i realized.

[mckairo]

christmas eve was terrible

i'd rather not do anything and be left alone the rest of break. no one is going to listen or care anyway, please. no sympathetic posts about thats not true I would, because you didnt, I spent Christmas Eve dinner alone so save the bullshit

goodbye

Comments

[anonymous]

I doubt you will actually not do anything the rest of your break. You claim no one is going to listen to or care about your problems but when you don't share them no one can fucking listen. Many people spent Christmas eve dinner alone, you're not the only fucking one on earth. Millions of people had horrible Christmas Eve's and don't say you don't want sympathy if you fucking post about it in a livejournal. And I know your reply to this post is going to be something along the lines of "yeah why don't you admit who you are and not post under anonymous" if you reply at all but truthfully I don't feel like being bitched out by you for telling you how I feel. Deal with it.

you're.

[mckairo]

you're a stronger person than I. I don't tell people my problems because of people like you. You actually made me feel like even more shit than I did before, which is kind of awful. I don't want sympathy I just want someone to care and someone to show me love. When I'm hurt I want someone to console me like any human being would. I would let the person know afterwards what happened.

The thing that makes me upset is unless you actually have gone through this, which i don't know if you did, you do not know what the feeling is like. Maybe you went through this and you would be a stronger person than I, but, for the most part, i've never been so hurt in my life by one thing. I felt like my parents are the last thing i had to love or be loved by and i don't have that anymore.

Call it sympathy, call it being a bitch, but i'm hurt. And if you can't show some fucking compassion that I am, don't post at all and just leave me the fuck alone.