I just read some of my old entries and I used to be really emo... I'm not like that anymore lol ...at all :D  I kind of have an idea where my life is gonna go and I got over the fact that I'm in debt. I actually pay my bills now lol. Now I'm just kinda waiting around for what's next and I have no problem with that :)

For once in a very long time; I can honestly say I am happy.

I don't remember how to love someone.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm being to harsh or mean by not talking to him but what he did was really stupid. I guess I don't really have anyone to give me advice in this situation because I don't know anyone else that has been through it. It really sucks to lose a friend and to see mutual friends in the middle. I feel bad that things turned out this ( Read more... )

I am just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, Love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, and I don't know why

Slow it down, Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
Cause it's too much, ya it's a lot
To be something I'm not
I'm a fool, out of love
cause i just can't get enough

I am just a little bit caught in ( Read more... )

Have you ever wanted to ask a question but were too afraid of the answer, even if you don't even know?

I'm seriously looking into moving away after graduation this year. Not too far, I'm thinking Syracuse or something but I have to get out of here. I need to be on my own and get away from my past. I'm moving on from the life I have here. I'm kind of excited =)

So life has been hectic lately. I've been pretty busy with work and getting ready for school which is exciting but I'm really sad that I'm moving out of my apartment =[ I love it here but I was stupid and ran up my credit card bills so now I have to move in with my parents and pay it off. I'm hoping to only be there for 6 months and then hopefully ( Read more... )

Today I realized how many times I've sat at BK staring out the drive thru window wondering about life. It's really peaceful especially at night to just watch the traffic go by and forget about everything. I guess you wouldn't understand unless you've done so yourself. That's just one of the memories I will never forget.

So I need new living arrangements. This apartment is getting too expensive and when my lease is up I think I'm going to move. I don't know where yet tho.. I've been looking around tho so we will see. Originally I was just going to move back in with my parents but they are being lame about it. ugh. Oh well, I'll figure something out.