before leaving.
I laid Jun in his bed and stared at him for a while. He looked like an angel with this innocent face and this calm look.
"If you knew how much I love you, my little love." I whispered, my hand traveling in his soft hair. "Make sweet dreams, my Junny." I leaned and kissed his lips softly before standing up and leaving his bedroom. I wanted to stay with him but knew my parents would check on him. They couldn't know. Never. Or they would break my Jun and at the same time, me.
****
I opened my eyes, feeling a weight on me and grinned when I realized it was Jun who was sleeping on me, his cheek on my chest and his arm around me. Little devil, he invaded my bed during the night! An evil smile spread my lips and I started to kiss his neck, my hand slipping in his pajamas to take his length. I started to pump it slowly while sucking his skin, making him moan in his sleep, his eyebrows frowning cutely.
"Nii-chan..." Jun whined in his sleep. I chuckled against his neck, pumping him a bit harder.
"Enjoy, baby." I whispered in his ear, getting him fully hard.
"Hmm..." Jun opened his eyes with difficulty and blinked when he realized what I was doing to him. "Sho-chan?!"
"Tsss, keep moaning, I love it." I smiled, pumping him harder and faster, making him arch his head on the pillow with a loud moan.
"Sho... Sho..." I kissed him with despair as he was moaning my name endlessly before coming hard.
"Great way to wake you up, ne?" I beamed, proud of myself.
"You're just a pervert." Jun smirked.
"Pervert of you." I whispered, laying kisses on his face.
"What was that for?"
"A punishment for invading my bed."
"Mmm, I like your punishments." Jun chuckled. "But you..."
"I'm fine." I shook my head despite the bulge in my pants. I just gave him an orgasm and didn't want him to make a crisis if I made him pant too much. "I want to offer you something."
"Really?" Jun beamed, looking like an excited child.
"Hun. We could spend the week-end together at Okinawa."
"It would be wonderful!!" Jun exclaimed. I knew he loved the sea and Okinawa was a great place I was sure he would like.
"Okay. Then, we'll take the plane Friday morning and we will come back Sunday evening. Just the two of us."
"I love you!" Jun threw his arms around me to kiss me.
"Me too."
"Can't wait to be Friday!"
"Just two more days."
Jun was excited for the whole trip in the plane, looking through the small 'window', talking and grinning like he never did before. It was good to see this big smile on his face. And we didn't need to hide our relationship. Well, we didn't show it as gay men weren't fully accepted but we could kiss quickly without being worried that someone realized we were brothers.
When we arrived in Okinawa, Jun 'ran' everywhere with me trying to stop him before he could make a crisis. I had never seen him so full of energy.
"What do you want to do?" I asked after we left our bags in our bedroom.
"I want to swim!" I bit my lip at his request.
"Okay but don't make too many efforts and you'll have to stay next to me."
"Okay." Jun pouted but was too happy to go to the sea to complain more.
The water was hot and so crystalline that you could see your feet and the fishes swimming inside. Jun was so damn cute when he was all wet, his hair stuck against his temples. I caught him staring at me and blushing. A smirk spread my lips and I grabbed his waist to pull him against me.
"What are you staring at, brat?"
"Nothing." Jun blushed even more.
"Really? Because I'm seeing a very cute boy."
"What?!" Jun frowned, jealousy settling on his face. I chuckled. He was really so damn cute!
"I'm seeing a very pretty boy."
"Don't you dare to stare, you're mine!"
"So, I'm not allowed to stare at my cute and sweet little boyfriend just in front of me? Too bad." I smirked. Jun blushed again, looking down in embarrassment.
"I was looking at Sho-chan."
"Why?" I decided to tease him more.
"Because Sho-chan's body is amazing." I finally smiled and pulled him in my embrace.
"And this body is only yours and here to protect you." Jun laid his head against my chest and stroked my torso with the tip of his fingers, getting shivers in my whole body.
"Only mine." I raised his chin and kissed him deeply. It didn't take long for Jun to wrap his legs around my waist, letting me lead and play with his pouty pink lips. We had to stop before I could get hard and want to fuck him right here.
"And you are mine. Tonight, I'll show you how you belong to me." Jun blushed and nodded happily. "But for the moment..." I released him and threw some water in his direction. Jun laughed and attacked me back before I caught him in my arms and made him turn in the water.
"Sho-chan.... Yameroooooooo!!!!!" Jun laughed, gripping my neck not to fall in the water. I smirked but lost my balance and we both ended under the water, coughing and laughing.
"If I catch you!"
"Yadaaaaaaaa!!!!" Jun laughed and ran, leaving the sea to join our belongings which were far away from the people to have some privacy.
"Little devil!" I caught him, falling with him on our towels, sand sticking on our wet bodies.
"Sho-channnn!" Jun tried to struggle when I tickled him, climbing on him and devouring his neck with kisses. We suddenly stopped and stared at each other intensively.
"I love you." I whispered before kissing him softly. Jun's hands traveled in my hair as our tongues were meeting, my body a bit pressed against his. I finally stopped and laid on my back, allowing him to put his head on my chest.
We left the beach two hours later, looking for a restaurant. The lunch was sweet with Jun talking about school and which university he would choose for his studies. Our hands were linked on the table and I was staring at him with a tender smile, loving how happy and carefree he was right now.
"What?" Jun finally laughed.
"I just love when you are happy and smiling like that." I kissed his hand, making him blush.
"Sappy Sho-chan."
"But you like it, ne? I know you like when I am more demonstrative."
"I do but I'm not angry when you don't show your feelings a lot. I love you like you are." Jun smiled softly.
"You're too sweet, my angel." I stroked his cheek.
"Just for Sho-chan." I chuckled and we stood up, my arm wrapping his waist.
We walked a bit, discovering the town while Jun was looking at everything with a bright smile and his sun glasses.
"Hey, baby!" I took my camera and called him.
"What..."
"Let me film this moment. Hey, Junny!" Jun giggled and waved his hand shyly.
"Hi!"
"Mune yosute!" Jun burst out laugh and showed me his arms.
"Mune yosute!" We laughed like two baka before Jun walked away to look at the landscape. He was so damn beautiful with the wind playing with his hair and his eyes shining in happiness.
"My love~" I called again. Jun turned his head toward the camera with a smile.
"It's amazing!"
"Like you." I wrapped him from behind and filmed the landscape, the waves scratching softly on the edge of the beach and shinning with the sunset.
"Thank you for this wonderful week-end."
"I would give you the world, Jun." I kissed him deeply, lowering the camera a bit.
"Show me how much you love me." Jun blushed. I chuckled and grabbed his hand.
This night, I showed him how much I loved him with all the parts of myself. I made love to him like I never did before, making him scream my name in pleasure.
I think this night, we got closer than ever.
But we also tested the last moments of happiness before everything turned bad.
To be continued...
A/N: I just love to write fluffy Sakumoto and chibi Sakumoto, so, sorry for the sappiness xD Sho taking care of Jun like that is so adorable ;w; next chapter will be Jun’s point of view :)
and here you have the video of Chibi Sakumoto ;w; they are so damn cute ;w;
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Gk9W7P4kqE
They are so cute ;w;