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[me2fat2gradu8]

I finally worked up the courage to bring my fried laptop into the repair shop today. All I really cared about was getting my documents back. My entire college life was preserved on that thing. Resumes, stories, essays (including the one I wanted to use for grad school submission), poetry, some sketchy, rambling journal entries. All my thoughts that

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[fenrirsragnarok]

Today was a really rough day to start with, and I've been on the verge of tears since I woke up. But when I read this I honest to goodness started crying. I never record anything but the meanest, darkest, angstiest thoughts -- the lowest of the lows and some of the worst moments of my life. I need to write down the good things, because if my memory is left to its own devices it will overpower those beautiful moments with terrible ones.

[me2fat2gradu8]

I hope you're okay. Yeah, it's so hard to catch happy moments, because you're usually just too busy living them. It's the horrible times when you're sick with despair that you reflect endlessly about how you got there and where you're going. I think I am probably going to be doing that a lot for the rest of this year.

[smashlampjaw]

Over the past year I've destroyed a lot of things that I thought I'd want to keep forever. I threw out everything in my desk at home from my middle school/high school career (most of them notes from friends and so on), and I plan on burning some of my old journals when I'm done with college. What I'm saying is, I agree that it can be cathartic, although if there were important essays on there that's nothing more than annoying, and I'm sorry about that. :/

Also: I don't think I know anyone who keeps a journal when they're happy.

[me2fat2gradu8]

Yeah, I don't think I would ever be able to keep a lengthy, consistent journal if I'm happy, or even busy and satisfied. I just want to try to write down small moments that make me happy. Things that people said that made me laugh. Weird shit that happened. You know. Little stuff.