Chandelier (chapter 10)
Title: Chandelier
Author: Matsuaurore
Banner: My lovely Antimiya88 <3
Pairing: Ohmiya, Junba, Sakumoto
Genre: Au, angst, romance, drama, violence
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Disclaimer: Only own the plot though, I wish I could own them xD
Summary: Nino is a young man who is physically abused by his boyfriend for years but seems determined to cope with this horrible life until he meets Ohno, a weird man who will show him how wonderful life can be.
Chapter 10:
Ten years ago…
“I’m going to throw up.” Ohno muttered, shivering.
“Baka, you’ll be perfect like always, don’t be so stressed.” Nino chuckled, arranging his lover’s hair. “And if you are good enough, I’ll cook your favorite dinner tonight.”
“Thank you!” Ohno grinned with shining eyes.
“Stomach on legs.” Nino smirked and kissed his boyfriend. “Go, they are waiting for you.”
“Ohno-san!!!” A man ran toward them with panicked eyes.
“Takeda? What’s going on, calm down.” Ohno sighed.
“Takahiro won’t come, he broke his heel in the stairs. He is at hospital.”
“What?! But Satoshi can’t sing without his pianist!!!” Nino exclaimed.
“Ninomiya-san… Maybe you could replace him for tonight…” The manager proposed.
“Good idea, Takeda-san! Kazu, you’ll be perfect!”
“No way! You perfectly know I don’t like the scene!” Nino replied.
“You have composed my songs, you know them by heart, you can do it!”
“No, I hate playing in front of people and you know it.” Nino crossed his arms on his chest with a frown.
“And how will you do when you’ll be a professional? You will make concerts in front of people.” Ohno smiled, putting his hands on his lover’s cheeks. “Stop being scared, trust your fingers, you’re a genius, Kazu and I really need you now.” Ohno’s look dived into Nino’s who sighed and shook his head.
“You’ll be the death of me, Ohno Satoshi.”
“Thank you!!!” Ohno kissed him and rushed toward the stage, followed by a sulking Nino who sat on his seat with a red face.
“Thank you for coming tonight minna-san! This concert is special for me because for the first time, one of the most precious persons of my life agreed to be here on this scene. Please, welcome my pianist and the composer of all my songs, Ninomiya Kazunari!”
Nino gasped, becoming as red as a tomato. He was definitely going to kill Ohno for that. With a bow, Nino started to play, trying to control his shaking fingers and soon, the stress disappeared and the pianist finally enjoyed this moment, agreeing to sing with Ohno when his lover turned toward him to tell him to accompany his voice. Nino had to finally admit that his boyfriend was right, playing and singing in front of people wasn’t a so bad thing. Kazunari had never been someone who had faith in his talent as a pianist, always trying to get better with a big serious training everyday. His will to become a great pianist was in totally contradiction of fearing the scene and Nino knew that without Ohno’s love and perseverance, the young player would have never put a foot on a stage. Tonight was maybe the day who would allow Kazu to realize his future dream and the teenager decided to honor Ohno’s talent by playing with everything he had inside.
The concert was a big success and Ohno hugged his lover tightly in the lodge two hours later, both exhausted but happy.
“Thank you so much, you were amazing, Kazunari.”
“You weren’t bad yourself.” Nino muttered, blushing.
“Thank you, I won’t forget what you did for me today. I love you.”
“I love you too. Go take a shower, now, you stink.” Nino smirked, pushing his laughing lover toward the restroom. With a sigh, the pianist left the lodges to take some air outside. It had been fun to play and sing with Ohno, maybe should he think about doing it more often now his fear of the stage had almost completely stopped.
“Ninomiya-san?” Nino jumped and turned his head to discover a smiling guy who walked toward him shyly.
“Yes?”
“You were great tonight, I didn’t know Ohno-san had such a great composer!”
“Ano… Thank you…” Nino smiled a bit, not liking how the man was staring at him. “But it’s Ohchan who is amazing, he has a great voice and he dances very well…”
“Is he your lover?” The man asked.
“I…”
“Kazu! Where were you, you’ve scared me!” Ohno exclaimed and took Nino’s hand before realizing the man’s presence. “Hello…”
“Thank you for this great concert, Ohno-san!” The man bowed deeply, though, his look stayed longer on the couple’s linked hands.
“How did you manage to reach this exit, it’s only for the staff…” Ohno frowned, not liking how the man was looking at Nino.
“Sorry, I just wanted to thank you both, good night!” The man grinned and left.
“Weird…” Nino whispered with a shiver.
“I’ll tell Takeda to put one more bodyguard for the next concerts. How did he do to come here, it’s strange.”
“It doesn’t matter, he just thanked us, it’s kind.” Nino smiled. “Let’s go home, my parents are waiting for us.”
“Hum.” Ohno nodded but wasn’t as confident as Nino about this man. There was something that he hadn’t liked. Maybe the way the man’s eyes stared at his lover, or the anger in his look when his eyes had fallen on their linked hands. The singer promised himself to ask Takeda to watch over this weird fan.
The next days, Ohno sighed in relief when this Ichirou’s letters stopped suddenly. Nino had promised him to maybe play for his next concerts, finally starting to accept his gift fully and to forget his lack of confidence. But the older didn’t know his boyfriend was hiding him something very important that was going to destroy their lives.
****
Nino sighed, ripping the letter in his hands and throwing it in the bin. For some weeks, a weird fan named Ichirou was sending him scaring letters. It was just maybe a groupie that needed to show his feelings but there was something that bothered Nino when he read the fan’s words. Maybe the way he was inventing their lives, as if they were really dating, maybe the pervert sentences about them making love with passion were what scared Nino the most. Several times, the pianist had wanted to talk to Ohno but had given up, seeing how his lover stressed because of the release of his new album. After all, it was just a fan who needed to see a psychologist.
“I’m overreacting… Ohchan always receive this kind of letters… baka Kazu, forget that.” Nino shook his head and decided to prepare the dinner as his parents were at the cinema and Ohno was training. They had planned to eat in family all together as his mother loved his boyfriend and just wished to have them married later. “I’m lucky to have such a comprehensive family.” Nino smiled while cooking before frowning when the lights cut. “Shit…” The pianist tried to find torch before the lights came back. “Weird…” Nino sighed and walked toward the living room before screaming when his eyes fell on a man next to the sofa. “Who are you?! What are you doing here?!!!”
“I feel sad you don’t recognize me, Kazu.” The man sighed.
“Leave or I call the police!!” Nino moved back.
“And how?” The man smirked, raising his hand to show Nino’s phone. The pianist gasped, fear completely wining his body. “I’m here for you, my love. You didn’t answer to my letters.” The man approached, Nino’s eyes widening.
“You’re the man who talked to me after Ohchan’s concert…”
“Yup. And the man who writes you every week.”
“Ichirou…”
“Bingo! See, you’ve recognized me! I knew you felt something for me too. To be honest, it was your lover that I wanted in the beginning but when I saw you playing and singing this night, I fell for you. Knowing you composed all these beautiful songs for Ohno made me fall harder.”
“What do you want?”
“Isn’t it obvious?” Ichirou made a scaring smile. “You. I know you love me and I’m here to free you from Ohno. Let’s go, I have a home waiting for us and I bought you a great piano.” Ichirou stroked Nino’s cheek, making him freeze.
“You’re crazy.” Nino gasped when a fist hit his cheek, making him fall.
“Nasty boy. You’re going to follow me or you can say goodbye to your dear family. I know everything about you. If you want them alive and safe, follow me now, my love.” Ichirou climbed on Nino, blocking his hands on the ground to lick his neck. “I’m going to fuck you so hard. I’ve dreamt of this day so long. You’re going to be completely mine, Kazunari, I’ll make you happy.”
“Please…” Nino sobbed. “Leave…”
“Not without you, my love. Don’t worry, soon, you’ll only see me and will forget everything about them.” Ichirou moved his hips with a moan. “Let’s go home, I’m so impatient to be inside of you.” The man stood up, grabbing Nino’s arm to force him out of the room before pushing him in his car. The pianist struggled, screaming and crying but Ichirou only smirked and started his car quickly, signing the beginning of ten years of hell for Nino.
****
Ohno left his car with relief, exhausted by this day. His training had been hard and now, the singer only dreamt to hug and kiss his lover before spending a good night with Nino’s family. But Ohno’s smile vanished when he left his car and saw the lights of police cars parked in front of the house.
“Satoshi-kun!!!” Nino’s mother ran toward him.
“What’s happening???” Ohno frowned.
“You didn’t answer to my calls!”
“Sorry, my battery ran low.”
“Kazu is with you, ne?” Nino’s mother looked at him with terror.
“Eh? No… He came home before me to cook.”
Nino’s mother cried, falling on her knees, his husband trying to calm her down.
“What’s going on for the fucking sake?!!” Ohno finally screamed.
“Ohno Satoshi?” A police man approached him.
“Yes.”
“Come with us, we have questions to ask you about your lover.”
“What’s going on?! I won’t follow you unless you answer!”
“The Ninomiya’s house has been burgled. And their son has disappeared.”
“WHAT?!!! Where is Kazu???”
“It’s what we want to know. Nothing has disappeared in the house. The window has been broken and Ninomiya-kun is nowhere to be found. Did you two had a fight?”
Ohno’s heart tightened, the singer not even hearing the man’s questions. Kazu had disappeared. His lover had been kidnapped. It was impossible. Not his Kazu. Nobody could hurt them like that. And if the police didn’t find his boyfriend? What was going to happen to Nino?
****
Nino gasped as the cold water touched his naked body. For two hours, Ichirou was torturing him to make him admit they were in love. The man had already raped him before throwing him in the bath with angry eyes.
“Say it!!!!!” Ichirou yelled.
“NO!!! Go to hell, bastard!!!!” Nino replied, wining a punch.
“Okay, then, let’s play a game.” Ichirou smirked and grabbed Nino to push him in front of the toilets. “From now on, you’re going to remember you belong to me. Your parents were two bastards who abandoned you and I saved you from the street. You love me, don’t you?”
“Fuck you.” Nino spitted on his face.
“Little piece of shit!” Ichirou yelled and dived Nino’s head in the toilets, making him gasp and struggle some seconds before raising it. “I have seen how you looked at me the night I came to see you. I know you love me. Say it!!!!”
“No. You’re just crazy, I hate you!”
Days passed slowly, Nino praying everyday to be found by the police but every second spent with Ichirou brought him close to madness. The kidnapper tortured him for hours and if in the beginning, Nino refused to complain, after some weeks, the younger gave up and finally ‘agreed’ to be tamed.
“So, you won’t admit you love me?” Ichirou asked one month later.
“I hate you, I just want you to die!!!” Nino screamed.
“Okay, then, let’s play to a new game.” Ichirou made a frightening smile and threw Nino on the ground before sitting on him and blocking his hand on the floor. The pianist paled when the older raised a hammer with a smirk. “If you don’t admit the truth, I will have to force you to. It would be so sad if you broke your fingers and couldn’t play anymore. I heard broken fingers or hand mean the end of a pianist’s career, did you know?”
Nino’s eyes widened in horror, the pianist looking at his hand with terror. If he didn’t stop this bastard, his hand would be lost and his life at the same time. Because Ichirou was right, if he bones were broken, he would never be able to become a professional pianist. And this thought was just unbearable for Nino.
“N-o!!!!” Nino yelled when Ichirou started to lower the hammer, stopping at just 2 cm of his hand.
“What? Do you have something to tell me?” Ichirou smirked.
“I… I love you.” Nino whispered.
“What? I haven’t heard well.” Ichirou grinned.
“I LOVE YOU!!!!”
“Finally! I’m so happy you finally admit this evidence! Let’s celebrate this perfect day! I’ll fuck you so hard that you won’t be able to sit for one week, my love.” Ichirou smirked, Nino closing his eyes and trying to let his mind escape to this too painful reality.
Sometimes, the gamer couldn’t even remember which day they were or since when he was being locked in this apartment. It was as if time had stopped. As if his future was meant to stay like that. After 6 months, Nino couldn’t even remember the faces of his parents, his brain refusing to give him pictures as if it forbade him to hope for this nightmare to stop or as if it was scared to be hit again.
Two years later, Nino wasn’t even able to picture Ohno’s face, wondering if he hadn’t imagine this man as Ichirou never stopped being violent with him. Maybe his mind was trying to make him think about a perfect lover.
*****
After Nino’s kidnapping, Ohno stopped his career immediately, not able to sing anymore and wanting to find his lover no matter what. The singer helped Nino’s parents in all the researches they had started, people going with them in the whole town and in the forest to find Nino and his kidnapper. The police was certain the affair only hid a run away and even if they kept looking for Nino, the police chief decided to close the case after one year, explaining they hadn’t any hints and it was now impossible to find Kazunari Ninomiya. But Nino’s parents refused to accept this too painful idea and with Ohno’s help, they kept looking for their son during 3 years, asking for people’s help, calling the press to keep talking about Nino in the TV. But as months passed, Nino’s mother got sick. Psychologically sick. Her son’s kidnapping had traumatized her so much that she made several suicide attempts and refused to talk anymore, closing her mind in a shell of silence.
“Satoshi-kun, thank you so much for everything you did.” Nino’s father said one day when Ohno came to the hospital. “You are an amazing person and we love you but it’s about time to stop this pain.”
“What do you mean?” Ohno frowned, not liking where this conversation was leading.
“I have decided to stop the researches. Like you can see, Kazuko is in a very bad state and I refuse to lose her. I have already lost my son, I won’t handle it if she also disappears of my life. We are going to leave for Okinawa, she will keep seeing a psychologist and being away from Kyoto will be benefic for her mental.”
“You can’t stop the researches! I’m sure Kazu is alive and we will find him!”
“Satoshi…” Nino’s father smiled weakly and patted Ohno’s shoulder with tired eyes, making Ohno realize how old and exhausted the man seemed to be. “I know it seems cruel but I’m tired. I can’t handle this situation anymore. Kazunari was kidnapped 4 years ago and we have to let him go. You too. We have to accept the idea that our son is dead and if you want to keep living, you have to also accept it. Let him go, please. Let my son rest in peace.” Nino’s father sobbed, pulling Ohno in his arms. The man had lost so much weight since his son’s disappearance, looking like a fragile doll you were scared to break.
“I understand. You’re right, Kazuko-san needs you and needs to leave this mess. Give me some news anytime you can, I’ll try to come to see you when I’ll be able to.”
“Thank you for understanding.” Nino’s father smiled weakly, cupping Ohno’s wet cheeks. “But promise me to stop looking for him and to rebuild your life or I won’t be able to move on if I know you keep destroying yourself.”
“I promise.” Ohno lied.
“Thank you. Come to see us whenever you want.”
“Hum.” Ohno nodded and left the hospital, hoping they would get better and swearing to God he would keep looking for Nino. “I swear the day I’ll come to see you, Kazu will be with me.” Satoshi whispered, clenching his fists.
The singer kept looking for his lover during ten long years, trying to get help from the police and the town’s residents. But everybody had agreed with the police chief, saying it was a lost case and that he had to accept Nino’s death. Ohno worked harder, putting all his money in private detectives but even the best ones never managed to find just a little hint.
Until this day.
Ohno sat in front of the man behind the desk, his heart beating furiously. It was the 15th private detective he had hired and even if the man had a great reputation, in one year, he hadn’t found anything.
“I have a lead.”
“WHAT???!!!” Ohno yelled, jumping from his seat.
“Calm down, I don’t know if it will lead to something tangible.” The man replied, though, a comprehensive smile was painted on his face.
“Sorry… Tell me, please…”
“I had a friend who was in charge of your lover’s case. Well, he was one of the policemen on Ninomiya’s case ten years ago. He never believed in a run away and kept repeating it was a kidnapping, that he had proofs.”
“Where is this man???”
“He is dead. But his son followed his steps and is working in the police station of your old town. I contacted him and he agreed to meet me yesterday. We talked a lot and he swore his father wasn’t crazy and really had proofs. He gave me the file where his father wrote everything and after a serious checking, I can say it’s a shame that the police chief ignored him at this time.”
“What do you mean?” Ohno frowned.
“A group of children saw what happened this night.”
“What???!!! And why they never interrogated them???!!!”
“They did. But the police chief said it was too light and that these children just tried to get the police interest. They were outside this night, playing in the street when they heard screams in a house. They said it was scaring and they hid when a man left the house, holding a young boy by his hair before throwing him in a car. Unfortunately, and it’s what decided the police chief to ignore this testimony, it was too dark to see the car’s license plate. But they followed it with their bikes and they swore the man had taken the boy in the forest.”
“But we dragged the forest for days!”
“Not everywhere. You perfectly know that Ashiu’s forest is very huge. The kidnapper probably passed Miyama’s river to be sure not to be found. I know this forest a bit and I have already heard that you can hid inside without being found like in Aokigahara’s forest. If the kids told the truth, it means the kidnapper hid with Nino in Ashiu until the police closed the case.”
“Do you think they are still there?”
“No. It’s been ten years and the kidnapper must have moved in a town. I’m even sure he has a new identity to be sure the police would never found him.”
“Thank you for all these details but why do you say it’s a lead?”
“Because I called some contacts in other towns. And I have found a very interesting thing.” The detective smiled, pushing a paper in front of Ohno. “In Tochigi. I have a friend working in a police station of Utsunomiya who made some researches because Ninomiya’s name was familiar to him. One year ago, a man came to make a complaint against his lover. He said his boyfriend abused him but one of the policemen threw him out of the police station, saying he hadn’t any proofs despite the bruises on his face. You know how it is when a gay come in a police station…”
“And this man was Kazu?”
“I showed him a picture and he said he looked like bit though, the man was older and a lot thinner.”
“Where does he live????”
“That’s the main problem. I haven’t any information about him as he wasn’t able to make a complaint. I just can tell you that it was in Tochigi…”
“It’s not as big as Tokyo but it’s still huge, how will I do to find him???”
“I’ll help you. We will try to find someone who has seen Ninomiya…”
“Thank you.”
For the first time in ten years of despair, Ohno was starting to hope. Now they had a real lead, they had a tiny chance to find Nino even if it would take a long time to check the whole town. Time passed and after several months of researches, the singer still hadn’t found his lover and had finally decided to settle in the town.
But Ohno never thought he would fall on his lover by chance one day while buying fish. Satoshi was about to tell the stranger to go to hell but when his eyes had fallen on Nino, it’s as if time had stopped. His Kazu was here. In front of him. After ten years of hell and researches, he was meeting his lovely brat by chance in this fishmonger. Fate could sometimes make surprising tricks. Ohno almost jumped on his boyfriend, tears about to roll down his cheeks, a scream of happiness almost leaving his throat. Nino hadn’t really changed, still looking so young despite the dark shadows under his eyes and the emptiness inside them. As if his lover was dead. But Ohno didn’t react. Not because he didn’t want to. But because Nino acted as if they were meeting for the first time in their lives. And this day, something broke inside Ohno for the second time in his life.
The singer still wondered where he had found the strength to not break down and to not jump on Nino and tell him everything. Maybe his instinct had been faster and had prevented him to make a mistake and lose Nino once again.
With patience, Ohno worked with his private detective to find where Nino lived and where was Ichirou whose name was fake since the beginning of course. It’s with horror that the ex-singer discovered his Kazu was still abused and seemed to agree with this unfair situation.
Slowly, Ohno started to get closer to Nino, trying to win his trust even if ignoring the new bruises on his brat’s skin was everyday a fight. After some researches, the ex-singer discovered that Kazu had indeed went to the police station to leave a complaint against Ichirou but for his disbelief, they just had thrown him out of the building because it seemed a gay hadn’t the same rights than a hetero. After this humiliation, it was normal that Nino had lost his trust toward the police and had finally agreed that everything was his fault and he deserved this kind of fate.
The months spent with his ex-lover had been a dream for Ohno who was still preparing a plan with his detective to have Nino back to him. Unfortunately, a policeman had confirmed that despite the old file, they couldn’t do anything if Kazunari denied his kidnapping. For the law, Nino was just a young man living with another man and nothing would change if he didn’t testify against his kidnapper.
“I don’t understand, they can’t use the fact that Kazu is not able to testify against Ichirou because he is psychologically sick???!!!” Ohno yelled one day.
“No… Because his testimony is what they need as main proof. I made some researches and discovered a similar case in United States that happened 12 years ago. A girl had been kidnapped at her home during the night and the kidnappers took her in the forest for months. The parents kept looking for her for more than one year and one day, a police woman found her by chance in another state.”
“And she stopped the kidnapper?”
“No. she couldn’t because the girl was in another state and they couldn’t do anything without her testimony that she was the kidnapped girl. Luckily, the woman found the good words and the girl finally admitted everything. They apprehended the man and the girl explained that he had threatened her to kill her family if she said anything. They discovered that for one year, they had traveled lots of towns and states under the police’s nose without being caught only because the girl didn’t dare to scream when they were looking for her. Here it’s the same. They can’t arrest Ichirou if Nino doesn’t testify against him… it’s the law… it’s unfair but you have to find a way to make Nino talk…”
“I guess I haven’t the choice… if you saw him… he looks so fragile, so empty inside… he is abused and keeps repeating he is happy and fine… I just dream to kill Ichirou but I can’t even take Kazu away from him… it’s so hard…”
“I know but you have to be brave… Nino-kun needs you and if you want to save him and to take him back to you, you have to win his trust completely and to make him remember what really happened this day… you can do it, Ohno-san…”
“Thank you for what you did. The previous detectives all gave up but you stayed. You never let me down… I owe you a lot…”
“And it’s because of you. In ten years, you have never given up on him. You did everything to find him… It gave me the will to help you even if it had taken me 20 years. Nino-kun is lucky to have such a wonderful lover like you.” The man smiled softly, patting Ohno’s shoulder.
“I’ll do everything to have him back. I swore to myself that when I’d visit his parents, he would be with me. I just hope his mother got better…”
To be continued…
A/N: This time, I’m not late to post J I tried my best to write as fast as possible and this chapter was important to explain what happened to Nino and why Ohno decided to act like he did. As I wrote in the end of chapter, I took some inspiration of Nino’s kidnapping from a real case that happened in US some years ago (I don’t remember when exactly). I was so chocked that the police couldn’t arrest the kidnapper as long as the girl didn’t testify she was the one they were looking for and that this bastard had taken her away from her family during more than one year Oo that’s why I decided to use this story for explaining why Ohno couldn’t go to the police as long as Nino didn’t accept to testify against Ichirou J Law is often not fair, unfortunately L
In the next chapter you will have… I don’t know yet xD I don’t know if you will have Ohmiya or Junba, let me know what you prefer for the ones who still read this fic J
PS: I have the feeling I’m even more sadist in this fic with my baby Kazu than I have been before (I feel horrible for writing this kind of past to Nino) XD well, I can’t help loving to torture my lovely Jun and Nino, it’s a bad habit but if I could, I would cover them of hugs in RL because they are so amazing <3
Author: Matsuaurore
Banner: My lovely Antimiya88 <3
Pairing: Ohmiya, Junba, Sakumoto
Genre: Au, angst, romance, drama, violence
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Disclaimer: Only own the plot though, I wish I could own them xD
Summary: Nino is a young man who is physically abused by his boyfriend for years but seems determined to cope with this horrible life until he meets Ohno, a weird man who will show him how wonderful life can be.
Chapter 10:
Ten years ago…
“I’m going to throw up.” Ohno muttered, shivering.
“Baka, you’ll be perfect like always, don’t be so stressed.” Nino chuckled, arranging his lover’s hair. “And if you are good enough, I’ll cook your favorite dinner tonight.”
“Thank you!” Ohno grinned with shining eyes.
“Stomach on legs.” Nino smirked and kissed his boyfriend. “Go, they are waiting for you.”
“Ohno-san!!!” A man ran toward them with panicked eyes.
“Takeda? What’s going on, calm down.” Ohno sighed.
“Takahiro won’t come, he broke his heel in the stairs. He is at hospital.”
“What?! But Satoshi can’t sing without his pianist!!!” Nino exclaimed.
“Ninomiya-san… Maybe you could replace him for tonight…” The manager proposed.
“Good idea, Takeda-san! Kazu, you’ll be perfect!”
“No way! You perfectly know I don’t like the scene!” Nino replied.
“You have composed my songs, you know them by heart, you can do it!”
“No, I hate playing in front of people and you know it.” Nino crossed his arms on his chest with a frown.
“And how will you do when you’ll be a professional? You will make concerts in front of people.” Ohno smiled, putting his hands on his lover’s cheeks. “Stop being scared, trust your fingers, you’re a genius, Kazu and I really need you now.” Ohno’s look dived into Nino’s who sighed and shook his head.
“You’ll be the death of me, Ohno Satoshi.”
“Thank you!!!” Ohno kissed him and rushed toward the stage, followed by a sulking Nino who sat on his seat with a red face.
“Thank you for coming tonight minna-san! This concert is special for me because for the first time, one of the most precious persons of my life agreed to be here on this scene. Please, welcome my pianist and the composer of all my songs, Ninomiya Kazunari!”
Nino gasped, becoming as red as a tomato. He was definitely going to kill Ohno for that. With a bow, Nino started to play, trying to control his shaking fingers and soon, the stress disappeared and the pianist finally enjoyed this moment, agreeing to sing with Ohno when his lover turned toward him to tell him to accompany his voice. Nino had to finally admit that his boyfriend was right, playing and singing in front of people wasn’t a so bad thing. Kazunari had never been someone who had faith in his talent as a pianist, always trying to get better with a big serious training everyday. His will to become a great pianist was in totally contradiction of fearing the scene and Nino knew that without Ohno’s love and perseverance, the young player would have never put a foot on a stage. Tonight was maybe the day who would allow Kazu to realize his future dream and the teenager decided to honor Ohno’s talent by playing with everything he had inside.
The concert was a big success and Ohno hugged his lover tightly in the lodge two hours later, both exhausted but happy.
“Thank you so much, you were amazing, Kazunari.”
“You weren’t bad yourself.” Nino muttered, blushing.
“Thank you, I won’t forget what you did for me today. I love you.”
“I love you too. Go take a shower, now, you stink.” Nino smirked, pushing his laughing lover toward the restroom. With a sigh, the pianist left the lodges to take some air outside. It had been fun to play and sing with Ohno, maybe should he think about doing it more often now his fear of the stage had almost completely stopped.
“Ninomiya-san?” Nino jumped and turned his head to discover a smiling guy who walked toward him shyly.
“Yes?”
“You were great tonight, I didn’t know Ohno-san had such a great composer!”
“Ano… Thank you…” Nino smiled a bit, not liking how the man was staring at him. “But it’s Ohchan who is amazing, he has a great voice and he dances very well…”
“Is he your lover?” The man asked.
“I…”
“Kazu! Where were you, you’ve scared me!” Ohno exclaimed and took Nino’s hand before realizing the man’s presence. “Hello…”
“Thank you for this great concert, Ohno-san!” The man bowed deeply, though, his look stayed longer on the couple’s linked hands.
“How did you manage to reach this exit, it’s only for the staff…” Ohno frowned, not liking how the man was looking at Nino.
“Sorry, I just wanted to thank you both, good night!” The man grinned and left.
“Weird…” Nino whispered with a shiver.
“I’ll tell Takeda to put one more bodyguard for the next concerts. How did he do to come here, it’s strange.”
“It doesn’t matter, he just thanked us, it’s kind.” Nino smiled. “Let’s go home, my parents are waiting for us.”
“Hum.” Ohno nodded but wasn’t as confident as Nino about this man. There was something that he hadn’t liked. Maybe the way the man’s eyes stared at his lover, or the anger in his look when his eyes had fallen on their linked hands. The singer promised himself to ask Takeda to watch over this weird fan.
The next days, Ohno sighed in relief when this Ichirou’s letters stopped suddenly. Nino had promised him to maybe play for his next concerts, finally starting to accept his gift fully and to forget his lack of confidence. But the older didn’t know his boyfriend was hiding him something very important that was going to destroy their lives.
****
Nino sighed, ripping the letter in his hands and throwing it in the bin. For some weeks, a weird fan named Ichirou was sending him scaring letters. It was just maybe a groupie that needed to show his feelings but there was something that bothered Nino when he read the fan’s words. Maybe the way he was inventing their lives, as if they were really dating, maybe the pervert sentences about them making love with passion were what scared Nino the most. Several times, the pianist had wanted to talk to Ohno but had given up, seeing how his lover stressed because of the release of his new album. After all, it was just a fan who needed to see a psychologist.
“I’m overreacting… Ohchan always receive this kind of letters… baka Kazu, forget that.” Nino shook his head and decided to prepare the dinner as his parents were at the cinema and Ohno was training. They had planned to eat in family all together as his mother loved his boyfriend and just wished to have them married later. “I’m lucky to have such a comprehensive family.” Nino smiled while cooking before frowning when the lights cut. “Shit…” The pianist tried to find torch before the lights came back. “Weird…” Nino sighed and walked toward the living room before screaming when his eyes fell on a man next to the sofa. “Who are you?! What are you doing here?!!!”
“I feel sad you don’t recognize me, Kazu.” The man sighed.
“Leave or I call the police!!” Nino moved back.
“And how?” The man smirked, raising his hand to show Nino’s phone. The pianist gasped, fear completely wining his body. “I’m here for you, my love. You didn’t answer to my letters.” The man approached, Nino’s eyes widening.
“You’re the man who talked to me after Ohchan’s concert…”
“Yup. And the man who writes you every week.”
“Ichirou…”
“Bingo! See, you’ve recognized me! I knew you felt something for me too. To be honest, it was your lover that I wanted in the beginning but when I saw you playing and singing this night, I fell for you. Knowing you composed all these beautiful songs for Ohno made me fall harder.”
“What do you want?”
“Isn’t it obvious?” Ichirou made a scaring smile. “You. I know you love me and I’m here to free you from Ohno. Let’s go, I have a home waiting for us and I bought you a great piano.” Ichirou stroked Nino’s cheek, making him freeze.
“You’re crazy.” Nino gasped when a fist hit his cheek, making him fall.
“Nasty boy. You’re going to follow me or you can say goodbye to your dear family. I know everything about you. If you want them alive and safe, follow me now, my love.” Ichirou climbed on Nino, blocking his hands on the ground to lick his neck. “I’m going to fuck you so hard. I’ve dreamt of this day so long. You’re going to be completely mine, Kazunari, I’ll make you happy.”
“Please…” Nino sobbed. “Leave…”
“Not without you, my love. Don’t worry, soon, you’ll only see me and will forget everything about them.” Ichirou moved his hips with a moan. “Let’s go home, I’m so impatient to be inside of you.” The man stood up, grabbing Nino’s arm to force him out of the room before pushing him in his car. The pianist struggled, screaming and crying but Ichirou only smirked and started his car quickly, signing the beginning of ten years of hell for Nino.
****
Ohno left his car with relief, exhausted by this day. His training had been hard and now, the singer only dreamt to hug and kiss his lover before spending a good night with Nino’s family. But Ohno’s smile vanished when he left his car and saw the lights of police cars parked in front of the house.
“Satoshi-kun!!!” Nino’s mother ran toward him.
“What’s happening???” Ohno frowned.
“You didn’t answer to my calls!”
“Sorry, my battery ran low.”
“Kazu is with you, ne?” Nino’s mother looked at him with terror.
“Eh? No… He came home before me to cook.”
Nino’s mother cried, falling on her knees, his husband trying to calm her down.
“What’s going on for the fucking sake?!!” Ohno finally screamed.
“Ohno Satoshi?” A police man approached him.
“Yes.”
“Come with us, we have questions to ask you about your lover.”
“What’s going on?! I won’t follow you unless you answer!”
“The Ninomiya’s house has been burgled. And their son has disappeared.”
“WHAT?!!! Where is Kazu???”
“It’s what we want to know. Nothing has disappeared in the house. The window has been broken and Ninomiya-kun is nowhere to be found. Did you two had a fight?”
Ohno’s heart tightened, the singer not even hearing the man’s questions. Kazu had disappeared. His lover had been kidnapped. It was impossible. Not his Kazu. Nobody could hurt them like that. And if the police didn’t find his boyfriend? What was going to happen to Nino?
****
Nino gasped as the cold water touched his naked body. For two hours, Ichirou was torturing him to make him admit they were in love. The man had already raped him before throwing him in the bath with angry eyes.
“Say it!!!!!” Ichirou yelled.
“NO!!! Go to hell, bastard!!!!” Nino replied, wining a punch.
“Okay, then, let’s play a game.” Ichirou smirked and grabbed Nino to push him in front of the toilets. “From now on, you’re going to remember you belong to me. Your parents were two bastards who abandoned you and I saved you from the street. You love me, don’t you?”
“Fuck you.” Nino spitted on his face.
“Little piece of shit!” Ichirou yelled and dived Nino’s head in the toilets, making him gasp and struggle some seconds before raising it. “I have seen how you looked at me the night I came to see you. I know you love me. Say it!!!!”
“No. You’re just crazy, I hate you!”
Days passed slowly, Nino praying everyday to be found by the police but every second spent with Ichirou brought him close to madness. The kidnapper tortured him for hours and if in the beginning, Nino refused to complain, after some weeks, the younger gave up and finally ‘agreed’ to be tamed.
“So, you won’t admit you love me?” Ichirou asked one month later.
“I hate you, I just want you to die!!!” Nino screamed.
“Okay, then, let’s play to a new game.” Ichirou made a frightening smile and threw Nino on the ground before sitting on him and blocking his hand on the floor. The pianist paled when the older raised a hammer with a smirk. “If you don’t admit the truth, I will have to force you to. It would be so sad if you broke your fingers and couldn’t play anymore. I heard broken fingers or hand mean the end of a pianist’s career, did you know?”
Nino’s eyes widened in horror, the pianist looking at his hand with terror. If he didn’t stop this bastard, his hand would be lost and his life at the same time. Because Ichirou was right, if he bones were broken, he would never be able to become a professional pianist. And this thought was just unbearable for Nino.
“N-o!!!!” Nino yelled when Ichirou started to lower the hammer, stopping at just 2 cm of his hand.
“What? Do you have something to tell me?” Ichirou smirked.
“I… I love you.” Nino whispered.
“What? I haven’t heard well.” Ichirou grinned.
“I LOVE YOU!!!!”
“Finally! I’m so happy you finally admit this evidence! Let’s celebrate this perfect day! I’ll fuck you so hard that you won’t be able to sit for one week, my love.” Ichirou smirked, Nino closing his eyes and trying to let his mind escape to this too painful reality.
Sometimes, the gamer couldn’t even remember which day they were or since when he was being locked in this apartment. It was as if time had stopped. As if his future was meant to stay like that. After 6 months, Nino couldn’t even remember the faces of his parents, his brain refusing to give him pictures as if it forbade him to hope for this nightmare to stop or as if it was scared to be hit again.
Two years later, Nino wasn’t even able to picture Ohno’s face, wondering if he hadn’t imagine this man as Ichirou never stopped being violent with him. Maybe his mind was trying to make him think about a perfect lover.
*****
After Nino’s kidnapping, Ohno stopped his career immediately, not able to sing anymore and wanting to find his lover no matter what. The singer helped Nino’s parents in all the researches they had started, people going with them in the whole town and in the forest to find Nino and his kidnapper. The police was certain the affair only hid a run away and even if they kept looking for Nino, the police chief decided to close the case after one year, explaining they hadn’t any hints and it was now impossible to find Kazunari Ninomiya. But Nino’s parents refused to accept this too painful idea and with Ohno’s help, they kept looking for their son during 3 years, asking for people’s help, calling the press to keep talking about Nino in the TV. But as months passed, Nino’s mother got sick. Psychologically sick. Her son’s kidnapping had traumatized her so much that she made several suicide attempts and refused to talk anymore, closing her mind in a shell of silence.
“Satoshi-kun, thank you so much for everything you did.” Nino’s father said one day when Ohno came to the hospital. “You are an amazing person and we love you but it’s about time to stop this pain.”
“What do you mean?” Ohno frowned, not liking where this conversation was leading.
“I have decided to stop the researches. Like you can see, Kazuko is in a very bad state and I refuse to lose her. I have already lost my son, I won’t handle it if she also disappears of my life. We are going to leave for Okinawa, she will keep seeing a psychologist and being away from Kyoto will be benefic for her mental.”
“You can’t stop the researches! I’m sure Kazu is alive and we will find him!”
“Satoshi…” Nino’s father smiled weakly and patted Ohno’s shoulder with tired eyes, making Ohno realize how old and exhausted the man seemed to be. “I know it seems cruel but I’m tired. I can’t handle this situation anymore. Kazunari was kidnapped 4 years ago and we have to let him go. You too. We have to accept the idea that our son is dead and if you want to keep living, you have to also accept it. Let him go, please. Let my son rest in peace.” Nino’s father sobbed, pulling Ohno in his arms. The man had lost so much weight since his son’s disappearance, looking like a fragile doll you were scared to break.
“I understand. You’re right, Kazuko-san needs you and needs to leave this mess. Give me some news anytime you can, I’ll try to come to see you when I’ll be able to.”
“Thank you for understanding.” Nino’s father smiled weakly, cupping Ohno’s wet cheeks. “But promise me to stop looking for him and to rebuild your life or I won’t be able to move on if I know you keep destroying yourself.”
“I promise.” Ohno lied.
“Thank you. Come to see us whenever you want.”
“Hum.” Ohno nodded and left the hospital, hoping they would get better and swearing to God he would keep looking for Nino. “I swear the day I’ll come to see you, Kazu will be with me.” Satoshi whispered, clenching his fists.
The singer kept looking for his lover during ten long years, trying to get help from the police and the town’s residents. But everybody had agreed with the police chief, saying it was a lost case and that he had to accept Nino’s death. Ohno worked harder, putting all his money in private detectives but even the best ones never managed to find just a little hint.
Until this day.
Ohno sat in front of the man behind the desk, his heart beating furiously. It was the 15th private detective he had hired and even if the man had a great reputation, in one year, he hadn’t found anything.
“I have a lead.”
“WHAT???!!!” Ohno yelled, jumping from his seat.
“Calm down, I don’t know if it will lead to something tangible.” The man replied, though, a comprehensive smile was painted on his face.
“Sorry… Tell me, please…”
“I had a friend who was in charge of your lover’s case. Well, he was one of the policemen on Ninomiya’s case ten years ago. He never believed in a run away and kept repeating it was a kidnapping, that he had proofs.”
“Where is this man???”
“He is dead. But his son followed his steps and is working in the police station of your old town. I contacted him and he agreed to meet me yesterday. We talked a lot and he swore his father wasn’t crazy and really had proofs. He gave me the file where his father wrote everything and after a serious checking, I can say it’s a shame that the police chief ignored him at this time.”
“What do you mean?” Ohno frowned.
“A group of children saw what happened this night.”
“What???!!! And why they never interrogated them???!!!”
“They did. But the police chief said it was too light and that these children just tried to get the police interest. They were outside this night, playing in the street when they heard screams in a house. They said it was scaring and they hid when a man left the house, holding a young boy by his hair before throwing him in a car. Unfortunately, and it’s what decided the police chief to ignore this testimony, it was too dark to see the car’s license plate. But they followed it with their bikes and they swore the man had taken the boy in the forest.”
“But we dragged the forest for days!”
“Not everywhere. You perfectly know that Ashiu’s forest is very huge. The kidnapper probably passed Miyama’s river to be sure not to be found. I know this forest a bit and I have already heard that you can hid inside without being found like in Aokigahara’s forest. If the kids told the truth, it means the kidnapper hid with Nino in Ashiu until the police closed the case.”
“Do you think they are still there?”
“No. It’s been ten years and the kidnapper must have moved in a town. I’m even sure he has a new identity to be sure the police would never found him.”
“Thank you for all these details but why do you say it’s a lead?”
“Because I called some contacts in other towns. And I have found a very interesting thing.” The detective smiled, pushing a paper in front of Ohno. “In Tochigi. I have a friend working in a police station of Utsunomiya who made some researches because Ninomiya’s name was familiar to him. One year ago, a man came to make a complaint against his lover. He said his boyfriend abused him but one of the policemen threw him out of the police station, saying he hadn’t any proofs despite the bruises on his face. You know how it is when a gay come in a police station…”
“And this man was Kazu?”
“I showed him a picture and he said he looked like bit though, the man was older and a lot thinner.”
“Where does he live????”
“That’s the main problem. I haven’t any information about him as he wasn’t able to make a complaint. I just can tell you that it was in Tochigi…”
“It’s not as big as Tokyo but it’s still huge, how will I do to find him???”
“I’ll help you. We will try to find someone who has seen Ninomiya…”
“Thank you.”
For the first time in ten years of despair, Ohno was starting to hope. Now they had a real lead, they had a tiny chance to find Nino even if it would take a long time to check the whole town. Time passed and after several months of researches, the singer still hadn’t found his lover and had finally decided to settle in the town.
But Ohno never thought he would fall on his lover by chance one day while buying fish. Satoshi was about to tell the stranger to go to hell but when his eyes had fallen on Nino, it’s as if time had stopped. His Kazu was here. In front of him. After ten years of hell and researches, he was meeting his lovely brat by chance in this fishmonger. Fate could sometimes make surprising tricks. Ohno almost jumped on his boyfriend, tears about to roll down his cheeks, a scream of happiness almost leaving his throat. Nino hadn’t really changed, still looking so young despite the dark shadows under his eyes and the emptiness inside them. As if his lover was dead. But Ohno didn’t react. Not because he didn’t want to. But because Nino acted as if they were meeting for the first time in their lives. And this day, something broke inside Ohno for the second time in his life.
The singer still wondered where he had found the strength to not break down and to not jump on Nino and tell him everything. Maybe his instinct had been faster and had prevented him to make a mistake and lose Nino once again.
With patience, Ohno worked with his private detective to find where Nino lived and where was Ichirou whose name was fake since the beginning of course. It’s with horror that the ex-singer discovered his Kazu was still abused and seemed to agree with this unfair situation.
Slowly, Ohno started to get closer to Nino, trying to win his trust even if ignoring the new bruises on his brat’s skin was everyday a fight. After some researches, the ex-singer discovered that Kazu had indeed went to the police station to leave a complaint against Ichirou but for his disbelief, they just had thrown him out of the building because it seemed a gay hadn’t the same rights than a hetero. After this humiliation, it was normal that Nino had lost his trust toward the police and had finally agreed that everything was his fault and he deserved this kind of fate.
The months spent with his ex-lover had been a dream for Ohno who was still preparing a plan with his detective to have Nino back to him. Unfortunately, a policeman had confirmed that despite the old file, they couldn’t do anything if Kazunari denied his kidnapping. For the law, Nino was just a young man living with another man and nothing would change if he didn’t testify against his kidnapper.
“I don’t understand, they can’t use the fact that Kazu is not able to testify against Ichirou because he is psychologically sick???!!!” Ohno yelled one day.
“No… Because his testimony is what they need as main proof. I made some researches and discovered a similar case in United States that happened 12 years ago. A girl had been kidnapped at her home during the night and the kidnappers took her in the forest for months. The parents kept looking for her for more than one year and one day, a police woman found her by chance in another state.”
“And she stopped the kidnapper?”
“No. she couldn’t because the girl was in another state and they couldn’t do anything without her testimony that she was the kidnapped girl. Luckily, the woman found the good words and the girl finally admitted everything. They apprehended the man and the girl explained that he had threatened her to kill her family if she said anything. They discovered that for one year, they had traveled lots of towns and states under the police’s nose without being caught only because the girl didn’t dare to scream when they were looking for her. Here it’s the same. They can’t arrest Ichirou if Nino doesn’t testify against him… it’s the law… it’s unfair but you have to find a way to make Nino talk…”
“I guess I haven’t the choice… if you saw him… he looks so fragile, so empty inside… he is abused and keeps repeating he is happy and fine… I just dream to kill Ichirou but I can’t even take Kazu away from him… it’s so hard…”
“I know but you have to be brave… Nino-kun needs you and if you want to save him and to take him back to you, you have to win his trust completely and to make him remember what really happened this day… you can do it, Ohno-san…”
“Thank you for what you did. The previous detectives all gave up but you stayed. You never let me down… I owe you a lot…”
“And it’s because of you. In ten years, you have never given up on him. You did everything to find him… It gave me the will to help you even if it had taken me 20 years. Nino-kun is lucky to have such a wonderful lover like you.” The man smiled softly, patting Ohno’s shoulder.
“I’ll do everything to have him back. I swore to myself that when I’d visit his parents, he would be with me. I just hope his mother got better…”
To be continued…
A/N: This time, I’m not late to post J I tried my best to write as fast as possible and this chapter was important to explain what happened to Nino and why Ohno decided to act like he did. As I wrote in the end of chapter, I took some inspiration of Nino’s kidnapping from a real case that happened in US some years ago (I don’t remember when exactly). I was so chocked that the police couldn’t arrest the kidnapper as long as the girl didn’t testify she was the one they were looking for and that this bastard had taken her away from her family during more than one year Oo that’s why I decided to use this story for explaining why Ohno couldn’t go to the police as long as Nino didn’t accept to testify against Ichirou J Law is often not fair, unfortunately L
In the next chapter you will have… I don’t know yet xD I don’t know if you will have Ohmiya or Junba, let me know what you prefer for the ones who still read this fic J
PS: I have the feeling I’m even more sadist in this fic with my baby Kazu than I have been before (I feel horrible for writing this kind of past to Nino) XD well, I can’t help loving to torture my lovely Jun and Nino, it’s a bad habit but if I could, I would cover them of hugs in RL because they are so amazing <3