one dance left, this world is gonna pull through...
it has set in.
the fact that i'm leaving in a month. the fact that in 35 days, i will drive up to boston. i go on f.o.p. (pre-orientation camping trip) for a week, and then i move into my dorm room. the fact that i will be starting COLLEGE. the fact that i won't see all of my friends from high school evey day. the fact that i'll never again take a class at hamden hall. the fact that for the next year i'll be living with 1-3 other people that i have never met and won't know anything about for at least another two weeks. the fact that an entirely new chapter of my life begins in 35 days.
i'm not really the type to get freaked out about this type of stuff...but this whole college this is so different from anything else that i've ever done. and it's not so much that i'm getting sad about leaving. i'm excited to leave. but i'm BEYOND nervous, and i know that it will be very hard to deal with not seeing my family and friends, especially the friends that i've known forever (e.g., erin, lauren) and the friends that i've just gotten to know well and will be leaving before we've really spent any time together (e.g., tommy, noah). i dunno what it is, but the past two days i've started to get very worked up over everything...i don't expect leaving home to be easy. that's not what bothers me: it's that i don't know what to expect at all.
it's just weird for me to say to myself, "this is the last concert you'll go to at the webster for a while," or, "this is probably the last time you'll hear doozer and third chance play for a good three or four months," or, "this is the last time i'm going to see this person until winter or even next summer." god, it just puts everything into an entirely new perspective.
but i know i'm going to love it. there's nothing to worry about.
so, in the wake of this realization, i've done my best to keep busy and to savor the last moments of connecticut that i'm going to have until at least thanksgiving. friday night i went to see mighty purple at meadowbrook golf course. what an awesome concert...it was such a perfect venue for mp. the crowd was mostly older people there to see tommy james & the shandells or families with little kids there for a night out...and even though most of these people weren't into mp, it was a GREAT concert. they played really well and by the end they had at the very least gained the respect of their audience...people were having fun while they played. kids were tossing frisbee's, people were eating their dinners...and in the end, as long as everyone has fun, it's worth it. and for the fans (like me!), it was perfect. it was all i needed: good food, lots of great people around, and great music. nice.
then on saturday, i had a great afternoon all by myself. lol, ok, it sounds terrible, but it really was a lot of fun. i took joey, put the top down, turned my music up, and just drove. i headed out towards cheshire and suddenly found myself in meriden. i then proceeded to drive out to the wesleyan campus in middletown, then through durham, into north madison & guilford, then through north branford back to north haven and then home. i had no map, no directions, and no agenda. it was just me, joey, and the open road. it was great. i got home and felt very relaxed. later that night, i drove out to orange to chris wang's house. later, he & i met up with erin and taylor and saw finding nemo. (what a cute movie! and disney lives up to their standard of great animated movies, yet again.) he slept over last night, and today i just kinda did nothing. it was a restful weekend, thank god, because now i have a stressful week coming up. THE BIG CAMP SHOW. ugh, i'm seriously not going to make it. lauren & i are both going to die and the show will be cancelled. oy, wish us luck...if the stress doesn't kill us, the kids just might.
well, like i said, big week coming up, so i've gotta get ready for the worst! adios~
the fact that i'm leaving in a month. the fact that in 35 days, i will drive up to boston. i go on f.o.p. (pre-orientation camping trip) for a week, and then i move into my dorm room. the fact that i will be starting COLLEGE. the fact that i won't see all of my friends from high school evey day. the fact that i'll never again take a class at hamden hall. the fact that for the next year i'll be living with 1-3 other people that i have never met and won't know anything about for at least another two weeks. the fact that an entirely new chapter of my life begins in 35 days.
i'm not really the type to get freaked out about this type of stuff...but this whole college this is so different from anything else that i've ever done. and it's not so much that i'm getting sad about leaving. i'm excited to leave. but i'm BEYOND nervous, and i know that it will be very hard to deal with not seeing my family and friends, especially the friends that i've known forever (e.g., erin, lauren) and the friends that i've just gotten to know well and will be leaving before we've really spent any time together (e.g., tommy, noah). i dunno what it is, but the past two days i've started to get very worked up over everything...i don't expect leaving home to be easy. that's not what bothers me: it's that i don't know what to expect at all.
it's just weird for me to say to myself, "this is the last concert you'll go to at the webster for a while," or, "this is probably the last time you'll hear doozer and third chance play for a good three or four months," or, "this is the last time i'm going to see this person until winter or even next summer." god, it just puts everything into an entirely new perspective.
but i know i'm going to love it. there's nothing to worry about.
so, in the wake of this realization, i've done my best to keep busy and to savor the last moments of connecticut that i'm going to have until at least thanksgiving. friday night i went to see mighty purple at meadowbrook golf course. what an awesome concert...it was such a perfect venue for mp. the crowd was mostly older people there to see tommy james & the shandells or families with little kids there for a night out...and even though most of these people weren't into mp, it was a GREAT concert. they played really well and by the end they had at the very least gained the respect of their audience...people were having fun while they played. kids were tossing frisbee's, people were eating their dinners...and in the end, as long as everyone has fun, it's worth it. and for the fans (like me!), it was perfect. it was all i needed: good food, lots of great people around, and great music. nice.
then on saturday, i had a great afternoon all by myself. lol, ok, it sounds terrible, but it really was a lot of fun. i took joey, put the top down, turned my music up, and just drove. i headed out towards cheshire and suddenly found myself in meriden. i then proceeded to drive out to the wesleyan campus in middletown, then through durham, into north madison & guilford, then through north branford back to north haven and then home. i had no map, no directions, and no agenda. it was just me, joey, and the open road. it was great. i got home and felt very relaxed. later that night, i drove out to orange to chris wang's house. later, he & i met up with erin and taylor and saw finding nemo. (what a cute movie! and disney lives up to their standard of great animated movies, yet again.) he slept over last night, and today i just kinda did nothing. it was a restful weekend, thank god, because now i have a stressful week coming up. THE BIG CAMP SHOW. ugh, i'm seriously not going to make it. lauren & i are both going to die and the show will be cancelled. oy, wish us luck...if the stress doesn't kill us, the kids just might.
well, like i said, big week coming up, so i've gotta get ready for the worst! adios~