It would be interesting, but I'd be afraid of severely fucking up their life in that one or two days, and then leaving them to deal with it when we went back to being ourselves.
Ev, I wish there was a way for me to help you, because I think you are a worthwhile person. From the time I've spent interacting with you online, I think you are smart, loyal, empathetic, and very funny. I know that depression isn't something you just snap out of, and I know how incredibly difficult it is to see an answer when your brain is like that.
Could you find a doctor or therapist willing to work with you on a sliding scale? Do you have any insurance through your job? Is there a free clinic or free ER you could use? There is a safety net out there, but it's really more of a life preserver than a net, and you've got to grab it yourself. It's ridiculously hard to do when you're depressed, but no one else can do it for you. I hope you can.
Thanks Jenn. I appreciate the kind words, I really do.
But, quite frankly. I think I've reached a point where no amount of therapy can help. Not yet. Some of that other post was just me being tired, I swear. Some of it was brutally honest.
No matter what I'll find a way to deal with it some how. After all, I can't kill myself and I can't live like this. So it's my only option
Respectfully, I reject the idea that there is a point where therapy can not help. Actually, what helped me wasn't therapy, it was someone I knew committing suicide, and I realized what it does to the people who are left behind, and I knew I couldn't do that to the people I loved.
zTherapy won't help me right now cause I'll reject it. I have a strangely rebel nature like that at times.
When I get a doctor again I need to look into getting back on a med to get my shit under control. It's a shame that I was trying to do that when I lost my job at CnS and let insurance fuck me over like that.
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Could you find a doctor or therapist willing to work with you on a sliding scale? Do you have any insurance through your job? Is there a free clinic or free ER you could use? There is a safety net out there, but it's really more of a life preserver than a net, and you've got to grab it yourself. It's ridiculously hard to do when you're depressed, but no one else can do it for you. I hope you can.
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But, quite frankly. I think I've reached a point where no amount of therapy can help. Not yet. Some of that other post was just me being tired, I swear. Some of it was brutally honest.
No matter what I'll find a way to deal with it some how. After all, I can't kill myself and I can't live like this. So it's my only option
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Then I got therapy, and shiny drugs.
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When I get a doctor again I need to look into getting back on a med to get my shit under control. It's a shame that I was trying to do that when I lost my job at CnS and let insurance fuck me over like that.
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