Heechul's China Diary [1/?]
Title: Heechul's China Diary
Author: Maxime (maxime260)
Pairing: HanChul (Hangeng/Heechul), HeeMi (Heechul/Zhou Mi)
Characters: Heechul, Hangeng, Zhou Mi
Genre: Comedy, romance
Rating: PG-13
Summary: When Heechul goes to China, he decides to write a diary to keep all his memories from the trip in it.
Heechul's Diary.
Day 1
~in the afternoon~
Just to make things clear from the very beginning: I'm not another emo girl trying to fill her diary with random nonsense about how cruel her life is and how much she wants to die. This is obviously NOT the reason I am starting to write a diary right now. Since my pride is important and I don't want to ruin my reputation in case someone ever finds this diary (If you are actually holding this notebook and reading this: HI THERE. AND GET THE FUCK OFF, THIS IS MY PROPERTY!), I will explain to you why the heck I bought this and why I'm using it at this moment.
Well, it's the first time for long that I'm going to China all by myself, I mean, since I'm in Super Junior... I had been there with the whole band before but this is not the same; flying to that place alone is a big event and a big event like this deserves special attention. That's why I thought of writing a diary, to keep all my memories on paper. Of course, I could also write it on my cyworld or twitter but I don't want to share my thoughts with everyone - so a diary is a perfect thing, isn't it? Kinda old-school but hey, who hasn't written a diary for at least once in his life?! Maybe there are such people but I don't care, everyone I personally know had done something like this, so I don't want to be worse. Though I won't write such shit in here like Sungmin does, how can he fill two fuckin' pages with spazzing about how much he likes pink and bunnies and his guitar and martial arts and Kyuhyun and reading harlequin books?! Hm, I didn't know about the last one though so it was a surprising thing to learn about; yes, as you can see, I had his diary in my hands. And I fuckin' wish I hadn't. (Sungmin, if you are the one reading this right now, please, don't kill me. I still love you, 'k? Thanks.)
Back to the topic... MY GOODNESS, I LOVE CHINA ^-^v It's the best, I swear, the BEST place in the whole wide world and I guess I had been Chinese in my previous life or something like this because well, even the air is so much fresher here, I feel like I'm finally fully alive! Screw my schedules, screw the management, screw all problems, life is wonderful in China!
And NO, damn it, it's not that I love this place only because it's the home of my ex whom I'm still freakin' in love with and I'm over-excited to meet him here again...
...ok, maybe it is. But holy crap, China is just AMAZING!
~one hour later~
I. hate. China. T_____T
~a few minutes later~
I called this bastard as soon as I entered the hotel room, wanting to arrange a meeting with him. He had promised me to treat me to dumplings when I come to China so of course I wanted to make this dream come true... But well, what did he tell me after I greeted him with a short 'Hello you stupid Chinese man, I'm in your country now so let's meet in a few hours'? That he has no fuckin' time today and that he doesn't really want to see me because of what happened between us!!!
Oh my god this hurt my heart so much. And the dumplings, damn, the dumplings! I reminded him about them but he said that this was BEFORE our break up so it doesn't count anymore. He said 'sorry' and hung up before I could even shout at him or so.
What should I do now?! He is the reason why I came to China - ok, generally I came here to shoot 'Youth Melody' with Zhou Mi (can't wait to see this amazing fella! ♥) but that's not the point - so how can he do this to me? I really wanted him to be polite and kind to me, just like it used to be before this stupid break up... but it looks like he's not the Hangeng I once knew. The Hangeng I once knew wouldn't treat me like this, he would be incredibly happy to get the chance to meet me again, buy me tons of roses and make sweet love to me until we'd both die of exhaustion but it would be the freakin' best way of dying ever.
I want to go back to Korea, I know it's been only a few hours since I'm here but I'm already missing Seoul and the dorms so much... It's all just because of my broken heart. Maybe I'm quite a fool for being full of hope about my relationship with Hangeng but this is how love acts, right? Ah... I can't even think rationally, this freaks me out. Yeah, something in my head tells me that I should forget him because it's over, however... It's not that easy to forget the person you once loved more than everything, you know.
Aish. I'm getting teary, I think I should get some tissues before Zhou Mi storms into my hotel room and catches me crying while writing a damn diary. This would be kinda pathetic, wouldn't it? Fortunately I have no schedule today and the filming starts tomorrow so I don't have to worry about work for the next few hours; I can relax and try to do nice things just to get this cruel ex out of my head.
~late evening~
Okay, I have to admit that it's not that bad here after all. I think I overreacted a bit because of getting rejected by Hangeng (for the second time in my life!) and that's why I wrote all the above in here. And why did I do it anyway? This was supposed to be my holiday notebook, not the diary of an emo girl I clearly declared not to be... I'm somehow being contradictive.
So, since the day slowly comes to an end, I'll tell now what I was doing during all the first hours spent in this lovely country.
Well, after putting this notebook aside, I grabbed the tissue and almost poked my eyes out with it, trying to wipe off all the tears that had gathered in them... It hurt like hell so I hope this brat Hangeng will pay for it someday! Then I started to unpack my things and put them into the closet. I discovered a horrible thing! I forgot to take, like, the half of necessary objects for my stay here, so I'll have to go shopping as soon as possible to buy everything I need. Ah yeah, I had been probably too busy daydreaming about meeting my ex when I was packing my suitcase and now I have to suffer because of my stupidity. And what was this all for?! He doesn't even want to see me now!
After unpacking, I considered if I should order room service or visit the buffet to eat something; since I needed some people around me (I didn't really want to sulk around in my room thinking about Him), I chose the second option and went downstairs. Oh gosh they have such an incredible buffet in here, with cuisine from all over the world! I wasn't even able to name some things... thankfully they had put descriptions of everything next to the food so I didn't have to guess. There were so much dishes that I didn't know what to try out first, so I covered my eyes and picked a random thing: pork chops in a mushroom sauce, this was just heaven on earth, I swear.
Later I also ate three pieces of a French garlic-baguette with this super cute flagues stuck into it; I got the German, Russian and Italian one. When I was putting some tomato salad on my plate, I got totally surprised by seeing our beloved kimchi so of course I took a bit of it, not really being able to resist.
I frowned a bit at the sight of Beijing fried rice, thinking how delicious the one Hangeng used to make was... so I walked pass it quickly and headed to the fish section, putting some sushi on my plate.
The food was SO tasty, I really love the buffets hotels offer, I wish we had a buffet like this in our dorms. But maybe it's better that we don't have one, I would get so much fatter because of it... Anyways, I was sitting lonely at the table and eating this food of gods, when suddenly a girl sat down next to me and eyed me carefully, making me wonder if I had a pimple on my face or what other thing was wrong with me.
"You're Kim Heechul, right?"
I almost fell of my chair! This was quite cool, I mean, I know that Super Junior is known all over the world, even in Europe and America and so, but it was nice to see that I have fans even in a hotel like this, in China. We were talking about Super Junior and the food we were eating and of course the girl seemed to be VERY excited about chatting with me, the superstar...
Then I got a call from Zhou Mi. We met up later, in my hotel room, where we talked about 'Youth Melody' and stuff like that, nothing special. It was so nice to see him though, he's one of my favorite dongsaengs after all, right? I still remember how he took care of me years ago and how close we've become after that, so I'm quite sentimental when it comes to this boy.
After discussing the most important things regarding our filming, we changed the topic and unfortunately it became more and more intimate, well - we started to talk about love and such. I don't even know how I ended up crying in his arms about how much I hate (and love) that bastard Hangeng... but yeah, I did. Zhou Mi's a good friend though, he told me that I should try to focus on something else, maybe open my heart for someone new and that I should have fun here in China, instead of being depressed because of someone who obviously doesn't care about me anymore. I couldn't believe that he was saying such things about his former leader but well... everyone has their own surprises.
I guess he's right. It would be a waste of time to walk around in an emo mood when I can do so many great things here in China!
We then had a glass of wine together, watched some random Chinese stuff on TV and he finally left. Evening came and yep, here I am now, writing this, and my hand already hurts like shit. That's why I'll stop writing in a moment, take a shower and get A LOT of sleep - oh how much I've missed the times when I could sleep as long as I wanted! Ok, maybe I can't sleep as much as I want tonight because of my schedule tomorrow but I still have the opportunity to sleep more than in Korea. And I will definitely grab this chance.
My goodness, why does 'making memories' in this diary have to hurt so much?! I think my hand already died or so.
Author: Maxime (maxime260)
Pairing: HanChul (Hangeng/Heechul), HeeMi (Heechul/Zhou Mi)
Characters: Heechul, Hangeng, Zhou Mi
Genre: Comedy, romance
Rating: PG-13
Summary: When Heechul goes to China, he decides to write a diary to keep all his memories from the trip in it.
Heechul's Diary.
Day 1
~in the afternoon~
Just to make things clear from the very beginning: I'm not another emo girl trying to fill her diary with random nonsense about how cruel her life is and how much she wants to die. This is obviously NOT the reason I am starting to write a diary right now. Since my pride is important and I don't want to ruin my reputation in case someone ever finds this diary (If you are actually holding this notebook and reading this: HI THERE. AND GET THE FUCK OFF, THIS IS MY PROPERTY!), I will explain to you why the heck I bought this and why I'm using it at this moment.
Well, it's the first time for long that I'm going to China all by myself, I mean, since I'm in Super Junior... I had been there with the whole band before but this is not the same; flying to that place alone is a big event and a big event like this deserves special attention. That's why I thought of writing a diary, to keep all my memories on paper. Of course, I could also write it on my cyworld or twitter but I don't want to share my thoughts with everyone - so a diary is a perfect thing, isn't it? Kinda old-school but hey, who hasn't written a diary for at least once in his life?! Maybe there are such people but I don't care, everyone I personally know had done something like this, so I don't want to be worse. Though I won't write such shit in here like Sungmin does, how can he fill two fuckin' pages with spazzing about how much he likes pink and bunnies and his guitar and martial arts and Kyuhyun and reading harlequin books?! Hm, I didn't know about the last one though so it was a surprising thing to learn about; yes, as you can see, I had his diary in my hands. And I fuckin' wish I hadn't. (Sungmin, if you are the one reading this right now, please, don't kill me. I still love you, 'k? Thanks.)
Back to the topic... MY GOODNESS, I LOVE CHINA ^-^v It's the best, I swear, the BEST place in the whole wide world and I guess I had been Chinese in my previous life or something like this because well, even the air is so much fresher here, I feel like I'm finally fully alive! Screw my schedules, screw the management, screw all problems, life is wonderful in China!
And NO, damn it, it's not that I love this place only because it's the home of my ex whom I'm still freakin' in love with and I'm over-excited to meet him here again...
...ok, maybe it is. But holy crap, China is just AMAZING!
~one hour later~
I. hate. China. T_____T
~a few minutes later~
I called this bastard as soon as I entered the hotel room, wanting to arrange a meeting with him. He had promised me to treat me to dumplings when I come to China so of course I wanted to make this dream come true... But well, what did he tell me after I greeted him with a short 'Hello you stupid Chinese man, I'm in your country now so let's meet in a few hours'? That he has no fuckin' time today and that he doesn't really want to see me because of what happened between us!!!
Oh my god this hurt my heart so much. And the dumplings, damn, the dumplings! I reminded him about them but he said that this was BEFORE our break up so it doesn't count anymore. He said 'sorry' and hung up before I could even shout at him or so.
What should I do now?! He is the reason why I came to China - ok, generally I came here to shoot 'Youth Melody' with Zhou Mi (can't wait to see this amazing fella! ♥) but that's not the point - so how can he do this to me? I really wanted him to be polite and kind to me, just like it used to be before this stupid break up... but it looks like he's not the Hangeng I once knew. The Hangeng I once knew wouldn't treat me like this, he would be incredibly happy to get the chance to meet me again, buy me tons of roses and make sweet love to me until we'd both die of exhaustion but it would be the freakin' best way of dying ever.
I want to go back to Korea, I know it's been only a few hours since I'm here but I'm already missing Seoul and the dorms so much... It's all just because of my broken heart. Maybe I'm quite a fool for being full of hope about my relationship with Hangeng but this is how love acts, right? Ah... I can't even think rationally, this freaks me out. Yeah, something in my head tells me that I should forget him because it's over, however... It's not that easy to forget the person you once loved more than everything, you know.
Aish. I'm getting teary, I think I should get some tissues before Zhou Mi storms into my hotel room and catches me crying while writing a damn diary. This would be kinda pathetic, wouldn't it? Fortunately I have no schedule today and the filming starts tomorrow so I don't have to worry about work for the next few hours; I can relax and try to do nice things just to get this cruel ex out of my head.
~late evening~
Okay, I have to admit that it's not that bad here after all. I think I overreacted a bit because of getting rejected by Hangeng (for the second time in my life!) and that's why I wrote all the above in here. And why did I do it anyway? This was supposed to be my holiday notebook, not the diary of an emo girl I clearly declared not to be... I'm somehow being contradictive.
So, since the day slowly comes to an end, I'll tell now what I was doing during all the first hours spent in this lovely country.
Well, after putting this notebook aside, I grabbed the tissue and almost poked my eyes out with it, trying to wipe off all the tears that had gathered in them... It hurt like hell so I hope this brat Hangeng will pay for it someday! Then I started to unpack my things and put them into the closet. I discovered a horrible thing! I forgot to take, like, the half of necessary objects for my stay here, so I'll have to go shopping as soon as possible to buy everything I need. Ah yeah, I had been probably too busy daydreaming about meeting my ex when I was packing my suitcase and now I have to suffer because of my stupidity. And what was this all for?! He doesn't even want to see me now!
After unpacking, I considered if I should order room service or visit the buffet to eat something; since I needed some people around me (I didn't really want to sulk around in my room thinking about Him), I chose the second option and went downstairs. Oh gosh they have such an incredible buffet in here, with cuisine from all over the world! I wasn't even able to name some things... thankfully they had put descriptions of everything next to the food so I didn't have to guess. There were so much dishes that I didn't know what to try out first, so I covered my eyes and picked a random thing: pork chops in a mushroom sauce, this was just heaven on earth, I swear.
Later I also ate three pieces of a French garlic-baguette with this super cute flagues stuck into it; I got the German, Russian and Italian one. When I was putting some tomato salad on my plate, I got totally surprised by seeing our beloved kimchi so of course I took a bit of it, not really being able to resist.
I frowned a bit at the sight of Beijing fried rice, thinking how delicious the one Hangeng used to make was... so I walked pass it quickly and headed to the fish section, putting some sushi on my plate.
The food was SO tasty, I really love the buffets hotels offer, I wish we had a buffet like this in our dorms. But maybe it's better that we don't have one, I would get so much fatter because of it... Anyways, I was sitting lonely at the table and eating this food of gods, when suddenly a girl sat down next to me and eyed me carefully, making me wonder if I had a pimple on my face or what other thing was wrong with me.
"You're Kim Heechul, right?"
I almost fell of my chair! This was quite cool, I mean, I know that Super Junior is known all over the world, even in Europe and America and so, but it was nice to see that I have fans even in a hotel like this, in China. We were talking about Super Junior and the food we were eating and of course the girl seemed to be VERY excited about chatting with me, the superstar...
Then I got a call from Zhou Mi. We met up later, in my hotel room, where we talked about 'Youth Melody' and stuff like that, nothing special. It was so nice to see him though, he's one of my favorite dongsaengs after all, right? I still remember how he took care of me years ago and how close we've become after that, so I'm quite sentimental when it comes to this boy.
After discussing the most important things regarding our filming, we changed the topic and unfortunately it became more and more intimate, well - we started to talk about love and such. I don't even know how I ended up crying in his arms about how much I hate (and love) that bastard Hangeng... but yeah, I did. Zhou Mi's a good friend though, he told me that I should try to focus on something else, maybe open my heart for someone new and that I should have fun here in China, instead of being depressed because of someone who obviously doesn't care about me anymore. I couldn't believe that he was saying such things about his former leader but well... everyone has their own surprises.
I guess he's right. It would be a waste of time to walk around in an emo mood when I can do so many great things here in China!
We then had a glass of wine together, watched some random Chinese stuff on TV and he finally left. Evening came and yep, here I am now, writing this, and my hand already hurts like shit. That's why I'll stop writing in a moment, take a shower and get A LOT of sleep - oh how much I've missed the times when I could sleep as long as I wanted! Ok, maybe I can't sleep as much as I want tonight because of my schedule tomorrow but I still have the opportunity to sleep more than in Korea. And I will definitely grab this chance.
My goodness, why does 'making memories' in this diary have to hurt so much?! I think my hand already died or so.