The cautionary tale of a girl who got engaged to a prince in chapter 3
This is the time of winter when you know, you feel winter's over, and the sun is out more often than not, and the birds are deafening in their excitement, yet the snow is still mostly intact, and the air so crisp and lovely, that you wish for more winter.
That's for a prologue, now to business. (It's a long story.) misstopia remarked how Beatiful Confusion would totally be Sansa's netname, so the next time I listened to the band that happens to be named Beauty's Confusion I just knew what I was listening for, and then chisakami asked for a fanmix, and a lot of inner turmoil later this happened.
Disclaimer: I've been divorced from my Photobucket for soon three years, so it's being a total bitch. So, you know, go easy on me.
1. Summer Overture ~ Clint Mansell
The late summer snows have been heavy this moonturn.
{instrumental}
2. Tire l'aiguile ~ Celine Dion
Sansa would shine in the south, Catelyn thought to herself, and the gods knew that Arya needed refinement. Reluctantly, she let go of them in her heart.
{French lyrics}
Pull, pull the needle, my daughter
Tomorrow you will be wed
Near the dancing fire in his rocking chair
Your father is sleeping
Your mother, without saying a word,
Finishes folding your dowry
Tomorrow, after the feast, your father will learn
The marriage costs a great deal
3. Ces diamants-là ~ Notre Dame de Paris
Her betrothed. Sansa did not really know Joffrey yet, but she was already in love with him.
My fourteen springs are for you
This diamond necklace is for me
The stars in the sky sparkle less
Than these diamonds
The one that my hearts loves
Is a beautiful knight
He does not yet know
How much I can love him
Don't look for love anymore
It is here
It is here forever
4. Siren ~ Tori Amos
Jory pulled [Arya] off her sister, kicking. Sansa was pale and shaking as Ned lifted her back to her feet. “Are you hurt?” he asked, but she was staring at Arya, and she did not seem to hear. <...>
He left the room with his eyes burning and his daughter’s wails echoing in his ears, and found the direwolf pup where they chained her.
And you know you're gonna lie to you
In your own way
Know too well
Know the chill
Know she breaks
My siren
Almost brave
Almost in love
Vanilla
5. You Don't Know What Love Is (You Just Do As You're Told) ~ The White Stripes
“How well I know that, child,” Cersei said, her voice so kind and sweet. “Why else should you have come to me and told me of your father’s plan to send you away from us, if not for love?”
“It was for love,” Sansa said in a rush. “Father wouldn’t even give me leave to say farewell.”
When pushed and pulled and pressured
You seldom run and hide
But its for someone elses benefit
you just keep on repeating
all those empty "I love you's"
until you say you deserve better
I'm gonna lay right into you
6. God Be With You ~ The Cranberries
Dimly, as if from far off, Arya heard her sister scream. Sansa had fallen to her knees, sobbing hysterically. Ser Ilyn Payne climbed the steps of the pulpit.
The truth will ever hide
Even though I tried
They tried to take my pride
But they only took my father from me
I've lost my religion now
You took that too somehow
Blood upon thy hands
7. Dirty Bird ~ Laika
“Do it, girl,” Sandor Clegane told her, pushing her back toward the king. His mouth twitched on the burned side of his face and Sansa could almost hear the rest of it. He’ll have you up there no matter what, so give him what he wants.
Damn you dirty bird
It's all said and done
Do I walk away or run
Damn you filthy crow
Rain from the heavens now
Take the flowers and trees
Pluck these eyes from me
What went wrong, what went wrong
8. Angry Angel ~ Imogen Heap
“The little bird still can’t bear to look at me, can she?” The Hound released her. “You were glad enough to see my face when the mob had you, though. Remember?”
Sansa remembered all too well. <...> When they broke and ran before him he had laughed, his terrible burned face for a moment transformed.
Over there stands my angry angel
And he's shaking his head, in disgrace with me
Time after time, you may glare at
Him for the way he looks like something drawn up from hell
He loves to rebel to go against his ten commandments
For him, thats just being free
9. Everything Burns ~ Anastacia & Ben Moody
The southern sky was aswirl with glowing, shifting colors, the reflections of the great fires that burned below. Baleful green tides moved against the bellies of the clouds, and pools of orange light spread out across the heavens. The reds and yellows of common flame warred against the emeralds and jades of wildfire, each color flaring and then fading, birthing armies of short-lived shadows to die again an instant later.
She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings
Till everything burns
10. My Skin ~ Natalie Merchant
"But he does not know you,” Dontos insisted, “and he will not love you. Jonquil, Jonquil, open your sweet eyes, these Tyrells care nothing for you. it’s your claim they mean to wed.”
They say that promises
Sweeten the blow
But I don't need them
I'm a slow dying flower
Frost killing hour
The sweet turning sour
And untouchable
11. That's Okay ~ The Hush Sound
Afterward, she could not remember leaving the room or descending the steps or crossing the yard. It seemed to take all her attention just to put one foot down in front of the other. Ser Meryn and Ser Osmund walked beside her, in cloaks as pale as her own, lacking only the pearls and the direwolf that had been her father’s. Joffrey himself was waiting for her on the steps of the castle sept. The king was resplendent in crimson and gold, his crown on his head. “I’m your father today,” he announced.
If somebody loved you, they'd tell you by now
We all turn away when you're down.
You want to go back to where you felt safe
To hear your brother's laughter,
See your mother's face
Your childhood home is just down to white bones
And you'll never find your way back
And when you're gone, will they say your name?
And when you're gone, will they love you the same?
If not, that's okay
12. What Do You Go Home To? ~ Explosions In The Sky
“I ... would sooner not know. It would give me bad dreams.”
“Then I will say no more.”
“That ... that’s kind of you.”
“Oh, yes,” said Tyrion. “I am the very soul of kindness. And I know about bad dreams.”
{instrumental}
13. I've Seen It All ~ Bjork & Thom Yorke
“That was unchivalrously done, my lady.”
“As was bringing me here, when you swore to take me home.”
She wondered where this courage had come from, to speak to him so frankly. From Winterfell, she thought. I am stronger within the walls of Winterfell.
His face grew serious. “Yes, I played you false in that ... and in one other thing as well.”
Have you seen the Great Wall?
All walls are great
If the roof doesn't fall
And the man you will marry
The home you will share?
To be honest
I really don't care
I've seen water, it's water that's all
14. The Wrong Way ~ Beauty's Confusion
He is serving me lies as well. A lie is not so bad if it is kindly meant. <...>
He saved Alayne, his daughter, a voice within her whispered. But she was Sansa too... Littlefinger never lifted so much as his little finger for her. Except to get me out. He did that for me. <...>
I have no place but here, Sansa thought miserably, and no true friend but Petyr.
This is not a punishment
It's just a simple fact
Don't be so naive
It was only a dream
How could you ever believe it was real?
Stop deceiving yourself
And grow up, grow up
If you can't get love, get sympathy, yeah
Maybe I'll be your regret
But you will not be my mistake
You are just a lesson
I refuse to learn until I
Break
15. Après Moi ~ Regina Spektor
[insert Sansa being awesome in ADWD]
I must go on standing
You can't break that which isn't yours
I must go on standing
I'm on my own, it's not my choice
And there's a crack!bonus track: White Horse by Taylor Swift.
I was a dreamer before
And you let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
To come around
Because there are no true knights, y/y?
(Kindly do let me know if you know songs calling knights and knightly metaphors out on their shit.)
Full .zip is HERE
Art credits for the cover:
Younger Sansa by Wonitano @dA
Older Sansa by liska_rediska @dA
That's for a prologue, now to business. (It's a long story.) misstopia remarked how Beatiful Confusion would totally be Sansa's netname, so the next time I listened to the band that happens to be named Beauty's Confusion I just knew what I was listening for, and then chisakami asked for a fanmix, and a lot of inner turmoil later this happened.
Disclaimer: I've been divorced from my Photobucket for soon three years, so it's being a total bitch. So, you know, go easy on me.
1. Summer Overture ~ Clint Mansell
The late summer snows have been heavy this moonturn.
{instrumental}
2. Tire l'aiguile ~ Celine Dion
Sansa would shine in the south, Catelyn thought to herself, and the gods knew that Arya needed refinement. Reluctantly, she let go of them in her heart.
{French lyrics}
Pull, pull the needle, my daughter
Tomorrow you will be wed
Near the dancing fire in his rocking chair
Your father is sleeping
Your mother, without saying a word,
Finishes folding your dowry
Tomorrow, after the feast, your father will learn
The marriage costs a great deal
3. Ces diamants-là ~ Notre Dame de Paris
Her betrothed. Sansa did not really know Joffrey yet, but she was already in love with him.
My fourteen springs are for you
This diamond necklace is for me
The stars in the sky sparkle less
Than these diamonds
The one that my hearts loves
Is a beautiful knight
He does not yet know
How much I can love him
Don't look for love anymore
It is here
It is here forever
4. Siren ~ Tori Amos
Jory pulled [Arya] off her sister, kicking. Sansa was pale and shaking as Ned lifted her back to her feet. “Are you hurt?” he asked, but she was staring at Arya, and she did not seem to hear. <...>
He left the room with his eyes burning and his daughter’s wails echoing in his ears, and found the direwolf pup where they chained her.
And you know you're gonna lie to you
In your own way
Know too well
Know the chill
Know she breaks
My siren
Almost brave
Almost in love
Vanilla
5. You Don't Know What Love Is (You Just Do As You're Told) ~ The White Stripes
“How well I know that, child,” Cersei said, her voice so kind and sweet. “Why else should you have come to me and told me of your father’s plan to send you away from us, if not for love?”
“It was for love,” Sansa said in a rush. “Father wouldn’t even give me leave to say farewell.”
When pushed and pulled and pressured
You seldom run and hide
But its for someone elses benefit
you just keep on repeating
all those empty "I love you's"
until you say you deserve better
I'm gonna lay right into you
6. God Be With You ~ The Cranberries
Dimly, as if from far off, Arya heard her sister scream. Sansa had fallen to her knees, sobbing hysterically. Ser Ilyn Payne climbed the steps of the pulpit.
The truth will ever hide
Even though I tried
They tried to take my pride
But they only took my father from me
I've lost my religion now
You took that too somehow
Blood upon thy hands
7. Dirty Bird ~ Laika
“Do it, girl,” Sandor Clegane told her, pushing her back toward the king. His mouth twitched on the burned side of his face and Sansa could almost hear the rest of it. He’ll have you up there no matter what, so give him what he wants.
Damn you dirty bird
It's all said and done
Do I walk away or run
Damn you filthy crow
Rain from the heavens now
Take the flowers and trees
Pluck these eyes from me
What went wrong, what went wrong
8. Angry Angel ~ Imogen Heap
“The little bird still can’t bear to look at me, can she?” The Hound released her. “You were glad enough to see my face when the mob had you, though. Remember?”
Sansa remembered all too well. <...> When they broke and ran before him he had laughed, his terrible burned face for a moment transformed.
Over there stands my angry angel
And he's shaking his head, in disgrace with me
Time after time, you may glare at
Him for the way he looks like something drawn up from hell
He loves to rebel to go against his ten commandments
For him, thats just being free
9. Everything Burns ~ Anastacia & Ben Moody
The southern sky was aswirl with glowing, shifting colors, the reflections of the great fires that burned below. Baleful green tides moved against the bellies of the clouds, and pools of orange light spread out across the heavens. The reds and yellows of common flame warred against the emeralds and jades of wildfire, each color flaring and then fading, birthing armies of short-lived shadows to die again an instant later.
She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings
Till everything burns
10. My Skin ~ Natalie Merchant
"But he does not know you,” Dontos insisted, “and he will not love you. Jonquil, Jonquil, open your sweet eyes, these Tyrells care nothing for you. it’s your claim they mean to wed.”
They say that promises
Sweeten the blow
But I don't need them
I'm a slow dying flower
Frost killing hour
The sweet turning sour
And untouchable
11. That's Okay ~ The Hush Sound
Afterward, she could not remember leaving the room or descending the steps or crossing the yard. It seemed to take all her attention just to put one foot down in front of the other. Ser Meryn and Ser Osmund walked beside her, in cloaks as pale as her own, lacking only the pearls and the direwolf that had been her father’s. Joffrey himself was waiting for her on the steps of the castle sept. The king was resplendent in crimson and gold, his crown on his head. “I’m your father today,” he announced.
If somebody loved you, they'd tell you by now
We all turn away when you're down.
You want to go back to where you felt safe
To hear your brother's laughter,
See your mother's face
Your childhood home is just down to white bones
And you'll never find your way back
And when you're gone, will they say your name?
And when you're gone, will they love you the same?
If not, that's okay
12. What Do You Go Home To? ~ Explosions In The Sky
“I ... would sooner not know. It would give me bad dreams.”
“Then I will say no more.”
“That ... that’s kind of you.”
“Oh, yes,” said Tyrion. “I am the very soul of kindness. And I know about bad dreams.”
{instrumental}
13. I've Seen It All ~ Bjork & Thom Yorke
“That was unchivalrously done, my lady.”
“As was bringing me here, when you swore to take me home.”
She wondered where this courage had come from, to speak to him so frankly. From Winterfell, she thought. I am stronger within the walls of Winterfell.
His face grew serious. “Yes, I played you false in that ... and in one other thing as well.”
Have you seen the Great Wall?
All walls are great
If the roof doesn't fall
And the man you will marry
The home you will share?
To be honest
I really don't care
I've seen water, it's water that's all
14. The Wrong Way ~ Beauty's Confusion
He is serving me lies as well. A lie is not so bad if it is kindly meant. <...>
He saved Alayne, his daughter, a voice within her whispered. But she was Sansa too... Littlefinger never lifted so much as his little finger for her. Except to get me out. He did that for me. <...>
I have no place but here, Sansa thought miserably, and no true friend but Petyr.
This is not a punishment
It's just a simple fact
Don't be so naive
It was only a dream
How could you ever believe it was real?
Stop deceiving yourself
And grow up, grow up
If you can't get love, get sympathy, yeah
Maybe I'll be your regret
But you will not be my mistake
You are just a lesson
I refuse to learn until I
Break
15. Après Moi ~ Regina Spektor
[insert Sansa being awesome in ADWD]
I must go on standing
You can't break that which isn't yours
I must go on standing
I'm on my own, it's not my choice
And there's a crack!bonus track: White Horse by Taylor Swift.
I was a dreamer before
And you let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
To come around
Because there are no true knights, y/y?
(Kindly do let me know if you know songs calling knights and knightly metaphors out on their shit.)
Full .zip is HERE
Art credits for the cover:
Younger Sansa by Wonitano @dA
Older Sansa by liska_rediska @dA