Wow, i know exactly how you feel. i go through those same "nervous feelings" like every day. yesterday they were really bad because i was shaky all day. i have panic disorder where i take things to extremes (in my head, lol) and usually it leads to a panic attack. yesterday i also had that depressed feeling all day...i hate it, but we just have to try to wake up feeling ok about ourselves and carry it out through the day.. the bad thing is that sometimes i will wake up in a wonderful mood, and then as the day winds down i'm just totally pissy and down. i'm glad someone else can relate :)
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ps-i wonder why i'm so crazy in the head sometimes too, but it sounds funny to say it so we can laugh about it! haha.
haha, i know i know..after I posted that I was like..humm, I sound rediculous, should I delete this ? and I was like, nah who cares! im pissed off and I need to vent! haha.. I know..I get panic attacks too! sometimes I felt like I was making myself panic, but as they happened more often, it is totally nature takin its coarse..I cant catch my breath sometimes...and sometimes I dont even know if I even want to catch my breath,..its weird...I just want everything in my life to..be thin, and light. easy, healthy, flow together..but its not, and its fine that its not..but it would be nice, haha. I have been doing good all week with my eating! i am feeling lighter already, however, I did start my (.) this week!! ahhh! talk about bloated! eeeek, I knew something was up, this weekend when i tried on clothes I thought I had gained 5 pounds! few, im back to lookin a bit thinner, but I dont know actuall yhow much weight I have lost..we'll see soon when I weight myself!! have a good day sweetie! ttyl!
I can really relate. I've been diagnosed with Bi-Polar and I used to get extremely depressed but that was also the time I was at my lowest weight. It seems like in the process of trying to get better in therapy I've started to do a lot of emotional eating. I hate my body and I've been scared to start restricting because I associate it with feeling suicidal but thankfully I've been doing so well so far. I hate how I have such a huge appetite and will eat almost anything. I used to be able to eat anything because most of the time I didn't eat, so I only ate when I was out with friends and they always nagged on how unfair it was that I was thin and could eat so much. They had no idea about what was going on. I just said I had a super fast metabolism
Good luck and try to hold on to some happiness. I konw it's hard. Everything revolves around food and so it's hard to not think about food.
I have clinical depression. Strangely enough, now that I'm getting treated for it, my diet's a lot better and I'm a lot thinner. I would binge when I was depressed, so when the treatment kicked in, I stopped bingeing and lost weight.
Since then, now that bingeing's no longer my default response to feeling bad, I've had more times where, as you describe, I just don't want to/can't eat, and I lose weight.
i know exactly what you mean about liking being sad. i have depression too-- but like you, i've been really content with my life lately. must be the nice weather
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ps-i wonder why i'm so crazy in the head sometimes too, but it sounds funny to say it so we can laugh about it! haha.
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I know..I get panic attacks too! sometimes I felt like I was making myself panic, but as they happened more often, it is totally nature takin its coarse..I cant catch my breath sometimes...and sometimes I dont even know if I even want to catch my breath,..its weird...I just want everything in my life to..be thin, and light. easy, healthy, flow together..but its not, and its fine that its not..but it would be nice, haha.
I have been doing good all week with my eating! i am feeling lighter already, however, I did start my (.) this week!! ahhh! talk about bloated! eeeek, I knew something was up, this weekend when i tried on clothes I thought I had gained 5 pounds! few, im back to lookin a bit thinner, but I dont know actuall yhow much weight I have lost..we'll see soon when I weight myself!! have a good day sweetie! ttyl!
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I hate how I have such a huge appetite and will eat almost anything.
I used to be able to eat anything because most of the time I didn't eat, so I only ate when I was out with friends and they always nagged on how unfair it was that I was thin and could eat so much. They had no idea about what was going on. I just said I had a super fast metabolism
Good luck and try to hold on to some happiness. I konw it's hard. Everything revolves around food and so it's hard to not think about food.
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Since then, now that bingeing's no longer my default response to feeling bad, I've had more times where, as you describe, I just don't want to/can't eat, and I lose weight.
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