A broken promise (Yama)
Title: A broken promise
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: My Sakudada <3
Pairing: Yama
Rating: R for now
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: Sho owns Ohchan xD
Summary: You were alone, you were so sad. Everybody thought nothing could touch you but they were wrong. You were the only one who was able to read people's heart and understand them when they just said you were weird. But why don't you let me try to read your mind? Why don't you let me touch you? Can I be the only one you'll allow to touch your heart?
A/N: warning: this story is a fiction, Asperger is not like that, I used some of the troubles of this syndrome for Ohchan's character but it's not really a real Asperger, if you've any questions about this syndrome, you can make some research or ask me via a message, I'll explain what is it ^^
Chapter 1:
Toshi, do you remember the first time we met? I remember this day as if it was yesterday. I was walking on the beach, waves scratching against my feet, tears rolling down my cheeks. I felt so sad this day because I had found my boyfriend with another man. My heart was broken in one thousand pieces. And when I raised my eyes, I saw you. You were there, on the sand, looking at the horizon with empty eyes and I immediately thought you were the most beautiful man of the world. Do you remember, Satoshi? Even if you weren't crying, I could see that your heart was crying. When my eyes met yours, my heart almost stopped. It was as if you were able to read me, as if all my secrets appeared on my face and fear invaded me. I smiled at you but you looked away, sadness overcoming your eyes. Now, I know why you were like that. Why you looked so different, so fragile but so strong at the same time. At the beginning, I just thought you were weird but when your mother explained to me your real problem, I started to see you in a different way. You were the first person with syndrome of Asperger that I met in my whole life and it was frightening because I didn't know how to react, how to act with you. But now, I think it was fate and I'm happy Kami-sama put you on my way even if it was painful. Do you remember, Toshi? I think this day, I fell in love with you at the first sight...
Two years ago...
I closed my laptop with a satisfy smile. I finally finished this fucking case and was able to come back home. I grabbed my stuff and left the big building to join my car. Today was Yusuke's birthday and I worked very hard to be at home as soon as possible. Whistling happily, I walked to our apartment and opened the door silently, to make a surprise for Yu. Suddenly, I froze. I heard strange moans from our bedroom and when I opened the door, my heart almost stopped. A man was fucking my Yusuke who was moaning loudly, yelling disgusting things and biting his pillow.
"Oh, yes, Ryo, fuck me hard, baby!" Yusuke screamed.
I stayed like that, I couldn't move and when Yusuke's eyes met mine, my boyfriend froze.
"Sho?!" When he said my name, I turned around and left but he caught my arm when I tried to leave our apartment.
"Sho, I can explain!"
"And what do you want to explain?!! That a bastard had his cock inside your asshole?! That you were cheating on me the day of your birthday?! That you wanted him to fuck you hard?!!!" I screamed, pushing him away. I preferred him to stay away because when I was angry I could become violent and now, I just dreamed to punch his fucking face!!!
"Sho, it's just sex, I don't have any feelings for him, I love you!" Yu looked at me with pleading eyes, tears rolling on his cheeks.
"Why? Why did you do that to me? We were happy together, I loved you so much! Is it because of sex?" I whispered, tears rolling down my cheeks too.
"No, no it's not that, baby. But you work too much, you're never at home and I feel lonely."
"Oh, and now, it's my fault?!" I shouted, knowing he was right.
"No, I... I'm sorry, Sho, I love you more than anything, don't leave me, baby, forgive me!" Yusuke hugged me and smacked his lips on mine. I kissed him back, grabbing his thin waist and stroking his cheek. Our tears mixed together, the kiss was salty and I finally pushed him away.
"I let you some time, when I'll come back, I want your belongings in a box and I want you to leave this place." I said with a cold voice.
"Sho..." Yusuke's voice died and I almost ran toward him to hug him in my arms and to say that I forgave him, that I loved him so much.
"It's over, Yu." I snapped and left my home without looking at him. I could forgive a lot of things when I was in love but not this kind of betrayal.
I started to walk in the streets without knowing where to go, I just needed some air. After a moment, I arrived on the beach. The sunset shined on the water, giving us lots of amazing colors and I walked toward the sea, waves scratching on my feet. Tears were rolling on my cheeks, I couldn't stop them, I needed to release my pain, my sadness. I looked at the horizon, the water shining as if there were many stars on the water. Suddenly, I heard a noise and turned my head to see someone on the sand. It was a young man who was looking at the sea. He turned his eyes toward me and my heart almost stopped. I never saw this kind of look before. His eyes were empty but at the same time, pierced my chest. I felt as if he read me, as if I was an open book or if I was naked. Despite my fear, I smiled at him but he quickly looked away.
"Are you all right?" I asked but he didn't respond.
"Hey, are you okay?" I kneeled in front of him but when I tried to touch him, he pushed me away violently and started to scream loudly.
"I'm sorry; I didn't want to fear you." I panicked but he didn't stop.
He buried his face in his arms as if he was afraid that I'll harm him. What could I do?
"Satoshi!!!" A woman ran next to us and hugged him tightly, whispering soft words while this Satoshi was screaming and trying to hit her.
"I'm here, baby, mama is here. Calm down." She whispered again and again and after some minutes, the man calmed down.
"Ano, I'm sorry, I didn't want to afraid him." I said softly.
"It's okay, you couldn't know, Satoshi hates other's touch." She smiled at me warmly.
"May I ask why?"
"Satoshi is my son and he has Asperger's syndrome." Sadness filled her eyes while her son was curling in a ball against her chest.
"What's that?" I asked, surprised.
"Children who have Asperger are different. They see the world around us in a different way. All is increase; they are very clever and have a photographic memory. They are very sensitive and are easily afraid like Toshi. He hates other's touch and panics when he feels insecure." The woman smiled softly, rocking her son in her arms and wiping his tears away. Satoshi buried his face in her neck, sighing deeply.
"I'm sorry." I lowered my head, ashamed.
"Don't be. People are mean with Satoshi and I know it makes him sad but I can't do anything for him." She said to me softly.
"You mean, he hasn't any friends?" She shook her head with sadness and I smiled when Satoshi kissed her neck.
"No, he is always alone, nobody want a friend like him."
"I would like to see him again if it's possible." She blinked and looked at me with surprised eyes.
"I don't know... Satoshi hates strangers..."
"We can try and we'll see." I smiled and after a moment she nodded.
"All right, we can try."
"I'm Sakurai Sho." I bowed happily.
"Ohno Hanako and this cute boy is my son, Ohno Satoshi. He is 25 years old."
"Nice to meet you, Ohno-kun." I smiled and Ohno looked away but I could see a slight smile on his lips.
****
When I came back home, two hours later, Yusuke was there, on the sofa, tears rolling on his cheeks.
"Why are you still here?" I asked, a bit annoyed.
"We must talk."
"I don't know what we could talk about." I mumbled and walked in the kitchen. I was opening the fridge when I felt two arms around my back.
"Yu." I whispered painfully.
"Don't leave me, Sho. Don't leave me, I can't live without you." Yu started to cry and my heart tightened.
"You should think about that before letting this bastard fuck you." I groaned, trying to push him away.
"I know, Sho. I know I made a mistake, I am a bastard, I hurt you but everybody can make mistakes. Let me another chance, let me win your trust again."
"It's too late, Yu. When I give my trust, if you betray it, you'll never be able to have it again." I said with a harsh tone.
"But you love me, ne?" I didn't respond. Yes I loved him but...
"Let me another chance, Sho, even if you don't trust me anymore. I'm fine if I know you love me. I love you more than anything!" Yu cried in my neck and my last defense disappeared when he looked at me with these pleading eyes. I hugged him against me and he caught my lips roughly. I slipped my tongue in his mouth and stroked his back, making him moan in pleasure. I felt his bulge brushing my leg and one second later, he was in my arms and I laid him on our sofa.
"I love you so much, Sho." Yu stroked my cheek with a smile and I buried my face in his neck.
"I love you too, Yu." I took our clothes off and pushed inside him without any preparation; it was one of his punishments.
Yu gasped painfully but wrapped his legs around my waist and his arms around my neck.
"Faster." Yusuke moaned in my ear and I started to thrust harder and faster, hitting his secret spot again and again. I was pounding violently inside him, biting his skin, scratching his side. When I was in bed, I often became violent if my lover liked that. I could feel Yusuke tightening around me and I pumped his cock while I fucked him roughly, sweats rolling on my face, moans escaping my throat. Yusuke screamed and released in my hand before I groaned and filled his hole. I collapsed on his body and he hugged me tightly against him.
"I love you, Sho."
"Me too." I said knowing I was so stupid to stay with him. I'll never be able to trust him again but it wasn't simple. I loved him since six years; I was too weak to leave him.
"Now, change our sheets, I'll never sleep in those again." I said coldly and he kissed my lips.
"Thank you, Sho."
****
I groaned, feeling a weight on my chest. Yusuke was sleeping deeply and I stood up without a noise to join the kitchen. I was exhausted after what happened yesterday. I cried a lot and made love to Yu four times the previous night. I drank a dark coffee, took a shower and left my apartment after I kissed Yu's forehead.
"See you tonight, baby."
"Hun." Yu mumbled, still sleeping deeply.
When I arrived at my office, I collapsed on my chair, sighing deeply. I had lots of case again but I wasn't in the mood to work. There were too many things in my mind. Yusuke, our relation and Ohno. A smile appeared on my lips when I thought about the cute chubby man. After two hours, I gave up and took my bag. Work will wait; I was too impatient to see Ohno again. I almost ran toward the beach and grinned when I saw him on the sand, at the same place than yesterday.
"Ohno-san?" I whispered and Ohno turned his head to smile at me shyly. My heart started to beat faster and I sat next to him, looking at the sun in front of us. I wanted to know more about him. I wanted to understand him.
To be continued...
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: My Sakudada <3
Pairing: Yama
Rating: R for now
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: Sho owns Ohchan xD
Summary: You were alone, you were so sad. Everybody thought nothing could touch you but they were wrong. You were the only one who was able to read people's heart and understand them when they just said you were weird. But why don't you let me try to read your mind? Why don't you let me touch you? Can I be the only one you'll allow to touch your heart?
A/N: warning: this story is a fiction, Asperger is not like that, I used some of the troubles of this syndrome for Ohchan's character but it's not really a real Asperger, if you've any questions about this syndrome, you can make some research or ask me via a message, I'll explain what is it ^^
Chapter 1:
Toshi, do you remember the first time we met? I remember this day as if it was yesterday. I was walking on the beach, waves scratching against my feet, tears rolling down my cheeks. I felt so sad this day because I had found my boyfriend with another man. My heart was broken in one thousand pieces. And when I raised my eyes, I saw you. You were there, on the sand, looking at the horizon with empty eyes and I immediately thought you were the most beautiful man of the world. Do you remember, Satoshi? Even if you weren't crying, I could see that your heart was crying. When my eyes met yours, my heart almost stopped. It was as if you were able to read me, as if all my secrets appeared on my face and fear invaded me. I smiled at you but you looked away, sadness overcoming your eyes. Now, I know why you were like that. Why you looked so different, so fragile but so strong at the same time. At the beginning, I just thought you were weird but when your mother explained to me your real problem, I started to see you in a different way. You were the first person with syndrome of Asperger that I met in my whole life and it was frightening because I didn't know how to react, how to act with you. But now, I think it was fate and I'm happy Kami-sama put you on my way even if it was painful. Do you remember, Toshi? I think this day, I fell in love with you at the first sight...
Two years ago...
I closed my laptop with a satisfy smile. I finally finished this fucking case and was able to come back home. I grabbed my stuff and left the big building to join my car. Today was Yusuke's birthday and I worked very hard to be at home as soon as possible. Whistling happily, I walked to our apartment and opened the door silently, to make a surprise for Yu. Suddenly, I froze. I heard strange moans from our bedroom and when I opened the door, my heart almost stopped. A man was fucking my Yusuke who was moaning loudly, yelling disgusting things and biting his pillow.
"Oh, yes, Ryo, fuck me hard, baby!" Yusuke screamed.
I stayed like that, I couldn't move and when Yusuke's eyes met mine, my boyfriend froze.
"Sho?!" When he said my name, I turned around and left but he caught my arm when I tried to leave our apartment.
"Sho, I can explain!"
"And what do you want to explain?!! That a bastard had his cock inside your asshole?! That you were cheating on me the day of your birthday?! That you wanted him to fuck you hard?!!!" I screamed, pushing him away. I preferred him to stay away because when I was angry I could become violent and now, I just dreamed to punch his fucking face!!!
"Sho, it's just sex, I don't have any feelings for him, I love you!" Yu looked at me with pleading eyes, tears rolling on his cheeks.
"Why? Why did you do that to me? We were happy together, I loved you so much! Is it because of sex?" I whispered, tears rolling down my cheeks too.
"No, no it's not that, baby. But you work too much, you're never at home and I feel lonely."
"Oh, and now, it's my fault?!" I shouted, knowing he was right.
"No, I... I'm sorry, Sho, I love you more than anything, don't leave me, baby, forgive me!" Yusuke hugged me and smacked his lips on mine. I kissed him back, grabbing his thin waist and stroking his cheek. Our tears mixed together, the kiss was salty and I finally pushed him away.
"I let you some time, when I'll come back, I want your belongings in a box and I want you to leave this place." I said with a cold voice.
"Sho..." Yusuke's voice died and I almost ran toward him to hug him in my arms and to say that I forgave him, that I loved him so much.
"It's over, Yu." I snapped and left my home without looking at him. I could forgive a lot of things when I was in love but not this kind of betrayal.
I started to walk in the streets without knowing where to go, I just needed some air. After a moment, I arrived on the beach. The sunset shined on the water, giving us lots of amazing colors and I walked toward the sea, waves scratching on my feet. Tears were rolling on my cheeks, I couldn't stop them, I needed to release my pain, my sadness. I looked at the horizon, the water shining as if there were many stars on the water. Suddenly, I heard a noise and turned my head to see someone on the sand. It was a young man who was looking at the sea. He turned his eyes toward me and my heart almost stopped. I never saw this kind of look before. His eyes were empty but at the same time, pierced my chest. I felt as if he read me, as if I was an open book or if I was naked. Despite my fear, I smiled at him but he quickly looked away.
"Are you all right?" I asked but he didn't respond.
"Hey, are you okay?" I kneeled in front of him but when I tried to touch him, he pushed me away violently and started to scream loudly.
"I'm sorry; I didn't want to fear you." I panicked but he didn't stop.
He buried his face in his arms as if he was afraid that I'll harm him. What could I do?
"Satoshi!!!" A woman ran next to us and hugged him tightly, whispering soft words while this Satoshi was screaming and trying to hit her.
"I'm here, baby, mama is here. Calm down." She whispered again and again and after some minutes, the man calmed down.
"Ano, I'm sorry, I didn't want to afraid him." I said softly.
"It's okay, you couldn't know, Satoshi hates other's touch." She smiled at me warmly.
"May I ask why?"
"Satoshi is my son and he has Asperger's syndrome." Sadness filled her eyes while her son was curling in a ball against her chest.
"What's that?" I asked, surprised.
"Children who have Asperger are different. They see the world around us in a different way. All is increase; they are very clever and have a photographic memory. They are very sensitive and are easily afraid like Toshi. He hates other's touch and panics when he feels insecure." The woman smiled softly, rocking her son in her arms and wiping his tears away. Satoshi buried his face in her neck, sighing deeply.
"I'm sorry." I lowered my head, ashamed.
"Don't be. People are mean with Satoshi and I know it makes him sad but I can't do anything for him." She said to me softly.
"You mean, he hasn't any friends?" She shook her head with sadness and I smiled when Satoshi kissed her neck.
"No, he is always alone, nobody want a friend like him."
"I would like to see him again if it's possible." She blinked and looked at me with surprised eyes.
"I don't know... Satoshi hates strangers..."
"We can try and we'll see." I smiled and after a moment she nodded.
"All right, we can try."
"I'm Sakurai Sho." I bowed happily.
"Ohno Hanako and this cute boy is my son, Ohno Satoshi. He is 25 years old."
"Nice to meet you, Ohno-kun." I smiled and Ohno looked away but I could see a slight smile on his lips.
****
When I came back home, two hours later, Yusuke was there, on the sofa, tears rolling on his cheeks.
"Why are you still here?" I asked, a bit annoyed.
"We must talk."
"I don't know what we could talk about." I mumbled and walked in the kitchen. I was opening the fridge when I felt two arms around my back.
"Yu." I whispered painfully.
"Don't leave me, Sho. Don't leave me, I can't live without you." Yu started to cry and my heart tightened.
"You should think about that before letting this bastard fuck you." I groaned, trying to push him away.
"I know, Sho. I know I made a mistake, I am a bastard, I hurt you but everybody can make mistakes. Let me another chance, let me win your trust again."
"It's too late, Yu. When I give my trust, if you betray it, you'll never be able to have it again." I said with a harsh tone.
"But you love me, ne?" I didn't respond. Yes I loved him but...
"Let me another chance, Sho, even if you don't trust me anymore. I'm fine if I know you love me. I love you more than anything!" Yu cried in my neck and my last defense disappeared when he looked at me with these pleading eyes. I hugged him against me and he caught my lips roughly. I slipped my tongue in his mouth and stroked his back, making him moan in pleasure. I felt his bulge brushing my leg and one second later, he was in my arms and I laid him on our sofa.
"I love you so much, Sho." Yu stroked my cheek with a smile and I buried my face in his neck.
"I love you too, Yu." I took our clothes off and pushed inside him without any preparation; it was one of his punishments.
Yu gasped painfully but wrapped his legs around my waist and his arms around my neck.
"Faster." Yusuke moaned in my ear and I started to thrust harder and faster, hitting his secret spot again and again. I was pounding violently inside him, biting his skin, scratching his side. When I was in bed, I often became violent if my lover liked that. I could feel Yusuke tightening around me and I pumped his cock while I fucked him roughly, sweats rolling on my face, moans escaping my throat. Yusuke screamed and released in my hand before I groaned and filled his hole. I collapsed on his body and he hugged me tightly against him.
"I love you, Sho."
"Me too." I said knowing I was so stupid to stay with him. I'll never be able to trust him again but it wasn't simple. I loved him since six years; I was too weak to leave him.
"Now, change our sheets, I'll never sleep in those again." I said coldly and he kissed my lips.
"Thank you, Sho."
****
I groaned, feeling a weight on my chest. Yusuke was sleeping deeply and I stood up without a noise to join the kitchen. I was exhausted after what happened yesterday. I cried a lot and made love to Yu four times the previous night. I drank a dark coffee, took a shower and left my apartment after I kissed Yu's forehead.
"See you tonight, baby."
"Hun." Yu mumbled, still sleeping deeply.
When I arrived at my office, I collapsed on my chair, sighing deeply. I had lots of case again but I wasn't in the mood to work. There were too many things in my mind. Yusuke, our relation and Ohno. A smile appeared on my lips when I thought about the cute chubby man. After two hours, I gave up and took my bag. Work will wait; I was too impatient to see Ohno again. I almost ran toward the beach and grinned when I saw him on the sand, at the same place than yesterday.
"Ohno-san?" I whispered and Ohno turned his head to smile at me shyly. My heart started to beat faster and I sat next to him, looking at the sun in front of us. I wanted to know more about him. I wanted to understand him.
To be continued...