Alive Final chapter (part 2/2)
Title: Alive
Author: Matsuaurore
Pairings: Sakumoto
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They belong to me but just in my dreams T.T
Summary: He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. But what can you do when the love you feel is also the forbidden?
What can you do when you have to push away what keeps you alive?
Final chapter:
Part 2:
Sho’s pov:
"But the problem was his asthma. His lungs were private of oxygen for too long."
"And..."
"He made several cardiac arrests but he fought."
"Thank you sensei!" I hugged him, making him chuckle.
"He is sleeping for the moment and you'll be able to see him in a few hours. Call your parents, we need to see them and I want to talk to them."
"Okay." I bowed deeply and took my phone.
*****
"Why did he do that?" I whispered when the doctor let me see my brother.
"He wanted to protect you." Nino said softly.
"But I don't care about my career. He is more important than that!"
"For you it's an evidence but for Jun not. For him, your future was the most important. He wanted to be stronger."
"What have they done to him?" I sobbed, stroking Jun's pale cheek. "I swear the one who did that will pay. And Hana too."
"For the moment, Jun needs you." Nino patted my shoulder kindly.
"Jun!!" We all jumped when my parents burst in the room.
"Papa, mama." I sighed.
"What happened?! How is he?!" My father asked.
"Mama should know as she was here when Jun ran away." I snapped, throwing a death glare to my mother.
"He... He told me... For you two..." I paled at her words. Shit.
"And?"
"I told him horrible things. He... I've hurt him so much..." It was the first time I was seeing my mother cry. "I told him he was a freak..."
"What?!" I gasped.
"I didn't think it. I was just very shocked." She sobbed.
"And you let him leave and didn't even call the police?! Are you really his mother?!"
"Sho, calm down." My father said softly.
"No! Since his birth she is rejecting him and you aren't better! Why? Why did you never accept his asthma? He is fragile but not dangerous. Why are you so ashamed of him?!"
"We aren't. We love him."
"Why did you let him leave in this state then?"
"I was shocked. Jun told me you two were...together. I panicked. You can't say it's normal and I had to accept easily."
"Yes but telling him he was a freak and letting him run away was horrible and unfair!"
"I know but... I didn't think... He told me you were the only one who loved him for who he was and he had made you leave. I swear I didn't want to hurt him."
"Well, you did."
"Sho, is it true for you and Jun?" My mother asked hesitantly.
"Yes."
"What?!" My father gasped.
"I love him and he loves me. Since he is born. He belongs to me."
"I..."
"Sh-o..." I jumped and turned my head to see Jun opening his eyes weakly.
"Jun!" I took Jun's hands but when my brother opened his eyes completely, he moved away, tears filling his eyes. "Jun..." I whispered, hurt.
"Don't touch me!! Leave!!"
"Jun, dear." My mother protested.
"Leave! I hate you! Why didn't you let me die! You would have been happy as you didn't kill me the first time!"
"What do you mean?" I frowned.
"Ask her! Ask her who tried to kill me because I was an accident! Ask her who has always hated me because I'm a shame!" Jun sobbed, hugging his knees against his chest.
"What..." I looked at my mother who had lowered her head.
"Why didn't you let him kill me? I just wanted to disappear..." Jun sobbed, breaking my heart.
"Jun, calm down, please." I said softly but when I tried to touch him, Jun pushed my hand away, scared. He was scared of me? Why?
"Jun, stop playing the child!" My father snapped.
"Shut up!" I yelled, making my parents gasp. "Can't you see he is scared?! Idiots! Jun, baby, calm down." But Jun started to cry and tremble, breathing with difficulty. With a sigh, I called a doctor and soon, a needle sank in Jun's arm, making him close his eyes.
"He has opened his wounds." The doctors frowned. I bit my lip in anger when I saw blood drenching his bandages. "He has to stay calm if he doesn't want to have any scars."
"I'll talk with my dear parents, then." I showed them to leave the bedroom and we left the hospital to talk in peace.
"What Jun was talking about?"
"When he was younger, he heard one of our conversations where I said he was an accident and had survived after the tentative of abortion." My mother looked away, ashamed.
"What..." I paled. Had she really say and want that? No wonder why Jun was so fragile and thought he didn't deserve to live.
"But I can explain... He told me yesterday he had heard everything but he didn't let me the time to explain... I have so many regrets..." My mother sobbed.
"You two... You have always been bad parents."
"We did our best, Sho!" My father snapped.
"No you didn't. You tried to kill Jun. You have never tried to accept him, always letting me take care of him. And you're surprised that we love each other? It's because we have always been alone together. You were never at home. Never. For our birthdays, you just sent us a gift, you didn't even come home to celebrate it. For Christmas it was the same. And when I came back from America... Even after not seeing me for 5 months, you weren't even here. We have spent Christmas just together. But I should thank you for that because we spent the best Christmas of our lives."
"We had lots of work." My mother protested.
"Then, why did you make children? Jun has never had a mother. Who was changing his nappies? Who was feeding him? Who was kissing his scratch when he had fallen on the ground? Who comforted him when he had nightmares? You were never here. I was his mother and father! You don't know him but he also doesn't even know you. You two are perfect strangers for us! So, why did you make children? Why? Just to say you were normal humans who, after a brilliant career, had made kids? Or just to have a heir? That's why Jun wasn't desired? Because you just needed one heir?!"
"It's more complicated... I didn't want to kill Jun for pleasure or because I just needed one son." My mother whispered, a tear rolling down her cheek.
"Why, then?! Why did you never love him?! Why did you never love me?!"
"We love you. But I have always tried to run away while my sons just needed my love. And I realize today that it's what has destroyed our family. The lies."
"What do you mean?" I frowned.
"Jun isn't your father's son." My mother whispered, making me freeze. "He is your half brother."
I would have never thought truth could be that painful.
"What?!"
"I'll explain everything to you and Jun. After all these years, he deserves the truth, I've made him suffer enough."
"I need to be alone." I mumbled and left them, ignoring my mother's calls. What was that? My father wasn't Jun's father? I grabbed a cigarette, ignoring the fact I had decided to stop after coming back from America. I inhaled deeply, my hand shaking. Why couldn't we have two normal parents? Why couldn't we be a real family? After two hours, I decided to go back to see if Jun was awake.
"Jun?" I said softly when I saw him staring at the window.
"Why are you here? Don't you hate me?" Jun mumbled.
"No. I would never hate you." I sat on the edge of the bed and took his hand, making him freeze.
"I'm ugly now." Jun turned his face toward me, showing the long cut on his cheek.
"Not in my eyes." I smiled softly. Jun started to cry and I wrapped him in my arms, stroking his hair with tenderness.
"I'm so sorry, Sho."
"I know. I'm sorry too, I didn't think my words."
"I just wanted to protect you."
"I know. But you didn't think you are the most important for me. More important than my career. You are my life, Jun, I don't care about the rest as long as I have you."
"But for me, your future was more important than a burden like me."
"I forbid you to say that! You are important. I can't walk if you aren't by my side."
"I'm sorry..."
"It's okay. We'll forget this story once I will have dealt with the bastards who did that to you."
"But Sho..."
"No need to complain." I cut him off by pressing our lips together. It felt amazing to kiss him after all this time and pain. I took my time to savior his lips, playing with it and sucking it.
"Arg...." We both jumped and pulled away, blushing when we saw our parents. I felt Jun shaking in fear and took his hand to reassure him.
"Jun..." My mother made a step toward us before rushing and wrapping Jun in her arms. I saw my brother blinking in chocked, wondering what his mother was doing. "I'm so sorry, Jun." We understood she wasn't apologizing just for yesterday. But for everything since the beginning.
"You told me you would explain everything." I muttered coldly. My mother wiped her eyes and sat on the bed with determinate eyes.
"First, you have to know that I love you both. Despite my behavior, I love you. But I have realized it a bit too late." She started. "You don't remember, Sho but when you born, it was the best day of my life. I was so happy to have a son. For one year, I spent all my time with you."
"Why did it change?" I frowned.
"When you were 10 months, I met someone else."
"What?!"
"Your father worked a lot and I was always alone at home with you. I started to go outside and met him. He was the most beautiful man I had ever met." My mother smiled softly, her eyes shining happily. "He was very kind and comforted me when I was sad and missed your father. At the beginning, I was just seeing him at the playground and he was used to play with you, Sho. He adored you like his own son." I looked at my father who looked really calmed for these kinds of revelations. My mother had certainly told him everything already. "For one month, I saw him, talking with him for hours and going to café together. I was so happy to have a friend. But one day, he told me we couldn't see each other anymore because he was in love with me. This day, I realized I loved him too. I kissed him and after, we made love for hours." My mother blushed, avoiding my father's eyes. "For four months, we saw each other and made love together. And one day, I discovered I was pregnant." Jun paled at these words and I tightened my grip on his hand. "When I told him, he promised me he would marry me if I left your father. I felt so happy, I remember how much I stroked my belly, happy to have this little life inside me. You, Jun." She looked at Jun with so much love shining in her eyes that Jun started to cry.
"What happened, then?"
"I was ready to leave your father and take you with me to live with him. One day, I made my luggage and told your papa that I was pregnant and left him for someone who really loved me. I was 2 months pregnant. I left with you, Sho, your little hand holding mine tightly while you were looking at me with questioning eyes. You even asked me where were we going and I knelt down to put your hand on my belly and told you we were going to live with your new papa and your future little brother. You smiled like you never did before. You even kissed my belly and told me you would love and take care of Jun." She chuckled slightly.
"It's..."
"My lover's name was Junichi. And you always called him 'uncle Jun'. It's you who chose Jun's name." She smiled softly. Jun grinned, linking his fingers with mines.
"Why did you stay with dad, then?" I frowned.
"We had planned to meet at our playground but when I arrived, he wasn't here. I waited for hours, crying and praying. I felt betrayed by the man who had promised to marry me. As he never came, I went back home with you not to sleep in the street. The next day, my world collapsed when I saw the information’s. Junichi had been killed by a man trying to hold up a bank." My mother started to cry loudly and I understood this deep scar had never healed after all these years.
"What did you do?"
"Your father agreed to take me back, promising he would act like a true husband."
"Just if you aborted." I snapped, throwing a death glare to my father who shook his head.
"As hurt as I was, I would have never forced her to abort even if I wanted to."
"It's me who took the decision."
"Mama!" I exclaimed, shocked.
"I couldn't bear Junichi's death and knowing I had his child inside me made me realize I would never be able to heal. Instead of treasuring the proof of our love, I decided to kill it. I was too fragile in mind at this time. But it didn't work. Jun survived."
"And you decided to hate him." I snapped.
"No. I wanted to love him like I had loved Junichi. It worked at the beginning. Then, when you grew up, I changed. You made me remember him so much, Jun." She looked at my brother, stroking his cheek. "The same character. So stubborn, so kind and so courageous. And you looked like him physically. A little Junichi. And it drove me crazy. I started to avoid you because it was like having Junichi in front of me. It was too painful. As Sho adored you, I let him raise you instead of loving you like I loved him. And when you became asthmatic, it got worst. Because Junichi had asthma too. But a light asthma. I have never been ashamed of you, Jun. You just made me confront my pain anytime I was seeing you and I couldn't bear it. I wanted to forget him. It's when I've found you two days ago at home that I realized my mistakes. I should have treasured you instead of hating you. You were a child from love. I forgot this important fact. Junichi would have loved you with all his heart. I should treasure the gift he left me before dying. Because you aren't a shame, Jun, you're my little gift." My mother smiled softly and for the first time in 17 years, I saw the truth in her eyes. She hugged Jun tightly, my brother crying silently. He had his truth. Finally, he knew what happened and knew he was desired.
"It's easy to talk but once we will be at home, you and dad will leave again."
"I'm going to take some vacations. To be with my sons and to repare my mistakes." My mother grinned.
"There is still one problem."
"Eh?"
"Jun and I. You can disown me if you want but I won't leave Jun. Just if he doesn't want me."
"No!" Jun protested, pushing my mother away to hug me.
"Sho, you're brothers." My father sighed.
"I don't care. Jun belongs to me. I love him. You can't ask us to stop when you have always made me take care of him."
"Sho, it's impossible." My mother protested.
"Accept it or you won't see us again." I said coldly, Jun nodding to approve. My mother looked at my father who stood up.
"We need to talk, Hanako." Both left the bedroom under our anxious looks.
"Are you okay?" I asked worriedly to Jun who nodded.
"I feel better now I know the truth."
"I told you you were a little treasure." Jun chuckled and kissed my neck happily.
"Ne, Sho?"
"Hun?"
"If they refuse..."
"I won't let you go. Even if tomorrow, everybody knew for us, I don't care." Jun grinned and hugged me. I didn't know how this mess would end but I wasn't going to let him go. Never.
Three years later...
"Jun, you're going to be late my dear!"
"Hai!" Jun ran in the stairs, his suit case in his hand.
"Have you taken everything?" Hanako asked.
"Yes."
"I'll miss you." Hanako wrapped her son in her arms, kissing his forehead.
"I'm not going in Alaska, mom." Jun chuckled.
"It would be too cold there." I shivered, entering the living room.
"Sho, promise me you'll take care of your brother." My mother implored.
"Of course. Mom, Asakusa isn't very far from here you know." I chuckled.
"I know but I'll miss my two babies so much."
"We aren't babies anymore." Jun pouted.
"I know."
I smiled softly as our mother was hugging and kissing Jun again. After this conversation at the hospital, my parents took the decision to divorce. My father refused to let Jun and I together and wanted to send me in America while my mother was ready to accept us. I knew it was very hard for her and she was trying to prove Jun how much she loved him. Everything changed after Jun's hospitalization. We left our house for an apartment and changed of town for Nakano. Of course, Kame, Sonoda and Hana pay. Some people said Kame and Sonoda were sent at hospital in a bad state just after I visited them. What a coincidence! And I took a big pleasure at destroying Hana's reputation by spreading some pictures of her and men fucking. Don't ask me if these pictures were real or if the magic of Photoshop had worked.
Jun and mom got closer as our mother was working less. We never acted like a couple in front of her or at least, never kissed but just hugged or held each other's hand under the table or on the sofa. We knew our relationship wasn't normal and it was already great that she accepted us. Three years had passed and Jun was studying medicine brilliantly while I was in my last year before becoming a lawyer. And today, we were leaving our mother to live together in an apartment to have our intimacy. We weren't worried for our mother, like that, she would work more and we knew she loved that. When I thought about it, I had to thank Hana a bit because without her, we would still be hiding our relationship. One year after our mother discovered the truth, Jun's crisis almost disappeared. He still had some asthma but it was only when he made a too big effort. I think his asthma was mostly psychological because of our parents.
"Mom, we are going to be late." I sighed with a smile.
"Okay okay. Be careful, eat well, work hard and sleep correctly."
"Yes." I rolled my eyes and kissed her cheek before climbing in the car. I looked at Jun saying goodbye, smiling in front of the beauty he had turned in. He was now, taller than me and was very careful of his appearance, buying many clothes, wearing rings and necklaces and taking care of his chocolate hair as if it was his life. But what hadn't changed was his wonderful smile. This smile always able to make me grin and give up when he wanted something. And these beautiful eyes that were always shining happily now.
"I'm ready." Jun climbed next to me and I started the car.
"What for?" I asked teasingly.
"You."
"Don't say that, it gives me many ideas." I smirked, ending with a slap on my head.
"Pervert." Jun pouted.
"But you love your pervert." I grinned.
"Yes, my favorite pervert who keeps me alive." Jun smiled. I linked our fingers and kissed his.
"You won't say that after I'll have fucked you in the whole apartment."I smiled evilly. Jun laughed and kissed my cheek.
Yes, we were each other's strength. Jun always thought he fought to live in our mother's belly because I was waiting for him. But I also knew he was the one who gave me the strength to stand up everyday. He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. He was the one who kept me alive.
We left the car to look at our new home and I hugged him from behind, kissing his cheek.
"Tadaima." I whispered. Jun turned around to press our lips in a deep kiss.
"Okaeri."
He was just what I needed to survive.
Owari~
A/N: Finally the final chapter! I want to cry, I'll miss our dear Sakumoto so much TT but I'll work on another one ;)
So, Jun and Sho were half brothers and their parents lied to them since the beginning. Their mother made many mistakes because of her lover's death but I think she did everything to repare what she did to Sho and Jun. And the most important, she accepted them and I think it was the biggest proof of her love for Jun. So, maybe we can forgive her mistakes as Jun did it xD I hope you've enjoyed this series, I'll try to finish the other Sakumoto I started some months ago as I love them too much to forget them xD See you soon and comments are always <3
Author: Matsuaurore
Pairings: Sakumoto
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They belong to me but just in my dreams T.T
Summary: He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. But what can you do when the love you feel is also the forbidden?
What can you do when you have to push away what keeps you alive?
Final chapter:
Part 2:
Sho’s pov:
"But the problem was his asthma. His lungs were private of oxygen for too long."
"And..."
"He made several cardiac arrests but he fought."
"Thank you sensei!" I hugged him, making him chuckle.
"He is sleeping for the moment and you'll be able to see him in a few hours. Call your parents, we need to see them and I want to talk to them."
"Okay." I bowed deeply and took my phone.
*****
"Why did he do that?" I whispered when the doctor let me see my brother.
"He wanted to protect you." Nino said softly.
"But I don't care about my career. He is more important than that!"
"For you it's an evidence but for Jun not. For him, your future was the most important. He wanted to be stronger."
"What have they done to him?" I sobbed, stroking Jun's pale cheek. "I swear the one who did that will pay. And Hana too."
"For the moment, Jun needs you." Nino patted my shoulder kindly.
"Jun!!" We all jumped when my parents burst in the room.
"Papa, mama." I sighed.
"What happened?! How is he?!" My father asked.
"Mama should know as she was here when Jun ran away." I snapped, throwing a death glare to my mother.
"He... He told me... For you two..." I paled at her words. Shit.
"And?"
"I told him horrible things. He... I've hurt him so much..." It was the first time I was seeing my mother cry. "I told him he was a freak..."
"What?!" I gasped.
"I didn't think it. I was just very shocked." She sobbed.
"And you let him leave and didn't even call the police?! Are you really his mother?!"
"Sho, calm down." My father said softly.
"No! Since his birth she is rejecting him and you aren't better! Why? Why did you never accept his asthma? He is fragile but not dangerous. Why are you so ashamed of him?!"
"We aren't. We love him."
"Why did you let him leave in this state then?"
"I was shocked. Jun told me you two were...together. I panicked. You can't say it's normal and I had to accept easily."
"Yes but telling him he was a freak and letting him run away was horrible and unfair!"
"I know but... I didn't think... He told me you were the only one who loved him for who he was and he had made you leave. I swear I didn't want to hurt him."
"Well, you did."
"Sho, is it true for you and Jun?" My mother asked hesitantly.
"Yes."
"What?!" My father gasped.
"I love him and he loves me. Since he is born. He belongs to me."
"I..."
"Sh-o..." I jumped and turned my head to see Jun opening his eyes weakly.
"Jun!" I took Jun's hands but when my brother opened his eyes completely, he moved away, tears filling his eyes. "Jun..." I whispered, hurt.
"Don't touch me!! Leave!!"
"Jun, dear." My mother protested.
"Leave! I hate you! Why didn't you let me die! You would have been happy as you didn't kill me the first time!"
"What do you mean?" I frowned.
"Ask her! Ask her who tried to kill me because I was an accident! Ask her who has always hated me because I'm a shame!" Jun sobbed, hugging his knees against his chest.
"What..." I looked at my mother who had lowered her head.
"Why didn't you let him kill me? I just wanted to disappear..." Jun sobbed, breaking my heart.
"Jun, calm down, please." I said softly but when I tried to touch him, Jun pushed my hand away, scared. He was scared of me? Why?
"Jun, stop playing the child!" My father snapped.
"Shut up!" I yelled, making my parents gasp. "Can't you see he is scared?! Idiots! Jun, baby, calm down." But Jun started to cry and tremble, breathing with difficulty. With a sigh, I called a doctor and soon, a needle sank in Jun's arm, making him close his eyes.
"He has opened his wounds." The doctors frowned. I bit my lip in anger when I saw blood drenching his bandages. "He has to stay calm if he doesn't want to have any scars."
"I'll talk with my dear parents, then." I showed them to leave the bedroom and we left the hospital to talk in peace.
"What Jun was talking about?"
"When he was younger, he heard one of our conversations where I said he was an accident and had survived after the tentative of abortion." My mother looked away, ashamed.
"What..." I paled. Had she really say and want that? No wonder why Jun was so fragile and thought he didn't deserve to live.
"But I can explain... He told me yesterday he had heard everything but he didn't let me the time to explain... I have so many regrets..." My mother sobbed.
"You two... You have always been bad parents."
"We did our best, Sho!" My father snapped.
"No you didn't. You tried to kill Jun. You have never tried to accept him, always letting me take care of him. And you're surprised that we love each other? It's because we have always been alone together. You were never at home. Never. For our birthdays, you just sent us a gift, you didn't even come home to celebrate it. For Christmas it was the same. And when I came back from America... Even after not seeing me for 5 months, you weren't even here. We have spent Christmas just together. But I should thank you for that because we spent the best Christmas of our lives."
"We had lots of work." My mother protested.
"Then, why did you make children? Jun has never had a mother. Who was changing his nappies? Who was feeding him? Who was kissing his scratch when he had fallen on the ground? Who comforted him when he had nightmares? You were never here. I was his mother and father! You don't know him but he also doesn't even know you. You two are perfect strangers for us! So, why did you make children? Why? Just to say you were normal humans who, after a brilliant career, had made kids? Or just to have a heir? That's why Jun wasn't desired? Because you just needed one heir?!"
"It's more complicated... I didn't want to kill Jun for pleasure or because I just needed one son." My mother whispered, a tear rolling down her cheek.
"Why, then?! Why did you never love him?! Why did you never love me?!"
"We love you. But I have always tried to run away while my sons just needed my love. And I realize today that it's what has destroyed our family. The lies."
"What do you mean?" I frowned.
"Jun isn't your father's son." My mother whispered, making me freeze. "He is your half brother."
I would have never thought truth could be that painful.
"What?!"
"I'll explain everything to you and Jun. After all these years, he deserves the truth, I've made him suffer enough."
"I need to be alone." I mumbled and left them, ignoring my mother's calls. What was that? My father wasn't Jun's father? I grabbed a cigarette, ignoring the fact I had decided to stop after coming back from America. I inhaled deeply, my hand shaking. Why couldn't we have two normal parents? Why couldn't we be a real family? After two hours, I decided to go back to see if Jun was awake.
"Jun?" I said softly when I saw him staring at the window.
"Why are you here? Don't you hate me?" Jun mumbled.
"No. I would never hate you." I sat on the edge of the bed and took his hand, making him freeze.
"I'm ugly now." Jun turned his face toward me, showing the long cut on his cheek.
"Not in my eyes." I smiled softly. Jun started to cry and I wrapped him in my arms, stroking his hair with tenderness.
"I'm so sorry, Sho."
"I know. I'm sorry too, I didn't think my words."
"I just wanted to protect you."
"I know. But you didn't think you are the most important for me. More important than my career. You are my life, Jun, I don't care about the rest as long as I have you."
"But for me, your future was more important than a burden like me."
"I forbid you to say that! You are important. I can't walk if you aren't by my side."
"I'm sorry..."
"It's okay. We'll forget this story once I will have dealt with the bastards who did that to you."
"But Sho..."
"No need to complain." I cut him off by pressing our lips together. It felt amazing to kiss him after all this time and pain. I took my time to savior his lips, playing with it and sucking it.
"Arg...." We both jumped and pulled away, blushing when we saw our parents. I felt Jun shaking in fear and took his hand to reassure him.
"Jun..." My mother made a step toward us before rushing and wrapping Jun in her arms. I saw my brother blinking in chocked, wondering what his mother was doing. "I'm so sorry, Jun." We understood she wasn't apologizing just for yesterday. But for everything since the beginning.
"You told me you would explain everything." I muttered coldly. My mother wiped her eyes and sat on the bed with determinate eyes.
"First, you have to know that I love you both. Despite my behavior, I love you. But I have realized it a bit too late." She started. "You don't remember, Sho but when you born, it was the best day of my life. I was so happy to have a son. For one year, I spent all my time with you."
"Why did it change?" I frowned.
"When you were 10 months, I met someone else."
"What?!"
"Your father worked a lot and I was always alone at home with you. I started to go outside and met him. He was the most beautiful man I had ever met." My mother smiled softly, her eyes shining happily. "He was very kind and comforted me when I was sad and missed your father. At the beginning, I was just seeing him at the playground and he was used to play with you, Sho. He adored you like his own son." I looked at my father who looked really calmed for these kinds of revelations. My mother had certainly told him everything already. "For one month, I saw him, talking with him for hours and going to café together. I was so happy to have a friend. But one day, he told me we couldn't see each other anymore because he was in love with me. This day, I realized I loved him too. I kissed him and after, we made love for hours." My mother blushed, avoiding my father's eyes. "For four months, we saw each other and made love together. And one day, I discovered I was pregnant." Jun paled at these words and I tightened my grip on his hand. "When I told him, he promised me he would marry me if I left your father. I felt so happy, I remember how much I stroked my belly, happy to have this little life inside me. You, Jun." She looked at Jun with so much love shining in her eyes that Jun started to cry.
"What happened, then?"
"I was ready to leave your father and take you with me to live with him. One day, I made my luggage and told your papa that I was pregnant and left him for someone who really loved me. I was 2 months pregnant. I left with you, Sho, your little hand holding mine tightly while you were looking at me with questioning eyes. You even asked me where were we going and I knelt down to put your hand on my belly and told you we were going to live with your new papa and your future little brother. You smiled like you never did before. You even kissed my belly and told me you would love and take care of Jun." She chuckled slightly.
"It's..."
"My lover's name was Junichi. And you always called him 'uncle Jun'. It's you who chose Jun's name." She smiled softly. Jun grinned, linking his fingers with mines.
"Why did you stay with dad, then?" I frowned.
"We had planned to meet at our playground but when I arrived, he wasn't here. I waited for hours, crying and praying. I felt betrayed by the man who had promised to marry me. As he never came, I went back home with you not to sleep in the street. The next day, my world collapsed when I saw the information’s. Junichi had been killed by a man trying to hold up a bank." My mother started to cry loudly and I understood this deep scar had never healed after all these years.
"What did you do?"
"Your father agreed to take me back, promising he would act like a true husband."
"Just if you aborted." I snapped, throwing a death glare to my father who shook his head.
"As hurt as I was, I would have never forced her to abort even if I wanted to."
"It's me who took the decision."
"Mama!" I exclaimed, shocked.
"I couldn't bear Junichi's death and knowing I had his child inside me made me realize I would never be able to heal. Instead of treasuring the proof of our love, I decided to kill it. I was too fragile in mind at this time. But it didn't work. Jun survived."
"And you decided to hate him." I snapped.
"No. I wanted to love him like I had loved Junichi. It worked at the beginning. Then, when you grew up, I changed. You made me remember him so much, Jun." She looked at my brother, stroking his cheek. "The same character. So stubborn, so kind and so courageous. And you looked like him physically. A little Junichi. And it drove me crazy. I started to avoid you because it was like having Junichi in front of me. It was too painful. As Sho adored you, I let him raise you instead of loving you like I loved him. And when you became asthmatic, it got worst. Because Junichi had asthma too. But a light asthma. I have never been ashamed of you, Jun. You just made me confront my pain anytime I was seeing you and I couldn't bear it. I wanted to forget him. It's when I've found you two days ago at home that I realized my mistakes. I should have treasured you instead of hating you. You were a child from love. I forgot this important fact. Junichi would have loved you with all his heart. I should treasure the gift he left me before dying. Because you aren't a shame, Jun, you're my little gift." My mother smiled softly and for the first time in 17 years, I saw the truth in her eyes. She hugged Jun tightly, my brother crying silently. He had his truth. Finally, he knew what happened and knew he was desired.
"It's easy to talk but once we will be at home, you and dad will leave again."
"I'm going to take some vacations. To be with my sons and to repare my mistakes." My mother grinned.
"There is still one problem."
"Eh?"
"Jun and I. You can disown me if you want but I won't leave Jun. Just if he doesn't want me."
"No!" Jun protested, pushing my mother away to hug me.
"Sho, you're brothers." My father sighed.
"I don't care. Jun belongs to me. I love him. You can't ask us to stop when you have always made me take care of him."
"Sho, it's impossible." My mother protested.
"Accept it or you won't see us again." I said coldly, Jun nodding to approve. My mother looked at my father who stood up.
"We need to talk, Hanako." Both left the bedroom under our anxious looks.
"Are you okay?" I asked worriedly to Jun who nodded.
"I feel better now I know the truth."
"I told you you were a little treasure." Jun chuckled and kissed my neck happily.
"Ne, Sho?"
"Hun?"
"If they refuse..."
"I won't let you go. Even if tomorrow, everybody knew for us, I don't care." Jun grinned and hugged me. I didn't know how this mess would end but I wasn't going to let him go. Never.
Three years later...
"Jun, you're going to be late my dear!"
"Hai!" Jun ran in the stairs, his suit case in his hand.
"Have you taken everything?" Hanako asked.
"Yes."
"I'll miss you." Hanako wrapped her son in her arms, kissing his forehead.
"I'm not going in Alaska, mom." Jun chuckled.
"It would be too cold there." I shivered, entering the living room.
"Sho, promise me you'll take care of your brother." My mother implored.
"Of course. Mom, Asakusa isn't very far from here you know." I chuckled.
"I know but I'll miss my two babies so much."
"We aren't babies anymore." Jun pouted.
"I know."
I smiled softly as our mother was hugging and kissing Jun again. After this conversation at the hospital, my parents took the decision to divorce. My father refused to let Jun and I together and wanted to send me in America while my mother was ready to accept us. I knew it was very hard for her and she was trying to prove Jun how much she loved him. Everything changed after Jun's hospitalization. We left our house for an apartment and changed of town for Nakano. Of course, Kame, Sonoda and Hana pay. Some people said Kame and Sonoda were sent at hospital in a bad state just after I visited them. What a coincidence! And I took a big pleasure at destroying Hana's reputation by spreading some pictures of her and men fucking. Don't ask me if these pictures were real or if the magic of Photoshop had worked.
Jun and mom got closer as our mother was working less. We never acted like a couple in front of her or at least, never kissed but just hugged or held each other's hand under the table or on the sofa. We knew our relationship wasn't normal and it was already great that she accepted us. Three years had passed and Jun was studying medicine brilliantly while I was in my last year before becoming a lawyer. And today, we were leaving our mother to live together in an apartment to have our intimacy. We weren't worried for our mother, like that, she would work more and we knew she loved that. When I thought about it, I had to thank Hana a bit because without her, we would still be hiding our relationship. One year after our mother discovered the truth, Jun's crisis almost disappeared. He still had some asthma but it was only when he made a too big effort. I think his asthma was mostly psychological because of our parents.
"Mom, we are going to be late." I sighed with a smile.
"Okay okay. Be careful, eat well, work hard and sleep correctly."
"Yes." I rolled my eyes and kissed her cheek before climbing in the car. I looked at Jun saying goodbye, smiling in front of the beauty he had turned in. He was now, taller than me and was very careful of his appearance, buying many clothes, wearing rings and necklaces and taking care of his chocolate hair as if it was his life. But what hadn't changed was his wonderful smile. This smile always able to make me grin and give up when he wanted something. And these beautiful eyes that were always shining happily now.
"I'm ready." Jun climbed next to me and I started the car.
"What for?" I asked teasingly.
"You."
"Don't say that, it gives me many ideas." I smirked, ending with a slap on my head.
"Pervert." Jun pouted.
"But you love your pervert." I grinned.
"Yes, my favorite pervert who keeps me alive." Jun smiled. I linked our fingers and kissed his.
"You won't say that after I'll have fucked you in the whole apartment."I smiled evilly. Jun laughed and kissed my cheek.
Yes, we were each other's strength. Jun always thought he fought to live in our mother's belly because I was waiting for him. But I also knew he was the one who gave me the strength to stand up everyday. He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. He was the one who kept me alive.
We left the car to look at our new home and I hugged him from behind, kissing his cheek.
"Tadaima." I whispered. Jun turned around to press our lips in a deep kiss.
"Okaeri."
He was just what I needed to survive.
Owari~
A/N: Finally the final chapter! I want to cry, I'll miss our dear Sakumoto so much TT but I'll work on another one ;)
So, Jun and Sho were half brothers and their parents lied to them since the beginning. Their mother made many mistakes because of her lover's death but I think she did everything to repare what she did to Sho and Jun. And the most important, she accepted them and I think it was the biggest proof of her love for Jun. So, maybe we can forgive her mistakes as Jun did it xD I hope you've enjoyed this series, I'll try to finish the other Sakumoto I started some months ago as I love them too much to forget them xD See you soon and comments are always <3