This is worse - knowing that you love me too, and not being able to have you in my arms. 3/3
w: I can not let you know that enough. I love you.
JoeMazzello: kyjthgfs
m: I love you, Mark.
m: *Wardo
m: *Wardo
w: Haha, oh Mark. I love you.
m: Akjdhfj. Yeah. Um.
w: I can not wait to see you tomorrow. To finally get to hold you in my arms.
m: Tomorrow. Tomorrow.
m: Yes, tomorrow.
w: I've imagined for so long what it would be like to get to hold you and tell you that I love you.
m: You get to do it now.
w: Yes, I do. This is so surreal.
m: Wardo, I-
w: What is it? You can tell me anything.
w: I love you.
m: No, I, no. It's. Probably too much.
w: Mark. Say it. Please.
w: I promise, nothing you can possibly imagine would be too much for me.
w: Not when it comes to us.
m: Nothing?
w: Nothing.
w: I mean that.
m: I. I want to
w: Yes?
m: *show* you how much I love you
m: Not right away, if you're not ready
JoeMazzello: omg
m: But.
c9e: akdhjkdhfkjWAAHAAHAG
m: ...Wardo?
w: Mark. I'm ready. Whatever you want. I've been waiting so long for this. I'm not sure how my heart will be able to rest until I get to see you - to hold you.
m: Oh god, Wardo.
m: It'll be soon.
m: Soon, soon, I promise.
m: Sleep on the plane.
w: You're the one I'm worried about.
w: You're going to need your rest.
m: I'll sleep for you.
w: I'd love to hold you in my arms while you sleep, but if at all possible - I'd prefer you to be awake when I arrive.
m: You can hold me tomorrow night.
w: I will be counting the seconds.
JoeMazzello: ffghjk
m: Me too, Wardo.
m: This will be the longest night of my life.
w: It will pass more quickly if you get your sleep. Do I need to call Chris? I know it's late, but I can be very persuasive. He will come over and make you sleep until I get there.
m: I'm exhausted, Wardo
m: I think I can manage
m: Truth be told?
w: Promise?
w: Yes, what is it?
m: Lots of times, I don't sleep because I'm thinking about you.
w: Me too, Mark. Me too. I've spent countless nights awake, thinking about you. Thinking about us.
JoeMazzello: UHUHUHUHUHUHUHDFTGHJK
m: What do you think about?
w: Oh, umm. If Singapore is good for anything, it's that you can't see how deeply I am blushing right now.
m: Oh. Well. If it's that.
JoeMazzello: omg
w: Well, I've thought a lot of things. I don't want you thinking for a second that I'm only interested in the physical aspects. I love you, Mark. All of you. Inside and out.
w: I want everything.
m: I want everything too, Eduardo. That's what I meant when I said I want you. You want me to be specific but I can't, I want you in every way.
w: Oh, Mark. I - I can't believe this is all happening. I've wanted you for so long. I was so sure that you didn't feel the same way. I just - I've never been happier in my entire life.
m: I was sure that you didn't!
w: How could you ever have thought that? I was so transparent!
m: No, I was just clueless.
m: I'd never loved something and I was scared and I tried to shove it away
m: I was just so wrapped up in my own feelings that I was blind to yours.
w: Chris knew. He confronted me about it, but I forced him to swear into secrecy. You have no idea what trouble it took to get DUSTIN to keep quiet. It was almost impossible for him.
w: I didn't want anyone else to be the one to tell you that I loved you. I wanted to be the one to say it.
m: Dustin?!
m: Hjghdhsj. Dustin.
w: Dustin! He sees more than you think he does.
w: When you weren't around he would taunt me endlessly.
w: It was torture, but I couldn't help my feelings for you. It was more than worth it. I took all I had not to scream it from the rooftops, I couldn't supress it enough to stop others from noticing.
m: I guess I really was stupid.
m: But.
m: Now we both know.
m: And, Wardo? Can we make an agreement?
w: We do.
w: What kind of agreement?
m: No secrets.
w: No secrets.
w: I promise. No more.
m: I promise, too.
w: Good. We can finally do this right.
m: And I'll see you tomorrow.
w: I love you, Mark. Now that we've both said it, I refuse to let anything get in the way of making this work.
m: And I can hold you in my arms and tell you I love you.
m: Absolutely!
m: Nothing at all will ruin this.
w: Oh, god. I can not wait. I can not imagine anything more perfect.
m: Me either.
m: I love this.
w: When I had to keep my feelings to myself, I thought that nothing would ever be worse than my secret burning desires. I was wrong. This is worse - knowing that (however impossible it may seem) you love me too, and not being able to have you in my arms.
m: It's so close, Eduardo.
m: Just hold on, it's so fucking close.
w: I know, Mark. I know. So soon. Then we don't have to hold back anything.
w: We finally get to have it all. I never thought this would be possible.
m: I don't think I'm going to have much self control at the airport.
m: Just warning you.
w: I wouldn't have it any other way.
m: Good.
m: I love you.
w: Mark? What are you thinking? Right now.
m: I'm having trouble thinking anything straight
m: I'm thinking I'm going to take you and kiss you the first chance I get and hold you and never let go.
c9e: (HOLD ME KISS ME AND NEVER LET ME GO)
w: I can not think of anything more perfect. My flight leaves in just a few hours. I need to pack. I need - there are so many things i need to do. I just can't think of any of them. I need you.
m: You don't need much
m: I have clothes
m: I can get you an extra toothbrush
w: Hardly.
m: My bed is a full.
m: Just. Get over here.
w: I don't think that will be an issue.
m: Good.
w: If anything, it will just be an excuse to be closer to you. I'll take any excuse I can get.
m: I want you as close as physically possible.
w: I doubt even that will satisfy me, but I suppose we can try.
w: I will always want more of you.
m: You have all of me, Eduardo.
m: All. Of. Me.
w: You too.
w: I mean. Me. You have all of me. Anything you want. All of it. I'm yours.
m: And I'm yours, Eduardo.
m: My body, my heart, it's all yours, Wardo.
w: I love you. You are more than I could have ever imagined for myself.
m: I still think I don't deserve you. But.
w: Mark. Don't ever say you don't deserve me.
m: I'm sorry. I just can't help it.
w: I intend to prove to you how perfect you are.
m: How do you plan to do that?
w: I will show you. My plane leaves in an hour. I need to leave for the airport now if I want to make it in time.
m: Oh. Oh god, okay, okay, okay.
w: Mark, I love you. I have always loved you. I will always love you.
m: I'll see you in a few hours, Wardo.
w: I will be with you soon.