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[mattafix_007]

i try to push it but it doesnt move.
what is this thing in front of me?
it takes it's toll and wont let up, it just takes and takes.
i feel wasted. i feel hopeless.
i feel everything i am atop of is soon about to be nothing.
i am in my own way.

prepare....

Comments

[valura]

you doing ok?

Im a bit concerned about you hey. Who do YOU get to talk to when your supporting everyone else?

[mattafix_007]

yeah i guess that a problem i need to sort out. i need to start talking more.

[valura]

Im only a phone call away should you want to!!

[mattafix_007]

wouldnt know where to start to be honest. it's all good. it'll work it's way through eventually. i can look after myself alright.

[elkepixie]

ok... this is interesting

that feeling of hopelessness and feeling wasted...

this might sound weird but we've been thinking it's sorta "going around" ...like just about all of us in phoenix have been feeling so rundown and tired and this complete lack of motivation feeling... all at slightly varying times and not just over what we are doing... it's like a bug that has shifted around between us... this overwhelming feeling of "i just can't" ...when you totally can or even want to... but your body and mind are just exhausted...?

i sorta wonder if there *is* something going around... like, can a bug effect your emotions like that? and sort of only that?... coz it's not like there are any other symptoms... just tired overwhelmed sorta *feeling* ...

anyways... it's prolly more than just a bug ... but if that's all it is at least you know you'll feel better soon!

.:*HUGS*:.

[mattafix_007]

i reckon it's a maybe a spiritual bug. i've been on a roller coaster for ages now. thinkin i threw up my spiritual lunch way back on the 1st big dip....i wanna get off.

[valura]

TOTALLY!! Maybe we are caught on the loop de loop for a bit. Its bollocks