ive been pretty good friends with a certain person for a long time...hell we even dated for three years on and off. weve been through so much together...and it wasnt my decision to remain friends...it was his...which is great...i enjoy our friendship...and recently it has allowed me to become close to someone i lost touch with over time...this ( Read more... )

ive been battling myself all day. fighting myself on the inside. there have been so many times where i just want to die. i really just want to crawl into a coffin and kill myself. theres no purpose for me anymore. i have no path in life. im confused about everything. im completely broke. my mother resents the fact that i was born. shes cruel and ( Read more... )

i didnt really see it coming...ive become so depressed i cant even fake it to myself anymore...and the weird thing is that i dont have a clue as to why...the only reason why its really bothering me the most right now is because im being so mean and nasty to the person i admire the most...the person i love the most in the world....im always snapping ( Read more... )

god im so bored. ive been trying to get onto myspace....because honestly ive become a myspace whore...but my computer will not allow me to get onto the website for some reason and it is really bothering me. if it wasnt so un-busy at work i wouldnt have the time of day to even try to sit at a computer and go through all these websites and update ( Read more... )

i guess anything i say that i find funny offends everyone...but i really could care less at this point in my life...and i also feel that i do not have to explain myself to anyone ( Read more... )

alot of them youngins are goin off to college for their first time. its pretty funny seeing all these good bye away messages...like that was me a year ago. wow. it feels alot longer ago ( Read more... )

not much has happened since my last update. i went out to dinner with ashley....and let me tell you...its like we were never not friends...we had that instant connection...i also told her alot of things...some things that i asked her not to tell erin...but of course they didnt remain between me and her....and of course erin cant keep her mouth shut ( Read more... )

yesterday i had some sort of break down. i came home from work completely exhausted to find my little brother in my room on my bed watching my tv with his toys and CRAP all over my floor and side table...not to mention i just cleaned my room the day before. everyone in my house has heard me express my frustrations on people in my room...a number of ( Read more... )

so the other night i called my friend rachel from h-ville and we made plans for me to come to a party our friend julia was having on saturday...i was sooooooooooo excited and no matter what i was going to go. so i went. and i have to tell you it was the best night of my summer. i could be saying that just because everything that has happened to me ( Read more... )

i know its update after update after update...i just wanted to let everyone know he's ok....hes out of the hospital. i spoke on the phone with him last night...the last thing he remembers is me giving him the tissue...but very faintly...and he said he like woke up in the ambulance and had no idea where he was...noone in the hospital would tell him ( Read more... )