i dont really know.
its just so many things

and i'm home

every wave gets stronger
always fixing more
but the undertow pulls harder
dragging clarity off the shore

two months isn't long enough
for me to really see
bleeding pure white solitude
while my whole ocean encloses me

your caring will imprison me
so let me go and just forget
the barrier wasn't strong enough
both sides of me have met

hold me down
dont let me fly
its all the same
once i close my eyes

the harmless criminal
of paradise

addiction
an unimportant footnote
failure drips
down the back of my throat

the dangerous savior
of this wasteland

clean white relief
stings with a comforting voice
tranquil now
with the undecided choise

the harmless ciminal
of paradise

BYE I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

i'll be home sooooon.

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i'm leaving on wednesday for 9 weeks so y'all better write.

mazie shore
camp nokomis
via US mailboat
laconia nh, 03246

it's all gonna work out.
thanks for listening.

ah. i feel so overwhelmed.
i dont know what to do

hmmm.
everythings coming back to me now.
feelings from months ago, even years ago.
i was just faking it before. pretending not to feel.
but i'm back now.
and so is everything i pushed out.
i'm glad.
i had no idea what i was missing.