Alive (5/?)
Title: Alive
Author: Matsuaurore
Pairings: Sakumoto, Ohmiya
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: They belong to me but just in my dreams T.T
Summary: He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. But what can you do when the love you feel is also the forbidden?
What can you do when you have to push away what keeps you alive?
Chapter 5:
Jun's pov:
I've always felt there was a problem with me. When I was 7 years old, I understood my parents preferred my brother. Who wouldn't? Sho was just perfect. Good-looking, kind, smart, gentleman. All these things were Sho. I was so proud of him. Of course, it would be a lie if I said I had never been a bit jealous of him. After all, I wasn't as good as him and I had a pretty bad asthma. I was a big boy for my parents and tried to work hard to please them. I wanted to be someone like him but unfortunately, it was impossible and I had to accept this painful idea.
I understood I loved Sho when I was ten. I wasn't joking when I asked him to marry me later because I wanted him to be mine forever. Sho broke my heart when he said it was impossible and I never tried to get closer to him after this night. I tried to erase my love for him but he never helped me in this so hard and painful task. Anytime I tried to do everything alone, he was here, afraid something happens to me because of my asthma. And I started to hate him. I hated him because he only acted like the kind older brother he had to be and only cared about me because of my health. It was unfair. Unfair to prevent me to stop my love for him. Unfair to make me love him even more as years passed. I knew it was wrong and I was a freak but I couldn't help the fact I needed him to be happy.
And then, this girl appeared. Hana. Even her name annoyed me. I hated her. I hated her silly smile, her long nails and her annoying conversations. What does Nii-chan loved in her?? She was so unlike him! Sho was someone who liked to talk about smart things not to talk about who had cheated on whom!
If she had been a kind girl, I guess I would have liked her but she wasn't. Her smiles were fake. Anytime Nii-chan wasn't looking, she was throwing me death glares or was pushing me against something. She was nasty and didn't make my Nii-chan happy so, I hated her. But I tried to hide it for Sho-chan. I wanted him to be happy and rejecting her would disappoint him. For two years, I suffered from this situation alone. I ignored her killing eyes on me, her little punchs on my arms and her nasty words. It was for Sho-chan's happiness, so, I could handle it.
But one day, everything changed. One day, the happiest thing of my life happened.
Sho kissed me.
Just thinking about this day always makes me grin like an idiot. Sho kissed me and told me he loved me with worried eyes, as if I could reject him. No way! I loved him so much! Since the day he protected me against this dog and let him bite his arm instead of mine. Sho was my hero. The person I admired the most in the world. How could he love someone like me? Because even if he told me I was perfect, I knew I was just a freak. I wanted to believe in his words but everyday at school, someone was making me remember that I was a shit. So, I kept smiling and just believed in Sho-chan's love for me.
He was scared to stress me because of the danger of our relationship but he never hurt me. In fact, I didn't care at all to have a forbidden love. The only thing which scared me was him leaving me. Nobody could really hurt me. Just him. As long as he loved me and stayed with me, nothing counted.
And I kept believing in that to handle the worst.
After my little journey at hospital because of my crisis, I had to stay at home to take some rest. It was so annoying because I would be alone and Sho would go to university. My mother was busy with her phone and I once again felt guilty for bothering her work because of my asthma. Even if I knew she would have left me alone if there hadn't been Sho. I heard him threatening her that he would kill her if she dared to leave me to go to her work. I felt sad because Sho needed to thread her, she didn't even stay for me or because she was scared for me.
"I'll be back quickly." Sho stroked my cheek and kissed me. I wrapped my arms around his neck, not wanting to let him go. I wanted to stay in his arms forever.
"Don't go." I whined, making him chuckle.
"I have to. Be patient, baby." Sho kissed my forehead and left.
I sighed and decided to read a manga to patient. Staying at home for hours wasn't my thing at all. I hated it and preferred to go outside to play or make shopping.
My mother didn't leave her office for lunch and I ate alone, playing with my omurice with my fork more than eating it. If Nino could be here, I wouldn't feel bored like now.
But I regretted my loneliness when my mother entered my bedroom with panicked eyes.
"Jun, I have to go, I've called someone to take care of you." She kissed my forehead and left.
In the end, everybody always left me...
When the doorbell rang, I opened the door happily, thinking Sho was already here but my smile vanished when I saw Hana in front of me.
"Hello, your mother called me to stay with you until Sho comes back." She entered the house without waiting for my answer.
"I see." I mumbled. Shit, why did I have to support her?!
"You seem very close to Sho." She said, taking the picture of Sho and I on my bedside.
"I guess we are." I mumbled, taking the picture back a bit roughly. She hadn't the right to touch it!
"Don't you think you should act more like an adult and let Sho alone? He is always worried for you and spends all his time with you, don't you feel guilty for being such a bother for someone as smart as Sho?" Hana smirked. I lowered my head, not knowing what to say.
"I can't help it if he is worried for me."
"Listen, I think you haven't understood me." I whined in pain when she grabbed the back of my hair, raising my face. "I'm not asking you to let Sho-chan alone, I'm ordering you to let him alone! You are always here, always occupying his mind, even when he is with me! He is MY boyfriend and you are just a shit! So, from now on, you will stay away from him or I swear you'll pay!" She whispered in a dangerous tone before throwing me on my bed when we heard the door and Sho calling me. I slipped under my sheets, trying to show a normal calm face.
Sho grinned, making my heart flutter and ran toward me to kiss my cheek, looking annoyed by Hana's presence. She stayed to watch a movie, climbing on Sho's lap and smirking when I looked at them. I really hoped Sho-chan didn't love her.
When I opened my eyes, I was in my bed, alone. I prayed she had left and joined Sho's bedroom silently, smiling when I saw him sleeping deeply, locks of hair falling on his eyes. I slipped under the sheets next to him and laid my head on his chest, closing my eyes happily.
The next morning, after an amazing handjob, Sho proposed me to go to Okinawa together for three days. I was so happy that I kept talking excitedly. We played in the sea and ate in a restaurant where Sho told me sweet words. Even if I loved him like he was, I needed to hear him saying he loved me.
When we joined our hotel, Sho started to strip me slowly, unbuttoning my shirt while kissing my neck.
"Sho..." I moaned, my hands gripping his hair.
"Let me show you how much I love you."Sho whispered. I smiled softly, opening my mouth to welcome his tongue with happiness. My hands took his belt off before stroking his firm butt. I loved his butt especially when he was wearing tight red boxers. I whined, Sho taking off my underwear to push me on the bed and climb on top of me. I could feel his big hard length against my thigh while he was devouring every part of my body.
When Sho entered me, I moaned loudly, scratching his skin as he was moving inside me slowly but deeply, driving me crazy. I tried to control my breath not to make a crisis and break this so perfect moment between us. I felt complete, happy and in heaven with his member inside me, the words of love he was whispering and the way he was moaning my name. Everything was perfect. Sho was perfect.
Sho!!!" I almost lost the control of my breath when I came, reaching an amazing orgasm with Sho following me some seconds later and collapsing next to me, out of breath.
"How was it?"Sho asked worriedly.
"Wonderful. Perfect. I've loved it." I grinned, breathing with difficulty.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes. Let me some seconds." I panted, trying to calm down, my head on his chest.
"I'm sorry."
"Never be sorry for giving me an orgasm like that." I replied, making him chuckle.
"I can't help it."Sho whispered.
"I'm fine. I told you I would always be fine as long as you love me."
"Hun."
This week-end was just unforgettable and coming home was very hard for us because it meant we had to to hide our feelings again.
But things turned bad earlier than I thought. When I went to school the Monday, people were looking at me weirdly. At the beginning, I ignored them but my heart stopped when I opened my locker and saw a paper inside.
Sakurai Jun and Sho are just disgusting freaks. They are brothers but they fuck!
I paled in front of the words. How?? Who had guessed?! Nobody could know! I threw the paper in the dustbin angrily and joined my classroom. My classmates stopped to talk and stared at me with weird eyes.
"So, two brothers who fuck, disgusting." A boy snapped.
"Aren't you ashamed of your behavior?!"
"It's false!!!" I stood up angrily. "These are just rumors!"
"Why someone would spread these kinds of rumors?!"
"I don't know but it's disrespectful for my brother! He is a brilliant student at Keio and dates a girl for two years now!" I yelled. My classmates stared at me with surprised eyes, not used to see me screaming.
"Well, maybe it's true. After all, we don't have any proves, it can be a rumor against Sakurai-kun." Hiroshi stated, approved by the others.
"Don't worry, Jun-kun, I believe in you."
"Thank you, Kame-chan." I smiled to my classmate who patted my shoulder kindly.
"Stop looking at him like that! If I put a paper saying that Hiroshi was a girl, would you also believe it, idiots! Don't believe in rumors when you have none proves!"
I smiled happily in front of Kame's trust. We weren't very close as he was friend with Sonoda-kun who hated me but never acted badly with me. He always smiled and was kind at school. I was happy to have him on my side as Nino weren't in my class and couldn't help me.
I washed my face with the cold water, sighing happily when suddenly, something grip my shirt and threw me on the ground. I raised my face to see Sonoda and his friends smirking.
"So, how is it to be fucked by his own brother?" Sonoda smirked.
"I don't fuck with him!" I protested.
"Then, how do you explain the note left?"
"Someone who hates me. I swear there is nothing true!"
"Mmm. We'll see that." Sonoda punched me in the stomach, cutting my breath.
"Be careful, Sono-kun, he has asthma!" His friend warned as I was trying to breathe and ignore the pain.
"And then? He'll just make a crisis." Sonoda smirked, gripping my hair to raise my face. "Poor baby who can't breathe correctly."
"L-et m-e g-o." I panted.
"Mmm nah, it's fun. I can break you like I want and..."
"And you're going to release him." A voice snapped.
"Woo Kamenashi, I'm going to think you are his prince Charming." Sonoda threw me on the ground with a laugh. "It's not over, Sakurai." Sonoda smirked while Kame was rushing toward me.
"Are you okay?!"
"Y-es.Th-anks." I grabbed my inhalator and took big puffs, trying to calm my lungs. Kame hugged me, whispering comforting words.
"Do you want I bring you back home?"
"NO!" I shouted under his surprised eyes. "Sorry. It's just... Nii-chan can't know what happened."
"But he is concerned."
"He will kill Sonoda if he knows he dared to touch me."
"Don't overreact, he can't..."
"You don't know my brother. If he learns someone hit me, he can do the worst." I lowered my head.
"He really loves you, ne?"
"No, he is just acting like a big brother..."
"You don't have to lie with me. I know the rumor is true but it doesn't bother me." I didn't answer, avoiding his eyes.
"We have a lesson." I said, standing up with difficulty.
"Okay. Do you want I tell Ninomiya what happened?"
"No. He would tell everything to Nii-chan. Forget what happened." I shrugged and left the restrooms under his shocked eyes.
As much as I wanted to tell Kazu, I knew he would run to Sho and it was something I couldn't accept. Because as kind as Sho was, I knew he would do the worst to protect me. Sonoda would be dead if he learned and I couldn't spoil Sho's life nor lose him. I preferred to be hit everyday than losing him.
Because I could live with the ijime but I couldn't live without him.
I thought this story would calm down with time but it got worst. New papers came in my locker. Always the same sentences, always the same rumors. I was hiding with difficulty what was happening to me to Nino and he soon, learned for the papers. Of course, nobody learned for Sonoda and it was better this way. Sho had always been the strong one in our relationship but this time, it could be me. I just had to bear the hits and pray for not having marks on my body. Silly dream.
"Baby..." Sho moaned while kissing my neck hungrily, our hips moving against each other.
"Sho.... Sho... Do me...." I whined.
"With pleasure, my little love." Sho took off our pants but when he reached my shirt, I stopped him.
"Not the shirt."
"Why?"
"I'm cold." I lied.
"Don't worry, in two minutes, you'll be very hot." Sho smirked, trying to unbutton my shirt.
"Please, no!" I implored.
"Jun, what's wrong?" Sho frowned.
"I... Kazu hit me accidently when we were practicing baseball."
"What?! Are you sure it was an accident?!"
"Of course, Kazu would never hurt me!"
"Let me see."Sho opened my shirt and gasped, seeing a big dark bruise on my stomach. "Baby..." His hand stroked softly the bruise, making me shiver.
"It's not as bad as it looks like. It doesn't hurt anymore but baseball bats can be very painful." I tried to joke but Sho didn't laugh.
"Are you sure it's baseball?"
"Of course! Please, Sho, don't spoil this moment, it was an accident and it doesn't hurt." In front of my pleading eyes, Sho finally smiled softly before laying kisses on my bruise. I moaned louder, shivers of pleasure crossing my body as my brother was kissing this painful part. "Please!" I begged as he was teasing me. Sho chuckled and entered me slowly, making me arch my body on the mattress. I sighed in happiness when I felt him inside me. Finally, I felt complete as if we were meant to be like that. But this time, I decided to change a bit and pushed him away to make him roll on his back and climbed on him.
"Jun?" Sho looked at me with lost eyes. I smiled and grabbed his length to push it inside me again. Understanding what I wanted to do, Sho smiled and wrapped my nape to kiss me, his member slipping deeply inside me. I put my hands on his chest and started to move, closing my eyes in pleasure. I had never tried to lead as Sho was always doing it perfectly. I didn't care who was on top or bottom, for me, forming one with Sho was just the most important. And as he was the older and had a well-built body, I loved to have him above me, thrusting and bringing amounts of pleasure inside me while I was scratching his skin and moaning his name. But today, I wanted to be the one who gave us pleasure. I wanted to show him how much I loved him and I belonged to him. Seeing his red face and the pleasure on it with the moans he was doing excited me even more and I moved faster, his hands holding my hips possessively to dive inside me harder. Sweat was rolling down our bodies which were moving in a perfect sync, visible veins appearing on Sho's neck because of the effort and heat invading the bedroom. It was so intense, so perfect, we were in a bubble. A bubble of love and pleasure. We weren't just making love. It was so much more for us. We were showing our love and trying to feel alive.
"Sho!!!" I arched my body for the last time and came hard, bringing him over the edge. I collapsed on his chest, trying to calm my breath while Sho was stroking my back silently, knowing I needed some time to relax and not use my inhalator. "It was amazing." I finally whispered after five minutes.
"I've loved your idea of changing the position."
"Really?"
"Hun. It was great to have you like that." I smiled happily, letting him wrap me in his arms.
"We should try other positions." I blushed.
"Little pervert." Sho smirked.
"Hey!" I protested.
"My little pervert."
"Sho?"
"Hun?"
"Don't break up with Hana."
"What?!" Sho frowned.
"I... Okay, I hate to know you are dating her but like that nobody will guess for us." I lied. Nobody could guess even if Sho wasn't dating her but with what happened at school, maybe they would leave me alone if they knew that Sho has a girlfriend.
"I was going to break-up with her tomorrow. I hate her." Sho whispered.
"I... Okay... If it's too much for you to date her, leave her, then." I forced a smile.
"Jun, are you hiding me something?" Sho looked at me with a frown.
"No. Of course not." I lied. "I just don't want to lose you."
"Nobody will ever separate us." Sho grinned, kissing me softly.
If we had known how much he was wrong...
To be continued...
A/N: Here we have the beginning of the problems xD When I think about it, I'm very nasty with Jun in this fic but I like to torture him *evil smirk* xD So, now, you can Hana's real nature, she is a big bitch, I hate her and I wish Sho could hit her >< Next chapter will be next week, for the moment, I'm going on a little trip to my friend's house for her birthday xD see you soon, comments are always <3
Author: Matsuaurore
Pairings: Sakumoto, Ohmiya
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: They belong to me but just in my dreams T.T
Summary: He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. But what can you do when the love you feel is also the forbidden?
What can you do when you have to push away what keeps you alive?
Chapter 5:
Jun's pov:
I've always felt there was a problem with me. When I was 7 years old, I understood my parents preferred my brother. Who wouldn't? Sho was just perfect. Good-looking, kind, smart, gentleman. All these things were Sho. I was so proud of him. Of course, it would be a lie if I said I had never been a bit jealous of him. After all, I wasn't as good as him and I had a pretty bad asthma. I was a big boy for my parents and tried to work hard to please them. I wanted to be someone like him but unfortunately, it was impossible and I had to accept this painful idea.
I understood I loved Sho when I was ten. I wasn't joking when I asked him to marry me later because I wanted him to be mine forever. Sho broke my heart when he said it was impossible and I never tried to get closer to him after this night. I tried to erase my love for him but he never helped me in this so hard and painful task. Anytime I tried to do everything alone, he was here, afraid something happens to me because of my asthma. And I started to hate him. I hated him because he only acted like the kind older brother he had to be and only cared about me because of my health. It was unfair. Unfair to prevent me to stop my love for him. Unfair to make me love him even more as years passed. I knew it was wrong and I was a freak but I couldn't help the fact I needed him to be happy.
And then, this girl appeared. Hana. Even her name annoyed me. I hated her. I hated her silly smile, her long nails and her annoying conversations. What does Nii-chan loved in her?? She was so unlike him! Sho was someone who liked to talk about smart things not to talk about who had cheated on whom!
If she had been a kind girl, I guess I would have liked her but she wasn't. Her smiles were fake. Anytime Nii-chan wasn't looking, she was throwing me death glares or was pushing me against something. She was nasty and didn't make my Nii-chan happy so, I hated her. But I tried to hide it for Sho-chan. I wanted him to be happy and rejecting her would disappoint him. For two years, I suffered from this situation alone. I ignored her killing eyes on me, her little punchs on my arms and her nasty words. It was for Sho-chan's happiness, so, I could handle it.
But one day, everything changed. One day, the happiest thing of my life happened.
Sho kissed me.
Just thinking about this day always makes me grin like an idiot. Sho kissed me and told me he loved me with worried eyes, as if I could reject him. No way! I loved him so much! Since the day he protected me against this dog and let him bite his arm instead of mine. Sho was my hero. The person I admired the most in the world. How could he love someone like me? Because even if he told me I was perfect, I knew I was just a freak. I wanted to believe in his words but everyday at school, someone was making me remember that I was a shit. So, I kept smiling and just believed in Sho-chan's love for me.
He was scared to stress me because of the danger of our relationship but he never hurt me. In fact, I didn't care at all to have a forbidden love. The only thing which scared me was him leaving me. Nobody could really hurt me. Just him. As long as he loved me and stayed with me, nothing counted.
And I kept believing in that to handle the worst.
After my little journey at hospital because of my crisis, I had to stay at home to take some rest. It was so annoying because I would be alone and Sho would go to university. My mother was busy with her phone and I once again felt guilty for bothering her work because of my asthma. Even if I knew she would have left me alone if there hadn't been Sho. I heard him threatening her that he would kill her if she dared to leave me to go to her work. I felt sad because Sho needed to thread her, she didn't even stay for me or because she was scared for me.
"I'll be back quickly." Sho stroked my cheek and kissed me. I wrapped my arms around his neck, not wanting to let him go. I wanted to stay in his arms forever.
"Don't go." I whined, making him chuckle.
"I have to. Be patient, baby." Sho kissed my forehead and left.
I sighed and decided to read a manga to patient. Staying at home for hours wasn't my thing at all. I hated it and preferred to go outside to play or make shopping.
My mother didn't leave her office for lunch and I ate alone, playing with my omurice with my fork more than eating it. If Nino could be here, I wouldn't feel bored like now.
But I regretted my loneliness when my mother entered my bedroom with panicked eyes.
"Jun, I have to go, I've called someone to take care of you." She kissed my forehead and left.
In the end, everybody always left me...
When the doorbell rang, I opened the door happily, thinking Sho was already here but my smile vanished when I saw Hana in front of me.
"Hello, your mother called me to stay with you until Sho comes back." She entered the house without waiting for my answer.
"I see." I mumbled. Shit, why did I have to support her?!
"You seem very close to Sho." She said, taking the picture of Sho and I on my bedside.
"I guess we are." I mumbled, taking the picture back a bit roughly. She hadn't the right to touch it!
"Don't you think you should act more like an adult and let Sho alone? He is always worried for you and spends all his time with you, don't you feel guilty for being such a bother for someone as smart as Sho?" Hana smirked. I lowered my head, not knowing what to say.
"I can't help it if he is worried for me."
"Listen, I think you haven't understood me." I whined in pain when she grabbed the back of my hair, raising my face. "I'm not asking you to let Sho-chan alone, I'm ordering you to let him alone! You are always here, always occupying his mind, even when he is with me! He is MY boyfriend and you are just a shit! So, from now on, you will stay away from him or I swear you'll pay!" She whispered in a dangerous tone before throwing me on my bed when we heard the door and Sho calling me. I slipped under my sheets, trying to show a normal calm face.
Sho grinned, making my heart flutter and ran toward me to kiss my cheek, looking annoyed by Hana's presence. She stayed to watch a movie, climbing on Sho's lap and smirking when I looked at them. I really hoped Sho-chan didn't love her.
When I opened my eyes, I was in my bed, alone. I prayed she had left and joined Sho's bedroom silently, smiling when I saw him sleeping deeply, locks of hair falling on his eyes. I slipped under the sheets next to him and laid my head on his chest, closing my eyes happily.
The next morning, after an amazing handjob, Sho proposed me to go to Okinawa together for three days. I was so happy that I kept talking excitedly. We played in the sea and ate in a restaurant where Sho told me sweet words. Even if I loved him like he was, I needed to hear him saying he loved me.
When we joined our hotel, Sho started to strip me slowly, unbuttoning my shirt while kissing my neck.
"Sho..." I moaned, my hands gripping his hair.
"Let me show you how much I love you."Sho whispered. I smiled softly, opening my mouth to welcome his tongue with happiness. My hands took his belt off before stroking his firm butt. I loved his butt especially when he was wearing tight red boxers. I whined, Sho taking off my underwear to push me on the bed and climb on top of me. I could feel his big hard length against my thigh while he was devouring every part of my body.
When Sho entered me, I moaned loudly, scratching his skin as he was moving inside me slowly but deeply, driving me crazy. I tried to control my breath not to make a crisis and break this so perfect moment between us. I felt complete, happy and in heaven with his member inside me, the words of love he was whispering and the way he was moaning my name. Everything was perfect. Sho was perfect.
Sho!!!" I almost lost the control of my breath when I came, reaching an amazing orgasm with Sho following me some seconds later and collapsing next to me, out of breath.
"How was it?"Sho asked worriedly.
"Wonderful. Perfect. I've loved it." I grinned, breathing with difficulty.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes. Let me some seconds." I panted, trying to calm down, my head on his chest.
"I'm sorry."
"Never be sorry for giving me an orgasm like that." I replied, making him chuckle.
"I can't help it."Sho whispered.
"I'm fine. I told you I would always be fine as long as you love me."
"Hun."
This week-end was just unforgettable and coming home was very hard for us because it meant we had to to hide our feelings again.
But things turned bad earlier than I thought. When I went to school the Monday, people were looking at me weirdly. At the beginning, I ignored them but my heart stopped when I opened my locker and saw a paper inside.
Sakurai Jun and Sho are just disgusting freaks. They are brothers but they fuck!
I paled in front of the words. How?? Who had guessed?! Nobody could know! I threw the paper in the dustbin angrily and joined my classroom. My classmates stopped to talk and stared at me with weird eyes.
"So, two brothers who fuck, disgusting." A boy snapped.
"Aren't you ashamed of your behavior?!"
"It's false!!!" I stood up angrily. "These are just rumors!"
"Why someone would spread these kinds of rumors?!"
"I don't know but it's disrespectful for my brother! He is a brilliant student at Keio and dates a girl for two years now!" I yelled. My classmates stared at me with surprised eyes, not used to see me screaming.
"Well, maybe it's true. After all, we don't have any proves, it can be a rumor against Sakurai-kun." Hiroshi stated, approved by the others.
"Don't worry, Jun-kun, I believe in you."
"Thank you, Kame-chan." I smiled to my classmate who patted my shoulder kindly.
"Stop looking at him like that! If I put a paper saying that Hiroshi was a girl, would you also believe it, idiots! Don't believe in rumors when you have none proves!"
I smiled happily in front of Kame's trust. We weren't very close as he was friend with Sonoda-kun who hated me but never acted badly with me. He always smiled and was kind at school. I was happy to have him on my side as Nino weren't in my class and couldn't help me.
I washed my face with the cold water, sighing happily when suddenly, something grip my shirt and threw me on the ground. I raised my face to see Sonoda and his friends smirking.
"So, how is it to be fucked by his own brother?" Sonoda smirked.
"I don't fuck with him!" I protested.
"Then, how do you explain the note left?"
"Someone who hates me. I swear there is nothing true!"
"Mmm. We'll see that." Sonoda punched me in the stomach, cutting my breath.
"Be careful, Sono-kun, he has asthma!" His friend warned as I was trying to breathe and ignore the pain.
"And then? He'll just make a crisis." Sonoda smirked, gripping my hair to raise my face. "Poor baby who can't breathe correctly."
"L-et m-e g-o." I panted.
"Mmm nah, it's fun. I can break you like I want and..."
"And you're going to release him." A voice snapped.
"Woo Kamenashi, I'm going to think you are his prince Charming." Sonoda threw me on the ground with a laugh. "It's not over, Sakurai." Sonoda smirked while Kame was rushing toward me.
"Are you okay?!"
"Y-es.Th-anks." I grabbed my inhalator and took big puffs, trying to calm my lungs. Kame hugged me, whispering comforting words.
"Do you want I bring you back home?"
"NO!" I shouted under his surprised eyes. "Sorry. It's just... Nii-chan can't know what happened."
"But he is concerned."
"He will kill Sonoda if he knows he dared to touch me."
"Don't overreact, he can't..."
"You don't know my brother. If he learns someone hit me, he can do the worst." I lowered my head.
"He really loves you, ne?"
"No, he is just acting like a big brother..."
"You don't have to lie with me. I know the rumor is true but it doesn't bother me." I didn't answer, avoiding his eyes.
"We have a lesson." I said, standing up with difficulty.
"Okay. Do you want I tell Ninomiya what happened?"
"No. He would tell everything to Nii-chan. Forget what happened." I shrugged and left the restrooms under his shocked eyes.
As much as I wanted to tell Kazu, I knew he would run to Sho and it was something I couldn't accept. Because as kind as Sho was, I knew he would do the worst to protect me. Sonoda would be dead if he learned and I couldn't spoil Sho's life nor lose him. I preferred to be hit everyday than losing him.
Because I could live with the ijime but I couldn't live without him.
I thought this story would calm down with time but it got worst. New papers came in my locker. Always the same sentences, always the same rumors. I was hiding with difficulty what was happening to me to Nino and he soon, learned for the papers. Of course, nobody learned for Sonoda and it was better this way. Sho had always been the strong one in our relationship but this time, it could be me. I just had to bear the hits and pray for not having marks on my body. Silly dream.
"Baby..." Sho moaned while kissing my neck hungrily, our hips moving against each other.
"Sho.... Sho... Do me...." I whined.
"With pleasure, my little love." Sho took off our pants but when he reached my shirt, I stopped him.
"Not the shirt."
"Why?"
"I'm cold." I lied.
"Don't worry, in two minutes, you'll be very hot." Sho smirked, trying to unbutton my shirt.
"Please, no!" I implored.
"Jun, what's wrong?" Sho frowned.
"I... Kazu hit me accidently when we were practicing baseball."
"What?! Are you sure it was an accident?!"
"Of course, Kazu would never hurt me!"
"Let me see."Sho opened my shirt and gasped, seeing a big dark bruise on my stomach. "Baby..." His hand stroked softly the bruise, making me shiver.
"It's not as bad as it looks like. It doesn't hurt anymore but baseball bats can be very painful." I tried to joke but Sho didn't laugh.
"Are you sure it's baseball?"
"Of course! Please, Sho, don't spoil this moment, it was an accident and it doesn't hurt." In front of my pleading eyes, Sho finally smiled softly before laying kisses on my bruise. I moaned louder, shivers of pleasure crossing my body as my brother was kissing this painful part. "Please!" I begged as he was teasing me. Sho chuckled and entered me slowly, making me arch my body on the mattress. I sighed in happiness when I felt him inside me. Finally, I felt complete as if we were meant to be like that. But this time, I decided to change a bit and pushed him away to make him roll on his back and climbed on him.
"Jun?" Sho looked at me with lost eyes. I smiled and grabbed his length to push it inside me again. Understanding what I wanted to do, Sho smiled and wrapped my nape to kiss me, his member slipping deeply inside me. I put my hands on his chest and started to move, closing my eyes in pleasure. I had never tried to lead as Sho was always doing it perfectly. I didn't care who was on top or bottom, for me, forming one with Sho was just the most important. And as he was the older and had a well-built body, I loved to have him above me, thrusting and bringing amounts of pleasure inside me while I was scratching his skin and moaning his name. But today, I wanted to be the one who gave us pleasure. I wanted to show him how much I loved him and I belonged to him. Seeing his red face and the pleasure on it with the moans he was doing excited me even more and I moved faster, his hands holding my hips possessively to dive inside me harder. Sweat was rolling down our bodies which were moving in a perfect sync, visible veins appearing on Sho's neck because of the effort and heat invading the bedroom. It was so intense, so perfect, we were in a bubble. A bubble of love and pleasure. We weren't just making love. It was so much more for us. We were showing our love and trying to feel alive.
"Sho!!!" I arched my body for the last time and came hard, bringing him over the edge. I collapsed on his chest, trying to calm my breath while Sho was stroking my back silently, knowing I needed some time to relax and not use my inhalator. "It was amazing." I finally whispered after five minutes.
"I've loved your idea of changing the position."
"Really?"
"Hun. It was great to have you like that." I smiled happily, letting him wrap me in his arms.
"We should try other positions." I blushed.
"Little pervert." Sho smirked.
"Hey!" I protested.
"My little pervert."
"Sho?"
"Hun?"
"Don't break up with Hana."
"What?!" Sho frowned.
"I... Okay, I hate to know you are dating her but like that nobody will guess for us." I lied. Nobody could guess even if Sho wasn't dating her but with what happened at school, maybe they would leave me alone if they knew that Sho has a girlfriend.
"I was going to break-up with her tomorrow. I hate her." Sho whispered.
"I... Okay... If it's too much for you to date her, leave her, then." I forced a smile.
"Jun, are you hiding me something?" Sho looked at me with a frown.
"No. Of course not." I lied. "I just don't want to lose you."
"Nobody will ever separate us." Sho grinned, kissing me softly.
If we had known how much he was wrong...
To be continued...
A/N: Here we have the beginning of the problems xD When I think about it, I'm very nasty with Jun in this fic but I like to torture him *evil smirk* xD So, now, you can Hana's real nature, she is a big bitch, I hate her and I wish Sho could hit her >< Next chapter will be next week, for the moment, I'm going on a little trip to my friend's house for her birthday xD see you soon, comments are always <3