**still no title**
Part 2 (a)
“EEHHHHH!!!!!” The five men shouted in shock. The SMAP turned around to all the commotion, “Oi you guys are being too loud.” the leader glared, giving his sempai aura. What an 180 degree change.
“Gomenasai...” Everyone including you apologized. The SMAP members continued to practice, as you and the Arashi members began speaking at a lower volume.
“So Sara-chan you’re 23 right?” Ohno asked.
“Yup! I’m turning 24 soon!!” You smiled. Did they not get any of my letters? Do all of them seriously don't remember?....
“Sara-chan we always wanted to meet you! All of here always love reading your letters!” Aiba smiled.
“Arigato. I’m glad that you guys enjoyed reading it! I actually sent in normal letters while I was here, before I went to America, did you guys read them too?” You asked, though you were hoping that it would jogg their memories.
“Well...to be honest we don’t remember since we read like a thousand a day, but we probably did! We still have old letters that we place specially here at the office. Wanna go and check it out?” Ohno offered. You nodded your head excitedly, “Of course! But don’t you guys have to practice?”
“We’ll be back fast before sempais even notice.” Jun smirked slyly. You smiled and inconspicuously left the room. You followed Arashi to a small room that was just down the hall to the practice room they were just in.
“In this storage room is where we keep letters from our fans. We begged Johnny-san to make a room especially for this. We have your letters from New York as well! I’ll admit we have so much in here...so don’t be surprise if there was any letter from you that we didnt read.” Aiba explained as he took out the keys to unlock the room. He went in the other members as you waited.
“Sara-chan when did you start writing letters to us?” Sho called out from inside the room.
“I actually started writing to you guys when you guys debuted.”
“EHHH?? Are you serious?” The members cried. The members cried out as each of them came out with a huge plastic box.
“Each boxes have letters with 3 years interval. So the box Riida has letter from the time we debuted to 2002, Aiba-chan has letters from 2003-2006, and so on ad so forth, we even labeled them here” Sho pointed out. You smiled as you began reminiscing about the past especially the past with a certain member.
-Flash back-
“WAIT USAGI-CHAN!! I promise I’ll come and get you when you get older, and when I become a super idol!!” you heard him scream out at the entrance of the building as you left with your cousin to move to your new home.
-End-
“We have two bags in each box...read and unread. I’m actually disappointed in us for not reading old letter and for putting it off for this long. Gomenasai fans, we were just really busy, though I know that it just sounds like an excuse.” the leader prayed for forgiveness, as the others agreed
“We can always take them and read them tomorrow tonight since we don’t have anything to do that next day.” Sho suggested.
“Ohh that nice! Then it’s Sho-chan place we’ll read them! And we’ll have a sleep over!!” Aiba added, everyone agreed to it before he could refuse.
“Why is it always my place?” Sho sighed, as everyone laughed.
“But I’m really surprise that you were a fan for so long! Only a handful of fans were fans from the start right?” Nino said, the others agreed as they began opening the box.
“Yeah our 1999-2002 box has the smallest amount of letters, and so is our 2003-2006.” Aiba added, as the members remembered those tough 5-6 years, all those sweat and hardwork, and now it all paid off.
“Yeah we worked really hard and look our other boxes are packing full with letters!! Hey speaking of fans remember that small pigtailed girl that would randomly come to our practice room every now and then?” Jun mentioned.
“Oh yeah! She would randomly come and play with us saying that she was our number 1 fan or something like that! I wondered if her parents or relative moved cause she only came for like 1 year and a half right? Then she suddenly disappeared a little after we debuted. We didn’t even know her name and just called her Usagi cause of her stuff bunny she would carry with her.” Aiba remembered.
“You two idiots ssshhhhhhh!!!” Nino shushed, just then Jun and Aiba covered their mouth noticing the grave mistake they had just made. What so, he hasn’t forgotten after all! Thank Goodness, but why does he seem upset?
“Ano bakas..” The leader shook his head. You noticed the four members slowly turning their heads to the rapper, waiting for his usual alone depression time in the corner to start.
“It’s fine guys I’ve gotten over it. Don’t worry about it.” the rapper reassured, as he continued to rummage through the letters.
“Ummm if you don’t mind me asking what’s wrong?” You asked carefully.
“It’s nothing, just something about the past. It’s not our place to say.” Ohno said.
“I’m fine, I really am you guys, it’s nothing important and it’s all in the past. You guys can explain it to her if you want...I decided to forget about it a long time ago.” the rapper reassured again. Everyone looked at their rapper with worry, unconvinced.
“What? Why did he wanted to forget?” There was a stabbing pain in your heart, but you decided to keep your emotions in control until you heard the story.
“Well if Sho-chan is ok with it....You see Sara-chan, The girl Usagi was a fan from even before we debuted. It was a couple months before our debut, during a break from our dance practice, Sho found her crying in the building one day, I’m guessing she was lost and Sho-chan brought her to us to cheer her up and played with her until one of the security guard took her to where she was looking for, but when we met her the second time she was so shy, she wouldn’t say her name so we decided to call her Usagi since then. She never did tell us the relative she always came with. And well from then on she would always come on random days and come into our practice room with Sho and play with us. She would cheer for us saying that she was our number one and first fan and she was closest to Sho. We all thought of her as our cute little sister, but for Sho she was his first love, but she suddenly stopped coming and all traces of her just disappeared. We found out later that She moved out of Tokyo to a city in Chiba” Aiba explained. Everyone was silent and the atmosphere became dark.
“From then on Sho waited for her letters everyday but for the past 15 years not a single letter.” Nino added. No! I did write letters!! Taku-nii chan should’vedefinitely gave all the letters I wrote while I was here in Japan.
“Maybe the letters are in the unread piles.” You tried to reason. I can’t accept that the letter didn’t reach him!! The letters I sent through Taku-nii chan should’ve reached him!!
“That’s what we told him, but Sho asked the receptionist of the building and his manager specifically that if any letters came from a girl name Usagi save it and bring it to him personally. So since the receptionist or his manager didn’t bring him anything I’m guessing that she didn’t write to him?” Nino explained.
“Its old news so lets stop with depressing stories okay? I was only 16 back then it was just puberty hitting. I didn't know what I was thinking back then. It's over and done with so let's just end it ok? I want to forget about it.” Sho explained, as he forced a smiled. Everyone had worried expressions and was not fully convinced of his statement. No...it can’t be...Suddenly you lost your balance and fell to the ground.
“Sara-chan! Are you okay?!” the members came helping you get up. I need to talk to Taku ni chan first, it could be a misunderstanding.
“I’m okay I just must have tripped on something. I’m sorry everyone but can we do this another day? I remember I need to get home since I’m moving all of my stuff from New York!” You faked a smiled.
“Oh really? Then want to come over the office with us tomorrow night and find your letter with us?” Aiba suggested.
“Eh I thought you guys are gonna go over Sakurai-san’s place?”
“It’s okay we can go over anytime, beside its better for you to come to the office instead right? We can talk some mroe and get to know each other. Plus I'm sure Takuya-san feels more assured if we were at an office and not in a man's home.” Aiba smiled. You nodded your head and made your way back to dance practice room before them since they had to clean the boxes away and found the SMAP members waiting for you.
“Mo Sara-chan you never change do you? You always used to run off somewhere like that while we were practicing back then too!” Kusanagi smiled patting your head. You tried to smile back and turned your head to your cousin.
“Taku-nii chan I need to talk to you for a second can you meet me outside of the building?” You smiled.
“Sure. But I need to leave soon.”
“I’ll make it quick.”The both of you left outside and you stopped in your tracks.
“Taku-nii chan...it wasn’t on purpose right?” You started as you turned to face him, “The letters I asked you to send to Sho, you didn’t send it to him on purpose did you?”
Your cousin stood there frozen, as his expression confirmed your worse nightmare.
“HOW COULD YOU!!! WHY DIDN’T YOU SEND THEM?! I TRUSTED YOU THE MOST!!!!” You screamed, as you started pounding on his chest. Your cousin took all the hit as if he was waiting for them all his life, knowing he deserved them.
“No wonder they don’t remember me, I was wondering why they didn’t say anything even though I sent them all those letters...Why??..NEH! TELL ME Taku-ni!! 15 Years worth of letters..What did you do to them?!” You continued to cry. Your cousin pulled you in a hug and began to apologize.
“I still have them. I didn’t have the heart to throw them away so I have all of them. But I’m sorry. I’m really sorry Sara-chan. But I won’t lie, I would’ve stopped your letter from New York too, if I knew you were sending them these past four years. I'm glad that they didn't realise it was you from 15 years ago.” Your cousin admitted honestly.
“DOUSHIO!!! Why would you do that, you knew better than anyone how much I really liked Sho and how much I wanted to meet him and the others again. You were the only person I told about him I didn’t even tell nii-chans...Neh tell me why would you do such a thing?” You screamed as felt your knees give out falling on your knees.
“I’m sorry I’m really Sara. I did it for your sake. You realize how stressful and dark it will be dating an idol? Look at what happened to Mori.”
“You mean Katsuyuki-san your former member?” You sniffed, giving your cousin a chance to explain.
“Yeah the reason why he quit was because he wanted to avoid the media as much as possible because his girlfriend at the time were getting death threats, emails, stalking pictures and almost made her insane. Shizuka was the same, and it almost got to me to, to a point where we thought about getting a divorce.” He explain, going down to her eye level, “But because we were both idols we were used to the media which is how we are surviving. Mori’s girlfriend however, decided to end it with Mori and he never saw her again. We tried to pursuade Johnny’s to let him back but he was not convinced...Sara it’s a dangerous road for you and Sho. I don’t want you to get caught up in all of that. I love you too much to let you go through all of that, which is why I decided to end it before it even started. I thought that because Sho was still just a kid he would get over it quickly I mean what does a 16 year old really know about love right? It took him time I’ll admit, he was depress, upset and dark and I really felt guilty doing what I did, but Sara if it was for you and for your sake I don’t regret it. I’m pretty sure your brothers would have done the same.” He finished.
“But Taku-nii chan I still can’t accept it...It still can’t forgive you had no right to interfere! Even if things became that bad it was our problem to solve, not yours! Plus that's thinking way too far ahead! Do you know how ridiculous your argument sounds? I hate you!” You screamed as you left running, ignoring your cousin’s calls. A figure came behind Takuya and noticing his presence he turned his head to meet his group leader.
“So she found out?”
“Yeah Nakai, what am I going to do?” He sighed hopelessly.
“Hey you did it for her, it was for her sake. I would’ve done the same. Just give her some time she’ll understand.” He advised, placing his hand on his shoulders for support, unknowing to the two singers, figure stood not to far away from the entrance and saw the whole scene.
D-day arrived and you were standing in front of the office like you promised the Arashi members. You didn’t know show to face Sho after finding out what your cousin did. You knew the members didn’t find any letters of your since they were all with our cousins, maybe one or two from when you were still at New York. Well after carefully thinking about it and talking to Shizuka-nee chan (Takuya’s wife) it made sense why he did what he did.
-Flashback-
After telling Shizuka what your cousin did, she did not seemed surpise.
“Well I understand why Takuya did what he did. Just remembering all the death threats, walking scared because of crazy stalker fans. It was horrible and it drove Takuya to do crazy things as well.” She frowned as she remember the darkest part of life.
“Really?”
“Yeah he always went partying, drinking never coming home, while I was alone by myself to deal with it all.” She replied as her eyes began to water.
‘I never knew you and Taku-nii chan went through so much.” You whispered, as guilt began to crawl its way to your chest
“I’m glad we were able to get through with it in the end, because it made our love stronger, but Sara-chan think first is this guy worth all of that? Is he worth getting hurt for? Is it worth going through all things me and Takuya went through? You’re still young so you might not understand, but if it’s like you said and Sakurai-san did seems like he was perfectly fine and forgot everything maybe its not worth starting. It might bring out old wounds he would not want to feel again, and even if he did chose to do it, do you want to see him suffer from what comes after? What if the tabloid news reporters found out? Not only his reputation but his whole group will be affected negatively and worst of all you’ll be the one to receive the worst end.” She explained logically, and it made sense. Was it worth starting? He was just 16 and you were only 9. You guys were young and are still young. Think carefully about this, you knew that your cousin also fell in love at a young age too, you realized he was just worried that you would turn the same if you kept in contact with Sho. The more you thought about it the more sad and scared you became.
-end-
A/N: this fics was a make up birthdaygift for my dear friend which i consider my baka stepsis
tsukihoshino
Pelase enjoy reading and comment are love
“EEHHHHH!!!!!” The five men shouted in shock. The SMAP turned around to all the commotion, “Oi you guys are being too loud.” the leader glared, giving his sempai aura. What an 180 degree change.
“Gomenasai...” Everyone including you apologized. The SMAP members continued to practice, as you and the Arashi members began speaking at a lower volume.
“So Sara-chan you’re 23 right?” Ohno asked.
“Yup! I’m turning 24 soon!!” You smiled. Did they not get any of my letters? Do all of them seriously don't remember?....
“Sara-chan we always wanted to meet you! All of here always love reading your letters!” Aiba smiled.
“Arigato. I’m glad that you guys enjoyed reading it! I actually sent in normal letters while I was here, before I went to America, did you guys read them too?” You asked, though you were hoping that it would jogg their memories.
“Well...to be honest we don’t remember since we read like a thousand a day, but we probably did! We still have old letters that we place specially here at the office. Wanna go and check it out?” Ohno offered. You nodded your head excitedly, “Of course! But don’t you guys have to practice?”
“We’ll be back fast before sempais even notice.” Jun smirked slyly. You smiled and inconspicuously left the room. You followed Arashi to a small room that was just down the hall to the practice room they were just in.
“In this storage room is where we keep letters from our fans. We begged Johnny-san to make a room especially for this. We have your letters from New York as well! I’ll admit we have so much in here...so don’t be surprise if there was any letter from you that we didnt read.” Aiba explained as he took out the keys to unlock the room. He went in the other members as you waited.
“Sara-chan when did you start writing letters to us?” Sho called out from inside the room.
“I actually started writing to you guys when you guys debuted.”
“EHHH?? Are you serious?” The members cried. The members cried out as each of them came out with a huge plastic box.
“Each boxes have letters with 3 years interval. So the box Riida has letter from the time we debuted to 2002, Aiba-chan has letters from 2003-2006, and so on ad so forth, we even labeled them here” Sho pointed out. You smiled as you began reminiscing about the past especially the past with a certain member.
-Flash back-
“WAIT USAGI-CHAN!! I promise I’ll come and get you when you get older, and when I become a super idol!!” you heard him scream out at the entrance of the building as you left with your cousin to move to your new home.
-End-
“We have two bags in each box...read and unread. I’m actually disappointed in us for not reading old letter and for putting it off for this long. Gomenasai fans, we were just really busy, though I know that it just sounds like an excuse.” the leader prayed for forgiveness, as the others agreed
“We can always take them and read them tomorrow tonight since we don’t have anything to do that next day.” Sho suggested.
“Ohh that nice! Then it’s Sho-chan place we’ll read them! And we’ll have a sleep over!!” Aiba added, everyone agreed to it before he could refuse.
“Why is it always my place?” Sho sighed, as everyone laughed.
“But I’m really surprise that you were a fan for so long! Only a handful of fans were fans from the start right?” Nino said, the others agreed as they began opening the box.
“Yeah our 1999-2002 box has the smallest amount of letters, and so is our 2003-2006.” Aiba added, as the members remembered those tough 5-6 years, all those sweat and hardwork, and now it all paid off.
“Yeah we worked really hard and look our other boxes are packing full with letters!! Hey speaking of fans remember that small pigtailed girl that would randomly come to our practice room every now and then?” Jun mentioned.
“Oh yeah! She would randomly come and play with us saying that she was our number 1 fan or something like that! I wondered if her parents or relative moved cause she only came for like 1 year and a half right? Then she suddenly disappeared a little after we debuted. We didn’t even know her name and just called her Usagi cause of her stuff bunny she would carry with her.” Aiba remembered.
“You two idiots ssshhhhhhh!!!” Nino shushed, just then Jun and Aiba covered their mouth noticing the grave mistake they had just made. What so, he hasn’t forgotten after all! Thank Goodness, but why does he seem upset?
“Ano bakas..” The leader shook his head. You noticed the four members slowly turning their heads to the rapper, waiting for his usual alone depression time in the corner to start.
“It’s fine guys I’ve gotten over it. Don’t worry about it.” the rapper reassured, as he continued to rummage through the letters.
“Ummm if you don’t mind me asking what’s wrong?” You asked carefully.
“It’s nothing, just something about the past. It’s not our place to say.” Ohno said.
“I’m fine, I really am you guys, it’s nothing important and it’s all in the past. You guys can explain it to her if you want...I decided to forget about it a long time ago.” the rapper reassured again. Everyone looked at their rapper with worry, unconvinced.
“What? Why did he wanted to forget?” There was a stabbing pain in your heart, but you decided to keep your emotions in control until you heard the story.
“Well if Sho-chan is ok with it....You see Sara-chan, The girl Usagi was a fan from even before we debuted. It was a couple months before our debut, during a break from our dance practice, Sho found her crying in the building one day, I’m guessing she was lost and Sho-chan brought her to us to cheer her up and played with her until one of the security guard took her to where she was looking for, but when we met her the second time she was so shy, she wouldn’t say her name so we decided to call her Usagi since then. She never did tell us the relative she always came with. And well from then on she would always come on random days and come into our practice room with Sho and play with us. She would cheer for us saying that she was our number one and first fan and she was closest to Sho. We all thought of her as our cute little sister, but for Sho she was his first love, but she suddenly stopped coming and all traces of her just disappeared. We found out later that She moved out of Tokyo to a city in Chiba” Aiba explained. Everyone was silent and the atmosphere became dark.
“From then on Sho waited for her letters everyday but for the past 15 years not a single letter.” Nino added. No! I did write letters!! Taku-nii chan should’vedefinitely gave all the letters I wrote while I was here in Japan.
“Maybe the letters are in the unread piles.” You tried to reason. I can’t accept that the letter didn’t reach him!! The letters I sent through Taku-nii chan should’ve reached him!!
“That’s what we told him, but Sho asked the receptionist of the building and his manager specifically that if any letters came from a girl name Usagi save it and bring it to him personally. So since the receptionist or his manager didn’t bring him anything I’m guessing that she didn’t write to him?” Nino explained.
“Its old news so lets stop with depressing stories okay? I was only 16 back then it was just puberty hitting. I didn't know what I was thinking back then. It's over and done with so let's just end it ok? I want to forget about it.” Sho explained, as he forced a smiled. Everyone had worried expressions and was not fully convinced of his statement. No...it can’t be...Suddenly you lost your balance and fell to the ground.
“Sara-chan! Are you okay?!” the members came helping you get up. I need to talk to Taku ni chan first, it could be a misunderstanding.
“I’m okay I just must have tripped on something. I’m sorry everyone but can we do this another day? I remember I need to get home since I’m moving all of my stuff from New York!” You faked a smiled.
“Oh really? Then want to come over the office with us tomorrow night and find your letter with us?” Aiba suggested.
“Eh I thought you guys are gonna go over Sakurai-san’s place?”
“It’s okay we can go over anytime, beside its better for you to come to the office instead right? We can talk some mroe and get to know each other. Plus I'm sure Takuya-san feels more assured if we were at an office and not in a man's home.” Aiba smiled. You nodded your head and made your way back to dance practice room before them since they had to clean the boxes away and found the SMAP members waiting for you.
“Mo Sara-chan you never change do you? You always used to run off somewhere like that while we were practicing back then too!” Kusanagi smiled patting your head. You tried to smile back and turned your head to your cousin.
“Taku-nii chan I need to talk to you for a second can you meet me outside of the building?” You smiled.
“Sure. But I need to leave soon.”
“I’ll make it quick.”The both of you left outside and you stopped in your tracks.
“Taku-nii chan...it wasn’t on purpose right?” You started as you turned to face him, “The letters I asked you to send to Sho, you didn’t send it to him on purpose did you?”
Your cousin stood there frozen, as his expression confirmed your worse nightmare.
“HOW COULD YOU!!! WHY DIDN’T YOU SEND THEM?! I TRUSTED YOU THE MOST!!!!” You screamed, as you started pounding on his chest. Your cousin took all the hit as if he was waiting for them all his life, knowing he deserved them.
“No wonder they don’t remember me, I was wondering why they didn’t say anything even though I sent them all those letters...Why??..NEH! TELL ME Taku-ni!! 15 Years worth of letters..What did you do to them?!” You continued to cry. Your cousin pulled you in a hug and began to apologize.
“I still have them. I didn’t have the heart to throw them away so I have all of them. But I’m sorry. I’m really sorry Sara-chan. But I won’t lie, I would’ve stopped your letter from New York too, if I knew you were sending them these past four years. I'm glad that they didn't realise it was you from 15 years ago.” Your cousin admitted honestly.
“DOUSHIO!!! Why would you do that, you knew better than anyone how much I really liked Sho and how much I wanted to meet him and the others again. You were the only person I told about him I didn’t even tell nii-chans...Neh tell me why would you do such a thing?” You screamed as felt your knees give out falling on your knees.
“I’m sorry I’m really Sara. I did it for your sake. You realize how stressful and dark it will be dating an idol? Look at what happened to Mori.”
“You mean Katsuyuki-san your former member?” You sniffed, giving your cousin a chance to explain.
“Yeah the reason why he quit was because he wanted to avoid the media as much as possible because his girlfriend at the time were getting death threats, emails, stalking pictures and almost made her insane. Shizuka was the same, and it almost got to me to, to a point where we thought about getting a divorce.” He explain, going down to her eye level, “But because we were both idols we were used to the media which is how we are surviving. Mori’s girlfriend however, decided to end it with Mori and he never saw her again. We tried to pursuade Johnny’s to let him back but he was not convinced...Sara it’s a dangerous road for you and Sho. I don’t want you to get caught up in all of that. I love you too much to let you go through all of that, which is why I decided to end it before it even started. I thought that because Sho was still just a kid he would get over it quickly I mean what does a 16 year old really know about love right? It took him time I’ll admit, he was depress, upset and dark and I really felt guilty doing what I did, but Sara if it was for you and for your sake I don’t regret it. I’m pretty sure your brothers would have done the same.” He finished.
“But Taku-nii chan I still can’t accept it...It still can’t forgive you had no right to interfere! Even if things became that bad it was our problem to solve, not yours! Plus that's thinking way too far ahead! Do you know how ridiculous your argument sounds? I hate you!” You screamed as you left running, ignoring your cousin’s calls. A figure came behind Takuya and noticing his presence he turned his head to meet his group leader.
“So she found out?”
“Yeah Nakai, what am I going to do?” He sighed hopelessly.
“Hey you did it for her, it was for her sake. I would’ve done the same. Just give her some time she’ll understand.” He advised, placing his hand on his shoulders for support, unknowing to the two singers, figure stood not to far away from the entrance and saw the whole scene.
D-day arrived and you were standing in front of the office like you promised the Arashi members. You didn’t know show to face Sho after finding out what your cousin did. You knew the members didn’t find any letters of your since they were all with our cousins, maybe one or two from when you were still at New York. Well after carefully thinking about it and talking to Shizuka-nee chan (Takuya’s wife) it made sense why he did what he did.
-Flashback-
After telling Shizuka what your cousin did, she did not seemed surpise.
“Well I understand why Takuya did what he did. Just remembering all the death threats, walking scared because of crazy stalker fans. It was horrible and it drove Takuya to do crazy things as well.” She frowned as she remember the darkest part of life.
“Really?”
“Yeah he always went partying, drinking never coming home, while I was alone by myself to deal with it all.” She replied as her eyes began to water.
‘I never knew you and Taku-nii chan went through so much.” You whispered, as guilt began to crawl its way to your chest
“I’m glad we were able to get through with it in the end, because it made our love stronger, but Sara-chan think first is this guy worth all of that? Is he worth getting hurt for? Is it worth going through all things me and Takuya went through? You’re still young so you might not understand, but if it’s like you said and Sakurai-san did seems like he was perfectly fine and forgot everything maybe its not worth starting. It might bring out old wounds he would not want to feel again, and even if he did chose to do it, do you want to see him suffer from what comes after? What if the tabloid news reporters found out? Not only his reputation but his whole group will be affected negatively and worst of all you’ll be the one to receive the worst end.” She explained logically, and it made sense. Was it worth starting? He was just 16 and you were only 9. You guys were young and are still young. Think carefully about this, you knew that your cousin also fell in love at a young age too, you realized he was just worried that you would turn the same if you kept in contact with Sho. The more you thought about it the more sad and scared you became.
-end-
A/N: this fics was a make up birthdaygift for my dear friend which i consider my baka stepsis
tsukihoshino
Pelase enjoy reading and comment are love