Chandelier (chapter 5)
Title: Chandelier
Author: Matsuaurore
Banner: My lovely Antimiya88 <3
Pairing: Ohmiya, Junba, Sakumiya
Genre: Au, angst, romance, drama, violence
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Disclaimer: Only own the plot though, I wish I could own them xD
Summary: Nino is a young man who is physically abused by his boyfriend for years but seems determined to cope with this horrible life until he meets Ohno, a weird man who will show him how wonderful life can be.
Chapter 5:
It started out as any other story
Then the words began to fade away.
Oh, your smile used to make me smile
But lately I don't feel that way.
Jun opened his eyes with a moan of pain, his head aching like hell.
"Don't move, you have to take some rest."
"Ma-saki?" Jun frowned looking around him to realize he was on Aiba's bed and not in Kabukicho anymore. "What happened?"
"Should I make you remember?" Aiba said coldly.
"I don't get it. What did I do to get you mad?"
"It seems the hit you received made you forget how stupid you acted yesterday night."
"Okay, I don't know what's going on but I hate when you are like that. I'm leaving." Jun stood up, ignoring the wave of pain crossing his head, pictures of the previous night finally coming back.
"Don't you dare to leave this bed. Nagase will be here in some minutes."
"Oh yes, I don't want to make you lose your precious job." Jun replied sarcastically.
"Stop with that. Why did you do that? You thought it would make me come back or you would understand what I feel almost every night?! Shit, Jun, why didn’t you even try to defend yourself when this client caught you?! If I hadn’t left the club at the same time, you would…"
"I'm unhappy, that's why I didn't protest." Jun replied, shrugging and wining a dark look from Aiba.
"Shit, Jun! He was going to rape you!!!"
"And then? It's not like it would do anything to you." Jun smirked, tears filling his eyes.
Aiba flinched and shook his head.
"Everything I do is for you, Jun. Not because I don't love you."
"I don't care. It’s funny because you keep repeating you reject me for my own good but you know what?” Jun turned toward Aiba to look at him with so much sadness that the older’s heart tightened. “You are only destroying me. And the biggest proof was yesterday. You know, I wouldn’t have cared if this pig had raped me, because my life is so sad and empty without you that being forced wouldn’t even cause me more pain than you do.”
“You don’t know what’s you’re saying.” Aiba replied.
“I do, believe me. Like you said before, you don’t know anything about me. You don’t know the real Jun.”
“Because you’ve always refused to talk about you.”
“And why? Have you ever wondered why I’ve always been so distant when it comes to myself?”
“I…”
Try to remember what brought us together
And to forget what's driven us apart.
You know we can't wait here forever
Just making time, and going nowhere.
“Because you would hate me if you knew. So, believe me when I say the pain you cause me is bigger than if he had raped me. I love you so much but at the same time I hate you deeply. You make me hope, you make me run after you to throw me after pretending that you are just a whore and that you don’t deserve me. But Masaki, I have never asked you to be someone else. I accept everything about you, your qualities like your flaws, and the best parts of your personality like the darkest ones. I just need you to be happy, whatever might happen after. You judge Tomoya but he wants me. He wants to love me, to take care of me, to make me happy.”
“Geez, Jun, he owns host clubs and fucks his new employees!”
“And then? Do you think it’s worse than someone who takes me against a wall to tell me to fuck off right after as if I was just a whore?” Jun replied. “At least, he doesn’t make me feel as if I am not more than a piece of shit.”
Aiba flinched at the sentence and clenched his fists. It hurt. Hearing this truth coming from Jun hurt so much. Because even if it was false, it was what he made Jun feel by acting with him like that.
“From now on, I’ll be with him and only him. Don’t you dare to touch me again because I’ll tell him and you’ll be fired.” Jun put his shoes and turned toward him a last time. “And I’m dead serious this time.”
“Jun…”
“Sayonara, Aiba-san.” Jun opened the door and jumped when something stopped him. Lowering his head, the young man saw Yuki staring at him with puppy eyes, his fangs gripping his jeans. “Gomen ne, Yuki…” Jun bent to take him in his arms, smiling when the puppy licked his cheek. “You’re the only dog that has ever liked me. But from now on, you’ll stay with Aiba. He will take care of you.”
Is this our last dance?
Can we take another chance
To be alone together still?
Are we wasting time
Chasing dreams not yours or mine?
Care for you, I always will.
The dog whined, trying to stay in Jun’s arms when the bartender held him out to Aiba.
“Be a good boy, ne.” Jun stroked his head before leaving. Yuki struggled, trying to leave Aiba’s arms and barking with despair.
“I’m sorry, Yuki…” Aiba cried softly, hugging him tightly. “I wished I could be strong enough to keep him with us and to protect him…” The puppy whined and licked his cheek to comfort his master, feeling the pain in his voice. “I swear I would keep him for myself if it was possible…” Masaki whispered, wiping the tears on his cheeks. The pain was too intense, slowly eating his heart, giving him the will to act like an egoist and run after Jun. It wasn’t the first time his ex-lover swore to end everything between them before they ended making love. But this time, Aiba had felt the determination in Jun’s voice. This time, his boyfriend was damn serious and was going to keep this awful promise of throwing Aiba out of his life.
Masaki wasn’t the kind of man who lost his calm easily and who acted without thinking but the young host didn’t know what his reaction was going to be the moment he will see Jun in another man’s arms. He was used to see Nagase flirting too much with his ex-lover and even if he hated it, Aiba knew Jun didn’t really want their boss to get closer to him so, it prevented the host to act stupidly toward the older man. But Jun was sexy like hell and if Nagase couldn’t have him, another will manage to reach his heart, stealing definitively the younger from Aiba. And Masaki didn’t want to imagine his reaction when this day would come.
Because the young host was sure his usual calm nature would disappear to let his jealousy and anger take control of him. It was so horrible and egoist to think like that when he was the one rejecting Jun but he was only a man and his possessiveness toward his ex-lover had always been a big weakness.
We can try to keep the love from fading.
'Cause all we have are reasons to be gone.
Remember when you used to make me smile?
But lately I don't feel the same.
“I hope I won’t kill the man who will have the luck to steal his heart.” Aiba whispered.
****
Jun opened his fridge to take a beer and sat on his sofa with a sigh. The talk with Aiba had been more painful than he thought. Because this time, the young man had definitely closed the door between him and his ex-lover, determined to turn the page of their story.
“How was it?” The man sat next to him.
“Painful.”
“You have to be brave, Jun, he only destroys you.”
“Because you don't?” Jun turned his face toward his boss who smiled softly and shook his head.
“You perfectly know I can’t have you in my bed. You’re totally my type but we can’t, you’re like a brother for me.”
“Why do you keep acting like that at the club if you don’t want me?”
“Mmmm, to protect you and to get Aiba jealous.” Nagase smirked. “He is so easy to manipulate, it’s like a game for me.”
“I don’t want you to make him suffer.”
“I will make suffer any person who will hurt you.” Nagase stroked his cheek with a smile.
“I’ll never understand you.”
“I’m a complicated man, yes.”
“Is it why you don’t want me? Am I not good enough?”
“You’re too good for me, Jun, that’s the main problem. I don’t care to use the others but I won’t stand the idea of hurting you and you do know that what I do would hurt you if we were together.”
“You don’t know.”
“I’m not into romance, I would ask you to be exclusive with me but I know I would fuck other men behind your back. I’m like that, I can’t have one man, I need to go elsewhere.”
“I don’t care.”
“Because you don’t love me but if you did, you would suffer too much and would hate me and it would be the worst thing for me. Having you hating me would be horrible.”
“Why do you love me that much?”
“Because you are the only one able to see the good parts in me, the only one able to look at me without any fear nor judgment. The only one able to yell at me because I did something wrong. You make me feel like a better man, Jun, and it’s something I treasure more than anything.”
“You would do anything I ask?”
“Yes. Everything.”
Jun smiled sadly and climbed on the man’s lap, taking his own tee-shirt off.
“Then, make me forget. At least for tonight. I need it or I won’t be able to get up tomorrow. Can you do that for me? I swear I won’t ever ask you anything again after that.”
The older stared at him some seconds before sighing and nodding. “You’ll be the death of me, one day.” Nagase grabbed his nape to smack their lips for a rough kiss before devouring his neck while opening his pants with shaking hands. “Jun…”
“Hum?” Jun groaned, kissing him again with passion. Nagase chuckled and grabbed his cheeks to look at him right in the eyes.
“I’ll be clear. Only one night and I refuse you to think we are just fucking. You don’t love me but it doesn’t change the fact that I’m going to make love to you, you’re not a whore nor an employee I want to fuck, I really love you, understood?”
A tear rolled down Jun’s cheek before the younger smiled and nodded.
“Okay.”
“Good. Now, let’s continue, it’s a torture to have you above me while we aren’t naked.” Nagase smirked, making Jun laugh. “You’re so beautiful when you laugh…”
“Don’t be cheesy, baka.” Jun blushed.
“Only with you.”
****
Jun stretched his body with a yawn, opening his eyes and turning his head to see his naked boss staring at him with a smile.
“It’s creepy, you know?” Jun smirked.
“I can’t help the fact you are gorgeous when you sleep.” Nagase chuckled, pecking his lips.
“Are you sure you don’t want to try? Last night was…”
“Wonderful, I know. And it’s horrible and hard for me to say no but I have to. I’m not a man for you and you love Aiba.”
“Aiba is my past.”
“Maybe but it doesn’t change the fact you are deeply in love with him and nothing will change that.”
Jun sighed and left the bed, laughing when his boss grabbed his arm to make him fall on him.
“But we work tonight, so, I have some free hours and you too.”
“Really?” Jun smirked.
“I’m your boss, I can decide when you go to work and when I go too. So, let’s say the night will end in some hours.” Nagase took Jun’s lips roughly, making him moan.
“I won’t say no to some orgasms.”
“I won’t disappoint you, cutie.” Nagase made him roll on his back with an evil smile, getting a loud moan of pleasure when his hard member entered the younger to take him deeply and slowly. Jun’s hands tightened in his hair, his throat releasing long pants when the rhythm became fast and hard, his body melting against the older’s one. It felt so good but it was nothing compared to the pleasure he had when he was with Aiba. His ex-lover always made him feel new sensations and managed to surprise him everyday with new games or new ways to make love whoever was the one topping. Being inside his ex-boyfriend was as pleasurable as being taken by him, only the sensations were different.
It was obvious nobody would give him such wonderful orgasms like his ex-lover did. Because the difference came from his heart. No man will ever give him the pleasure Aiba was able to make him feel, as if every cell of his body was exploding in happiness and delight any time they made love or kissed. Nagase was a very good lover but not more.
With a cry of pleasure, Jun came between their stomachs, gasping when his boss filled him.
“We didn’t use condoms…”
“I know I fuck lots of men but I would never put your life in danger, Jun. I always use condoms with the others and I make tests every month to be sure I’m safe.”
“Sorry… I should have guessed…”
“Don’t be, I understand.” Nagase kissed him softly. “I’m sorry for that, but I wanted you to really belong to me for some hours… I’m weak when it’s you.”
“I liked it.” Jun smiled and climbed on him. “And I’m totally yours until tonight, so, enjoy till the end.”
“Oh, I know I’ll do.” Nagase smirked before starting another round.
Jun realized it was the first time his boss laughed truly in front of someone and felt honored and happy to be loved so sincerely by a man like Nagase.
****
Jun entered the club with his boss, feeling better and a bit happy after these hours spent with him but his smiled quickly disappeared when his look met Aiba’s. The older was already at the bar, staring at Nagase with killing eyes. Deciding, to not create a third mondial war, Jun entered the lodge without a word nor a look toward his ex-lover. Staring at the clothes, the bartender wondered what would suit him for tonight. Maybe something sexy or serious. The young man grab a white shirt with a blue slim and decided to keep his glasses, knowing the clients liked the innocent look it gave him.
Look up and I see your face.
I can see you looking back at me.
Every time I think it's getting better.
Just making time, and going nowhere.
“So, it was good?” A voice made him jump. Jun turned his head to discover Aiba staring at him with dark eyes.
“Eh?”
“Did he fuck you well?”
“I don’t know what you are talking about. I would like to change my clothes, so, leave the room.”
“It’s not as if I had never seen you naked. I know he fucked you, he was at your apartment because you came at the same time tonight and it has never happened before.”
“And what does it have to do with you? You’re not my man.” Jun snapped, losing his patience.
“For someone who loves me, you forget me easily.”
“It has nothing to do with you, you broke up with me if I remember well, so, I do what I want.”
“Was he good? Did he give you better orgasms than I did?”
“Yes. You want to know? Then, yes, it was wonderful, we made love for hours and he is a beast of sex, happy?” Jun snapped.
“If you like to be his whore, I’m happy for you.”
Jun slapped him hard, tears filling his eyes.
“I forbid you to insult me and if I remember well, it’s not my ass that is paid by the clients but yours.”
Aiba’s face paled and the older pulled Jun in a hug.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean my words.”
“Don’t be, we are not even friends.” Jun replied, pulling away.
“Jun, I…” Aiba grabbed his wrist.
“Release me, you are hurting me!”
“What’s happening here?” The door opened.
“Nothing, I was going to your office.” Jun grinned and pull his hand out of Aiba’s grip before leaving the room. Nagase stared at Aiba with dark eyes.
Is this our last dance?
Can we take another chance
To be alone together still?
Are we wasting time
Chasing dreams not yours or mine?
Care for you, I always will.
You know I always will.
“Be careful, Masaki, I won’t stay kind if your keep hurting him. We had a deal, you broke it so, let him in peace now you've spoiled everything.”
It was only a whisper but Aiba shivered and left the room without a word to join the bar.
The boss entered his office where Jun was putting his shirt with shaking hands.
“I’m sorry.”
“It’s not your fault. You can change here from now on if you want.”
“Thank you.” Jun hugged the older back and smiled. “I have to go, see you later.” Jun kissed his cheek before leaving.
“I’m so weak when it’s you, Sweety. I’ll do everything to keep you in this golden world. I have promised him.” Nagase whispered, his hands clenching around the picture he kept on his desk. “Forgive me if I can’t make him happy like you wanted me to…”
****
“Who’s this man?” Sho asked, making Aiba jump. The client had asked to spend time with Masaki as Nino was busy with richer men though, Sakurai didn't really mind as Aiba was also an expert when it came to seduce.
“This man?”
“The bartender.” Sho pointed Jun who was preparing a cocktail with concentrated eyes.
“Oh. It’s Matsu.”
“He is hot.”
“He isn’t a host.” Aiba replied, not liking how the conversation was turning.
“Too bad, he is my type.”
“I thought you were married and het?”
“I’m married but I can say when a man is gorgeous or not and this Matsu is. You think the same, if not, you wouldn’t stare at him for 15 minutes instead of talking to me.”
“I’m sorry, I’m tired…”
“Don’t be, I understand your attraction for him. Is he free?”
“He isn’t a host.”
“And then? I can ask him out after his shift.” Sho smirked, seeing how mentionning the bartender got Aiba angry.
“You’re married, what would you bring to him?”
“You’re jealous, it means you care for him a lot. Were you lovers?”
“It doesn’t matter, I don’t have any rights on him.”
“Good, because you’ll help me to have him.”
“For someone who isn’t even gay, you are acting like one.”
“Yuuji opened my eyes this week. I asked my wife to divorce and she agreed. We never loved each other, we married because of our families and the kisses I had with your friend made me realize that maybe, I took the wrong path not to disappoint my parents.”
“I’m happy for you but I won’t let you use him to discover if you’re gay or not, he has suffered enough.”
“I’m a gentleman, I won’t treat him badly. I like him, so, I want to know if I have my chances with him or not. Teach me how to seduce him. I’ll pay you.”
Aiba’s eyes darkened, his fists clenching in anger.
There's no looking back.
And no more need to cry.
No more need to cry.
No more need to cry.
Is this all we have?
Should we walk away at last
To be alone together still?
“No. And he has a boyfriend.”
“Oh… Too bad… Then, thank you for tonight, I’ll take my leave.” Sho stood up and walked quickly toward the bar before Aiba could stop him. The younger saw him talking with Jun and laughing before pushing a piece of paper toward the bartender who grinned and took it.
Aiba knew Jun would find someone else, but he wasn’t expecting it to happen so quickly.
“Sakurai, you’re a dead man if you dare to lay one finger on him.” Aiba whispered when the man left the club after some minutes of talk with Jun.
Are we wasting time
Chasing dreams not yours or mine?
Care for you, I always will.
You know I always will
To be continued…
A/N: Hi! Like I promised, I’ll post every week like before though, I’m leaving Paris next Sunday to go to Thailand for one month and I don’t know if I’ll be able to post (I will if I can bring my laptop but as it’s heavy and we will walk a lot, I still don’t know if it will be possible to take it with me ><).
This time, the chapter was focused on Junba and Jun/Nagase, just to give you a hint, they are all connected and they all hide secrets ;) I didn’t reveal much in this chapter because it was now that Jun decided to definitely break up with Aiba and to move on (with Sho? Who knows? xD) but the story is not finish yet, so, everything is still possible xD Let’s see what will happen for them J in the next chapter, we’ll go back to our dear Ohmiya and Ohchan will take his courage and his balls to be more honest with Nino who is still brainwashed by his bastard of lover u.u
See you next week (probably Wednesday or Saturday) and comments, even short ones, are deeply <3
Author: Matsuaurore
Banner: My lovely Antimiya88 <3
Pairing: Ohmiya, Junba, Sakumiya
Genre: Au, angst, romance, drama, violence
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Disclaimer: Only own the plot though, I wish I could own them xD
Summary: Nino is a young man who is physically abused by his boyfriend for years but seems determined to cope with this horrible life until he meets Ohno, a weird man who will show him how wonderful life can be.
Chapter 5:
It started out as any other story
Then the words began to fade away.
Oh, your smile used to make me smile
But lately I don't feel that way.
Jun opened his eyes with a moan of pain, his head aching like hell.
"Don't move, you have to take some rest."
"Ma-saki?" Jun frowned looking around him to realize he was on Aiba's bed and not in Kabukicho anymore. "What happened?"
"Should I make you remember?" Aiba said coldly.
"I don't get it. What did I do to get you mad?"
"It seems the hit you received made you forget how stupid you acted yesterday night."
"Okay, I don't know what's going on but I hate when you are like that. I'm leaving." Jun stood up, ignoring the wave of pain crossing his head, pictures of the previous night finally coming back.
"Don't you dare to leave this bed. Nagase will be here in some minutes."
"Oh yes, I don't want to make you lose your precious job." Jun replied sarcastically.
"Stop with that. Why did you do that? You thought it would make me come back or you would understand what I feel almost every night?! Shit, Jun, why didn’t you even try to defend yourself when this client caught you?! If I hadn’t left the club at the same time, you would…"
"I'm unhappy, that's why I didn't protest." Jun replied, shrugging and wining a dark look from Aiba.
"Shit, Jun! He was going to rape you!!!"
"And then? It's not like it would do anything to you." Jun smirked, tears filling his eyes.
Aiba flinched and shook his head.
"Everything I do is for you, Jun. Not because I don't love you."
"I don't care. It’s funny because you keep repeating you reject me for my own good but you know what?” Jun turned toward Aiba to look at him with so much sadness that the older’s heart tightened. “You are only destroying me. And the biggest proof was yesterday. You know, I wouldn’t have cared if this pig had raped me, because my life is so sad and empty without you that being forced wouldn’t even cause me more pain than you do.”
“You don’t know what’s you’re saying.” Aiba replied.
“I do, believe me. Like you said before, you don’t know anything about me. You don’t know the real Jun.”
“Because you’ve always refused to talk about you.”
“And why? Have you ever wondered why I’ve always been so distant when it comes to myself?”
“I…”
Try to remember what brought us together
And to forget what's driven us apart.
You know we can't wait here forever
Just making time, and going nowhere.
“Because you would hate me if you knew. So, believe me when I say the pain you cause me is bigger than if he had raped me. I love you so much but at the same time I hate you deeply. You make me hope, you make me run after you to throw me after pretending that you are just a whore and that you don’t deserve me. But Masaki, I have never asked you to be someone else. I accept everything about you, your qualities like your flaws, and the best parts of your personality like the darkest ones. I just need you to be happy, whatever might happen after. You judge Tomoya but he wants me. He wants to love me, to take care of me, to make me happy.”
“Geez, Jun, he owns host clubs and fucks his new employees!”
“And then? Do you think it’s worse than someone who takes me against a wall to tell me to fuck off right after as if I was just a whore?” Jun replied. “At least, he doesn’t make me feel as if I am not more than a piece of shit.”
Aiba flinched at the sentence and clenched his fists. It hurt. Hearing this truth coming from Jun hurt so much. Because even if it was false, it was what he made Jun feel by acting with him like that.
“From now on, I’ll be with him and only him. Don’t you dare to touch me again because I’ll tell him and you’ll be fired.” Jun put his shoes and turned toward him a last time. “And I’m dead serious this time.”
“Jun…”
“Sayonara, Aiba-san.” Jun opened the door and jumped when something stopped him. Lowering his head, the young man saw Yuki staring at him with puppy eyes, his fangs gripping his jeans. “Gomen ne, Yuki…” Jun bent to take him in his arms, smiling when the puppy licked his cheek. “You’re the only dog that has ever liked me. But from now on, you’ll stay with Aiba. He will take care of you.”
Is this our last dance?
Can we take another chance
To be alone together still?
Are we wasting time
Chasing dreams not yours or mine?
Care for you, I always will.
The dog whined, trying to stay in Jun’s arms when the bartender held him out to Aiba.
“Be a good boy, ne.” Jun stroked his head before leaving. Yuki struggled, trying to leave Aiba’s arms and barking with despair.
“I’m sorry, Yuki…” Aiba cried softly, hugging him tightly. “I wished I could be strong enough to keep him with us and to protect him…” The puppy whined and licked his cheek to comfort his master, feeling the pain in his voice. “I swear I would keep him for myself if it was possible…” Masaki whispered, wiping the tears on his cheeks. The pain was too intense, slowly eating his heart, giving him the will to act like an egoist and run after Jun. It wasn’t the first time his ex-lover swore to end everything between them before they ended making love. But this time, Aiba had felt the determination in Jun’s voice. This time, his boyfriend was damn serious and was going to keep this awful promise of throwing Aiba out of his life.
Masaki wasn’t the kind of man who lost his calm easily and who acted without thinking but the young host didn’t know what his reaction was going to be the moment he will see Jun in another man’s arms. He was used to see Nagase flirting too much with his ex-lover and even if he hated it, Aiba knew Jun didn’t really want their boss to get closer to him so, it prevented the host to act stupidly toward the older man. But Jun was sexy like hell and if Nagase couldn’t have him, another will manage to reach his heart, stealing definitively the younger from Aiba. And Masaki didn’t want to imagine his reaction when this day would come.
Because the young host was sure his usual calm nature would disappear to let his jealousy and anger take control of him. It was so horrible and egoist to think like that when he was the one rejecting Jun but he was only a man and his possessiveness toward his ex-lover had always been a big weakness.
We can try to keep the love from fading.
'Cause all we have are reasons to be gone.
Remember when you used to make me smile?
But lately I don't feel the same.
“I hope I won’t kill the man who will have the luck to steal his heart.” Aiba whispered.
****
Jun opened his fridge to take a beer and sat on his sofa with a sigh. The talk with Aiba had been more painful than he thought. Because this time, the young man had definitely closed the door between him and his ex-lover, determined to turn the page of their story.
“How was it?” The man sat next to him.
“Painful.”
“You have to be brave, Jun, he only destroys you.”
“Because you don't?” Jun turned his face toward his boss who smiled softly and shook his head.
“You perfectly know I can’t have you in my bed. You’re totally my type but we can’t, you’re like a brother for me.”
“Why do you keep acting like that at the club if you don’t want me?”
“Mmmm, to protect you and to get Aiba jealous.” Nagase smirked. “He is so easy to manipulate, it’s like a game for me.”
“I don’t want you to make him suffer.”
“I will make suffer any person who will hurt you.” Nagase stroked his cheek with a smile.
“I’ll never understand you.”
“I’m a complicated man, yes.”
“Is it why you don’t want me? Am I not good enough?”
“You’re too good for me, Jun, that’s the main problem. I don’t care to use the others but I won’t stand the idea of hurting you and you do know that what I do would hurt you if we were together.”
“You don’t know.”
“I’m not into romance, I would ask you to be exclusive with me but I know I would fuck other men behind your back. I’m like that, I can’t have one man, I need to go elsewhere.”
“I don’t care.”
“Because you don’t love me but if you did, you would suffer too much and would hate me and it would be the worst thing for me. Having you hating me would be horrible.”
“Why do you love me that much?”
“Because you are the only one able to see the good parts in me, the only one able to look at me without any fear nor judgment. The only one able to yell at me because I did something wrong. You make me feel like a better man, Jun, and it’s something I treasure more than anything.”
“You would do anything I ask?”
“Yes. Everything.”
Jun smiled sadly and climbed on the man’s lap, taking his own tee-shirt off.
“Then, make me forget. At least for tonight. I need it or I won’t be able to get up tomorrow. Can you do that for me? I swear I won’t ever ask you anything again after that.”
The older stared at him some seconds before sighing and nodding. “You’ll be the death of me, one day.” Nagase grabbed his nape to smack their lips for a rough kiss before devouring his neck while opening his pants with shaking hands. “Jun…”
“Hum?” Jun groaned, kissing him again with passion. Nagase chuckled and grabbed his cheeks to look at him right in the eyes.
“I’ll be clear. Only one night and I refuse you to think we are just fucking. You don’t love me but it doesn’t change the fact that I’m going to make love to you, you’re not a whore nor an employee I want to fuck, I really love you, understood?”
A tear rolled down Jun’s cheek before the younger smiled and nodded.
“Okay.”
“Good. Now, let’s continue, it’s a torture to have you above me while we aren’t naked.” Nagase smirked, making Jun laugh. “You’re so beautiful when you laugh…”
“Don’t be cheesy, baka.” Jun blushed.
“Only with you.”
****
Jun stretched his body with a yawn, opening his eyes and turning his head to see his naked boss staring at him with a smile.
“It’s creepy, you know?” Jun smirked.
“I can’t help the fact you are gorgeous when you sleep.” Nagase chuckled, pecking his lips.
“Are you sure you don’t want to try? Last night was…”
“Wonderful, I know. And it’s horrible and hard for me to say no but I have to. I’m not a man for you and you love Aiba.”
“Aiba is my past.”
“Maybe but it doesn’t change the fact you are deeply in love with him and nothing will change that.”
Jun sighed and left the bed, laughing when his boss grabbed his arm to make him fall on him.
“But we work tonight, so, I have some free hours and you too.”
“Really?” Jun smirked.
“I’m your boss, I can decide when you go to work and when I go too. So, let’s say the night will end in some hours.” Nagase took Jun’s lips roughly, making him moan.
“I won’t say no to some orgasms.”
“I won’t disappoint you, cutie.” Nagase made him roll on his back with an evil smile, getting a loud moan of pleasure when his hard member entered the younger to take him deeply and slowly. Jun’s hands tightened in his hair, his throat releasing long pants when the rhythm became fast and hard, his body melting against the older’s one. It felt so good but it was nothing compared to the pleasure he had when he was with Aiba. His ex-lover always made him feel new sensations and managed to surprise him everyday with new games or new ways to make love whoever was the one topping. Being inside his ex-boyfriend was as pleasurable as being taken by him, only the sensations were different.
It was obvious nobody would give him such wonderful orgasms like his ex-lover did. Because the difference came from his heart. No man will ever give him the pleasure Aiba was able to make him feel, as if every cell of his body was exploding in happiness and delight any time they made love or kissed. Nagase was a very good lover but not more.
With a cry of pleasure, Jun came between their stomachs, gasping when his boss filled him.
“We didn’t use condoms…”
“I know I fuck lots of men but I would never put your life in danger, Jun. I always use condoms with the others and I make tests every month to be sure I’m safe.”
“Sorry… I should have guessed…”
“Don’t be, I understand.” Nagase kissed him softly. “I’m sorry for that, but I wanted you to really belong to me for some hours… I’m weak when it’s you.”
“I liked it.” Jun smiled and climbed on him. “And I’m totally yours until tonight, so, enjoy till the end.”
“Oh, I know I’ll do.” Nagase smirked before starting another round.
Jun realized it was the first time his boss laughed truly in front of someone and felt honored and happy to be loved so sincerely by a man like Nagase.
****
Jun entered the club with his boss, feeling better and a bit happy after these hours spent with him but his smiled quickly disappeared when his look met Aiba’s. The older was already at the bar, staring at Nagase with killing eyes. Deciding, to not create a third mondial war, Jun entered the lodge without a word nor a look toward his ex-lover. Staring at the clothes, the bartender wondered what would suit him for tonight. Maybe something sexy or serious. The young man grab a white shirt with a blue slim and decided to keep his glasses, knowing the clients liked the innocent look it gave him.
Look up and I see your face.
I can see you looking back at me.
Every time I think it's getting better.
Just making time, and going nowhere.
“So, it was good?” A voice made him jump. Jun turned his head to discover Aiba staring at him with dark eyes.
“Eh?”
“Did he fuck you well?”
“I don’t know what you are talking about. I would like to change my clothes, so, leave the room.”
“It’s not as if I had never seen you naked. I know he fucked you, he was at your apartment because you came at the same time tonight and it has never happened before.”
“And what does it have to do with you? You’re not my man.” Jun snapped, losing his patience.
“For someone who loves me, you forget me easily.”
“It has nothing to do with you, you broke up with me if I remember well, so, I do what I want.”
“Was he good? Did he give you better orgasms than I did?”
“Yes. You want to know? Then, yes, it was wonderful, we made love for hours and he is a beast of sex, happy?” Jun snapped.
“If you like to be his whore, I’m happy for you.”
Jun slapped him hard, tears filling his eyes.
“I forbid you to insult me and if I remember well, it’s not my ass that is paid by the clients but yours.”
Aiba’s face paled and the older pulled Jun in a hug.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean my words.”
“Don’t be, we are not even friends.” Jun replied, pulling away.
“Jun, I…” Aiba grabbed his wrist.
“Release me, you are hurting me!”
“What’s happening here?” The door opened.
“Nothing, I was going to your office.” Jun grinned and pull his hand out of Aiba’s grip before leaving the room. Nagase stared at Aiba with dark eyes.
Is this our last dance?
Can we take another chance
To be alone together still?
Are we wasting time
Chasing dreams not yours or mine?
Care for you, I always will.
You know I always will.
“Be careful, Masaki, I won’t stay kind if your keep hurting him. We had a deal, you broke it so, let him in peace now you've spoiled everything.”
It was only a whisper but Aiba shivered and left the room without a word to join the bar.
The boss entered his office where Jun was putting his shirt with shaking hands.
“I’m sorry.”
“It’s not your fault. You can change here from now on if you want.”
“Thank you.” Jun hugged the older back and smiled. “I have to go, see you later.” Jun kissed his cheek before leaving.
“I’m so weak when it’s you, Sweety. I’ll do everything to keep you in this golden world. I have promised him.” Nagase whispered, his hands clenching around the picture he kept on his desk. “Forgive me if I can’t make him happy like you wanted me to…”
****
“Who’s this man?” Sho asked, making Aiba jump. The client had asked to spend time with Masaki as Nino was busy with richer men though, Sakurai didn't really mind as Aiba was also an expert when it came to seduce.
“This man?”
“The bartender.” Sho pointed Jun who was preparing a cocktail with concentrated eyes.
“Oh. It’s Matsu.”
“He is hot.”
“He isn’t a host.” Aiba replied, not liking how the conversation was turning.
“Too bad, he is my type.”
“I thought you were married and het?”
“I’m married but I can say when a man is gorgeous or not and this Matsu is. You think the same, if not, you wouldn’t stare at him for 15 minutes instead of talking to me.”
“I’m sorry, I’m tired…”
“Don’t be, I understand your attraction for him. Is he free?”
“He isn’t a host.”
“And then? I can ask him out after his shift.” Sho smirked, seeing how mentionning the bartender got Aiba angry.
“You’re married, what would you bring to him?”
“You’re jealous, it means you care for him a lot. Were you lovers?”
“It doesn’t matter, I don’t have any rights on him.”
“Good, because you’ll help me to have him.”
“For someone who isn’t even gay, you are acting like one.”
“Yuuji opened my eyes this week. I asked my wife to divorce and she agreed. We never loved each other, we married because of our families and the kisses I had with your friend made me realize that maybe, I took the wrong path not to disappoint my parents.”
“I’m happy for you but I won’t let you use him to discover if you’re gay or not, he has suffered enough.”
“I’m a gentleman, I won’t treat him badly. I like him, so, I want to know if I have my chances with him or not. Teach me how to seduce him. I’ll pay you.”
Aiba’s eyes darkened, his fists clenching in anger.
There's no looking back.
And no more need to cry.
No more need to cry.
No more need to cry.
Is this all we have?
Should we walk away at last
To be alone together still?
“No. And he has a boyfriend.”
“Oh… Too bad… Then, thank you for tonight, I’ll take my leave.” Sho stood up and walked quickly toward the bar before Aiba could stop him. The younger saw him talking with Jun and laughing before pushing a piece of paper toward the bartender who grinned and took it.
Aiba knew Jun would find someone else, but he wasn’t expecting it to happen so quickly.
“Sakurai, you’re a dead man if you dare to lay one finger on him.” Aiba whispered when the man left the club after some minutes of talk with Jun.
Are we wasting time
Chasing dreams not yours or mine?
Care for you, I always will.
You know I always will
To be continued…
A/N: Hi! Like I promised, I’ll post every week like before though, I’m leaving Paris next Sunday to go to Thailand for one month and I don’t know if I’ll be able to post (I will if I can bring my laptop but as it’s heavy and we will walk a lot, I still don’t know if it will be possible to take it with me ><).
This time, the chapter was focused on Junba and Jun/Nagase, just to give you a hint, they are all connected and they all hide secrets ;) I didn’t reveal much in this chapter because it was now that Jun decided to definitely break up with Aiba and to move on (with Sho? Who knows? xD) but the story is not finish yet, so, everything is still possible xD Let’s see what will happen for them J in the next chapter, we’ll go back to our dear Ohmiya and Ohchan will take his courage and his balls to be more honest with Nino who is still brainwashed by his bastard of lover u.u
See you next week (probably Wednesday or Saturday) and comments, even short ones, are deeply <3