I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was in the dark
I was falling hard
With an open heart

How did I read the stars so wrong?
And now it's clear to me
That everything you see
Ain't always what it seems
(I'm wide awake)
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long

I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
'Til ( Read more... )

Reading past entries...

"I find when I 'internalise',I tend to do stupid things. Everything just spins around inside of me, and it just festers and gets worse and worse."

Just one more reason I'm glad to have this outlet again. Onwards and upwards I say!!

So. What has chaged from my last entry all the way back in 2011? Everything and nothing at all really. I am still married with a great man by my side, I still drink far to much, I still regularly watch, and quote word for word every Disney movie ever made ( Read more... )

Dear Twenty Three year old Me

Your not having such a great right now are you? Your feeling hurt, angry and betrayed. You feel like it's not worth trying anymore, that your all alone and your heart is broken beyond repair.

I find this a tad amusing. Not in a sadistic, evil way. I remember what that all felt like, it wasn’t fun. And our behaviour in ( Read more... )

So I didn't keep up with the 'regular' blogging like I promised. I promise a lot of things to a lot of people, I wouldn't take it personally.

What prompted this particular log on was I was going to post a angry,explicative laden blog about dysfunctional, selfish, delusional people. I then realised I had forgotten my log on details.....

So 10 mins ( Read more... )

Well...that didn't take long. Within the first week of my mental and physical 'health kick' I have hit my first stumbling block ( Read more... )

I'm someone who has always been proud of the fact that I live a life without regrets.

Everything I have ever done has made me who I am today...yada, yada, yada.

Well it took 26 years, but I finally have my first real regret, and it sucks ass!

And there is not much I can do about it to make it right either.

I have re kindled my love affair with livejournal! Huzzah ( Read more... )

16/03/2009....Over a year ago was my last blog entry. I don't know weather to find this a good or bad thing. Good in a way because it obviously means that I have a life, and don't need to sit in front of a computer screen crying about things. But, also in a way it might be a bad thing ( Read more... )

So from being an avid geek who updated weekly (sometimes even 2 or 3 times per week)I all of a sudden neglected my beloved blog for 3 months ( Read more... )