So this weekend was alright.. pretty much found out i have no chance to get in to northeastern.. oh well.. but if i do get in housing isnt gaurenteed so my parents said if i do get in they would get me my own apartment.. so that would be fucking AWESOME.. so i really hope that they accept me and dont have a room for me cause then i would be the ( Read more... )

im sick of trying and failing.. there is a saying that it never hurts to try.. but that is fucking false because if you never succeed then it hurts more then ever.. its like getting rejected over and over again.. im done with that.. if some one wants to talk to me.. talk to me but im not going to make the effort anymore ( Read more... )

its funny how things work out ya know.. things just tend to unroll and when you think something good is going to happens something unexpected comes up and kinda kicks you in the throte.. i have been having a hard time colping with my situation.. and for some reason there is something everywhere i look that kinda puts me right back to square one.. ( Read more... )

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW I FUCKING SUCK I FUCKED IT UP AGAIN AHHHH GOD FUCKING DAMN IT.. SOME ONE KILL ME.. WHY WHENI HAVE SOMETHING IN MY GRASP I FUCK IT UP.. THATS IT JUST KILL ME!!

I AM BOYCOTTING!! FUCK YOU!! AND YOUR FAKE ASS REUNITING!! WHEN YOU REUNITE YOU DONT BRING NEW PEOPLE IN!!

MY PLACE IS TAKEN BY SOME ONE ELSE..SO I HAVE NO REASON TO GO!

its funny how something that is so insignificant in life can have such a huge impact on it!! it can make you happy and sad at the same time.. i dont know its just funny how things in life fuck with you.. CHANGE SUCKS ( Read more... )

what do you do in a situation that is this fragile? tell me!! NOW!!

im starting to get used to being left out.. which is sad cause i know people have to do there own thing and whatever and im doing mine.. i just miss being a part of something meaningful to me.. i dont like what has become of it but there is no point in fighting.. its a losing battle.. one day that spot will be filled but not by what i want.. my ( Read more... )

wow last night was fucking awesome.. it was soo random..i havent had that much fun with sasha since.......... ummm i dont know.. but it was fun.. first we went to see i heart huckabees wich was a really weird movies but totally worth seeing because mark walburg is fucking awesome and the movie i dont think made any sense so i might have to see it ( Read more... )

SHOW SOME FUCKING EMOTION!!! YOU ARE SOO FUCKING CONFUSING.. YOU SAY ONETHING THEN YOU ACT LIKE ANOTHER.. WHATEVER.. YOU ARE GOING TO DO WHAT YOU WANT.. AND I AM GOING TO DO WHAT I WANT.. I HOPE YOU AND DOUCHE BAG HAVE FUN TOGETHER BYE!