i don't know if i cant sleep or if i just dont want to. i do know that the beach is better at nite when theres nobody there and the crest of the waves give the illusion that it is glowing in the dark. i do know that stars are brighter away from here and that the drive home is so much more perfect with radiohead and the pixies and not being able to ( Read more... )

if i could take the part of myself that is happy and ok and split it with you i would. in a heartbeat i would. and now for a letter to myself from me.

dear maddie,

you can't save the world. you cant make people feel better by just caring about them. being vegetarian won't stop animals being killed. crying when you see a dead dog on the side of a ( Read more... )

i had the best/funniest conversation with chelsea and hannah last nite at 1 am. i better be getting calls every nite at 1 am from somebody on my cell. i don't care who just call me because nothing really makes sense late at nite or early in the morning and the truth has a way of coming out past midnite usually, at least thats how they figure with ( Read more... )

last nite was amazing. i didnt want it to end. the music was perfect. dancing was fun...sitting was fun ( Read more... )

i did so good spending money today.  rat pack went to amoeba and i bought:

les savy fav- inches

moving units ep

rocky votolato- suicide medicine (omg so beautiful)

pinback- blue screen life (for jessica)

then we saw Saved! i loved it. all you non-christians should see it because the christians might be a little offended.

i also got 3 shirts from ( Read more... )

yesterday i cried walking out of english. sorry for being such a pansy but i love you guys so much. i hope that mr. myers is going to be ok.  graduation practice was today and tomorrow nite is grad nite then graduation on thursday.  i cant believe its actually here.  and now for a picturified documentary of the last few days at royal. warning: ( Read more... )

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last nite at 10 o'clock i picked up korina because i love her. we had no idea what we were going to do. her friend andrew called from a drunk party because he was not drunk. we picked him up and now i love andrew too. we went on an adventure into box canyon where i was enlightened about charles manson and helter skelter. then we went to a party ( Read more... )

after spending the last few days signing yearbooks i'm officially broken hearted. how can i feel so excited and so sad all at the same time? my first day of work was yesterday. it was scary. my head hurts. my heart hurts. i dont want this to end. i'm not ready to let go.

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know ( Read more... )

last nite me, jenny, elana, and sarah went dancing at 82. i had so much fun. being 18 is the best!

it's the final stretch of senior year and i'm not quite sure how i feel about it. i'm going to miss english class and lunch. i'm a very lucky girl.