Soul on fire

[maybe_not_so]

One area where I cannot relate to the sx-lasters is their vision of an ideal romantic relationship. The descriptions seem to grate in a most peculiar way, even when done totally in earnest. They completely lack one vital quality - intensity. Without it everything is barren, papier-mâché. I mean, this is love. I do not need to be comforted, I do not

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[primalquarksoup]

You want to live. But you are scared. You feel like you will never be able to come out of it alive again. Love is emotional dependency, and emotional dependency is the potential for excruciating pain which you are not designed to handle. It is easier to hide in your own comfy little nest inside yourself and live on crumbs.And this is where I find it hard to understand non-sx-lasters (and a certain sx-last 4 who laments her difficulties in obtaining and maintaining intense relationships). I mean, yeah, there are those same issues - wanting to live vs. fear of that living being horribly painful - but the latter wins out hands down over the former. It IS easier to live in your comfy little nest and nibble crumbs, and that's exactly what we sx-lasters (barring the 4s) do, though not without some degree of bitching

[maybe_not_so]

It IS easier to live in your comfy little nest and nibble crumbs, and that's exactly what we sx-lasters (barring the 4s) do, though not without some degree of bitching

[primalquarksoup]

An A memory - me trying to get (non-romantically) close to a couple of soc/sp's in the past. These people want to connect to the whole world, I have a much narrower focus. I am trying to drag them away to a private corner for some deep sharing - they look friendly and benign, and have no clue what it is I am after. As far as they are concerned, we already have a perfectly satisfactory relationship, thankyouverymuch. Frustration all around - mainly for myself.The way I see it, if I can share what I want to share with a "good" friend, or with you semi-anonymous online strangers, why do I need anything more than that? I don't distinguish between good friends and best friends, and the entire online community minus maybe a few trolls I'm not cool with counts as a good friend as far as sharing status goes. Real-life totally casual acquaintances probably won't hear that much from me, but that's just because there's usually not much of an "in" to talk about it with them

[maybe_not_so]

I'm all for talking deep, or talking personal, if I'm not decidedly uncomfortable with you or with the situation. But if you want to drag me into a corner and talk deep and personal, don't hesitate, don't hint. Tell me outright, and I'll go along and do my best.

It's not that the people I was talking about refused to be dragged, it's that they were no different once there :) A pointless exercise. Admittedly, neither of them were Fives. I am afraid, if I feel there is a misconnect, trying to explain etc. doesn't seem to work. It's either something people get naturally, or they don't.

soc/sp Fives don't seem to possess the sort of magnetism which makes you want to drag them away into corners anyway. They are rather... 'impersonal' is probably a good word. No offence - just a general observation. Great for intellectual conversations though.