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[matt_matters_85]

So that was an interesting experience to say the least. I don't even want to describe it again, as that was much too real for me to ever want to deal with again. Stayed up all night drinking, next thing we know, just like old times, it's light out, and so we decide to go and get more alcohol. Nothing too much, compared to how much we usually drink

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[jobsquadmember]

i hope this doesn't offend... but... not a surprise.

i don't think it's just 'slow down'. how has 'slowing down' worked so far?

seriously, matt... 'slowing down' always results in 'well, i stopped for a day, i'm okay' then wrecking yourself right afterwards.

but only you can come to these conclusions and make the decisions, in the end.

this is why i fear for Jen. because even though i haven't seen her in months, i see her doing the same things. thinking the same way.

and i fear for you both, in the end.

[matt_matters_85]

I'll attack this one line for line.

"i hope this doesn't offend... but... not a surprise."

You have the guts to say something that you think could possibly offend me. I know that's nowhere near your intention, so i'm thankful you're willing to speak your mind, in this time, where I constantly feel like i'm losing mine.

"i don't think it's just 'slow down'. how has 'slowing down' worked so far? seriously, matt... 'slowing down' always results in 'well, i stopped for a day, i'm okay' then wrecking yourself right afterwards."You're absolutely right. I've come to this realization/conclusion after this crazy-scary experience, and I believe that it was life-altering, as i don't think i'm going to be the same Matt for awhile now. I want to say "That's it, I quit, i'm sick and tired of feeling like this; sick and tired of feeling like shit," but AGH! I don't know! I've accepted that I can officially be labled an alcoholic, and i'm not super proud of that, or anything. I want to come out on top on my own. I don't want to go to the hospital

[thesylum]

Well Matt, only you can really know if you truly want to slow down or your just scared. Because if your just scared from a couple of expereinces chances are youll get over it and start up again. I really hope you can beat this dude.

[matt_matters_85]

That's ANOTHER way of looking at it... unfortunately.

P.S.
It's 4-20... party on. I'll be drinking water tonight.