SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN LIVN INXS KNUCKLE TATS

Life is weird when you are on painkillers for weeks straight

sex drugs and rock and roll

you can't go home again, instead you can watch yourself be replaced. rva 2012

-I am (hopefully) going to become an aunt this August. To a little boy. Named Andrew. whom I will call Ender (I've never called his father by his first name either.) I will start on his Magrudergrind onesies and his first pair of asics IMMEDIATELY. And I will give Nayla the quilt I made in girl scouts years ago. And try to learn a few words of ( Read more... )

-so sick, too broke and forgetful for medicine. I borrowed money to get bandage a stuff but blanked on bringing an ID so I couldn't buy cough syrup ( Read more... )

Epic New Years, acting like time hadn't passed with people. I cannot wait to review this year and hate that it will probably done on my blackberry as I take the train home. 2011 has kept me on my toes so far in such a good way.

-Lots of little things are going wrong
-I wish I could forget the fun I had in the last month in DC.
-I'm the least financially stable as I've been ever. I blame this entirely on Cakelove.
-I know full well that of the $40 I have to last me 2 weeks, $15 is going towards shows.

-I need a job/a schedule again/a bike/to shake off this agoraphobia.

-It's a bummer that the more affectionate a partner is to me the more nerve-wracked I feel.
-I've whiled away 2 weeks staying in MD on a couch in my parents basement.

Why am I trying to stick around when I'm so unhappy here?

So fucking tired, so fucking bummed. It's high school all over again but less homework and more drama.