so yea... i feel completely and totally like crap... i think that i gotta stomach thing... im just not feeling hungry which is kinda making it worse cuz i haven't eaten all day... i feel like if i don't eat imma puke and if i do then imma puke... its kind of a lose lose situation... yea buddy... i just wanna die right now ( Read more... )

ok yesterday was a pretty good day... first of all i woke up in the room in manny's bed... i know nothing happened cuz i didn't wake up screaming, lol... that was at about 7 am-ish... went home, and threw some clothes in the wash bout 730 am-ish... fell asleep knowing good and well i had to be at work at 9... well woke up at nine... called work and ( Read more... )

ive been doin a lot of thinking... well school has started and im not in school but believe it or not... i now regret not being there... i regret my first 2 semesters being so shitty... i regret having to drop out... i know this though... i will be going back... cuz in the back of my mind, next to all my friends, i feel inadequate... they are all ( Read more... )

i was all pumped to see gretchen wilson... big & rich were just a bonus... but it turned out that big & rich were soooooooooooooooooooo much more entertaining... they rocked the fucking house and i am so glad that christa gave up her ticket... thanks again btw christa... you better believe that i will have tickets to their next show... it was so ( Read more... )

WHY AM I SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE WITH STUPID FUCKING JUDGEMENT WHO DOESN'T DESERVE WHAT I HAVE?!?!
THAT IS ALL...

ok... so last must have been awesome cuz i don't remember half of it... all i know is i woke up in amanda's bed with christa and kim both passed out on the floor... i honestly could not tell you who was there or what went on but i do remember that i made the comment that "Drinking Gets You Drunk!" but i woke up this morning and i have to say that i ( Read more... )

im sorry but last night was by far, to me, one of the best nights i have had... i loved it... first of all i was so excited just to get my license back... but me, bobbi, christa, and sarah decided that we were going to go to 4th street to see miranda lambert then to petrus... well me and bobbi and sarah kinda drank a lil bit before we go to 4th ( Read more... )

im so sick and tired of feeling useless... i know i bitch and complain a lot but this is the only place that i have to vent... anywho, why is it that i feel like i can't do anything right or measure up to the other people in my life who seem to have it a wee little bit better than i do... many will try and tell me thats not true but im so stubborn ( Read more... )

alright... here goes... i have officially had it beyond up to here with everything and everyone... im sick of people telling me who to be and how to be... if i dont do something to their liking, they get pissed at me... why is it that people wanna get together when it is convenient for them? why do people think that they are the only people on ( Read more... )

well, i feel so much better... i talked to the one person that i never thought i could ever talk to about everything... which seems to be a problem cuz jen is my bestfriend... but now i know that if i have a problem whatsoever i can go to her which is what i plan to do cuz afterwards im just me again... she just sat me down and told me to just ( Read more... )