WTF?
I had to resurrect this one cuz I just read what happened to scott. Here's his web page on www.redvsblue.com http://rvb.roosterteeth.com/members/profile.php?uid=165093
I posted this a while ago, but here it is again. Also, here's the journal that explains all of what happened. http://rvb.roosterteeth.com/members/journal/entry.php?id=259618 I.... am crying.
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Death:
It's some crazy stuff when you read about somebody who "just" died.
I was reading some stuff on MySpace, and went user browsing. Skipped from here to there looking at different people and their personalities and what not. Some people here are pretty cool, others are f-ing dumb and I'd like to see them shipped to France or somewhere less important. While I was looking through profiles and what not, I came across this one person. She had lost her bf just last August (2004). They've been together for a while and he asked her to marry him and they had set the date for May 1st. (Crazy how much you can pick up from somebodies blog and pictures.) I read more, and she's coping and what not. All her friends on MySpace have been supportive and try to help her. So far so good.
But just think about it. After ONE person leaves your life, they can't every come back. And even that dude who died, he had a girl and his whole life in front of him, and he dies. (I don't know how he died, and I'd rather leave that part unanswered questions.) After reading this for a little while, it got me thinking. Life is WAY too fucking short for a lot of bullshit that others put us through. Like on the internet, how guys (and even some chicks) can be total ass holes and have total abandon when it comes to other peoples feelings.
"Those who judge, don't matter. Those who matter, don't judge." I'd like to think that this is how I feel about the world as a whole. That I don't care about anybody but my friends and family becuase, honestly, if you aren't my friend you're probably and ignorant FUCKTARD who needs to get an f-ing life. But really, I do care some what about whether or not I'm ruining somebody's day. For instance, being on the internet can make a lot of people seem more open. A.K.A. a horny motherfucker. And if it just so happens that this person has popped up on this chicks page and told her she was hot or other random guy shit we tend to say, I doubt that'd go over fairly well with her. I mean, her bf DIED. And now she has to put up with dumb ass guys who have no FUCKING MANORS on the internet. FUCK NO!!!
I'm not really writting this for my friends, because I'm pretty sure you aren't those types of people. But it's not like this is going in the newspaper or something like that. I just felt like talking about this subject for a bit. I mean, it's pretty freakin' sad when you think about the woman and her bf dying. But it's worse when dudes feel it's their right to unload a bunch of testosterone on her. WTF?!?!
When I wrote that, I had also contacted that person on myspace. She happens to live fairly close to me in San Francisco. We are now friends, more or less. Basically, I just wanna make sure she's alright. Her real friends actually haven't been all that great, and she's been in a few relationships that haven't been all that great since her b/f died... It's quite sad. And now I read about Scott, and it's just sad how somebody like that could have been taken from this world so soon. I don't like crying. It shows that I am weak. But, I'm SO SAD for this chick and Scott's Father; how they have to deal with this pain every day. I don't really know what to say anymore. The words are there, mostly guilt that it had to happen to these people.
I just don't know anymore...