i cant even begin to explain the heart break im feeling right now...what its from, when it hit me, why it hit me i have no idea....i woke up in a panic today stressed aboutanything and everything.....my cousin passing away, friends, school, family, my mom, nick, absolutly everything. I feel betrayed.....i dont know why.....i get his feelin of ( Read more... )

wow could i be more pissed off....i was sitting here at the computer minding my own business and the smoke alarms are going off. Thats ok theyll shut off eventually, the wiring is fucked up but my grandpa get annoyed and shuts off the circuit breaker...all of the sudden i lose everything ive fuckin written...>ARGGG i had so much shit fuckin written ( Read more... )

Slowly but surely....im realising i dont have much time left until i graduate...little over 6 weeks or so....crazy man. With each passing day i feel secure, secure in my place, in my life, and in my body. I am who i am for a reason and if you dont like it i dont really care. From day one ive tried so hard to make all of anyone happy. I took it on ( Read more... )

"The First Single"---the format ( Read more... )

not able to sleep......fighting a horrible migraine....and lost a close family member.....update more later....for now....too painful.

tired of the....let me tell you how you should feel....go fuck yourselves

ashers

I can barely see you - I can barely feel you - your fading like the dirt on my TV ( Read more... )

hey there all ( Read more... )

From the time i was a little tike growing up in maybe not the best of environments to now....ive grown quite a bit. My mothers and i realtionship was never the typical mother daughter relationship...is more of me as the parent or just the over protective loving friend. We moved a few times when i was a child and never had a "home". Atleast not in ( Read more... )

NOVEMBER 1ST!!!!!!!yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy............and tired as fuck......................

Lets just say i made a huge mistake tonight.....something that ill laugh about in a year but something that makes me and my family feel like shit now. I can say over and over again how much i hate myself....but i know i shouldnt. I realise everyone makes mistakes but i just wish i hadnt. There was other ways to deal with this situation. Im just ( Read more... )