hyper-sweet is being an ass. he got a girlfriend and believed i'd be alright with that. that i could automatically switch from being his lover to his friend. what he didn't take into account was that i asked him to be my second. he didn't know how much that means to me. so things were bad for a while while i was recouperating from the section ( Read more... )

my mom got a puppie. she is super cute. her name is molly and i get to doggy-sit her. she is fuzzy and cuddly and 8 weeks old. she makes me happy... and right now i really need it.

hm... i've got only minutes left on the copy at the public library again... what to say about stripping.
it's fun. it gives me a feeling of power and cotrol. something i'm not used to but that i've craved for a long time. if any of you know my mother and what a dominating bitch she is, you'll know how i've been subjecated my whole life. and ( Read more... )

E : P
he he, thanks for the hello, non descript.
kieran, i'm still gonna be a stripper.
and ornelas, "ho" is a completely different line of work, though the outfit may be the same. tee hee.

i have ten minutes till the library compy kicks me off. what to say...
later today is the men's wearhouse xmas party. i am psyched 'cause the food is super awesome and there is alcohol! also, i may get to meet THE MAN... george zimmer. you know? the "i guarantee it" guy? he wasn't at last years party but he's supposed to make it this year. i ( Read more... )

awesome linky. must see of the season.
make sure volume is up!
http://media.putfile.com/WizardsofWinter-SM

hm. i will now rattle off a bunch of quick updates in no particular order.
my employment at safeway lasted less than two weeks.
shad is just over a month away from 21.
hyper-sweet has become my second.
dee has a new lover/roomie, a full time job and full time school.
shad and dee's new lover got busy behind closed doors and dee was upset ( Read more... )

well. i'm not sick much anymore... but there is some bad news. i was driving in shad's car and rear ended another car when a jerk in a red sports car cut me off. now i need to pay $4,100 to fix the other car's fuckin' rear fender while shad's car is super fucked up in the front. i need ideas on how to raise money fast. what i'm thinking of ( ( Read more... )

well, i'm on my fourth day of a very very bad illness. i can barely swallow my own saliva and have large sores in the back of my throat. i went in to the doctor yesterday and he gave a quick look and ordered a throat culture and wrote a perscription for penicillin. they only tested for strep throat and that was negative. today is even worse and ( Read more... )

short version
- how shad treats me when around serpent.
- my feelings of low self esteme.
- shad unwilling to explain why he treated me so.
- my attempt to reach out to serpent for help.
- my "healing".
( long version )