I want to write! Not here of course, no of course not. I want to be inspired everything I used to enjoy is so lackluster now. It seems like all I talk about is how great everything is going to be, someday. Things are great now though. They always have been and I know that. I feel jittery now, maybe it's lack of sleep but I think I'll continue this ( Read more... )

Maybe I'm sour because nothing has changed at all, well I mean things changed to make me bitter but that ws long ago and nothings gotten better. I'll see you around.

I wish I could tell you what I've been up to, I've mostly just been reading and spending nights with Lance. I'm also a huge fan of wrock again.

I was standing in the back of the church looking out at the lake and down the hill at the wildflowers, a slight breeze ruffled the tops of trees the smoke of cigarettes passed in front of my eyes and we stood in a row. I realize something today, that is what it will be like for the rest of my days, listening to Mingus and Tijuana Moods and drawing ( Read more... )

Oh I supposes there is really nothing to say. I feel so unconnected with everyone and everything going on around me. Maybe I'm just dull. I suppose that's how it is though.

Overpass on top of city slum ( Read more... )

I'm home ( Read more... )

Double grounding?
I suppose I'll be in all summer then, yes right.
I suppose I'll no longer see Lance then, yes right.
I suppose nothing will change and I'll get work done and not be a waste of life park rat, yes right.
I suppose I'll start voulenteering, yes right.
That's really all.

So despite the fact that I got in trouble I have been going out. I don't think my mother really cares that much. Maybe she does and I just can't tell. Lance and Alex and I sat under some truck on Mohawk ave. yesterday to keep out of the rain. I finished The Subterraneans(again) and I always hate the ending. I was so hopeful that he would realize ( Read more... )

You say you want to have all of us hang out but you never call and ask. It's okay though I guess I understand.