i am officially divorced. i had to testify on the stand. i cried...i cried because i tried so hard to make it work and noel never tried at all. and now eight years are gone. and i feel relieved.

*sigh*
i can make it through this next year. i know i can, but god damn it i am emotionally depleated. i guess i'll start packing this weekend. i can't believe i have to move back home.

noel's contesting all financial things regarding the children. i'm stressed to the max. i never thought noel would do this to his kids.

i am poorer than i've ever been. i'm going to have to sell my house and move back in with my gramma. she really needs someone there anyway, but i'm not looking forward to it. i'm so not where i want to be at the age of 26, but right now, this very minute, i'm happier then i've been in ten years. my kids are healthy & happy, i'm going back to ( Read more... )

oh, i feel as if i should post eight billion things, but i won't. instead i'll post about how weird it is for me to be in the aesthetic business. while, i enjoy things that are easy on the eyes, i actually think less of people who busy themselves with outward appearances. you know what? i think i'm gonna go with my original idea and not post ( Read more... )

my cousin Lesley is doing her training at mario tricocci's on the plaza and for the next two weeks will be doing free facials. she needs test subjects and wants you to call her. 913-593-9213. make an appointment! i just got a $110 facial for free.

so i've been sleeping with this guy for the last two weeks. he's handsome, funny, and affectionate. the only problem is that he's three feet tall and his name is aidan mcdermott field. i don't know what his deal is, but i haven't had a good night's sleep in FOREVER. our routine hasn't changed. bath, read, talk about our day and then he goes to ( Read more... )

grrrrr...i can not wait for my divorce to be final. i don't understand people who willingly have children and don't enjoy them. i'm so angry at noel for not taking more of an interest in aidan and neena. aidan was a wild unruly boy last week, but after spending two days with noel he was totally calm. BOYS NEED TO SPEND TIME WITH THEIR DADS! i' ( Read more... )

cliches are boring because they're true ( Read more... )

oh my fucking god! did you bitches know that rick rubin just produced a neil diamond record? somebody burn that shit and send it my way. ok, maybe this one's just for bradshaw.