...in response to Kip's last update...

[matthewperry]

Uh...moving on? I went to visit a friend who I knew could comfort me. Do you think I'm happy? I'm not. He helps me get my mind off of it sometimes by talking about other stuff. And we talk about this shit too sometimes. The only thing I'm happy about is being able to escape from it all on occasion. Most of the time, I can't even do that. Yeah, I

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[kip_carpenter]

I told you that's what it seems like. I don't know if you are. That's just how it looks. I'm glad you have a friend to go to that comforts you. And "this shit" is our marriage. It isn't shit. No one's keeping you from "escaping" as you say most of the time but most of the time running away doesn't help. Talking about it does. I'm willing to give you time away. I always have. I've never stopped you from leaving, it's always been your choice.

The way I talk on the phone is bitterness because I can't be with you and I want to be. That the time I would like to be spending with you is being spent with someone else. Now, yes he's a friend, and I understand that. But I'm your husband, I'd like to be with you, i'm sorry if i'm not the happiest when i'm not with you. I'm only happy when I'm with you. I can't change that.

The only reason I think that non of this has progressed, is like I said, is because we're not talking. You can take your time but that isn't going to help us if we don't talk.

[matthewperry]

I never said our marriage was shit. The shit is all the fighting we've been doing. The shit is what's in these comments here with bantering back and forth for no reason.

And I'm not running. I am talking...hence, my telling you I talk with Peter.

And yeah, maybe it's been my choice to leave, but you being bitter and pissy about it doesn't help. You say you always support me, but you getting upset when I need time away - time that you suggested we take, no less - really doesn't help at all. If anything, it makes things worse.

This is the first time you've actually talked to me. You keep saying that you don't want to hide anything anymore, so don't.

And I'm not the only one taking time away, Kip.

[kip_carpenter]

I don't think that the comments back and forth here are for no reason. At least we're talking.

I don't mean just talking with Peter, I mean talking with me. I'm glad you have someone else to talk to but you need to talk to me too.

I told you i'm trying not to be pissy and all that. That's what my last update was for. But when you stay mad at me it's hard to not stay pissy about all it.

I'm not hiding anything. At least I don't realize that I am. I'm trying to appoligize. I was trying to make things better with my last post.

Yeah we're both taking time apart. But I was telling you how I was feeling. I'm not trying to make you feel guilty. Take what you need.

[matthewperry]

Yeah. I'm glad we're talking.

*hugs*

[jaime__king]

Hey sweetie, just got a journal. I'm gonna add you to my friends list, add me back please! I want to create my own army of friends!

[matthewperry]

Alright! Woo! *adds you*